>>147935>i've thought about just blowing my head out once i graduate college
What are you graduating for if you're just gonna die anyways?
Idk about you but I fuckinf hate academics, the work and the people involved in it. Why put up with this shit if you can't reap the benefits? >remember feeling like i was destined for suicide since i was in middle school.
Holy fucking shit, same.
I never felt like I was actually gonna make it. And I remember being at my darkest and thinking to myself "I knew I wasn't gonna make it, this is just how I end and I've known it for a while, I can't picture another ending".
Idk. Its hard to explain my precise thoughts on it, that doesn't really capture it. >all of us were brought into this world without consent
Preach. Every time I'm reborn I feel like my soul has been raped. >>147952
The infinite nature of the universe scares me a little and it makes me want to die because I don't want to be apart of this. Its too much for me.
I never felt like I had a purpose to live. Even when I was little. I never felt like I was living because I loved life or because I had a purpose but more like I was shoved here so anything I did in life was just to make the time here more bearable. Distractions.
I feel like I've got more to cling to now but even still when I think about it suicide is tempting because I just don't want to be apart of this. If I could undo my whole life and have never been born I'd do it in a heartbeat. >>147958>Rather than just getting drugged by woke doctors who're buried in 300k of medical school debt. We're living in some sick times.
Meds are a big fat money making scam and it shifts the blame off of the sick world we live in which causes mental stress and instead tells people theyre the dysfunctional ones for not being a perfect cog in a machine. Yeah it is sick.
Religion, is a little better, not by much though. Just like meds it sells people artificial happiness, lies, and abuses its power to exploit people, sometimes for money.