Jadedness Anonymous 65073
How does one escape jadedness? I have had a somewhat rough life, filled with pedophilia, rape, and a cult-like upbringing. My current boyfriend thinks I'm super jaded and wishes I weren't because it affects our relationship (I struggle with trust issues). But all I really know is evil, it feels, particularly in the form of actions that tend to be most perpetuated by men.
I understand reality is shitty, but I also understand that doesn't mean I have to let that fact make me feel terrible all the time. I mean, not even all of reality is a negative experience, it just tends to be negative for me, and likely/partly because of my choices.
I was wondering how the rest of you deal with jadedness. It looks like I'm just a bitter hag.
Anonymous 65089
>>65080
Not OP but doesn't that finally destroy you?
Anonymous 65091
>>65089No. It makes you. Experience should be taken any day over knowledge. Just remember to enjoy yourself, and not put away what makes you happy.
Anonymous 65101
>>65080
I'm OP and I feel like I've done this. I haven't gotten over it. I hate how the world is. What I see on the internet and offline is more similar than dissimilar, by which I mean, you hear any gaggle of men talking and it's similar to /b/, at least where I'm from. Even though my boyfriend hasn't betrayed me significantly or done things to me other men have done, I can't seem to switch off that suspicion, try as I might. It seems like the game is to win my trust so then it can be exploited.
I don't even care if I get raped or beaten. I want pure fully disclosed honesty.
