im not sure if i should just stay neet until i start college in 5 months or still try my hardest to get a job. im just so anxious after what just happened…i wanted to try to go in tomorrow and apologize but i know ill just feel worse. its not the type of job i feel i could push myself to stick it out with.
i dont NEED to work right now but savings are low for myself and i feel bad that my bf supports me even if he offers to do if. and if i dont work between now and college obviously id work come fall or around then/related career…god its just terrible abd confusing i keep ruminating and i havent slept for almost 2 days so my emotions are unbalanced im sorry anons.
just dont want to be a failure. i want to learn from this and shape a new path. college is a definite for me. as for work until a real career? not sure. so many paths and types of jobs i could do.