i grew up in a gated area all of my life and i guess just walking alone hearing about all of the trafficking and stuff that can happen heightens my anxiety. my mother also spammed my phone saying id get raped when i asked her if itd be okay to walk without my boyfriend…
that being said ive walked alone a couple of times here and nothing happened and i usually see other people on the trail walking or biking when the weather is nice. maybe i can invest in pepper spray and try it again soon because it really does help to clear my mind and spring is coming. i fucking hate being sheltered and if im not going to work anytime soon and my classes will be online in fall i need to get out. im also trying to get my license but i just need more practice and time. and i can just use one earphone and be cautious when walking i guess.
i really wish i could go to a campus but i dont want to lose all of my credits from my old state. im gonna try walking and getting a bike soon and maybe take up gardening and a cheap outdoor hobby which may help. there is also a crochet club near me (a bunch of older ladies) and i may look into it if im not too anxious.