Belt.jpg Self harm general Anonymous 11/21/17 (Tue) 05:50:46 PM 11340
Anyone else self harm(ed)?
>Why >How >Advice >Have you ever been caught? >Do you want to be caught? >Do you try to leave scars? Anonymous 11/21/17 (Tue) 05:57:02 PM 11341 >>11340
>Stress relief, the pain takes my mind off of things >I used to cut my arms, bleeding feels nice, but I was too scared of seriously hurting myself to go for my wrists. The bleeding felt nice, but I got too worried of somebody seeing my scars so I stopped. These days I use my trusty leather belt to either flagellate or choke myself. >If you're feeling tempted to eat between meals, the pain and thrill of SH will release adrenaline, stopping your hunger >Once my mother was suspicious of my arms, I pulled away though and she didn't pursue it further >No, if somebody understood and didn't freak out at me doing it I wouldn't mind them being in the know though >Nope, scars are rarely aesthetic and interfere with your lifestyle Anonymous 11/21/17 (Tue) 06:56:40 PM 11342 >>11341 >If you're feeling tempted to eat between meals, the pain and thrill of SH will release adrenaline, stopping your hunger
WTF?? Don't give this kind of "advice", it's fucking dangerous in so many levels aaaaaaaghh
I am all for venting and bonding over bad things like SH, but saying shit like that is downright irresponsible.
Anonymous 11/21/17 (Tue) 07:04:26 PM 11343 >>11342
Well obviously you need some proper lifestyle changes if you're anorexic of extremely underweight but this is just in terms of staying slim for those who care about that.
Anonymous 11/21/17 (Tue) 07:31:48 PM 11344 >>11343
Using a negative coping mechanism to further unhealthy behaviors is what that anon is warning against. You shouldn't say that SH is helpful for "staying slim" as if it is a solution for someone's body or food issues.
Anonymous 11/21/17 (Tue) 07:53:13 PM 11346 >>11344
It's not a coping mechanism, it's biology. And how is having some discipline when you eat an "unhealthy behaviour?" I already said you shouldn't starve yourself, and I'm not advocating for letting your arteries flow all over the place either. You can't just declare something "unhealthy" like this, it further shames people who like it and increases their risk.
Anonymous 11/21/17 (Tue) 08:54:30 PM 11347 >>11346
Self-harm is unhealthy behavior though anon. How are you trying to justify that? Yes, associating eating when you shouldn't with a negative reinforcement can work but don't sit there actually harm yourself.
As someone that self-harmed for years I have very little pity for anyone who does and glorifies it. You're not respecting your body and you don't realize the pain you put your loved ones through. Admit you have a problem, yes, then go get some help when you're ready to accept it.
Anonymous 11/21/17 (Tue) 09:45:17 PM 11348 >>11347
Are you even reading what I'm saying?
>Yes, associating eating when you shouldn't with a negative reinforcement can work
Adrenaline is a hormone that halts your digestive system, there is no "negative reinforcement," it's just knowing how to use your body to your advantage. I'm not malnourished, and our ancestors were probably filled with it after doing hard tasks all day until meal time.
>I have very little pity for anyone who does and glorifies it
I didn't asks for your pity. Also, I'm not "glorifying" anything, I just wanted to talk about this topic. Do you see me encouraging people to go and cover their skin in ugly gashes?
>You're not respecting your body
I decide what is and what isn't respect for my body
>You don't realize the pain you put your loved ones through
They don't know anything about it and they don't like me anyway
>Admit you have a problem
I appreciate your concern but this is just like telling somebody who drinks coffee to help them feel awake or has a drink when with friends to relax that they "have a problem." Yeah just like with those two examples you can do it wrong or too much, but the principle is the same.
Anonymous 11/21/17 (Tue) 10:25:49 PM 11349 >>11348
How can you be so dense? If you are hungry, you have to eat. You can't starve yourself just because you wanna be thinner, that's unhealthy, period.
If you feel hungry between meals, you're either not eating enough/properly in those meals or you need the extra energy. The thing is, you just gotta learn how to pick your snacks properly. You could try eating fruit, baby carrots, seeds, etc.
Saying "Just self harm cause the adrenaline takes the hunger away away!!1!!" is stupid and dangerous. It creates a bad habit (self harming, which you yourlsef admited it was bad), it creates the idea in your mind that you should punish yourself for being hungry, which is literally just a natural thing and it can develop serious ED thoughts on someone (if said person has the inclinations for such), and it's bad for one's body if the person is actually hungry.
Comparing it to drinking coffee is just stupid also, and btw, if someones drinks a fucking huge amount of coffee instead of sleeping as well and damage their bodies for it and try to pass it as an ~body hack to stay awake!1~ you bet your ass I'm gonna call them on it.
Yeah, no. Not anymore, at least. I actually lost 30kg and it wasn't by self harming to discipline myself. We can actually have
discipline with no need to harm our bodies and mental health in the process.
Anonymous 11/21/17 (Tue) 10:41:09 PM 11350 >>11349
You're making wild assumptions here, Anon. I don't have a problem with fat people (it's their choice to live that lifestyle), I'd sympathise with someone with sleep problems (also I stated "just like with those two examples you can do it wrong or too much"), and I have a healthy body weight and lifestyle (just under 18 BMI).
I just wanted to see if anyone else engaged in this thrill that certainly isn't for everyone. If there's a thread allowed about people filling their bodies with all kinds of nasty chemicals for the raw pleasure of it and the sake of "finding out about themselves" (drugs thread) then I don't see why a thread about unconventional stress relief is so abhorrent. I'd post more, but it'd be pointless, and we're probably going to attract mods at this rate, which is why I'm going to stop responding to you and advise you do something other than derailing threads because they trigger you.
Congratulations on your weight loss though!
Anonymous 11/22/17 (Wed) 04:03:30 AM 11351 >>11350
Under 18 isn't a healthy BMI. Why are nusto anachans always so in denial?
Anonymous 11/22/17 (Wed) 04:31:18 AM 11352 >>11351
Because most of them have shitty flabby non muscle toned bodies at BMIs over 20 so they pretend being underweight is normal.
Anonymous 11/22/17 (Wed) 04:35:33 AM 11353 >Why I don't like myself nor my body. I've dealt with depression, fatigue, and chronic pain for almost a decade now. I don't see a reason to treat my body well >How I heavily restrict my eating. when I get particularly upset i'll try choking myself or hitting myself in the head. Sometimes I cut my knees. >Advice Do it if it helps you I guess >Have you ever been caught? Yes, but everyone thinks I've stopped. >Do you want to be caught? No >Do you try to leave scars? No, otherwise I'd be caught Anonymous 11/22/17 (Wed) 12:18:39 PM 11355 >Why It's just a coping mechanism. A terrible one, but a coping mechanism anyway. But most of the time I do it because I feel like I "deserve" the pain, not for the rush. >How I used to cut when I was growing up, and did it for like 7 or 8 years. Nowadays I tend to use a scarf or belt and choke myself. >Advice Don't rely on SH as a coping mechanism. You're only hurting yourself even more. I know it's ironic that I'm saying this, but I don't think SH is good if it's your first and main coping mechanism. It used to be mine when I was younger. I remember going to schools restroom only to cut. I carried a blade with me all the time. That wasn't healthy at all, so I decided I needed to stop. Nowadays I only SH when I really see no other choice. >Have you ever been caught? No >Do you want to be caught? Nope >Do you try to leave scars? I have many, but they're not very visible anymore since they're old. I never tried to leave any on purpose though. Anonymous 11/22/17 (Wed) 12:23:28 PM 11356 >>11355
Also I'm in the anon from the mental health thread who asked if anyone there still self harmed in their 20s. Thank you whoever made this thread, especially if it was the anon who replied to me (ty <3). I know most posts are off topic and discussing BMI and all, but I'm happy we have a thread to discuss SH and if other people around my age still do it too. I feel like such a freak. I wish I didn't self harm anymore and I really wish I could stop for good.
Anonymous 11/23/17 (Thu) 03:49:30 PM 11357 >it makes everything quiet when things get too noisy in my head >i cut, scratch, pull my hair, bite myself, punch and dig my nails into my skin but the cuts are the worst i suppose >i don't really have advice on self-harm but i hope you're okay >yes >no but it happens because i live in a smol house w a lot of people >tbh i like how the scars look but i don't intentionally try to get 'em. how deep/hard i hurt myself depends on how bad my episode is Anonymous 11/23/17 (Thu) 08:24:46 PM 11358 >>11355
Reading this just fucked me up a bit. Long story but basically I was a violent kid and attempted at one point to choke a friend of mine, for a year or two after I would regularly choke myself to show myself how bad what I was trying to do her really was, and also to 'punish' myself for it (I felt very guilty at the time and even after 10+ years and us becoming friends ago a short while after, I still felt guilty even through anger management and being told by multiple friends that 'oh thats not
bad'). I still do it sometimes, maybe a month ago or so was the last time.I never really thought of it as self harm, but it guess it is. fuck…
Anonymous 11/24/17 (Fri) 03:22:11 PM 11359
I used to self harm.
>Why There were lots of bad things going on in my life. I couldn't cope with that. >How I used to cut my arm and leg or hit myself. >Advice It's hard to give advice because everybodys situation is different. What helped me was to get away from toxic people. Understanding that I was not just sad but also angry helped too. It's ok to be a bit angry sometimes. It doesn't make you a bad person. Keeping anger inside all the time is not healthy. >Have you ever been caught? Yes, my mom made me go to therapy. It didn't help at all. >Do you want to be caught? I never wanted to be caught but wearing long sleeves in summer was drawing attention to the issue. >Do you try to leave scars? I never wanted to. My scars bother me even though they are all white now. Anonymous 08/03/18 (Fri) 10:58:23 PM 11360 >why it was a weird way to try and show to my best friend that she wasnt alone at first and then it came to be an addiction >how razorblades, then later pencil sharpeners >advice dont do it >have you ever been caught by my friend only >do you want to be caught yes, by someone dear to me >do you try to leave scars not really no sometimes it is very bad though because i bite the wounds i dream about my boyfriend finding out and then helping me to stop but im so ashamed Anonymous 08/04/18 (Sat) 07:13:29 AM 11361
Only in context of dermatillomania. But that's a lot. Every day. It feels so good.
Anonymous 08/04/18 (Sat) 04:09:05 PM 11362 >Why I was a depressed 17 year old who got hit with a mental illness-lite hammer and it was the only thing that really "helped". It soothed me in a way that nothing else could at the time. >How I used some sharp edge and cut into my inner wrists, rarely on top of my forearms, some shoulders (they're gone now) and a bit in my inner thigh. >Advice Please don't. I hate looking at my scars because it broadcasts to everyone that I have/had problems. I don't like vulnerability, but it's something that I'm accepting as a part of me (the scars) >Have you ever been caught? Not in the act directly, but yes, my parents noticed I was hiding my wrists and demanded to show them. >Do you want to be caught? Did I, is more the question. Yes and no. Yes because I needed help, and I feel like I did get it, but not the precise kind I needed. I probably would have benefited so much from early DBT and/or CBT. No because it was terribly embarrassing to me that I had to do this to soothe myself. Why couldn't I do what everyone else did to soothe themselves? Why did I have to hurt myself to feel normal again? >Do you try to leave scars? That is something that did not occur to me. I just cut deeper as time progressed and I needed to quiet the pain. Anonymous 08/04/18 (Sat) 07:58:30 PM 11363 >Why for fun really (and I don't anymore), I liked to see blood and scars were like tattoos >How with a razorblade on my thighs and arms. I did patterns like hearts and stars. No deep cuts because pain was a no no >Advice don't >Have you ever been caught? my mom saw my heart scar on my thigh and lectured me but wasn't mad because I didn't do it seriously >Do you want to be caught? I didn't care because it's not like I did it because I had issues >Do you try to leave scars? I did. Only reason I used to. Tho now I only have one scar left which is the heart on my thigh
Anonymous 08/04/18 (Sat) 08:28:55 PM 11364
tumblr_ojbou2Q9Zf1… >Why When I was young it was to deal with my conflicting feelings regarding my abuser because I had to see him get sexually aroused by other stuff and that really disturbed me. most of my cutting as a young un' was because of that. I also cut myself before I told my parents what I went through. Their response ironically made me cut myself way more and be suicidal. Moral of story: do not tell parents you are being abused by a family member. Now: I get in these outbursts where I don't want to harm anyone else so I harm myself. I internally blow up at the slightest thing that threatens my perceived worth, so cutting helps. I'm pretty sure I have BPD because of how quickly I can feel threatened or insulted, and because of how ridiculous and overblown my response is. >How I started out with a knife, now I use scissors, kek. I've thought of using cigarette butts and razors, but razors cuts bother me, I don't like how there's only pain afterwards when it's the pain during the cutting which is helpful. >Advice think your most intense, pent up thoughts while you do it and you get the most bang for your slice. don't start. get mental help before you start cutting. there are far less shameful ways of dealing with pain, imo. though granted, most other ways involve calorie intake. fuck. >Have you ever been caught? when I first started years ago >Do you want to be caught? No, shit's embarrassing as fuck >Do you try to leave scars? No. It's weird how places scar differently than others, though. When I first started cutting on the insides of my arms, that left scars that have been there for 9+ years. I currently cut the fuck up out of my waist/stomach area and it is definitely deeper than how I cut on my arms, but no scars. I'm glad, though, that it isn't permanent and that it fades. I just find it interesting. Anonymous 08/14/18 (Tue) 01:05:00 AM 11365 >Why In my teens, I thought it was some sorta sign of strength and validation of one's pain, like people who cut themselves were able to do so because they really suffered and they could handle physical pain. Then I just got caught up in it because I felt useless for only doing chicken scratches and had to go deeper to prove myself. I stopped around age 17 and have been falling back into it once every handful of years since then. I'm currently in one of these phases. >How Razorblade, blades ripped out of safety razors, currently utility knife >Advice Find a different outlet. It's not worth it and I'm embarrassed about it. >Have you ever been caught? Yes, in 7th or 8th grade, one of my classmates tattled to my teacher. The teacher took me out of class into the hallway and told me to show my arm, I showed my right arm, she told me to show the other and saw the cuts on that one. She then told me she'd call my mother if she ever saw it again. >Do you want to be caught? No, so I just stopped doing it on my arm and started cutting into my calves and later my thighs. >Do you try to leave scars? In a way, yes, because I don't feel like I succeeded unless it scars. On the other hand, I'm really embarrassed because I don't want to advertised that I'm damaged goods. So I do it in spots that are usually covered, but it's still embarrassing. Anonymous 08/14/18 (Tue) 01:45:02 AM 11366
This might honestly be better suited to /hb/ but idk.
>why I was working up my courage to slit my wrists. I felt like if I could convince myself to be mentally tough enough, the only thing I would have to worry about was physical pain. If I could inure myself to physical pain, there would be nothing stopping me from taking my own life. >how I used to use the razor blades from the cutting tools/pens in my art class. >advice don't. it doesn't do any good. it hurts just as much the first time as the 50th. >have you ever been caught once by a teacher and then by my parents. the teacher didn't do anything. and i told my parents they were 'cat scratches' from my neighbor's vicious feral cats until they became noticeable/deep enough that nobody believed that anymore. >do you want to be caught i probably wouldn't be alive if i hadn't gotten caught. >do you try to leave scars that wasn't the point but yes, it did leave scars. it's been over a decade since i stopped but they're still there, and people still notice, and i don't like the look on their faces when they do or the embarrassment of having to answer their questions or be pitied by them. to prevent this, i still wear long sleeved clothes and long skirts even in the middle of 100-degree weather. which also sucks. after i got found out then it also landed me in months of counseling, which was a waste of time, and on an anti-depressant which didn't honestly help, it just made me feel guilty for the amount of money i was costing and concern i was causing to my family. i never found out until about six months ago that my sister resented me for the past 11 years or so because she thought i was just faking a mental illness for attention. Anonymous 08/14/18 (Tue) 01:54:58 AM 11367 >>11351
Serious question: what risk is there to having a BMI just slightly below 18.5 in an of itself? The only thing that comes up when I look it up is that it could be an indication of nutritional deficiency. But if you have a diet that's rich in fruits and vegetables that runs slightly below your TDEE but meets all your micronutrient needs surely it's still healthy especially compared to a person who's at a 'healthy' BMI but sustains themselves on chips and soda.
Anonymous 08/14/18 (Tue) 06:32:05 AM 11396 >>11367
Not for person you replied but as with everything, it's multifactorial. BMI is just one indicator when trying to aim for healthy. Eating garbage and having a healthy BMI doesn't mean that the food isn't causing issues internally. So if you are a little underweight and assuming no health issues, physical or mental, and nutrion is good that might be ok. But if it isn't stable, then it may be cause for alarm.
Anonymous 08/14/18 (Tue) 06:48:01 AM 11397
I feel like a fake when it comes to self harm. I used to bite myself, beat myself with a wooden hairbrush, punched myself in the face, starved myself etc. but because I never actually cut so I don't feel like any of it counts. Is that normal?
I've gotten better mentally but I still pick at my skin so bad. I have terrible acne scars because of the picking, my back is red and sore and inflamed, and my legs have so many scabs on them right now.
Anonymous 08/15/18 (Wed) 07:43:16 PM 11493 >>11364
I relate to this.
I haven't cut for several years now but man is it addictive as hell. I was also sexually abused by a family member. Worse feelings in the world.
Anonymous 08/16/18 (Thu) 03:42:33 AM 11538 >Why Feels good >How I whack myself in the arms, legs, and gut with a wooden mallet or poke myself with pins >Advice Hmm… Not really >Have you ever been caught? No >Do you want to be caught? No >Do you try to leave scars? No Anonymous 08/16/18 (Thu) 04:43:22 AM 11539 >Why I am a mentally ill retard with a bad personality disorder and there's nothing else to it. When I feel intensely devastated or hopeless I have an urge to do it. >How As a teen the first thing I did was break lightbulbs in my hand and sit in the sting for a while. I also did this thing where I removed a lot of skin from my feet with a knife but it's hard to explain, I stopped because it hurt to walk in school after one really bad night of it. As an adult I've only cut with a knife which is not something I did as a teen. >Advice Do your thing. I guess don't glamorize it but that goes for all mental health stuff. Be prepared for the possible social consequences of it. >Have you ever been caught? About a few months ago yeah, by a few coworkers. >Do you want to be caught? Yes, that sounds bad but yes. Honestly I craved someone to see it and comfort me. >Do you try to leave scars? No.
Anonymous 08/24/18 (Fri) 05:24:05 AM 11832
Spoilered self-harm cuts. I was dumb and did this. I know it's not that bad and looks worse than it is, but how do I hurry the healing process?
Anonymous 08/24/18 (Fri) 05:32:32 AM 11833 >>11832
Wash it with warm water and antibacterial soap. Put on an antibacterial ointment and some gauze-like bandaid. Do not touch unless it is to wash/change gauze.
Anonymous 08/24/18 (Fri) 09:18:15 AM 11841 >>11832 >That picking scar on the top
Anonymous 08/25/18 (Sat) 02:23:30 AM 11855 >>11833
Will do, I'm having trouble figuring out how to secure a large enough gauze over it
wow, I didn't even think about that before I posted, I'll try harder to stop
:/ I try not to, but when I get overcome with emotions, I'll suddenly do it without thinking. It feels very impulsive and strong in the moment, but before I get emotional or whatever, of course the idea seems stupid to me. I don't self-harm that often, it happens in bouts when I'm overcome with emotions that seem too large for my body. Thank you for your concern, I really will try not to.
Anonymous 08/26/18 (Sun) 04:06:56 PM 11919 >>11916 Ideal male fantasy. Anonymous 08/26/18 (Sun) 05:13:34 PM 11937 >>11928 The true art is to do your best and even strive for the improvement of other people DESPITE hating existence. Anonymous 08/26/18 (Sun) 06:16:27 PM 11949
I am so sorry for everything I have done
One day I will kill myself, hope that will be enough of a repentance Anonymous 08/26/18 (Sun) 09:21:03 PM 11957 >>11949
Do don't do that. :( No one wants you to do that.
Anonymous 08/27/18 (Mon) 07:18:28 AM 11982
DjFywdmUcAU3sYH.pn… >Why I liked the sharp pain it gave me, that surge of dopamine that came after it. I also liked seeing the aftermath of it andd all of the blood dripping from the wounds. Edgy, i know, don't have to mention it. It was also on impulse, or conditioned, whenever i felt super sad or anxious i would just do it, then feel really shitty afterwards even though those faint moments gave me release. >How i used sharp needles, plastic, glass, and razor blades. it was mostly done on my legs since that was easier to hide. i would cut over wounds multiple times if i ran out of area that wasn't hidable. i would cut so deep i could see the yellow of my fat. i have weird looking scars all around my legs that rise up. >Advice don't do it. >Have you ever been caught? yes, when i was younger i was wearing shorts and they slipped up and my family caught it, they forced me to go to a psych ward for about 2 weeks but it did nothing for me. i had to half-ass everything in order to get out. i still continued to do it though. now that i am older they don't know what to do, i've slipped up sometimes and they saw fresh cuts but they just say nothing now since i am an adult and can't be forced. >Do you want to be caught? yes, when i was younger i kinda wanted to be caught. because I was tired of doing and torturing myself like this. i was slowly killing myself doing it and just becoming more depressed but it didn't even make much of a difference when i did get help. i still feel like a shell. edgy again, i know. >Do you try to leave scars? i wanted to leave scars as a reminder of how pathetic i was, but now i regret it now that i am older. I hate looking at them and i hate it when i relapse and harm myself again. i honestly hate the fucking pressure and weight i put on my parents for being such a depressed being. my twin sister is so much more successful and meanwhile im still a hermit neet khhv hiding out in my room just playing computer games all day. i feel like i don't have the capability to go out and do stuff without having a panic attack or crying. Anonymous 08/28/18 (Tue) 02:23:42 AM 12014 >>11982
where is this pic from? i googled it but couldn't find it.
Anonymous 08/29/18 (Wed) 10:30:35 PM 12080 >>12014
it is from the persona 4 arena ultimax manga
Anonymous 09/03/18 (Mon) 12:12:38 AM 12303
amg.jpg >Why I'm numb and sometimes i want(ed) to feel something, i only go for it at my worst times, most times i did it (and do it) with the intent of dying at first, but i am too cowardly to just go for it, so i just make myself feel pain. >How Usually cutting not very deep nor very long with whatever object can hurt me. I've used scissors, tweezers, needles, soda tabs, etc, i don't have access to razors or any other stuff. I also like to pick on my skin very deeply. Oh, and i leave my nails long so i can scratch myself. I also usually pour alcohol on the fresh wounds to make them hurt more. >Advice Yeah, it's not worth it, try to let it out any other way, self harming, much like alcohol, is a temporary solution to a permanent problem. Keep your mind and hands occupied whenever you are at your worst, it's only temporary relief with permanent scars, both mentally and physically. Put on a movie, play a game, draw, paint your nails, talk to some bot like replika or a friend, make a puzzle, do anything that can make you ignore your brain for the period it's thinking the only solution is hurting yourself/killing yourself. Also try to keep all self harming objects away from you, no matter how mundane. >Have you ever been caught? Yeah, never doing it though, usually just say they are random scratches or whatever. >Do you want to be caught? Nah, i only want to get caught if i ever end it completely, so i don't decompose for days and shit. >Do you try to leave scars? I try to avoid them as much as possible. The picking ones are hard to not get/remove, so those are there, but yeah, i like it to not show them or have them.
Anonymous 10/11/18 (Thu) 05:15:02 PM 13979
x.jpg >why to numb my emotions >how cutting with sharps or scratching with water bottle cap (you'd be surprised with how much it can do) >advice not worth it. it's addicting >have you ever been caught? no. sometimes i'd show other people to sabotage my relationships when i was younger. bpd is a bitch >do you want to be caught? no. i'm always alone anyway. no one pays attention to me that much >do you try to leave scars when i have really intense feelings, i want to leave scars. i think because it serves as a constant reminder that i cannot be loved Anonymous 10/12/18 (Fri) 01:24:42 AM 13991 >Why I used to plan on eventually killing myself but now it just makes me feel better. After self harming it's like I have no anxiety or negative thoughts and I can just think clearly for a couple of hours. >How Mostly just cutting on my thighs with razor blades from disposable razors. I sometimes make myself vomit and I occasionally burn myself, but burning is more for the adrenaline rush. >Advice It's a bad and addictive coping mechanism and I don't recommend it. Starting was the worst mistake of my life and I will struggle every day for the rest of my life now because of it. Just don't do it >Have you ever been caught? No. I told someone I was close with about it once years ago, but they didn't believe me because I refused to show them my scars lol >Do you want to be caught? Not really. When I was younger I kinda wanted my parents to notice but I was also really afraid of the consequences, so I never gave them the opportunity. >Do you try to leave scars? No and I'm pretty ashamed of the scars that I do have. I never cut deep enough to leave raised scars, but I have these pinkish brownish lines all over my thighs and they're pretty noticeable. I hate them Anonymous 10/12/18 (Fri) 06:31:59 PM 14026 >Why I get really angry and upset when I can't do something right/I fuck up socially and I feel a need to punish myself >How I am scarred to leave scars so I punch myself in the arms/legs/stomach as hard as I can. I'm not strong enough to leave clear bruises >Advice Its not healthy and you shouldn't do it, but it helps me calm down and I can't stop >Have you ever been caught? no >Do you want to be caught? absolutely not >Do you try to leave scars? No, if I do I get caught and I don't want anyone to worry about me Anonymous 11/07/18 (Wed) 03:56:02 AM 15560 >Why I'm miserable and I hate my existence so much. Sometimes so overwhelmed like my mind is caving in, in those moments I need shocking pain and then to spend a bit of time in the shower. >How Used to have my ex beat me. I use a sharp razor on my forearms now. >Advice Shower is a good place if you start bleeding way more than expected. >Have you ever been caught? Nah. A girl at work saw and then just was afraid to speak to me for a day. >Do you want to be caught? I want my dad to notice and then feel concerned and ask me what's wrong and then fund a psychiatrist visit >Do you try to leave scars? No Anonymous 11/07/18 (Wed) 04:55:53 AM 15563 >>15560 >I want my dad to notice and then feel concerned and ask me what's wrong and then fund a psychiatrist visit >Do you try to leave scars? No
The lack of self-awareness is exceptional
Anonymous 11/07/18 (Wed) 04:57:16 AM 15565 >>15563
fresh red lines =/= scars
Anonymous 11/07/18 (Wed) 05:00:19 AM 15566 >>15565 >fresh red lines =/= scars
so you don't even, or barely break skin? does a drop of blood burst forth and you immediately waddle over to the shower and rinse it off? keep your story straight
Anonymous 11/07/18 (Wed) 05:13:23 AM 15567 >>15566
Any wound produced by a razor is a red line… a wound isn't a scar.
Scars can form whether someone
leave one or cuts without thinking about scars in mind. They weren't contradictory statements.
What are you trying to do here? Pwn the attention whore for personal intellectual points?
Anonymous 11/19/18 (Mon) 07:47:44 PM 16602
I did it once when I was like 13, I was going through a weemo stage at the time (wanted to be a scene gamer girl but didn't know how hence 'wannabe emo'). My friends at the time used to SH and they'd talk about it a lot despite claiming not to do it if you asked them. I did it to try and fit in with them but also for attention, don't know why but I thought I'd be like a tragic heroine and all the boys would want me. Nobody found out because I only did it once but I never talked about it with my friends probably because deep down I knew it was just for attention.
Anonymous 11/19/18 (Mon) 09:50:39 PM 16606
I self harm. Sometimes I feel so numb that cutting myself is the only thing That makes me feel alive. When I finish cutting myself I usually come out of my “episode” and immediately regret cutting. I have scars (that nobody seems to notice) I really wish somebody would notice and ask me if everything is okay but the one time somebody asked me if I was okay I pushed them away and yelled at them. On the inside I’m screaming for help but at this point it seems like I’m run on auto pilot.
Anonymous 01/25/19 (Fri) 09:35:55 AM 20664
cut my forehead (covered by bangs) and eyelids today. nothing tells me to do this. I choose to do it. I hate being such a wretched creature. I secretly hope that I'll be able to gain enough courage to slash my face up. It's an idiotic though, though, and I don't think I'd actually go through with it. I'm just so stupid.
Anonymous 01/25/19 (Fri) 03:45:40 PM 20688
does anyone else self harm by self sabotage or by destroying relationships and drug abuse?
i dont see enough spoken about about alternative ways that people self harm, especially wrt their relationships Anonymous 02/04/19 (Mon) 10:31:12 PM 21278 >>11340
Anyone else self harm(ed)?
Sometimes I feel very very sad and hurting myself replaces emotional pain with physical pain. Other times I do it to punish myself. On occasions I just lose control because something triggers me
Uhhh I started cutting my wrists, then after watching Fight Club (lol) I started punching myself. I also scratch my arms. When I feel sad. It's more painful than cutting because the next day it still hurts (forgot the exact word in english)
Uhhhh don't do it? Punch a pillow. Cry. Hug a pillow. Just don't do it it's kinda dumb but it helps me
>Have you ever been caught?
Yeah, last year I had an episode and cut too deep so my mom had to take me to the hospital and I got nine stitches. I have lots of scars but she doesn't care. I'm glad I don't have to live with her anymore since I turned 18
>Do you want to be caught?
By someone who cares? Yes. If I had someone I could trust I'd stop. But I don't think that's gonna happen anytime soon. It's not like I do it everyday, it's not a habit
>Do you try to leave scars?
Uhhh I guess?
Anonymous 02/14/19 (Thu) 01:26:49 AM 21643
p061vxcq.jpg >Why I'm scared all the time and feel like absolute shit. I do a lot of things that I don't really understand. I have told myself that I deserve it. Also turning psychological pain in real pain. >How I cut myself with the razors I took from shaving blade I broke. Used to do it on my right arm, not too deep but a lot of them. Now I do it on the shoulders and chest, easier to conceal. >Advice Don't. If you are really going to I can't stop you, I know that. Be careful with the strength you apply, things can get dangerous really easily. Clean the razors, an infection like that is not easy to explain. >Have you ever been caught? Yes, one time when I was a teen I burnt my skin with friction and a nail. First time I had ever self harmed and actually it was pretty big. It got really nasty and had to get help. >Do you want to be caught? No, I'm ashamed for doing this. I have told two friends, they don't know I keep doing it. >Do you try to leave scars? I don't think that I try, but I have some… I haven't taken out my shirt in public for more than a year.
Anonymous 02/14/19 (Thu) 05:27:41 PM 21647
1548042449240.jpg >>11340 >Why
I started again because the reality of workplace hit me twice as hard as usual. I came back to my work after a month's absence. I didn't ask for this. It's other people's fault I'm who I am. In this place between doing something with life and killing myself. I just go to sleep after work and wake up next day. Smoking and drinking is the only hobby that doesn't take any effort. I wish it was possible to go either way.
Smoking and drinking. Attractive and successful people do it so why can't I?
If you were bullied kid from pathological family who can't even make people chat with you, just stop trying.
>Have you ever been caught?
No. And I'd rather not let my family know about it.
>Do you want to be caught?
Hella no. I'm not an attentionwhore.
>Do you try to leave scars?
On my lungs and liver? Sure do.
This is so cringy.