1532473111204.gif Night Time Thread Anonymous 09/18/18 (Tue) 10:19:34 AM 12786
Night is a blessing and a curse. The comfiest time and emptiest time. What are you doing awake? Enjoying the quiet? Regrets eating at you?
Please only post if it's night time for you. Night requires a special haven. Anonymous 09/18/18 (Tue) 07:43:50 PM 12792
I'm always so peaceful at night. Relaxing and winding down. It feels like I get back a slice of my old (pre-kids) life. Just that nothing from that life is around anymore, even in the internet. :(. Still, I type here and look there and it's cozy and nice. But not for too long, I also need sleep.
Anonymous 09/18/18 (Tue) 08:41:51 PM 12795 >>12786
i'm drunk as fuck and it's tuesday night and i have to wake up at 6 tomorrow
Anonymous 09/19/18 (Wed) 02:40:45 AM 12813 >>12786
Life is just so bad. People really are just cruel animals masquerading as civilized
Anonymous 09/19/18 (Wed) 02:41:46 AM 12814 >>12795
drink some water. like drink a bunch of water and eat something before you go to bed. plus set an alarm.
i do this every night, dw. you'll live.
Anonymous 09/19/18 (Wed) 02:45:49 AM 12815
I'm listening to soulful dirges in a language I don't understand (spanish)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CaaMhoB6cGI Anonymous 09/19/18 (Wed) 03:26:19 AM 12816
listening to this on repeat and contemplating going to therapy because i'm so fucking bone-deep sad all the time. i hope everyone is having a good night and is able to have a long, deep sleep before facing the day tomorrow.
Anonymous 09/19/18 (Wed) 04:30:28 AM 12818
wrapped up in a blanket, drinking vodka and oj, watching anime. life is comfy but it's boring. i have nothing to look forward to.
Anonymous 09/19/18 (Wed) 04:48:36 AM 12822
I'm beginning to become despondent at night again. Maybe it's because the semester is in full swing now. Anyway towards the end of the day I have a hard time not ruminating on how lonely I am, how I wish I had friends at school (outside of class that is), how much I wish I had a romantic partner to hold and stuff, etc. I also tend to seek out content that makes me feel bad–in particular, YouTube comments or articles that I feel are criticizing me.
At least school is going well. I enjoy the classes and research I'm engaged in, and I feel like I'm learning valuable skills for my future career. I also want to try doing volunteer work this semester, maybe at a hospice or HIV/AIDS organization. I think this might help put my problems in perspective and also improve my interpersonal skills. Anonymous 09/19/18 (Wed) 06:01:52 AM 12829
Lately I've started playing Animal Crossing: New Leaf a lot at night. I hadn't touched the game in years, but something drew me back to it recently. The music that plays at 7 pm really gets to me. I don't know why. The game elicits a bittersweet feeling, because the world is so comfortable and assuring, but at the same time I'll never be a part of it and that's always made me feel terribly sad. And as the night draws on, I just get more and more anxious thinking about work the next day and how it never ends. Even if I quit, I'll just have to go work somewhere else. I don't know. I'm deeply unhappy and every year it just gets worse, especially in the wintertime as it gets colder and darker and harder to get out of bed in the frigid mornings.
>>12822 >becoming despondent at night
I do this as well. You're not alone, if that helps. I also find myself navigating to places I shouldn't, like depressing boards or songs that just make me feel worse about things until I fall asleep and do it all over again the following afternoon.
Thank you for making this thread, by the way. Responding to it was helpful in its own way.
Anonymous 09/19/18 (Wed) 05:38:33 PM 12876 >>12874 says the pot, calling the kettle black Anonymous 09/19/18 (Wed) 06:51:13 PM 12882 >>12875 you posted this earlier faggot, fuck off Anonymous 09/21/18 (Fri) 11:03:14 AM 13123
4 am here, so maybe I’m cutting it close
I haven’t been able to sleep lately. I keep waking up at odd hours. It’s raining now, so maybe that will help. Hope you all are getting good sleep too! Anonymous 09/23/19 (Mon) 07:08:43 AM 30135
It’s currently 2:09 am. I’m awake because my sleep schedule is ruined. I need to get to fixing it, but right now I’m just listening to this playlist on Spotify that an artist made. It’s called “hole”. It makes me feel like I’m floating in the void.
Anonymous 09/23/19 (Mon) 08:59:08 AM 30139
Night's the only time I'm ever able to relax. I have extreme paranoia and so much as hearing my family open doors on the other side of the house sets me over the edge. I have a sleep schedule that lets me stay up until right before my family starts waking up.
I don't ever have anything special to do at this time of night, it's just so nice for the alone time where there's nothing going on. Anonymous 09/23/19 (Mon) 08:39:05 PM 30151 >>12786
10 pm, the night is still young (for me).
i just rediscovered the name of my favorite song. havent listened to it in years…
im just having a good time, holding tears back from the feelings this music brings, and from the so many memories coming back to mind
Anonymous 09/24/19 (Tue) 07:19:05 PM 30164
Crying because a fucking isekai. In summary to avoid spoilers, the MC's anxieties of being worthless in both of his lives hit hard. I've squandered my parent's sacrifices and opportunities offered by others. Despite fantasizing about righting wrongs with knowledge garnered from regret isekai'd me would be as insecure and unstable as I am tonight. The only time I'd feel comfortable seeking out a therapist or psychologist would be during hours like these: when traffic dwindles into a lullaby orchestrated by crickets and atonal growls of errant motorcycles
fucking purple phrase but who fucking cares. I think I want to say more in this post but lack useful thoughts that would contribute to a meaningful conversation with online strangers. I want to get out of bed in the morning, to do more than stare at this screen and rehash another pity party. I want to listen to good music and make money and begin less sentences with I. I want to be stuck in the sacred AM before the blueness parts for the blinding sun and another day of lethargy. I want to want things with passion again. I will accomplish none of these desires. Anonymous 09/24/19 (Tue) 07:29:42 PM 30165 >>30164
Hey, don’t be so hard on yourself. Sometimes we are given good opportunities but they aren’t the right ones for us or don’t appear at the right time. You would have taken them otherwise. Think about what you like to do or what fascinates you and make a plan to devote your life to that. You like anime for example so make a review channel on youtube or learn to be an illustrator. It’s never too late to set yourself on the right path.
Anonymous 10/13/19 (Sun) 01:55:15 AM 30553
depression time. self-worth dropped to a low never seen before. i think about ending it more and more lately and any happiness i feel is fleeting, tied to an indulgence of something i should let go of. Anonymous 10/13/19 (Sun) 12:17:41 PM 30567
Waking up in the middle of the night to watch livestreaming sports halfway across the world with snacks and a blanket. Super comfy.
Also taking walks at midnight and breathing in the crisp night air.
Anonymous 10/13/19 (Sun) 09:36:18 PM 30573
I enjoy the melancholy and general slowness that comes with the night. It is a striking contrast to the busy, noisy and speedy daytime. I wish I could have some neeting time so that I could go back to watching the sun rise at dawn before going to bed again. I miss summer vacation. I feel like I got stuck in an adult life with all its responsibilities without ever having had the chance to enjoy myself.
Anonymous 10/14/19 (Mon) 03:08:18 AM 30576 >>30573
When's the next time you can go on vacation? Your break will come. Good luck keeping up with the grind, hubbub, and goulash. I may join you in the real world and escape the daily dirge blasting in the four corners of my bedroom soon.
Anonymous 10/14/19 (Mon) 07:20:42 AM 30582 >>30576
I'll probably take some around Christmas, but it would only be two weeks, which is not even enough to catch my breath, let alone recover.
>I may join you in the real world and escape the daily dirge blasting in the four corners of my bedroom soon.
Trust me, it's the real world you want to escape from.
Anonymous 10/17/19 (Thu) 03:48:26 AM 30632
it's almost five am here. I've been online all night reading, the hours just fly by.
Anonymous 10/17/19 (Thu) 06:21:07 PM 30641
Just got home from a chill night out with friends. They taught me how to smoke. We talked about weeb culture and birdwatching in a bar over beer twice its market value. Had good food. Noodles. Wish I kept walking down that endless empty road on the way to the bus station. Can't connect to people on Discord. Too normie for one group, too fringe for another. Listening to mediocre RNB. Need to wake up in six hours. Want to feel less needy. Fuck the sun.
Anonymous 10/23/19 (Wed) 06:59:40 AM 30753
2am here, I should hop in the shower and go to bed but the nighttime quiet is so nice. I live in a small town and there's basically nothing going on after 10pm.
I love autumn and how crisp and clear the night sky is, but I already can't wait for the spring and summer nights when you can go out at 3 or 4am and smell the rich scent of the earth and all its plant-y green smells. Anonymous 10/29/19 (Tue) 03:53:20 AM 30859
Doing a nighttime internship. Currently midnight. Still trying to get my body used to staying up all night
Anonymous 11/07/19 (Thu) 04:58:45 AM 31138 >>12786
It's almost midnight and I have work at 8am tomorrow, it's a student job and the last day. I feel bad about quitting so soon but the pay and hours were pretty bad. I regret fucking up my first few years of college, also have been dealing w/ some health conditions. Overall I'm just sad and full of regret
Anonymous 11/07/19 (Thu) 05:55:48 AM 31139 >>12829
Hope u aight now it’s been another year
Anonymous 11/08/19 (Fri) 06:20:13 AM 31163
I have a comprehensive exam in six hours lmao
Anonymous 02/25/20 (Tue) 09:39:38 AM 34090 >>31139
I thought I recognized this thread. Hello again. I'm still alive. I hope you're doing well, too.
Anonymous 02/26/20 (Wed) 05:15:38 AM 34095
I have an internship interview tomorrow that I haven’t prepared for at all. It’s technical and I haven’t touched the project that I put on my resume in months/the change in my meds has me fucked up. I feel like a complete failure lmao
Anonymous 02/28/20 (Fri) 03:02:34 AM 34137
Every night, I sit in my apartment browsing the internet, caring less and less as I get deeper and deeper into failing uni completely.
Anonymous 02/28/20 (Fri) 03:46:32 AM 34138
i just realized i'm going to Hell.
Anonymous 02/28/20 (Fri) 05:04:09 AM 34140 >>34137
What are you in uni for? How far along are you?
Anonymous 03/02/20 (Mon) 05:09:57 AM 34180
I didn't catch a glimpse of sleep last night, I have a test in 13 hours and I just started reading for it. I have to pass.
Send help, I don't know why I do this to myself. I had the whole week, I had the whole month. Anonymous 03/02/20 (Mon) 08:08:42 PM 34192 >>34180
good luck anon, I hope you make it. I always do this to myself as well.
Anonymous 03/10/20 (Tue) 04:50:18 PM 34423
Loneliness. A young cockroach in the bathroom. Whittling down the hours on the couch. Orange lights. Dehydration. Glazed eyes, screentime. Everything in this paragraph sounds shit. Loneliness. Then yawning. I yearn for more than I deserve.