Hi all, sorry for necro-ing this thread. I wrote a reply a month ago but the browser seems to have reloaded or something and it didn't save. sorry!! I read the earlier replies and thank you for the advice.>>17894
Thank you. I know people like that too. People that 'peaked' in high school (or earlier) but then end up dropping out of uni because of depression/other issues. Whenever I see those coeds of mine I can't help but feel a bit sad because they weren't able to make use of their full potential.
Will definitely look into Blue Zones as places I can build my future hermitage hahaha>>17899
Yes I'm really just bearing with it as long as I can lol. I really hope I "learn" to love the career path my major leads to - as much as I want to live rural I need the money for my family.
>I also feel very inadequate in comparison to my colleagues at college, which isn't half as prestigious as yours, but sometimes I just realize how lucky I am to be among such smart people and that being around them will help me grow, too.
it's a good perspective :) it really is a blessing to be around people that help you grow. Thank you>>17907
Yeah it's really crazy. I grew up middle class too, but when I was in high school my dad made some good business deals and suddenly they could afford to send me to this expensive uni. It was really a culture shock. The stereotype that the rich are 'detached' from how middle and lower classes live isn't a stereotype AT ALL.>>17909
That's really risky, but I'm glad you're happy at your current job :) An ice cream shop or a fried chicken stall sounds like a fun business. Best of luck to what you'll do in the next two years. thank you <3
RE: impostor syndrome is common among my coeds, and I probably have it too :/ When I tell my family how I feel they just brush it off and tell me that I just lack confidence. It's weird too, hearing it from my coeds that their achievements don't really lessen their insecurity.
I think a large part of it was that I picked my major because I wanted to master and learn more about it. Now that I'm graduating, I feel like I was really made aware of just how little I know, and even the scholars and experts in the field have thoughts that can be summed up as 1/2 educated guess and 1/2 ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. It's somewhat demotivating to know that I probably will never be able to master my field. It feels a bit like falling out of love.
I wrote the post during finals week and I was stressed because I felt like I wasn't doing so well in my classes. My grades were out, and while not low, I didn't make the honor roll (again) last semester hahaha
Just posted back here because I'm writing my resume and it stresses me out that it's so… bare lol. I still feel confused now - I'm graduating in three months and I'm applying for post-grad degree stuff. I don't feel 100% into doing it, but it's an opportunity so I might as well take it. Hope it goes well.
Thank you all for the advice. I guess I'll sit on the idea of being a monastic for a (long) while. Right now I'm just focusing on grad + personal problems and trying to become less dull and basic. Anyone please feel free to offer your own thoughts :)