Same here. I tried taking antidepressants and I really didn't like the side effects so I stopped taking them against the doctor's advice. (but you probably shouldn't follow my example)
Like this poster said, routine is very important because it pretty much 'forces' you to be functional and eventually it stops being an act. Fake it til you make it kind of deal. Having a routine outside of the house (school/work) also help that they force you to be social with other people.>>21393>it probably wont help but i will go anyway.
that's a really good mindset to have. that's the same mindset that got me out of my funk. i don't know if it would work for you, but for me i gave up trying to be happy. it fully goes away for some people, but i accept too that being depressed would probably be with me until i die, so i might as well just look for some other goal than being happy to work towards.
similar to >>21395
for me it was my family, friends, and my s.o. that really motivated me to get better. i don't have any 'personal' dreams and i've given up on making -myself- happy, so i'll just focus on taking care of them and making them happy.
when you're depressed, it's easy to feel like you're carrying the weight of the world. speaking from my experience and people that i know, it (usually) isn't really the case, depression just gives the sufferer tunnel vision so they hyperfocus on their pain/despair. aside from keeping busy (as the other posters said) caring for another person (or a pet animal or a plant could be a start) makes you focus on others rather than focus on yourself. and for me it really helped. >>21444
i felt (and still feel) this way too, that nobody should have a "broken" partner so it was motivation for me to develop coping skills so i don't become a burden to my partner. like if im gonna die i'll do it quietly rather than dragging everybody down. i found that it worked for me too because (1) it forced to become responsible because you're taking care of other people and (2) it helps with the rumination and suicidal thoughts, because i can't ruminate if im too busy taking care of someone else, if that makes sense.
be careful with choosing a partner if you do this. otherwise you might end up in a toxic relationship instead of healing
i'd recommend CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) too. since im a cheapskate i just look for online CBT exercises or read stoic texts, because it's the precursor to modern CBT.