>>31374>Should I just off myself?
Honestly I do not know the answer to that, there is only one person in the whole universe who knows, and that is you. If things are entirely hopeless and there is not a way for you to ever be happy I really do not know what you can do.
That is where I am at now in my life, after the one I loved left me, I cannot feel whole. I wake up with nightmares, worrying about him, only to remember… he is gone. After they were gone I did just about everything to fix things, I chased them, looked for them, I spent a month or two finding him, only to be met with silence. I considered dying. I spent many nights crying at the sky, asking where i should go, what I should do. Asking God why he did this to me, what was I supposed to learn. There is not one day that doesn't go by where I don't think of him. Think of the lies, the betrayal, the laughs, the joy. Now life is bleak, sadness and joy seem dull, I miss the times where I could not stop myself from laughing. I miss that warmth in my heart, and it has lead me to many more mistakes and sadness. I have found that these issues, these riddles of the heart do not have simple answers, if any. Anymore I just hope that the next day will feel better than the last.
A world of shit is pretty accurate, a world where nothing is good, nothing is joyful. If you want me to I could be your friend, and maybe attempt to fill the gap this person has left. But other than this, I have nothing I can do to help you. Except to tell you to breath.