OP here, this wasn’t about being molested as a child, but about a psychologically abusive relationship I was in during my mid-teens. He was a severe pathological liar. He lied about his family, his past, random everyday interactions, fake trauma stories, etc. It’s too long to explain, but he fabricated a story over months that made me feel like I was in severe danger. I cried all the time and always felt like I was being watched. Over a year after dumping him, I still thought all the lies were true until I eventually mentally developed more and realized how ridiculous they were. I realize now all the abuse tactics he used on me, like gaslighting me and making fun of me when I would talk about fearing for my life. I seriously hadn’t recognized until recently that I was in a relationship with an abusive, manipulative piece of shit.