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in need of advice/ Anonymous 01/13/21 (Wed) 10:39:24 PM49575

don't be mean, it's the last thing i need rn

i got in an online relationship w/ someone. she saw me irl my face caked with makeup a long time ago (long enough that she'd have forgotten what i look like) and i'm incapable of sending pics of myself n facetiming. recently it's been getting to me more and more, we're not able to have a normal relationship because i refuse to do this stuff that's expected of everyone and she lives in the usa n can't visit.
i'm ugly and i know she'd not be attracted to me if she knew what my face truly looked like. i know i should show her my face cuz i've been misleading her but i literally can't. it makes me fucking sick to take pictures and look at myself and i can't have her tell me she's not attracted to me, it would destroy me and my self esteem is already in the gutter.

so i feel like i have no choice but to end this but i don't know how to do this and i'm scared of losing her. this is my first ever romantic experience, i know it was dumb asf to get into this but i craved love and companionship more than anything else. look where it's gotten me

i have no friends or family around me. she's the only person i have in my life

Anonymous 01/13/21 (Wed) 10:54:01 PM49576

You could always build Sims replicas and torture them instead of trying to have relationships in the real world.

Anonymous 01/13/21 (Wed) 11:55:33 PM49582

>she
Women know that women wear makeup, as well as what we look like without it. Unless she's a farmer from lc, but even then I'm pretty sure it's not the gay anons nitpicking other women to death.
Take the jump.

Anonymous 01/14/21 (Thu) 05:09:08 PM49602

It isn't helpful, but same, OP. I did the same thing with a boyfriend. i used heavy filters and photoshopped the hell out of every selfie i sent him, and refused to ever video chat. he only talked about how "so cute" i looked in pics where i was wearing color contacts, wig, and snow filers, and ignored the others i would take (lol). shit took a blow to my self esteem when he'd keep this pic where i'm wearing a huge blonde wig and talking about how lovely my "big blue eyes" are (lmaoooooo) i felt like a catfish

the thing is, you've seen her in person before. i know u said it has been a long time, but … i would talk to her about your insecurities and allow her to reassure u

Anonymous 01/17/21 (Sun) 11:33:46 AM49741

>>49575
You might just be overthinking it, she fell for you due to your personality not your looks. Women can be a lot less picky when it comes to looks and this goes double for lesbian women who generally have tastes that are very separate from what straight men find attractive