i confessed to a close male friend that i found him attractive while drunk and living with my abusive ex. im trying to heal and i asked him why he reject my comment and the friend said it was because i can be too unstable (while mentioning good qualities) and i mentioned it when drunk and living with my bf at the time which he didnt like. i feel like a piece of shit and burden. i miss my ex a lot but i was tired of the abuse and i didnt get out of it until recently. it took a long time for me. and then the friend i find attractive rejects me so i feel like im the issue…sorry nonnies im drunk and breaking down i know its pathetic. with the breakup and this my self esteem is really low and i dont know how to be independent and love myself im sorry. ive been on new meds which help balance my emotions but i guess im still not good enough because i get sensitive and needy