>>61260>I consider being a mom and a homemaker a full time job.
And do you consider yourself to be good at your job of being a mom and homemaker?
>I meant my mom and sister. The only adults I talk to regularly are my mom and husband. My mom just doesn't get my problems and thinks I can pray them away. My husband is tired of hearing about it and wants me to go back to therapy so he doesn't have to keep doing cleaning rituals and dealing with my meltdowns.
Okay, not that bad for family. They certainly aren't helping, but it doesn't sound like they're hurting. Are you against going back to the therapist? If so, why?
>Physical health is terrible. I'm prediabetic and my thyroid is way out of wack. I have a really bad diet and I'm scared to weigh myself. I've noticed my husband ""forgets"" to get ice cream and candy even when I put it in all caps on the shopping list and he only cooks healthy meals, so I'm pretty sure he's trying to say something without actually saying something. He's always been way into health and fitness and I'm just not, which makes me even more self conscious.
Mmmm, yes, that would also do it.
>Actually no friends. No hobbies.
So I see you're getting little stimulation to match your level as opposed to handing out stimulation to your children.
>No dates at all, since we don't know anyone to watch our kids.
Well I imagine it would, you have no friends to network with and I imagine you don't go to social gatherings much from the sounds of it. You need to know non-zero numbers of local people to get this info.
>We spend time with each other every night after the kids go to bed. He usually gives me the world's worst back/foot rub while reading a book or working on his laptop while we chitchat for a couple hours. He's sweet and he tries, but he's also an emotionless robot. I know he cares about me and the kids more than anything though.
Okay, so no romance.>I avoid sex because I'm disgusted with myself and it's harder to enjoy after having kids, so he's sorta given up on making advances, not that I'm complaining.
>I have a degree in early childhood education, not sure why that matters though.
Well, in the ultra-extreme last resort option, it makes divorcing slightly easier as your more hireable, on the other hand, it means you're trained to a sufficient degree to pursue intellectual stimulation if you desired it.
I have good news and bad news OP. The good news is it doesn't sound like you have a mental illness. That bad news is it sounds like your life is shitty, and you're correspondingly miserable in relation to it. >b-but I have so much money and wonderful children
Completely right, those parts of your life sound like they are going fantastic, with full and utter sincerity. Having little money can be hell. Having family that actively abuses you or hurts you is hell, the fact you have people that want to talk to you and don't go out of their way to make you miserable is a blessing in and of itself. You have crossed these two hurdles with flying colors. Education means you're not bitter about being utterly useless to the world like a few intelligent-but-not-effective people are. You haven't answered yet, but it sounds like your homeschooling is going well, so I'm going to cautiously chalk up that as a positive too. Having a job that you are good at is something that can be immensely helpful mental health wise.
Now the hard part, you've got a pretty shitty life from the other four factors that the majority of people consider to be important to having a good life. Poor physical health is a bitch, a complete and utter bitch, and it makes it harder to do anything else that actively makes for a good life. No romance is absolutely draining as well. Just being in the same house together isn't enough, that's not a marriage. Now, before you get pulled on the "divorce his ass" bandwagon, please be aware that if you have actively assessed your husband as being legitimately caring to you and your children, this would only make a bad life even worse with no discernible benefit. It is far easier to improve this with your current partner than it is someone else.
As far as friends and hobbies, it sounds like more that the other shitty parts of your life have actively dampened the energy needed to enact these positive aspects. If you are 100% sincere in stating you have never had any interest in friends or a hobby, I will believe you. But, if you are anything close to a normal human being, having friends and hobbies are also important. Hobbies should be clarified though, I don't mean hobbies like "I watch anime", more along the lines of "I quilt blankets". Something productive that you find meaningful and hey, might even make the world a better place.
Which of the four shitty parts of your life would you want to be better if you could pick? Friends, sex, health, hobbies?