> be me retarded mixed breed, 26 yrs old
> get abused 24/7 growing up and r*ped by older step bro
> only solace is neet shit like anime and vidya
> get really fat because neet and severe ptsd and depression
> always getting bullied at school, even my friend group didn't really care for me
> becomes fat friend™ and literally no one wants to date a roastie
> get abused mentally and physically by moids because i just wanted to feel loved
> go to college and get useless lib arts degree
> try to kill myself multiple times
> only people who care are my elderly godparents
> at least they got to see me graduate
> immediately return to neet life after graduation with my ex bf
> finds out he's cheating
> mfw i'm over 1k miles from home and my parents hate me
> start making plans to kill myself because my life was basically over
> meet really sweet guy on reddit
> we end up falling for each other
> i leave my ex and move in with my bf
> his family welcomes me with open arms even though i'm a retard
> let's me be a neet at their house while i find work
> not long after i end up getting my shit together, going to therapy, taking my meds and losing a bunch of weight
> no longer a neet and i have a big family that i think likes me
> bf is planning to wife me soon
> we're going to be able to afford our own place next year
I still plan on killing myself tho.
There is no happy ending for me.
You're over the hurdle. Please reconsider.
it sounds like a hard life situation, but if your life situation is getting better now, like at least you’re not in fucking debt, you should just go on
what are you a man?
Hang in there sis!
May you gather happily under one roof and live for one hundred years.
It’s gonna be okay . Do you have a way you could start making your own friends online and rely on them for daily company and support?
>>64914>There is no happy ending for me.
I would imagine, nowhere in your posts mentions anything that involves deep meaning. You've gone from dysfunctional to functional, great job on that, but you're not going to feel that happy until you start having something to be functional for
. The great news is that's it a hell of a lot easier to find that something while functional as opposed to dysfunctional.
>>64914>I still plan on killing myself tho.>There is no happy ending for me.
I feel this so fucking hard. Its like no matter how good things are going its my fate for things to end terribly.
>>64914> i leave my ex and move in with my bf> his family welcomes me with open arms even though i'm a retard > let's me be a neet at their house while i find work> not long after i end up getting my shit together, going to therapy, taking my meds and losing a bunch of weight> no longer a neet and i have a big family that i think likes me > bf is planning to wife me soon> we're going to be able to afford our own place next year>>I still plan on killing myself tho. >>There is no happy ending for me.
So then you are just a selfish asshole.
Think about your fiancee. You're hurting him by killing yourself.
I'd honestly kill myself to if I was dating some r*editor
Don't kill yourself OP, you have the chance to finally be happy with someone, I hope these shit feelings go away, you deserve some happiness.
>start new life with someone who is good to you
>they invest time, resources, and their own emotional well being in trying to make things better
>lol I'm gonna kill myself anyway but I'm gonna wait until I can do the most damage possible to the people around me
The therapy your getting isn't working if this is your thought process, consider why you are so desperate for people to feel bad for you. You obviously intended that with this thread.
When you wake up in a hospital room after your failed attempt and you see the look of hurt and confusion in your boyfriend's face, what will you think? What will you say? How will you feel?
You finally have a chance, and you're willing to throw it away just because you're too attached to your sadgirl persona and don't think you'll (or maybe don't want) be happy?
This is so dumb I can't believe you mean it. Do us all a favor and wait until your life actually falls apart before you off yourself. Give it a chance, something very good is likely to happen.
You sound like a huge emotional sinkhole, tbh. I'm exhausted just from reading this greentext, I can't imagine what the people in your life must feel.
Why did you make this thread?
Right. She could’ve just used the vent thread for this.
>i leave my ex
So you had a boyfriend but your friend group didn't really care for you?