>>66963>>66965you haven't even kissed? he's not going to even think of you as his girlfriend. at this rate you'll get married when you're both 79 and the year after that he dies.
does he know you consider him your boyfriend? start by clearing that up. I don't know if a guy will accept being your boyfriend without kissing but at minimum you should start hugging him goodbye and cuddling (fully clothed) while watching movies together, stuff like that. you can hope that he will do the majority of the "moves" in the long-term but it sounds like you've been outright avoiding touch so you've basically conditioned him to not try. assuming he wants to. don't expect him to suddenly start acting differently. however he has been acting for weeks or months, that's what you will keep getting from him unless you open up.
and yes, I'm ignoring the marriage part because that's just not realistic. even in the strictest times people would touch each other and (secretly) kiss before marriage. without that where would he even get the idea to ask you?
>>66982>establishes a foundation of you feeling uncomfy and insecure in the relationshipit sounds like she already felt that way before she met him, in life in general. I wouldn't worry about a first relationship at age 32 making things WORSE. if not now, when?