Same. i am sexually religiously traumatized. so at least i have an explanation. i want to be able to be with people platonically and love them like i thought love was supposed to be when i was a child.
>Tenderness, care, affection
Sex is the most vile thing to exist, it's so repulsive and degrading and disgusting.
Before i had the chance to think of it as the masses do, (i won't even describe that, it makes me.shiver) i was force fed the worst introduction to it. i am still religious, i am still in the same environment that made me this way, and i almost don't want to leave it because then i might heal from it and rationalize sex and Join everyone else and be like them and losing control over this one aspect horrifies me.
But then again, we will be single for life and grow up as old cat ladies then die in nursing homes while our friends (or lack thereof) and family (or what's left of it) lead typical beatiful lives.
Another thing, pregnancy is horrifying, it's painful, it's unbearable. i cannot ever picture myself in such situation, and it hurts because i know what awaits me should i not break this wall and step outside my comfort zone.
Another thing, for years /pol fucked my mind into nationalism and that was the most normal i have ever been in my life and it's weird because, before going back to loving gays and troons and lefties, i was pro-life, i thought i wanted to be a mother, a homemaker, one like all the others, even if it was for purely selfish politically twisted ideals i wanted it for myself because it made me feel happy and content, i felt like a real person back then
Now i am only so tolerant because of nihilism, and i cannot see myself beyonf my inabilities
Another thing, i hate myself and my appearance and cannot believe that anyone would ever love me for me. I envy all those glossy, perfect glamorous girls, it reminds me of this passage in Jane Eyre
>I … Wished to look as well as I could, and to please as much as my want of beauty would permit. I sometimes regretted that I was not handsomer; I sometimes wished to have rosy cheeks, a straight nose, and small cherry mouth; I desired to be tall, stately, and finely developed in figure; I felt it a misfortune that I was so little, so pale, and had features so irregular and so marked.
I understand that no one would ever want me for anything other than my body. Your personality and kindness and goodness of heart comes second to your superficial beauty, if the two are combined, you're an angel. If the latter is absent, you're a weakling and a pathetic stepping stone to moids who would only use you for pleasure.
Thank you anon for giving me the chance to say all of this i won't even proofread it just wanted it off my mind

I just came here to poast about the same thing.
I was lurking a friend's alt profile in where she posts all kind of kinky and sexual things and it kinda made me sad. I have no problem with people having and enjoying sex, but I hate how some people whole life revolve around sex. Internet makes everything worse because people use the internet to show what kind of deviants they are. It shouldn't bother me as much as it does, but I find it depressing.
In some way I hate the sexual liberation, or at least some things that were caused by it, like pornography, making your sex life a casual topic, public nudity or any of those things being normalized

>>71893

I think you are being too harsh in yourself and others,you should try pursuing happiness even if it's contingent on the quality of those around you

>>71897
is this the skeleton from the tim curry music video? if not, skelly sauce?

>>71904
I honestly don't know. I've had that pic on my PC for a while but I don't know the sauce

>>71913
>>71904
It’s the album cover for UNRENDERED by Bones