Were your parents abusive, distant, or cold to you growing up?

Maybe you are worried that they have high expectations of you and you don’t want to disappoint them, so you want to ruin their good impression of you.

I get that too but it's not really a strong urge. It's more like a strong, reactive intrusive thought.
It used to make me feel stupid and guilty but now I just ignore it.
It must be some kind of defensive mechanism (hurt person first so you're not hurt by them too badly if you let your guard down).

>>74553
Mostly because they were alcoholics, but sober they weren't for the most part

>>74578
Yeah probably. I also wasn't/am not taken seriously a lot of the time, so people taking offense to my words/actions makes me feel like I'm being taken seriousy?