Yeah, that makes sense. I do miss her. Our friendship ended on a bad note sadly and its mostly my fault, hence why I avoided her because we couldn't get along anymore and want to stop making her feel hurt.
A year later, She greeted me with a smile and told me "Anon, we haven't talked in a long time!" And I just smiled back. Now I regretted it and wished I said something because maybe she misses me too.
About the "one friend" nah, wasn't traumatized lol. 2 years ago he just mildly annoyed me because he has a staring problem (he does it to everyone) I openly stated that I really hated him for it hence why he feared me a bit at one point. We're now super close of course, but he's like that most of the time in my dreams and I don't know why I always dream of him like that.