I really liked your lab rat analogy. Part of the reason I keep tabs on people the way I do is because I also feel as though it helps me gain a better understanding of these types of people with the information I come across. It's very enticing, and losing the curiosity is difficult.>>4943
Fascinating article, thank you for sharing. Some of it hit close to home. I wonder how many of us have the same traits in common? Although it doesn't seem like there are many posters in this thread, here's some general questions you could answer if you'd like.
>What is your relation to the person you keep tabs on?>Do you suffer from mental illness?>How do you occupy your time when not engaging in this type of behavior? (Hobbies, social life, school, etc.)>Do you feel as though your behavior has caused someone harm? Do you feel guilt?
I'll start:>What is your relation to the person you keep tabs on?
Honestly, I would rather not say.
>Do you suffer from mental illness? Have you underwent a traumatic experience?
Yes, I have a personality disorder as well as OCD, stemming from childhood trauma.
>How do you occupy your time when not engaging in this type of behavior? (Hobbies, social life, school, etc.)
I do not have much of a social life since I left school. I have a job, and I spend some of my time playing games or watching shows. I think that if I had more hobbies, I might not feel such an urge to do this.
>Do you feel as though your behavior has caused someone harm? Do you feel guilt?
I'm not sure. I make sure to have little to no contact with this person outside of looking at their social media, so I'm careful to avoid doing anything blatant and scary, like sending letters. But I often have paranoid thoughts that this person has somehow caught on to what I am doing.
And, I do think that my behavior is wrong. I think it would make my skin crawl if someone was doing this to me, so I want to try and stop this behavior.