My hubris seems to have caught up to me. Because who in their right mind would wanna stalk me if I truely had little to no importance in the grand scheme of things? Thats neither here nor there. Im gonna put the schizo mask down for a moment and just put this out into the universe.

Youre cute when you're terrified. I will suplex you when I get the chance (◕‿◕✿)

Dont like it? Move to Florida.

>>127146
Had a meeting with upper management about him and his need for a professional therapist and how it’s affecting everyone at work. They flat out rejected getting a therapist involved, but that was expected since someone else had already asked before. They are going to have his manager do 1 on 1 counselling with him to see if he doesn’t improve. I no longer have to babysit him and they said I can report straightaway if he tries to contact me during work hours.
In the end, it’s more like the manager replaced my role which is really shitty considering she is the one that DESPISES him the most (understandably). This is probably just going to make him stressed out and make even more mistakes… but I’m finally free!! This is going to put a strain between me and the manager which sucks cus she’s like the closest coworker I have and one of my only friends… But I guess we’ll have to see.

Why does the thought of having a romantic feel so scary and repulsive in real life?
25, I'm not in the dating scene at all and all I do is break down because I feel "lonely", brood and ruminate over my circumstances, for some reason thinking about crossing over, getting close to someone enough and ponder being in a relationship in a way that's raw and real makes a wave of panic wash over me, i just want to go back to being "me" in a sense, it's like I almost get knocked out of my body, it makes me want to puke, why is every path I could possibly take so painful?

I am sad.

>>127450
i’m sorry. why are you sad nona?

it’s late and i’m awake
staring at the wall
open up my window
head falls out the door
no one else around
and a shimmer takes my eye
i lift my head
blinded by the sky
feel my weight in front
following the sound
moves away so fast
falling to the ground
i know what is more to come
jump back to my feet
now i only see ahead of me
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LA why you’re so complicated for me
twilight
waiting on the planet to turn to me
dark side
if loving yous a felony now
then i’m a renegade
riding
trying to find tomorrow ain’t easy
til you dive in

why you rolling waves over me now
it’s all i need
dreaming
waiting on LA to come find me
be forgiven
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444

if you kept me waiting on your words
would you give me nothing in return?
said i’d promise you the world.
if you could do the same

i would go the DISTANCE
if you could take the blame.
if you kept me waiting on your words
would you give me nothing in return?

said you change your mind with the clothes you wear
but nothing but yous changed SINCE YOU CUT YOUR HAIR

>>127441

Thanks nona that’s actually why I chose those lyrics <3

Left my abusive ex bf of one year

>>127447
that’s AMAZING!!! congratulations i wish you nothing but healing and freedom and good karma!!!

>>127369
who hurt you?

>>127369
u are absolutely right nona. sometimes i feel like im one of the only ones who sees moids for the creatures they truly are.
our entire existence to them is just something they want to take advantage of.

>>127369
>romantic love is patriarchal propaganda.
this. if what most ppl have together qualifies as love. they can fucking keep that shit.

>romantic love is patriarchal propaganda.

I feel ashamed of all the times I was literally given the ultimatum that if i didn't perform certain sexual acts my partners at the time would "stop loving me"/if I did perform certain acts they would love me more.

It's taken years to deprogram that out of myself bcs this romantic notion of love is the carrot on the stick they use to keep you sexually subservient and exploitable to them.

>>127381
Men obviously? Who else? So sick of this retarded rhetorical bullshit that gets asked after women share their shitty experiences with those awful people.

>>126800
How is this an expectation? And it doesn't have to be from physical attraction. If I notice someone is wearing something nice that stands out to me, and I know them well enough, I'll say nice top ! where did you get it from? It's not that deep lol

But it's definitely not a good idea to compliment if that feels unnatural to you or whatever. But have people assumed you to be envious/insecure because of that?

> i don’t find women physically attractive. sorry not sorry.

u dont have to want to fuck another woman to compliment her lol

>>127361
usually only moids think like that tbh

i used to feel this way and i think it's understandable if you feel obligated to compliment

but ngl i think complimenting women as a straight woman is kinda an anti patriarchal thing to do. Like moids are always saying women dress/act in a certain way just for sexual attention and I felt a lot of internalized shame for my clothing preferences after I was SA'd. Like fully it was these basic girls complimenting my fashion sense that made me feel more comfortable wearing what i wanted. I think it's kinda fucked up to assume compliments need to be reserved for just ppl ur attracted to- like that sounds like a moid thought lmao.

>>127440
im a sicko like i got a few screws loose in my head. so i became a compliment sniper. every time i walk past a woman and compliment some aspect of her style i build her confidence independently of her outside relationships. she doesn’t even get a good look at me. i’m already gone. a smooth criminal if you will. she’s like no no no not my self esteem but it’s too late. she’s growing more confident in her tastes and how she comes across to others. her boyfriends remarks matter less. there’s a reason he’s bringing her down. but that woman had no reason to lie. the perfect crime.

I'm gonna be the emotional support for you guys who will do the solving

>>127408
i love that. i am building a team.

>>127407
One dickchop at a time

Why does he not like mogeko games?

same but we are 3 years in ahahaha

why aren’t you guys compatible? don’t leave us hanging nona

same

>>119668
I know a guy almost exactly like this, minus the TERF part.

Haha this is interesting. completely ideal/unrealistic:
lookswise:
>5'9-6'0
>good hygiene
>have some sense of style, or at least aware to look put together
>good dental hygiene !
>mixed or not white;
>bigger than me , but not too muscular

personality
>minimal screen usage/no social media like me
>minimal longing for sexual intimacy
>values me as a person
>can cook
>does not drink/smoke
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-does not post on social media or better yet have it
-always wants to spoil me
-caring
-over 5'11
-direct
-responsible and decisive
-pudgy muscular

>>127372
having a nice one is honestly so important.

>>103992
Sounds like you might want to work through that anxiety of yours. That's an almost AvPD level of social anxiety there. Just fuck up on purpose sometimes, see that it's not that big of a deal.
I know someone whose anxiety training involved putting some cardboard on a leash and treating it like a real dog in public. The horror stories she imagined would come of it never happened, when people asked about it she could manage to explain it and the whole experience made her feel more confident in acting like herself.
I offend people by accident all the time, if someone points it out and it's an honest mistake, you can just apologise and move on.

>>127158
>>127213
Some girls actually act like babies, it can be a traumatic age regression, the kind that pedo moids relentlessly sexualise and encourage in women unlike with traumatised men who just get called retards.
Nothing morally wrong with being retarded like that, but it's nothing to be proud of.
>>127158
Pedo anime definitely romanticises it, entire casts of shows have women of every fictional age acting like dumb 7 year olds who need an adult moid to teach them basic life skills. The moids behind it are frankly disgusting. They have a desperate need to feel superior and if the only way for them to do that is to have their love interests be mental 7 year olds, that's not just pathetic, it's creepy. There's way too much of that low budget slop and nothing disgusts me more than seeing it in the romance genre.

>>127215
that cardboard story sounds like a modern torture method! I can see how it would help though. how did she explain it when asked?

Off all the days to be sleepy my body is sleepy on the day I need to do it less and not more

I might have isolated myself out of a group chat
And ngl I don't gaf at the moment.

Long story short there's a manchild who refuses to be held accountable and now his friends are creating excuses for him. And ngl I was mean. But also, I don't think he's the kind of dude I'd wanna hang around with for long periods of time. And he probably feels the same way???? Regardless his friends are enablers

I'm going to lean on my own spirituality more. Maybe I am wrong. But maybe this is the higher power cutting off people who aren't for my highest good in the first place

>>127339
What is the point then. You're essentially dragging around a ball and chain.

>>127348
i left eventually. and i think very badly of those abusers now. i was abused and had very low self esteem. i wasn’t allowed to have any until i realized how shit these people really were.

>>127349
Good for you !!

>>126943
these replies say otherwise lol

>>127350
thank you. i think i’m a lot smarter and stronger and i like myself more now. and i don’t like those men one bit.