>>133289
Okay well I hope you're having a good day today. It's sunny where I am. Hope your weather is nice

>>133290
it's nice right now but we're supposed to get another storm soon

I'm so lonely, not even for a boyfriend, I barely have any friends to talk to. I feel like everything I do will kill me because I've been having severe health issues for years that could easily escalate. I border on agoraphobic because the idea of going outside to a job or anything of the sort makes me genuinely want to sob. I have a fucked up past that I'll never recover from and I constantly slip back into old habits that destroy me internally. I don't know why I even go here to complain, probably because it's anonymous so I can at least dissociate myself from the complaints about my life

>>133291
Sometimes I find storms comforting. Knowing everyone in the area is going through the same thing you are. I hope you stay dry and warm

>>133292
I'm sorry to hear about your health issues. I know some people with chronic medical woes and it's always difficult when your own body is against you. Don't give up hope

>>129722
Me too, I've only been with a woman once online and I'm terrified of men at this point. I find it hard to click which women are bi / gay that I'm embarrassed to ask and pursue irl. If anyone who's dated girls has tips please send them

i relate. straight men are like sand on a beach but getting a gf is so much harder if you don`t like dating apps. maybe try to add something to your appearance that shows you`re into girls? like a pin or keychain from popular yuri or straight up a flag. are there any queer spaces you can go to like lesbian bars? otherwise its rough out there as a shy woman, at least irl. good luck to you!

The black pill is realizing that none of your revenge fantasies will ever come true.
Especially this one that people keep promising you:
>The best revenge is a life lived well and happily.
That's the one least likely to come true of all.

>>132542
You have become one of them!

They don't like what you always liked, they actually do something much more worse and sinister: they normiefy and enshittificate the things you liked, and even the band you used to like has mostly lost its soul and style

Being mad as this is like being mad at mold that ate your bread, yeah, it is upsetting but it's also pointless to be mad at something that doesn't possess a brain or consciousness

>>132542
spoken like a true bully right? it's not even true because my best friend was bullied by her own brother and sister and yet her life now is great and the siblings life is shit so

>>132547
this 100%

For me I was just constantly confused, unhappy, and lonely. My youth was a rather unfortunate time of my life, I am much happier now.

always feeling different to other children, people constantly misunderstanding me, my emotional needs rarely being met and feeling so out of place and alienated.

Feeling misunderstood by my family, never outgrowing my middle school awkwardness, not being very good at picking myself up again after big disappointments and rejection, having difficulty imagining a good future for myself that wasn't an impossible fantasy where I was as beautiful as I wanted to be and as loved as I wished I'd been

dealing with neglect and abuse at home only to go to school to get bullied for being "weird" (unkempt because i was neglected) and having teachers either ignore me at best or participate in tormenting me. worst part was seeing how they treated the kids with present and proper parents with kindness and care. believe it or not i didn`t chose to not have the right pencil with me at 7 years old, i`m not doing this to make your teaching harder. but i guess some teachers just like the power and without parents who care about you, who will defend you anyway? we say we care so much about childrens safety as a society but that`s just bullshit.

>>133012
I don't see any proof.

This is going to be extremely niche slander but it amuses me how white "nationalist" moids from my Eastern European country are always cucking themselves in favor of North-Western Europeans.
They boast about passing as Scandis, they make cute maps that show which nationality migrating would be the most desirable (ofc it's all the NWers, like, GERMANS PLEASE COME OVER HERE AND FUCK OUR WOMEN!!! kek) and so on, implicitly assuming another nation's superiority above theirs. Some nationalists these people are.

I'm not a nationalist btw but I have been constantly online from my very childhood, and most of the time was spent in the most psyopped corners of Internet possible. So.

male cashier smiled at me and clearly wanted me today. so long losers

Watching the real estate market in my country fairly closely right now. I had no clue the idea of decorating my own space could get so exciting to me. I don't even customize the background on my phone or my PC really. But with a living space it is pretty different because you are focusing on the practical aspect of things I guess.

The prices have skyrocketed just a few years before we could "enter" the market thanks to all the subsidies, it's ridiculous. But now the conditions for subsidies are becoming stricter and there's less and less sales for new apartments, so hopefully we see some lower prices eventually. That gives some time to save up some money for a downpayment, too.

I don't have anywhere else to post this lol

I'm going there as a part of "working on myself" to work on my avoidant attachment but I'm not sure I expect progress. anyone have a good experience with it?

therapy is only helpful if you need coaching on how to make healthier decisions, but ultimately you need to get to a place where you can do things independently and don't have to pay for a support system.

i feel like people who are in therapy for 30+ years a re being scammed, unless they're like severely ill and have no one.

i only work with psychiatrists that are very, very conservative in their prescribing and take what i need help with into consideration, and do not have some sort of weird narrative about me.

it takes time to find the right provider unfortunately, but i am grateful for my current shrink because he actually listens to me about my PMDD and mental afflictions.

he doesn't view me as broken, just someone who could benefit from some medical interventions so i'm not suffering all the time.

i hate ssris tho. those are kinda scammy if you take them longterm. good habits and sobriety will get u there imo after ur baseline is sorted with learning how to be disciplined. discipline is a skill rooted in compassion and takes time like any other. you can't really force the process.

lamictal has helped me a lot, as well as gabapentin and a minipill for my pmdd. i feel lowkey halfway cured and i just started everything like 2 weeks ago. i just need to build better habits.

i'm 1.5 abstinent from drugs too and it helped to not complicate my brain as much.
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Licensed therapists are a lot cheaper than psychologists and psychiatrists. Started seeing one after my mental break in January. Doing a lot better now but had two instances of near relapse so I'm continuing with it for now. The one I have is actually conscientious about cost and whether or not I actually need to keep going at the same rate. She was the one who suggested I might be good to drop from weekly to biweekly and we've discussed going to monthly but I don't feel ready for that yet.

I'm too scared to go to one honestly

if you`re scared of judgement you might end up like me. almost 2 years in therapy now and i hide most my problems to appear as competent and functional as possible and even lie sometimes out of shame like a retard. luckily i have public health insurance so its just a waste of time and not money.

>>133133
Maybe you smell strange

>>133133
Own it. Bitches hate you cause they know you're the prettiest and they're scared.

Either you're making them jealous, or you have a weird funk.

they might smell your autism

Twice so far. First time a few weeks, second time a few months, both times for psychosis and against my will. First time I was way more chill and cooperative, food was good, interesting new people to meet, made a few new friends and felt like a summer school camp only in winter. Second time they had to wrestle me into the isolation ward as I just wanted the fuck out of there. Then they injected some strong shit in my butt and I can't remember the next two whole weeks, then I came to my senses again after being catatonic and it was just boring wating to be released. It's a necessary evil in my book, at least in the case of psychosis.

im a non native english speaker i was so confused i thought it was a thread only for children to post on lmao

googoogaga

i love that there is a thread on this. when i am off work i will contribute