>>133321i too would half agree with the spirituality thing the nona on top said, but i would also suggest you to start an hobbie!
Absolutely anything that can keep your mind off your daily life, maybe better something you can see grow each day that you can see in hobbies like sewing, gardening, drawing, making something in general.
I'll always suggest sewing because it's so versatile and it saved my life, but it can be anything.
I wish you the best of luck nona, even better times will come!