>>132319
Did you use ai to write this

idk cause i thought me holding my pee was lowkey an orgasm but like i dont think i know what an orgasm really feels like like i beat my clitty while holding my pee and then i go pee in the toilet and i feel like i came or smth idk. how do i gen make myself orgasm. is peegasm orgasm? does it count? to me it does tbh cause i like the feeling and i get super wet discharge when i do it like that

>>133863
sounds normal, just make sure to put a towel under you

very late to this but - it sounds like you might have a weak pelvic floor . it usually happens post-pregnancy but yours could be genetic or from incontinence from smth else. i'd just put a towel down when u guys have sex , maybe ask your doctor about it if you think it's really concerning.

>>133863
The bladder is close to the "hidden" part of the clit. When it's full, it pushes against it. So when you masturbate with a full bladder you're basically having your clit stimulated from two sides at once.

I think so, to a certain extent. Especially when you're under 30. Your lives change, you develop as a person, your interests shift, your needs and wants change or you might move physically away and as a consequence a friendship may no longer be compatible.

>>115283
It’s normal, it happens to me all the time unfortunately. It happens a lot if the other person is too anxious to deal with confrontation and it doesn’t matter whose fault it is, they will just avoid avoid avoid. It gets better after mid 20s

Yes

That’s normal. The average life span of a friendship is seven years. Just keep making new friends knowing they’re not meant to be forever.

Yes, it's normal when it just happens naturally. You just start talking less but you still have each other's contact info. Ghosting however is a sign of immaturity and possibly mental issues.

maybe you made progress but arent there yet

>>134033
It's men. Men are the problem.

Because you're an average person with no motivation and nothing to aspire to… maybe

procrastinating for 2 whole years? dont feel too bad, just need to start with the little achievable goals as you build up and reward yourself as you go along

𝒮𝓊𝓃𝒹𝒶𝓎 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝒶 𝒷𝓇𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉 𝒹𝒶𝓎 𝓎𝑒𝓈𝓉𝑒𝓇𝒹𝒶𝓎
𝒟𝒶𝓇𝓀 𝒸𝓁𝑜𝓊𝒹 𝒽𝒶𝓈 𝒸𝑜𝓂𝑒 𝒾𝓃𝓉𝑜 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓌𝒶𝓎
𝒲𝒽𝓎 𝒸𝒶𝓃'𝓉 𝐼 𝒻𝒶𝒸𝑒 𝒾𝓉?
𝒜𝓂 𝐼 𝓉𝑜𝑜 𝒷𝓁𝒾𝓃𝒹 𝓉𝑜 𝓈𝑒𝑒?
𝒲𝒽𝓎 𝒹𝒾𝒹 𝒽𝑒 𝑔𝑜?
𝒲𝒽𝓎 𝒹𝒾𝒹 𝒽𝑒 𝓁𝑒𝒶𝓋𝑒 𝓂𝑒?

This Sunday instrumental is goated btw

Oh, won't you lay down with me?
Let yourself be free

Hold your breath, don't breathe
Just believe in me
Trust you're coming with me
We can finally be free

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IcYfWknChuo

>>131687
>>131688
Moby lover <3

Why is all his new music so shit. It started being shit after he quit drugs and alcohol.

someday you will ache like i ache

>>134018
not that but what happened? what did you do?

>>134020
i really don’t know. he refuses to even actually talk with me and when he does talk he’s just cold and cruel. which is kinda why i feel i hated.

>>134029
why do you even want him back nonа? he sounds like a pretty shitty guy honestly. have some self respect, you deserve someone who actually treats you well.

>>134018
Never chase after males, they return when they feel you're done with them
Mine ghosted me for ~2 months and a week passed after I blocked him, and he came bck to me and he's now mentally my slave

>>134029
He's enjoying stringing you along, he likes that you're on your knees at his mercy, stop this bullshit and realize when you're the one running away they start to chase

>>134005
What do you mean by cut you off? Like you're essentially homeless now? Or he just doesn't want to talk to you? Do you have a job?

I’m 20 right now, I currently don’t practice meditation. I’ll look into this thank you very much, I deeply appreciate it.

Well he had kicked me out, and I went to live with my mother and stepdad and my stepdad was also abusive. My mother chose him over me and now im living with my grandmother. I did have a job, im in the process of trying to find another one now.

>>134031
Do you have any money saved up? I don't know what country you live in but maybe staffing centers exist where you live. Go to one and they should be able to get you a job within a week. It'll be a shitty job for minimum wage but it's work.

Block him on everything.

Start talking therapy/EDMR.

Move out (if you haven't already).

Get physically moving a lot NOW.

I thought my physically/emotionally abusive mother had ruined my life, now after finally cutting her off and moving far away my life is infinitely better in every way. You can do this OP :)

>>133852
i was suicidal for some time and even did some fucking stupid shit because of it, but now im mostly fine, even though recently i've been rethinking about it with no apparent reason.

I've always coped by distracting myself, either with the vidya, tv or movies and it has always worrked out.

I think that the best thing though is getting into an hobby that involves creating things, when i got into sewing i got wayyy less shitty thoughts and lived more happily, seeing your work improving is source of immense satisfaction.

You'll get better !

>>133852
Bad advice, but I just go full automated and I ignore what I feel until I explode and cry my eyes out.

>>133852
So, I don't actually know how to cope in a healthy way, so my advice is bias and only works for me because it's what I've adapted to. I'm not able to go to therapy because it's expensive (and I'm not even sure if I could convince myself to go anyway), so what I do is just reflect on my own suicidal thoughts and why I am the way I am. But that can drive me insane, so most of the time, it's really just me venting, and nothing productive is done about it.

But I would suggest journaling or keeping a digital diary so you have a way of getting your thoughts out of your head. It sounds cliche, I know, but I find that it works really well when you feel isolated as you bottle up these feelings and don't reach out to anyone. Please, please keep talking about your suicidal thoughts. Talk about why you feel the way you do, how it came to be. Write about the way you feel. It doesn't matter however you do it, just get it out there. This significantly helps and it will also make you feel lighter. Distracting yourself only works temporarily and will make you feel worse, if you only distract yourself.

Unironically find a hobby. If youve had suicidal thoughts for so long its become part of your identity. In my peak (or actually lowest of lows) i could only describe myself with physical characteristics because there was nothing more to my soul than the wish for death. Deciding to do anything remotely productive (such as studying) was extremely scary to me because it implied a future; which went against my whole identity!

Ive picked up a few hobbies. I can do my hobbies alone in my room, doesnt require me to go out or interact with people since that can be difficult for me when im feeling low. It not only distracts me but calms me and subconsciously makes me have the future in mind: i have a project to finish, i have to go to the store to buy x, etc.
The best hobby is when you create something, not passively consume.
Im not saying its going to fix everything but try it and see where it brings you. If you have difficulty thinking of something is there anything you used to do which you enjoyed? Or something youve always wanted to learn? Something that might be laying around that youve never used, etc. Lmk if you decide anything am curious

Also , you dont have to share your whole inner world with someone. “superficial” friendships are also good. If we were always talking about deep stuff with everyone that would get pretty tiring. Find some thing you can bond over with people and dont stress it tm

>>133983
This!!! Wonderfully said

>>119542
Screw it, might as well add the other stuff. See if anyone can relate, or if anyone wants a laugh at this bizarre fucked up family dynamic involving a pickme/boymom.

In our recent convo quoted above, mom also said, life would suck without men (HAHA), how she hates dykes (shell probably accuse me or question me if I am one, even though Im straight, if I keep explaining mens true nature and why I want to be separate from men as much as possible). Mom kept calling modern women who-oores, and I said thats what men say they want which influences women to behave sexually that way, that men are way more whorish than women. Mom brought up how women are so fucked up now (meaning, not feminine, shaved heads or blue hair, tattoos, and meeeannn to mens feewings). I said maybe its a result of trauma or abuse from men (not that a woman needs a reason, baby steps..). She said, oh I never knew that, so maybe something clicked?

Another time, mom said how she cant say no to men esp my brother. My brother is in his late 30s, yet he commands mom at all hours to make him a full meal, a snack, tea, clean up dog shit, or do his laundry (he only recently stopped telling mom about laundry past 12am, she usually stays up and even irons his clothing, complaining to me about it). Mom drops everything, incl if we were having a private convo or she was helping me with something, to fulfill my brothers command. As they leave, my brother glares at me before he turns around and walks away, so he can rat me out if he sees that I have a negative facial expression of annoyance. If I do and he sees, they both guilt trip me, accusing me of hating them both, when I just want my mom to stop hating herself and for my brother to leave me alone. When my brother commands mom to do whatever, he thinks hes a nice guy because he says "you dont have to do it right now". Mom then leaves me to wait while they have entire convos, so I just give up and do a hobby alone.

My brother orders mom around daily, to the point it feels like elder abuse. Its a subtle daily exhausting effect, not obvious extreme stuff like hitting. Mom neglects her own health issues, and I worry that my brother will compound them into something serious one day. Mom complains to me in private that shes tired, sometimes has to pretend shes sleeping, hiding in her room with her light off, so that he leaves her alPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>119544
Your family dynamic is toxic nona, but you already knew that. It’s easy for me to say to walk away from that shit when it’s not my family, but still, reading all that, my first thought was “run”.

Your mom has an emotionally incestuous relationship with your brother (typical boymom, many such cases) and it will only get worse, and as it gets worse, she’ll demand that YOU pick up the slack when her health fails. You can’t reason her out of this. Her entire identity is serving men. It’s a standard primitive survival tactic, probably enforced into her as a child: she knows that men are stronger, are more violent, command more respect and have more resources, so she hates and betrays other women in the hopes of being spared or protected from other men. It’s fear-based, but if she’s malicious, she’ll also actively enjoy other women’s suffering. Pick-me behaviour.

The best you can do is keep your head down, save your money, and leave. I’m sorry you’re dealing with this, it happens to way too many girls and women. Your mom doesn’t respect herself, or you.

>>119364
>>119365
Not op but lmao I can't even see women like you as human anymore, you're so mentally enslaved. Also don't call op a radiem, she's blackpilled and supports biological realism. Meanwhile radfems believe in socialization theory bullshit and most of them still want to suck dick

>>119817
Are there any female blackpill & bio realism places left? I miss r/blackpillfeminism

>>119851
Richard Dawkins related spaces used to be great but full of people that are way older than me. He used to talk about trans issues from a biorealism point of view but now he actively avoids the subject in anything he does.