>The good:
I don’t know but I made a new friend called YouTube and it helps me tremendously with my work.
>The bad:
Too much work, some of my teachers hand out ridiculously difficult tutorial questions, some teachers making everyone buy/use their book for the course, group work (I have no friends), oral presentations, commuting, never any spots in the library or computer pools, people being noisy in the “quiet” end of the library.

>>52212
I kind of get the feeling that all the blind raged hardcore leftism in unis is nothing but actual deeply conservative right wing ideals promoted trough mental gymnastics as "left" (horseshoe theory makes that surprisingly easy) so the upper class can keep the actual systemic racism (more like tribalism) they always had firmly in place regardless of social norms and the idiot majority actually buys that (maybe because it also benefits them).
I have never seen such a brutally dense bourgeois and "privileged" white suburb community anywhere else outside my university. No where else. I'm living in a country that isn't overly separating when it comes to social status or skin color and initially we don't even have that "race" thing going on outside of absolute poverty or absolute wealth and in those circles its less about race but more about heritage in general (you may be from the same race but the wrong tribe/family/clan so you are shit anyway).
But on the campus, for gods sake. I'm already chalksnow the pale ghost of bleachbath levels of white but I could feel the last remnants of melanin getting squeezed out of my body by the accumulated whiteness in that room (minus the one literal brown hijab token girl in a wheelchair and a few others, I shit you not) on my first lecture. And exactly those people who are pretty obviously not so fond of that magical divers community preach about it the most. I mean its really hard to gather such a homogeneous crowd in such a big city here, you have to put work into that but there they are. Most funny thing is I wouldn't even have noticed that trough my original socialization because as I said, no one really gave a fuck, it just struck me because the first words in the first lecture were already a litany of how bad da wipipu are, preached by a white guy to a room full of white people with a handful of more and more uneasy looking brown tokens dying in obvious external shame and wondering what crazy shit they got into. I'm loosely acquainted with one of the few Africans here and she told me that what made her most uneasy is that she came here because in her country of origin people have a giant boner for skin color and that makes things different from time to time and now they start the same shit here. Putting such an emphasize on complexion that literally everywhere she goes her obvious heritage is what she has to talk abouPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

i have a genuine interest in medicine but fuck if i'm actually going to be able to whole-heartedly study it in the future lol. i was a depressed retard in hs and never studied and didn't care about my grades and never applied to any good colleges because of it, so i've been working through this pharm tech program for the past few months but i'm legitimately scared it's not going to get my anywhere. i'm almost 6 weeks away from being done and i just have a pit in my stomach that i've wasted all this time and money for books and getting my license and taking the tests and going on an externship only to bum around for months or years because i can't get hired anywhere. it's ultimately my end game to move the fuck out and into institutional pharmacy for better pay and to get my foot in the door for real education about medicine, but given my track record with school i feel like that's just a pipe dream. sigh.

>>54302
I'm a recent grad in Microbiology and had similar fears to you. I was a really shitty student in both high school and college, like 2.7 GPA shitty. Despite that I got into a healthcare career that pays well enough and encompasses my interests because I had work experience on campus that was somewhat related and they asked for a degree instead of my transcripts. Now I'm doing fairly well at my job. I know it's a college student thread, but just wanted to post so folks like you know to not give up. All that matters is having that degree and taking on work and volunteer opportunities in the life sciences departments of your school. I'm not even sure if the latter is required but it definitely helps.

bumping thread

>>98700
Try taking small steps. Say "Good Morning" to people. Act friendly and ask people how their day is going. Give complements and smile regularly.

>>98698
Have you tried getting online friends?
It might help.

>>98682
>why not just socialize with actual normies if that does it for you?
I have tried and it doesn't seem to work except for one friend that I know since school. but I can't be needy and bother her all the time.

>>98698
i thought i typed this for a moment

bump

You should use the advice thread. Imagine if every time someone wanted to post they opened a new thread. It's ridiculous.
>inb4 but other posters won't see my post so quicky
Yes because you newfags keep making new threads for every stupid passing thought you have. Use the generals, don't clog the catalog with vents and other types of posts that belong in already existing threads. And of course it's always to talk about scrotes.

>>132122
>>132123
Im not sure if what the moids said is true, Im just telling you what they told me. Why are you accusing me of being a moid? This kinda hurts my feelings actually. Especially since my interests are so boy-coded for the most part.

>>132124
I'm not accusing you. It could be true (anything can happen) but there's no reason to think that yet, and if they jumped to that conclusion assuming you provided little detail, then they're not worth listening to.

And yeah by I meant they're projecting their dynamics of keeping sore losers around.

omg I quoted the wrong post

>>132095
I just want to point out that you literally act like this stuff you're calling out

>>132080
>>132078
>>132075
No one cares about your cucked MRA religion, I'd sooner become a Muslim than subscribe to this fake deep bullshit that can't keep itself consistent for 5 seconds

>>132103
I care

Religion is inherently a tool of oppression, it is used to justify slavery, murder and rape and other forms of violence. If you are religious or spiritual you support a system that has been used against women. You cannot be feminist and religious so if you are religious get out and stop being a handmaiden or stay and then be forced out because if you're not a feminist you also don't get the right to speak your mind because all religion states men are above women

Looks like we have a new schizo

>>131935
There's an entire channel on ridiculous Shabbos practices kek
They had a video where they ironed the countertop but I can't find it

One of these days I’m gonna get myself doxed and posted on kiwifarms

>>132082
There is a nonzero chance that your entire existence is being mocked in excrutiating detial on an imageboard in China

>>132083
They should invite me there

>>132084
不知天高地厚

When I was in elementary school me and my classmates used to sneak into the kindergarten nearby through a hole in the fence. We were trying to move stealthily around the playground, looking for places to hide. That was pretty fun.

>>132069
That sounds awesome. I miss hide and go seek

>>132068
I remember some of my earliest experiences with the internet was download ROMs and emulators (SNES, Sega, NES). Learning how to get these programs to work was foundational to my interest in computers, software, as well as my IT skills which us millenials supposedly have.

>>132077
lol this reminds me of the first time I tried getting into Pokémon when I was 9. There was a disclaimer on the rom download page like “if you do not own this game you must delete this file within 24 hours” and I actually considered taking it seriously

Honestly I'm tempted to, I can't get out of bed until 4pm some days. I don't know what to do, I can't find a job, I owe my mom hundreds of dollars of money for her credit card bill because she lets me use it to buy food which just screams to me I'm gonna be in debt later in life. I guess it's less I've given up and more I just don't know what to do

>>132058
How old are you?

>>132061
19 years old

>>132072
Literally a little goo goo gaa gaa baby at that age.

>>132058
>job
care work
pay back your mom, then leave if you hate it

>>130288
my doctor wont prescribe stimulants for my adhd because I am fat and my blood pressure is too high T.T

>>130300
>My next therapist used 'talking therapy' which involved me getting things off my chest, then they would give their professional feedback on thought patterns or behaviours.
That does sound helpful, and even though I didn't go to therapy because of childhood trauma, I wish mine was like that too. I wish she would give her professional insights on my problems but instead, she just invalidates every single one of mine. I tell her I have issues with masking constantly since I was a child, and her response to these kinds of things is "No, you don't seem to have that problem"?? It's like going to the doctor because your knee hurts, and they just tell you "No, your knee doesn't hurt. I think you're just imagining the pain!" She also told me that I cannot be autistic because my of my good ability read and write, and because I can feel emotions (I thought she was kidding me but no). What she probably meant was that I cannot be autistic because I'm a woman lol.
>there are extroverted nice people who like the same things you do and will make the effort to connect - so please don't hide from them :)
Well that sounds encouraging, I have met extroverts before who were very kind to me, I guess they liked that I'm quiet because that gave them more space to talk hah. I think I will try to attend such meeting, and if it sucked, I won't have to see the people ever again.
>Keep posting here with updates:) I believe in you!
Thank you anon, I will update under this thread in a month or two from now, I'll try to do as much of your advice as I can!

>>130301
I'm really sorry about that, but I am positive that we can make it out of it. As you have said, you were able to pull yourself out before a couple of times. Also I think it helps to hear of other nonas who went through the same and got better eventually. I think putting in a bunch of effort is worth a try, no matter how hard it will be.
>>130303
Hmm, I have heard of obese people being prescribed stimulants such as vyvanse for weightloss since it suppresses your hunger a lot… Maybe make him aware of that. You'd solve two problems at once.

>>130301
How does your body feel physically? Do you have an illness? I know I said to the OP, but please also get a full blood panel (including serum iron + ferritin) if possible.

>>130287
How it going OP?