/b/ - Random

i'm not a lesbian because i have crushes and feel attraction towards men almost exclusively and fell in love deeply with 2 moids but i'm extremely indifferent to men and masculinity.
i dont care for male celebrities, never had a crush on one of them, male bodies and faces and uninteresting and boring to me, almost repulsive, meanwhile i think girls are pretty and sensual and i'm raptured by beautiful girls in an artistic sense (but also average or below girls, i just think women are neat). i admire female celebrities a d important figures, i care only about girl groups in k-pop, i think porn is gross but i'd much rather watch lesbian porn than gay porn, or a solo girl rather than a moid, and i prefer and nearly only watch media with female main characters and preferably a large female cast (if theres no men even better).
im obsessed with women in this non sexual, non romantic way and i dont know anyone who likes women as much as i do while simultaneously being this uninterested in masculinity without being at least bi. hell i know lesbians more interested in men celebs and whatnot than me.
i know this sounds like a comphet cope wall of text but honestly i wouldnt care about being a lesbian that would be even better because men are despicable, but unfortunately when it comes to the real thing id only be into it with a man.
anyone else like this? im curious