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last week my bf slept over last night and after cuddling/ heavy petting a bit my alarm went off and i got up to get ready for work. i got naked in front of my dresser to put on work clothes and he actively sighed with desire. ikikikik what youre thinking what tf does this have to do with media?/ EVERYTHING just listen to me tell me story goddamnit. anyways i'm flattered now but at the time i was really embnarrsed/ shocked. i spent like all of my adolesnce thinking i was grossily overweight and super fat. in reality i was like a little overweight then defieniely overweight but now i'm like the healthiest i've ever been BUT i've been wanting to maybe lose a bit more weight, maybe put on some muscle now but i am just so worried about falling down the hole of body checking/ comparsion that is RAMPANT on the internet. i feel like i have no where to go. esp with all this ozempic and ariana grande shit going around . i just wish i could accept my body and want to be better without LOSING MY FUCKING MIND. even my mom, my friends everyone is always shitting on their bodies its so hard to not fall back into it.i just wish the fucking "body positivity" movement had actually done something in media rather than just creating shame for wanting to be thinner
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