I see a therapist and she’s very nice and understanding. I’ve never been really into therapy much (only started to go into it about a year ago). Even now, I don’t really buy into it. I don’t think it does much for someone unless they truly want help and I think it only really helps people who suffer from things like PTSD. But I can’t get over how I think she must be annoyed by me or put off especially when I pull my weird “poor attempt at larping as a normal person” bullshit once I get uncomfortable in any capacity. It’s weird because she was just telling me that I’m a very nice and pleasant person to speak with, but it’s like there’s this voice in my head that tells me otherwise when I notice that I’m being slightly awkward, and my perspective immediately goes 180. I think I might have this weird form of autism where I’m like overly neurotic and have to walk on eggshells when talking to every single person or else they can see how weird fucked up and awkward I am. But it just makes me behave even more strangely ironically. It’s like the opposite of autists who are socially unaware and can come across as rude and too blunt. I also do this shit where I’ll just say words for the sake of saying it just to fill in the awkward silence when talking to others. I had to embellish details in my life or else I wouldn’t have had anything to say to my therapist during our 40 minute session. I’ve basically done this in every social interaction I’ve ever had in my life. It’s the equivalent of trying to hit the word limit on a school assignment. I can’t just be fine being myself and not having anything to say, I must always have something to say or else the social situation becomes too much for me to bear. This probably makes people perceive me as either someone who’s talkative and ditsy, or as someone with some kind of mental disability. I feel like I’m in this never ending negative thought loop. I wish I could have somebody in my life where an awkward silence between us wouldn’t be considered awkward, and where I wouldn’t have to put on this front of pretending to be something I’m really not. I just want to be comfortable with the silences that happen and not having anything to say all the time, while still enjoying their company.

>>129588
Yes.

>>129635
the solution to this is basically just to resign yourself to the idea that people can and often will see you as awkward or stupid or whatever. it's much more effective than trying to dissuade yourself from the fear that people are judging you, and more effective than trying to learn to be more cool.
that goes whether they really are or are not in reality.

He is angry! Poor little fella, he almost killed me and his child by driving so badly but his feelings are hurt! so sad

Failed my learner's license theory test last week, and I have it again this morning. I've been doing the practice tests and as many times as I redo them, I never get to the point where I'm regularly passing them. And then it costs a hundred dollars for every time after this one that I take the test. What a pain! If I fail again, I may just take the L and give up.

You might be suffering from pretty privilege tbh. Sounds counter intuitive until you see how lonely prettu people are because their communities isolate them due to a perceived notion of "oh, they have it easy, they don't need my company." Also people are afraid of initiating with a pretty person.

If its not that, then maybe its your personality?

I dont know you, so take this with a grain of salt

The thing with making friends is that most people already have friends, so you'll come across a lot of people who already have as many friends as they are satisfied with. Look for fellow loners. Although lonely x lonely does come with its own troubles.

>>129643
I get but im too lazy for all this. Hopefully I can be some mentally ill mans neet wife and he'll let me sleep under his bed or in his closet or something (I love small enclosures). he can bring me food occasionally and throw away my piss bottles
>>129660
Moids on 4chan are psychotic idk
>>129665
kek it is true
>>129664
I mean honest im not aiming that high I just want someone that will let me leech and buy me shit off steam. thats all I want

>>129660
If you have to go to 4chan, if you REALLY have to, then please do not pick a catch-all board like /r9k/ l, /b/ or /soc/, these are the worst places to ask in, instead pick a board with a dedicated interest like /v/, /g/, /sci/, /lit/, …etc

>>129687
You are not selling a dream. Just slave your way into a small studio and give up all your dreams, live alone and die alone.
What if I don't want to?

mmm, schadenfreude

>>129679
No, it just proved that you can groom girls from a very young age to think doing sex work is good and profitable and get away with it

>>129682
Feminists did that by inventing terms like "sex work" and promoting indiscriminate acceptance. In consequence society stopped shaming WHORES as it used to and young girls are getting the impression that prostitution is legit work and not a downward spiral to ruin.

>>129651
They were always zombies. There is no soul behind those eyes.
>>129678
Things were never good.

>>129679
Feminism's biggest myth is that men are redeemable and could be socialized out of their sexuality with some sort of culture change, and that this would be deeper than merely conditioning them to be less open about their sexuality. That one was debunked almost out of the gate. Football team members might do the most rape per capita in colleges but you wouldn't want to be locked in an elevator with an antiporn but heterosexual male feminist either. But everywhere you look you see people clinging to the myth of male 'socialization' making them the way they are. Nobody is going to walk away from a myth just because it was completely debunked.

>>129679
No. Onlyfans rose on the promise that it is NOT conventional porn and NOTHING comparable to prostitution since she would be at most being physical with her physically present significant other, with no direct interaction with any other save through anonymized text through which she would be directly compensated. Onlyfans phenomenon proves that women are sufficiently vain as to be willing to do almost-porn and not-prostitution for money, which were already known in this sphere by virtue of cosplay scandals.

>>129682
I do not subscribe to the mind control theory of advertisement anymore. Ads do not target women due to some special vulnerability of women. Men are not immune to propaganda and women do not fold after seeing a single attractive woman enjoying a product. It is just that women are in the social position and suffer the social expectation of shopping, and in recent cultural memory even had the social expectation of mall-as-girls-hangout, which hangout millennial women are visibly nostalgic over. I also no longer subscribe to 'dumb slut' stereotypes. Bonnie Blue is probably smarter than many other equally financially successful entrepreneurs in the field of exploiting young boys' sexuality. Certainly smarter thanPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>129686
I still believe there is potential for men to be good but it has only been accessed by a few like Mr. rogers, Steve Irwin, and Bob Ross. I wish this was the norm but it’s not even close. The vast majority of men I would agree are garbage

>Working in porn is empowering
>The patriarchy groom women to sell their bodies
There is simply many polar opposites takes in feminism.

>>129689
You're degenerates.

>>129690
I’m aware I’m a degen, that’s why I wanna stop. I wasn’t really like this until recently and it makes me feel terrible

"He’s been a great partner and has been treating me amazingly" does not fit a porn addict profile, and you're not any better. Leave him and become a nun, you might be able to redeem yourself.

I want to kiss you but i don't want to fuck up both our lives

It's like Stockholm syndrome how badly I miss you sometimes, and I hate how much I don't want to

I just don't want to hurt your feelings

Please just come back one more time, but see me in person this time, please please please

i want you but i am too shy to tell you i wish you didn't leave

>>129444
If faggots like you got treated like a woman for a few days 95% of you would end your lives

My personal tinfoil but I genuinely believe that his channel was an incel psy-op astroturfed by YouTube to get more sympathy for incels in the world. Even when he uploaded his stupid wedding video the official YouTube headquarters channel commented saying "Congratulations!
Oh and let's not forget he even managed to get another girlfriend, a blonde American girl named Luna, before he met the current 7/10 wife that he's with. He uploaded some videos of Luna before he deleted them all and I guess the current wife came into the picture.

>>129315
No it would've been rip her dms you hate incels but keep gender reversing their talking points

>>129315
I'm not mad because I'm not bitter.

>>129655
>rip her dms
yeah her dms would be full of ugly faggots with horrible personalities with zero redeeming qualities. she would not magically score a cutie like this guy did.