>>131451
And soon my death will join us too hopefully

All I wanted was being human and living as human

Even something like going outside is a struggle

This isn't living this is just existing in an empty shell gettingg tortured everytime you try to leave that said shell

I've should do it when I was 12, I was young and naive, thought the world is for creatures like me

stop thinking about sex so much and you will be less miserable. yes, heterosexual reproduction is fucked up when you really think about it, but you have to ignore that and go on with your day

Don't have sex, the only position where you can kill a man while having sex is straddling him.

It is as well not recommended for men to do it, because of the consequences it can give to their male clitoris.

Female humans are not sub humans. If anything, the vagina evolved as that because it was coherent with pregnancy. Females are in charge of choosing who to mate with, females have never tried to be like males if anything they have desired to not be abused or used and discarded.

The ban of abortion in some countries will just make women more responsible of celibacy, if women cannot be celibate then you can say we are sub humans.

It is hard anyway, socially women are raised to comply and do as told, despite the bible proposing the complete opposite, that men should be the ones that should obey and work.

Females are not submissive by nature, if anything, they are raised to be compliant.

I am ignorant in history, so I cannot tell you since what period of time women started being raised to be compliant.

>>131034
>In the process though, women always ran the risk of creating a weapon too powerful for them to control
Woah… It's just like that one Jewish myth about a golem…

>>131035
>Judaism
Yes, exactly

No thought or act by any human can be inhuman. Subhuman is a nonsense word.

Men will have a mirrored anxiety to what is expressed in OP. The social imaginary does not make the interpretation expressed in OP as available to men as to women. The anxiety about the aggression in male sexuality defining them as people and manhood is still there.

Whatever this is:
>sex is the fundamental part of the reality
it comes from a pathological place.

Our sexuality is a part of our psyche and we can learn to accept the contradictions between it and the rest of our minds. Like a child turning on the lights over and over again to see whether the monster they imagine in the shadows is truly only in their imagination and eventually coming to trust that if they were to turn on the light nothing would be there. So can people look outside the sexual part of their minds to see whether sexuality's relation to the aggression inherent in male sexuality has removed their sexual partner's ability to regard them as whole people beyond the sexual context.

It is likely, and overwhelmingly so in a serious romantic attachment, that you will find that upon exposing their sexuality to their partner a man will be relieved to find that his woman has not replaced the totality of his being with a monster in her mind and a woman will find that her man has not replaced the totality of her being with a slut in his mind. That is unless some pathology hinders the acceptance of these ambiguities. Like the one which produces this:
>sex is the fundamental part of the reality
It may be relevant to point out that psychic health is hard to maintain when spending a lot of time online.

>>131408
I mean, I don't know either of you, but it's always a possibility that she just doesn't like you enough. It's happened to me, it happens to everyone. I recommend learning not to care much about the outcome one way or another.

I ghosted someone I spoke to after they "playfully" insulted me for saying I don't like the mantits pics they send me.

im feeling torn and indecisive about where to go to college

i was a neet on and off for several years after high school, after experiencing some awful events and a relationship that led me to becoming anorexic. so, im mid-20s now.

now, mostly recovered, but still struggling with the effects of trauma, im trying to decide where to go out of the colleges i applied to.

ever since i was in elementary school, i loved art. i was the art kid, i spent all my time in the art room. i had a very meaningful bond with my middle school art teacher. many teachers noticed and encouraged my talent. i drew constantly. by high school, this was my firm identity, but i totally got off track due to previously mentioned events. i stopped being able to draw. i barely graduated high school due to my attendance being so poor. nowadays, im trying to tentatively recover my ability to draw. i've posted some comics on tumblr and gotten 60 notes or so per comic. it's extremely fulfilling to me mentally. it makes me happier than anything else, making comics.

recently, i accepted my admission offer to a top 30 university, to study literature with an emphasis on creative writing. there's certainly things i could achieve with this- stories i want to publish, good internships. prestige. it's a ticket to being seen as smart. it's something to rub in the face of my enemies lol. at the same time, it would be a lot of work. i would have to read 300+ pages a week, write countless essays. i don't know if i have that in me. it's also expensive. i could afford it, but i wouldn't have as much money left over for other future expenses like a down payment on a house.

i can't stop thinking about the art school i was also recently accepted to. it's not as prestigious overall, but is still one of the best art schools in the country. i was accepted for creative writing, and the writing chair reached out to me and helped me increase my scholarship when i initially couldn't afford it. i could pursue projects ive been thinking of forever, like making ceramic/resin dolls, and be around other artistic types. for a long time, ive woken up at night feeling cataclysmically depressed that im not pursuing art. and i keep having dreams of the art room at my old high school. last night i had one. i was there, but suddenly i didn't fit in, and i was so sad. i also had one where i was visiting all my old friends who were also artists. these dreams feel very bittersweet anPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>131444
I'm way out of my depth here, but houses are pretty damn hard to buy these days, and I hear the people who took out loans for these art schools aren't always able to pay back.

Of course it is an amazing environment for making connections, networking, improving your skills. But if you managed to get a scholarship there, I wonder if there's other avenues you could use to achieve similar goals. Just a few of my ignorant thoughts.

>>131446
i can afford the art school without loans, it would end up being cheaper for me than the university! they ended up giving me a lot of aid.

>>131180
be gentle with yourself, think about how you would treat a friend going through what you have gone through

>>131174
get on trazodone

>>131188
I am on fluoxetine rn

though trazodone is an off label sleed aid apparently, mite b good

i have cptsd, i personally stay away from medication after many bad experiences with it as a teenager. i don't think medication treats the main issue, which is trauma. medications have short-term and long-term side effects.

i really really really recommend searching on youtube for trauma-informed yoga tutorials. this helped me a lot, it was actually magical. they let me begin to stop blaming myself for what happened. ive cried (in relief!) from them and for 24 hours after yoga i don't have self-hating thoughts about myself. i like to take a warm bath and then follow the yoga tutorial afterwards.

journalling has been a slow and steady aid. i have a problem with waking up late at night feeling awful and like im on a raft in the middle of the ocean and the raft is falling apart. a few hours ago, i journalled after waking up at night and i was able to process some feelings. i think the physical act of writing, versus typing, computes in one's brain more solidly.

i also think it's important to enjoy life. feeling good lets us begin to feel again. i know i really struggled with feeling at all. warm baths are one of those things that let me enjoy life. i also enjoy going to museums, playing my guitar and baking. this part is customizable, depending on what you enjoy!

eating healthy is important. i feel best when i eat three meals a day, with snacks in between. id also mostly stay away from drugs and substances in general. i drink a few times a year and i feel this is more than enough. i don't really like how it makes me feel, and i notice i feel worse mentally afterwards.

having socialization and good times with others is so important too. it teaches you that other people can be safe. i know i really struggle with socializing, and for a long time i was a shut-in. if you can hang out with people, even if they aren't super close, i think it's good. if you don't have friends and are very isolated, you could try something short-term like volunteering at a rummage sale. you'd mostly be around old people but you would have a task and some socialization. i did this recently so that's why im recommending it lol.

hopefully this isn't too much! if anything, just try the youtube yoga!! all you need is a cheap yoga mat and youtube.

>>131178
Back then i allowed my loneliness get to me and i started hanging out with people that i normally wouldn't. I became friends with people just because they liked me, not because i liked them, at the same time i was too afraid to make friends with people that i actually liked.

>>131187
i get that, i hope you are doing well <3

I also graduate a couple months ago and feel very lost, I didn't really have any friends left after high school and I don't know what I'm gonna do for work, my anxiety is eating me up and I can't even get out of bed until the afternoon most days. I'm tempted to kill myself but at the same time I know that wouldn't solved anything because eventually I'll be out of this bullshit and be looking back and be like "oh I can't believe I was so freaked out". I feel like I'm in some weird purgatory where I can't just calm down and relax but I also am trying not to let myself spiral out of control

>>131187
> I became friends with people just because they liked me
lol yeah this usually ends up poorly

>>131170
i wish i had stayed away from older men

They don’t like autistic girls because of their neurodivergence, but because they perceive them as naïve. They can’t maintain relationships with neurotypical women because they miss social expectations that have nothing to do with neurodivergence and everything to do with being poorly raised, emotionally immature, and unwilling to take responsibility for being a decent person. So they prey on you instead, hoping you’ll be gullible enough to take on all the domestic and emotional labor while they ignore you until they want sex. In their ideal setup, you stay occupied with your hobbies, ask for very little, and only exist when it’s convenient for them.

>>130870
Assuming the worst about people's intentions and reasons is why people become miserable like this. People generally want "autistic" people to date, simply because they want someone passionate with hobbies who aren't normies. That's it. Making up evil or insecure reasons for others actions just isolates you more.

>>131437
Without love, it cannot be seen…

But to be fair this is still a pretty retarded(superficial) reason to want someone autistic.

>>131439
Slightly autistic people are simply easier to love.
If they were the type of autistic that snapped at everyone because they were over stimulated it would be a different story.

>>131441
Liking someone for “not being a normie” and “having special interests” is not liking them for their autism. It may sound better than the previous example, however it’s still just as superficial - only the image of autism.

If you are autistic yourself, if you had a lot of close experience with autistic people (and so learning to accept them, as you would do with any other person) and just get along with them better, now this is the type of reason that has meaning. You may actually love the person themselves.

“Slightly autistic”. “Easier to love”. A childish idea.

>>128425
THIS i get mistaken as trans online so much its annoying

>Decide to join again and send my pussy and tits to the mod
Nigga why?

>>128419
God I wish that were me (Revy). I'm weak and skinny

>>130609
same

>>131052
This was a very nostalgic and common post

Amy keeping up the misandry, and deleting everything else because she can't handle the truth.

>>131075
Lol the CIA definitely has you on some list somewhere next to the Unabomber

>>131077
hit me up when leon kennedy is real and doesnt go bald like real moids and maybe then ill submit to a man

>>131083
Suggesting a book to a male is like suggesting a book to a gorilla but since you are so passionate about this clearly maybe you should read the feminist mystique and see how housewives in the 60s actually felt despite having “the american dream”

>>131057
Extremely male post but good if true

>>131053
Nona your job sounds like it sucks ass. Have you considered getting a new one?