>>130773
Sorry about that, gorgeous.

You just want to fight. At least talk about something fun like your favorite movies or something

>>130774
I don't want ugly men like you to read my posts and keep giving me retarded reponses in hope of receiving attention

>>130775
I really don't care if you give me attention or not like I said before. In fact I'm only occasionally responding as I have time while I'm cooking

>>130776
Nobody cares attention whore

>>130777
Since you asked, the lamb chops were delicious

You're not alone. Ugly man psyop is fucking real. Men love seeing women suffer.

>>129745
If you have an ugly man all the others wil look at you and you get all the attention and you are the more attractive of the two in the couple

>>129753
dating someone as a comparison tool is foul

I don't mind because I like that he looks like a rodent

>>>/media/37390
also this embarrassing autismfest kek

Hmm, what else should I finish with?

I was born on 02 December 1999, around 10 AM. My apgar scores were good. Like 9/10 on average? I learned the Latin alphabet at a very young age somehow, yet could barely read during the first months of first grade. But then I was number one in my class for reading in elementary.

When I was 7 yo I saw an opportunity to steal a lollipop. There was a small crevice under the wall separating the buying area and the entrance. I put it under there and retrieved it later. I noticed the guard looking at me as I was leaving with my family but he did nothing. I tried stealing chocolate eggs when I was younger but I failed.

In my class there was another boy with my birthday, only he was 10 hours older. One time someone threw my heart-shaped iron sharpener at someone and they had to be hospitalized. I was told I shouldn't bring this anymore. During winter, I saw a report about a corpse that had been found in snow. When I went out with my classmates, I suggested we dig around in case we find a corpse or something. Then we infiltrated a kindergarten via a hole in the fence. We hid in one of those toy houses, it even had an attic!

When I was 8 I contacted salmonella and it was pretty bad. I don't know if it was sepsis or pre-sepsis, the papers are hard to read. The temperature was about 40 Celsius or something. I woke up in a walled crib crying for water, my recent memories being: me hiding from roaches on the ceiling under a very suffocating blanket, and my family driving me around in a shopping cart around a pole. They said I was crying their names out, apparently. (in real life) I think my stay in the ICU lasted about 5 days? or so
For the next few years mom would lament about having been robbed of her child.
Only when I turned 23 my mom broke the news I changed a lot after this and my sister confirmed it. I became aloof. Maybe this is where my idiosyncracy comes from?
ChatGPT said it was delirium and my shrink said yeah, it could be delirium at that temperature.
At around the same age I ran head first into a tube sticking out of the ground, hit it with my head and lost consciousness. I woke up to my grandma fetching me. Had to walk around with bandages on my head.

I started actively using the Internet on September 17th, 2009. There was this blog platform popular among girls where I'm from. Like tumblr but with a shared feed and forums.
Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

Forgot my favorite memory.
When I was like 10 and coming back from school, I saw a kitten near our apartment door. It was so unusual, what is a kitten doing here? I was mesmerized. Then my uncle opened the door, asked me "what the hell are you doing" and threw the kitten down the stairs. I didn't know what to feel so I didn't.
To be fair, I liked him. He was nice to me and played WOW with me.

Test

Ok here’s the last one
Someone offered to compare us to ow character and here’s mine
I wanted to post this
> You're Sigma, or Sybren de Kuiper. A self-absorbed old man with bare feet. Totally insane. One day, your life's work drove you mad, and music became a permanent fixture in your once-clear head. It might sound creepy, but madness actually suits you. A rather aloof character, it seems he can only truly feel at ease when alone, which, I think, resonates with you. You're comfortable in your own world, pieced together bit by bit, often excluding any unnecessary connections. I think you're a thoughtful and engaging conversationalist, but you have issues that prevent you from opening up to people. But the question is, do you really want to?

>>130654
Reading the mental illness on this site daily is genuinely exhausting. If I were your bf I'd seriously just tie you to the bed and tickle you until you peed yourself and cried for shit like this. Then I'd reprimand you as you sit there in your own piss. There's no other way to reform somebody like you

I don't know why that cunt cow normalfag that dislikes me for no reason and that fake Stacy that likes men's attention and gets pissed if other girls get more attention from other guys. On top of that shes a nepotist and is friends with those cow cunts

>>130663
I've been told people like when you affirm their feelings. So I'd like to tell you those other women sound unpleasant and you're right about them!

I wish I could have a fervour for life again. Trying to force myself to do new things never brings out the enjoyment that people say it will.

I feel so fucking lonely in every room, yet interacting with other people feels exhausting, if not completely disingenuous. I wish I could have friends, but human interactions feel so alien I can't even describe it. People stare at me like they don't know what to do with me. I'm at a point where I'm wondering if reading about/watching characters interact in the media I consume would suffice for human interaction.

It goes either one of two ways. Either I meet someone who has no interest in me whatsoever, or someone who treats me like a wall they talk at. The only people who talk to me are people who love those who they can talk their ear off at, those who are always available because they don't have anything better to do. Cucks who crave attention from someone else and come to me instead because they're not getting it from someone else.

Worse thing is, that in some way or another, it's my fault for being so insecure in the first place.

>>130716
Damn you're the version of me, i think I have stopped caring about that now. As you start observing the way people behave, it shows you why it's better not to have friends

I think most people honestly have the wiring for 130 iq. like, not joking. they dont seem much dumber than your 130er, nor the 130er seems much smarter than them. they just aren't allocating their resources there, or missed the developmental opportunity to develop the wiring required for 130. but the upper ceiling is there

It's very strange but I feel like online messages are so much more intimate than real life presence? It sounds cringe, but this is how it feels. Lewd and highly emotional texts feel more exhilirating and real emotionally wise, but I guess physical presence actually has a calming effect on the nervous system. It's good for you but not in a way you can easily notice. Meanwhile texting with the same person can excite me so much and suddenly change my mood climate.

Maybe one is just excitatory by nature and the other is calming. Well, if you need excitement in your relationship, like many do, maybe this is the answer…

Even though it's been 4 years I'm still treated like an annoying freak when I joke around with others online. The difference is I've accepted it and I'm having fun with it now.

Veganism is cringe but I actually respect their determination to deny biological imperatives a little. Control your own destiny typa thing.

>>130718
i understand what you mean but for a different reason. when im texting i can think about my response and phrase my thoughts in a way taht communicates my intent the best but irl i feel so stiffled by anxiety and everything feels to fast and leaves me feeling like im not being my true self

[Kertosäe]
Kuule mun toive, mä haluan pois
Eikö aikani täynnä jo ois?
Olen jo nähnyt tämän elämän
Kaiken sain ja vielä enemmän
Kuule mun toive, mä haluan pois
Eikö aikani täynnä jo ois?
Tahtoisin lähteä kuin sotilas
Terveisin, tuntematon potilas

- What are you doing?
- Just watching the world.

this is definitely one of my all time favorites

Zaproś mnie do swego domu, nie powiem nic nikomu
Będziemy robić to na sposobów różnych sto
Ze mną będzie ci jak w raju, więc siebie mi nie żałuj
Ja zrobię z tobą to, czego inne tylko chcą

Now its time to dance
The discoteque is far, but i can hear the rhythm
So now i stop my car
Im going to the bar
And finally start
Dancing all around

>>130576
he is basically your wartime enemy with how much he hurts you, so him dying should be a good thing

I mean he's just exploiting you fuck that guy

Post hands, this whole message is so tranny-coded

>>130574
his life and deaths are absolutely not your responsibility. if he threatens suicide, thats just a manipulation tactic. he has hurt you before and he will hurt you again when he has the chance. fuck this guy.

>>130574
his life and deaths are absolutely your responsibility. if he threatens suicide, thats a genuine cry for help. he has hurt you before but he definitely will not hurt you again when he has the chance. save this guy.

>>130696
What the fuck are you talking about. This faggot moid needs to get over himself and stop manipulating this poor girl. Did you not read the part where he threatened to kill her before? Handmaids like you should stay quiet.

>>130574
Any updates?

Just stop talking, if they or others whine then you can tell them you're not comfortable with the things theyre saying and leave it at that. Don't let others run your life for you, spend time with people that add to your life and want to be around

>>129459
Just admit that you don't want anything to do with them and who are if they use a word against you?
They want to gain power over you, you don't have to respect them.

>>129519
last year my gay dorm RA tried to stay in my bedroom while I changed tops because he's gay and that apparently makes it ok
i got really anxious because i'm socially awkward and it was really hard to get him to leave in a way that sounded like friendly banter and not like i was extremely uncomfortable because literally all my friends and everyone around thinks he's a great guy, and i didn't want to seem homophobic or make things awkward
so, i think i can understand where OP is coming from here, if this person actually can create social consequences for her

>>130624
Is this an NA thing? In my region gay men never stay in the room when you are changing even women leave, what in the lack of privacy you all have going on?? Your nakedness is your own to share with who you choose. It is one thing if you are in an area where nudity is common, we do have such areas but seriously??? In YOUR bedroom??? Know your rights. You have the right to personal space it is in UN rights of a child and an adult. You also have the right to have relationships or the lack thereof. Don't be letting people talk you out of your rights as a human or call you evil for exercising them.

>>130649
same poster as
>>130624
it's a virtue signaling thing, i think anyway, at its root, maybe the influence of social media and tv as well, the idea that girls and gay guys are on the same team or smth and that they're automatically good people because of oppression
for example, the girls' bathroom on my dorm floor was literally declared "girls and gays" in the first week of first semester, they even put up a sign on the door lol
and kept letting the guys use it even after the two gay guys on our floor continually left the toilet seat up, left pubic hair on the seat and even left the toilet unflushed a few times, and left the sinks a mess, and that's not to mention the shower situation
obviously i wasn't comfortable at all and i started showering at like 5 am to be as sure as possible there wouldn't be guys in there. at least there were no trannies, thank god
and i think girls (like me) who are actually made really uncomfortable with gay men overstepping boundaries still cooperate because of social pressure. i'd love to say that i stood up for myself and said something, but if i had that kind of self-confidence i probably wouldn't be posting on crystal cafe

I see my post about him from a long time ago was deleted. Much to think about.

I know this thread is pretty dead but has anyone gone through the CR1 process without a lawyer? I'm worried my fiance is about to piss away thousands on something we can file for ourselves.

>>127271
post on reddit maybe?

You didn't have to bring them back. Hashtagfail for me but I know they lurk so I can't say which but don't listen to some of these.

I think I am finally at the age where my brain cannot put up with LDRs anymore. I was reading a dating advice book because I saw an excerpt I found interesting and I saw in the text the exact same reason why my mind cannot stand it anymore. I am kind of annoyed about it because it used to work so well for me. At least this realisation came after the break up and during the time of peace while single. Men in close distance to me are not people I want to date so I guess it is single from here on out. I guess I can try an hour or two out but I cannot be bothered. Plus the odds of finding someone who isn't embarassing in someway lookswise UGH. Well, it is what it is. Had a good time in my dating life.