So I barely drank anything because my mom was hoarding dirty teacups… and I specifically washed a cup yesterday while doing dishes I come home clean teacup disappeared.
I ask her in the morning she forgot and says she took this new cup from the cupboard.
I said so is it the clean one I washed. Not really an answer she gave me. I kept bringing it up more annoyed each time because no I did all dishes and wasn’t gonna do anything today. I had to still get to myself because I was on a date yesterday, came home a little late. The lights had to be out an hour after I laid down to warm up from the cold weather.
When I woke up because yesh I fell asleep, I brushed my teeth at 7 am like fml.
And I ate a lot of liquorice for my throat.
So no the times spend at home haven’t been to great. I could have chosen not to go out but I needed it. I needed human contact and attention. My mom and I never just go out to go out. We never just go for a walk. When she wants to do something I’m not feeling it and same goes for her. So then I usually try to make an appointment to hang out together and she always flakes on me unless I’m visibly distressed trying to appease me. When she makes an appointment with me sometimes I try to go not always. Last time i was so disappointed but I’ll spare this rant for later oh no it was the time before tgat but yes actually last time I was disappointed. Each time it’s stupid moids that ruin our quality time or some grape story at women empowerment at church.
Like how am I supposed to feel empowered by that when I was only in the mood for lighthearted stories like wtffff and no trigger watning beforehand that lady just dumped her trauma on the group talking about God told me to forgive the scrote.
No after that I was so .. done with going to church I don’t even feel slight motivation to go for a long time. Oke in a way I can see how forgiveness can help the victim move on but it’s not oke how she just dumped her trauma with no warning.
Moral of the story I hate moids and my mom is such a pick me she can’t even plan fun activities with me. We’ve never really done hobbies so idk why I’m expecting it from her, I just crave female friendship and seeking it in my mom is only gonna leave me disappointed
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