I cry at least once a week thinking about my appearance. I have an apple body shape and I'm short so I'll always look fat no matter how much weight I lose. I'll also just look unattractive, if I had wide hips I could look good, I could even put on more pounds and still look good, but I don't. I have narrow hips that give me a boxy figure, not to mention my hip dips. I have really ugly downturned sagged eyes that make me look sad and not confident all the time + short blonde eyelashes that make my eyes look masculine. My hair is big but it's not curly or straight, it has a slight ugly wave. Best thing you can do is straighten it, and it still looks weird because the wave will remain, also it will always, and I mean always, look frizzy, even if I straighten it, curl it, leave it natural, or try to tame it with expensive serums. I have a wild hair in my bangs that always makes them look wrong, but I can't cut my hair into anything else because it'll show my huge forehead, and I'll just hate it, this is the only thing I'm comfortable with and I'm not even actually comfortable. My "strong point" is my chest. Skinny girls asked me to "lend them my tits" as a joke. Men like them too. They're fine until the shirt and the bra is off. They are just two sacks of gross lard and fat, and the nipple is too down. They don't look that different from the tits an obese man could have. I also have uneven labia which have made me look up surgeries ever since I was 10, but I keep postponing it over morals. The worst of it is that this is the best I will ever look, I'm at my peak. I've never looked better, I was even fatter as a kid. At my best I still feel like shit, and I'll only feel worse as I get uglier and uglier with age. If this wasn't enough, I was retarded enough to cut myself, and now my thighs have visible scars, so now whenever I wear shorts or a skirt everyone can see my mistakes. I can't wait until the day I just stop caring, but now it just seems impossible.

>>126091
Wavy hair can look good, but my philosophy is always less effort is better. How many years have you been struggling with it with straighteners and all that?

>>126094
9 years probably

>>126094
9 years probably. The thing is I don't have a good wave. I thought a layered haircut might help so I may get that this weekend.

>>126113
>>126114
sorry my reply sent twice (x_x)

>>126095
don't worry, soon you'll be able to have a relationship with an emotionless AI robot.

>>126092
Then you have brain damage because ugly men with attractive girlfriends are viscerally disgusting and opportunistic con artists. If you live for scraps for an ugly ass scrote your brain is in the sewer

>>126093
Honestly ugly scrotes are even worse. If the guy is hot and has good personality and is older ? I can look past it, but this is incredibly rare and honestly something you should dispense with anyway. It only happens in books and movies. But if they're ugly it's about 50 times worse it's offensive to the cells in my brain and my body. It's one of the worst kinds of nasty.

Ugly men have been praying on and oppressing women for millenia. We only pretend to be attracted to ugly men because we are pressured and bullied into pretending we like nad tolerate their shitty hypocrisy and parasitism.

If your phd can't get you a job I don't know what you expect me to do with my nothing. Stop giving me boomer tier advice that isn't working for you either.

>>126107
Yeah that's why I said "other than the hypocrisy", I hate the double standard in that case but my revulsion to the other dynamic is paramount
I guess one of them feels more objectifying than other, stuck in time, going after the same young women who most likely view them innocently regardless of the wide difference in biological time zones
Women's bodies being inherently degraded, doesn't help but it gets worse as they age and are unable to relate to them at any level

I desperately fell in love with an older coworker. We met during an occasional job, i thought it was a friend crush, so i went out of my way to stay in contact and we've become friends but now i can't bear anymore the fact that i fell in love with him
Fucking old bastard

was in love with a normal rly soft spoken guy who likes fishing and wears suits and acts like. the most normal person ever. but he had way too close of a friendship w a woman who dresses like a dominatrix and says stuff like "darling" and it made me want to kms bc why is my older suit wearing fishing guy with glasses a degen who wants it up the ass? he was rly nice to me and its the biggest mindfuck ever to have to look at him and know he probably watches ball busting porn. i hate her. anyway.

ever since i gave up on him ive been spiraling and wanting to kill myself and other people more and more (i wouldnt actually kill other people so dont be a fucking moron and report me) ive been hanging out with a guy who is a total spaz and has like 3 missing teeth from god knows what and at first i thought i was hanging out with him cuz i hate myself and i hate him and it felt good to roll around in the filth together and flush our psych meds down the toilet and argue. but actually i kind of like him and i think i like being around and honest piece of shit more than i like being around a guy who lies to everyone about getting his prostate mauled by another woman. is it ok to keep living like this? does this mean i want to fuck toothless spaz guy?help

>>126026
Battle dominatrix woman in armed combat, to assert yourself as the true dominant alpha female.

>>126026
>Dominant woman gets the cute soft spoken moid
>Submissive woman gets the degenerate druggie with missing teeth who's probably going to do something horrible to her
Such is life

>>126002
>friend crush
What a silly concept.

>>125971
I'm kinda tired of having to prove I'm a woman for no apparent reason, if you think I'm a moid just don't interact with my posts. Besides it's not like I was looking for any advice, I just wanted to write it out to vent.

>>125971
>>125991
How is it manipulating to want to break off with someone for a while ? Is it it that important to you that someone you don't know needed to take time off ? Seriously bizarre behavior

>>125796
this is fucking sending me

if someone doesn’t help me i am going to die.

the way you won’t leave a rape victim alone is fucking terrifying. no skin in the game, now a mother in her 30s. it’s good that you showed the world who you were. i’m glad i’m at peace and don’t ever think of you. it’s funny now to see you carrying on. nothing will ever stop you and it effects no one but people’s perception of you. it brings me genuine peace to know i got it out of my system and moved on, and you will never feel peace or move on and that is karmic justice for never growing as a person. either you keep doing this to yourself or you accept what you did to an innocent young girl. either way i won a two years ago and it’s hilarious watching you shadow box.

>>126037
the browser history at the homeless center PCs probably gets wild

OP you will never be trent reznor ❤️

>>126073
Actually, one day I will be.

is there a women’s shelter near you? if so, you should go there and you won’t have to deal with these moids. also, if you somehow can, open up a venmo/gofundme and some nonas can help you a bit.

>>126084
I'm on the waiting list, still, for one shelter, and tomorrow I'll try to get on the waiting list of another one.
Still on the streets, waiting to get inside a shelter.

Thanks for the heads up on those services you mentioned.

>should i see how she feels about me nonas
>i love her and she's a great person, but she's also a drug addict who refuses to get better and i can't have that stress added on top of everything else going on in my life rn
You don't need anyone else advising you on this, you already know the answer

please don’t. she does love you but drug addicts will choose their substance over their loved ones. key word: refuses to get help. i have addicts in my family and know that their love is very real but their brains are taken over as if by a demon or parasite (depending on how far in the addiction they are) and their love is pushed out of the way by their chemical need of the drug. in a moment of clear thinking she realized what she did wrong. she has chosen the drugs over you and you don’t need the stress in your life. tell her you will keep your arms open for her if she really does decide to recover but until then you will not contact her. i am sure that she does love you but her brain has essentially been taken over by a substance that is literally poisoning her and also messes a lot with her emotions and way of thinking. and the reason she is being “confusing” is probably because of brain damage. she sounds immature and possibly bpd or something. choose your peace because this girl needs to get better and mature.

Dating someone who loves and appreciates me after getting out of an abusive relationship of 2 years

>>125297
I'm happy for you, nona.

I cleaned out my bookmarks!

My hair was getting long so I chopped off about 4 inches. It felt good.

Yesterday I was given oreos. I haven't had them in a long time and I ecpected them to be underwhelming but they were really good.

Today I was complimented on something I've been working hard on.

Fall has the best food. I love sweet potatoes and chestnuts.

your parents are neglectful assholes, I'm sorry about that nona. dads getting rid of their old kids ASAP after they find a new woman is a fairly common thing for some reason

>>125660
He doesn’t even have new kids. he’s always been like this. Like he just shouldn’t have been a dad. So I don’t fault him for it. I just wish I wasn’t born.

>>125658
Very sorry to hear that your parents lack empathy for their own daughter. Hope it can turn around for the better for you. Glad to hear that your managers cared. Its understandable that you feel indebted to them, but they were just being decent human beings. Maybe in the future those uncaring parents can be dumped in an old age home that shows that same lack of empathy.

My parents cared too much. My mother would emotionally abuse me for not meeting her ridiculous expectations of me being a genius (had to start school at 5 y.o. as a child with ADHD because of them). She would feel guilty over it which lead to lovebombing spats which fucked up my capabilities for physical affection and made me anxiously doubt any acts of kindness towards me for the rest of my life.
They would bitch and moan about me not being able to support myself while also providing just enough support for me to depend on them, completely unprompted.

I ended up moving to another country and, as difficult as my life was for the first few years, it forced me to learn a lot of important things about life and myself. A part of me even regrets that I wasn't kicked out by my parents the moment I finished college.

It's ur right to not like those parts (I don't know from experience what it's like in the dating scene when ur lesbian cause I'm bi) but I don't think it's trans women's fault you can't get laid

>>125976
I can get laid and have just fine, just first time back in the dating scene in some time and it is wildly bad that for every female on an app if they're not just a porn bot, there's like 5 more accounts that are just dude's
Always the quickest to like your profile and most active because they are desperate

Also had a friend recently who had a very bad falling out with her friend who is MtF trans, kept getting aggressively touchy and cuddly at the bar even though she was actively saying no, so they turn around and tried making out with her boyfriend as if that would somehow bypass the no
They have become absolutely predatory at this point and it's worth being upset over

>>125973
sexual orientation is based on sex, and you can't change your sex no matter what surgery or drugs one does to oneself. there's nothing wrong with you and it's bullshit to feel like you have to explain yourself. i might suggest looking into activities over the apps, like crafting or volunteering. of course you'll run into the ftm girlies, but as sexist as they can be at least they're not rapey like >>125979

>>125973
It’s not just you. As a fellow fem4fem it’s just made it harder to wade through the muck, and it feels weird to have to relinquish what would be a completely feminine space to the invading sausage party for the social brownie points. A lot of the lesbian scene has been choked up polys trying to pawn their ugly boyfriend on me, or trans with hairy chests. I honestly have more luck in bars than on dating apps now, cause the bullshit you have to sift through just to find regular fem women is getting to be annoying asf.