>>131500
girl…

>>131502
I just miss him so much. Ive been spiralling the entire time and everytime i check his socials he looks fine. What messes me up even more is that he might be with a different girl and the idea of him being intimate with someone else kills me from the inside. I cant tell him to remember me but also i cant bear him to forget me

>>131503
> everytime i check his socials
Stop

what the fuck is to miss about him
he is too retarded to communicate, then he says he "tried giving you the chance" and then literally ignores everything you said to him because he cant be bothered to listen to you
>Like how am i supposed to know there was an underlying issue when he actively conceals it and refuses to vocalize and he just bottles it up and explodes one day
you are not supposed to read his mind, nona. he is supposed to be a functioning human and speak about his issues instead of bottling them until everything goes down the gutter.
you cant change him, he is immature, it would take years of therapy to make him barely functional, its not worth it.
>>131504
this. whats to gain there? you could find nothing there that would comfort you.

>>131505
He said that it was hard for him to talk and he said he tried telling me but it just went from one ear to another and he didnt bother telling me because it would lead to an argument to will go no where. Im like how am i supposed to know if you didnt tell me. How would it go from one ear to another if you havent physically vocalized and communicate. He also said that he always felt alone when we were together meanwhile i put all of my attention to him.

Also to answer OP's questions even though she's not here anymore
My psychologist that was evaluating me and the psychiatrist who was managing me both told me CPTSD is more about therapy rather than anything else, medication alone can't help.

Psychiatrist suggested EMDR therapy, but it sounded so dubious the way she described it.
>It was pioneered by a woman who noticed moving her eyes around helped her cope with cancer
like, ok

>>131475
if you have limited mobility, you could try just some of the stretches. im sure there's a way. they have chair yoga for elderly people, so im sure someone could do some kind of yoga if they were fat.

>>131447
>>131482
also, i forgot to mention, somatic exercises have been helpful for me! i recommend sheBREATH on youtube. they are easy to do and help a lot.

>>131447
>>131483
Thanks for recommending trauma-informed yoga and exercises, will try it. On eating healthy regular meals and sipping water help me with the feeling of throat constriction and nausea around heightened anxiety and panic attacks, it's difficult to eat but reminds you you're still human

>>131447
great advice ty <3

Being short with high pitched voice is a death sentence

tbh i hate my voice too actually

What's even the point? Attractive men will never love me, desire me care about me. I will never feel what being valuable is like, what being loved is like. I'm so sick, I don't even want to think about it anymore, I'm going to do it, I'm going to overdose. I just want to be loved and desired, I want to be pretty and worthy

I'm in so much pain, i juust want to be loved

All i want is love having such strong need and not being able to satisfy it is the worst feeling. Im literally starving, mentally and there's no cure for that.. im a dead person who has died long time ago from starvation, thats all. Then you start physically starve yourself too because theres no point in carrying a dead mind in a rotten flesh. I was meant to be buried under ground as soon as I born but instead i had to pay for my sins in this hell because i must've been a bad person in my previous life, right?

why do you bite yourself?

I'm 20 and also used to self-harm, I can also get quite anxious. You should try some fidgetting toys or trying to release that anxious energy on something else. Exercise, art, writing, music. It will be hard at first and you'll have to force yourself to not self-harm. The more you practice eventually you'll condition your brain to express it in whatever other way you choose and it'll get easier.

I don't recommend talking about doctors on self-harm unless you're 100% sure you cannot control yourself. They could send you to a mental ward if they consider you a threat to yourself, and that place is more often than not a worse experience. Cheers nona, good luck

>>131490
probably the same reason parrots pluck their own feathers out when stressed out

>>130869
He’s right tho, all the people here are unfunny and like the nona he was replying to, she is literally like a female mtf tranny. the fact his post is still there with all the 15 yo male threads means this site is dead.

i have retard fatigue

I wish I was rich god damn it. I can only imagine the beautiful universe in which I have fantastic piles of money.

>>131492
tfw multi-billionaire

My brother that's in an abusive relationship (again) messaged me after 5 months of no contact just to tell me he was going no contact because I'm the only one in our family willing to be open about the fact I won't tolerate what's going on with him. I know social isolation is a big thing with abuse. But it really is hard on my end to be sympathetic after all the resentment built up, too. This motherfucker kicked me out of our house 2 months after he started dating his partner. He never speaks to me unless to ask for money or some favor. He never used to do that. I know that's shitty of him, and maybe just him. But he barely talks to anyone else in the family and we all have the same thoughts about this situation. He let her call me incestuous because I was worried about this relationship for him, when he had just gotten out of another abusive relationship. He didn't defend me. I heard every word of that argument. I haven't forgiven him. She tracks his location, he has to lie to even visit our mother. I know a shit relationship when I see it. I say I don't care, and literally nothing changes, because he didn't talk to me anyways. But I still tear up about it. We used to be super close.

>>131480
>>pink nipples
good taste.

>>131480
>Right leaning + not feminist
extremely cringe

>>131463
>bald
cringe

>21-25 or not stupid
>does not really identify with anything, cares about humanity as a whole (dutiful and self-sacrificing like a male feminist)
>can survive and make peace in any situation (such as being trapped in a basement)
>good fat storage, slightly fat because he takes care of his needs
>promiscuous and easily charms others to have homosexual relations (“my husband’s bf”)

>>131476
The scientific reason is when they met you dopamine flooded their brain every time they were with you so it was easy to do nice things and be romantic. after a while the novelty wears off and there is less dopamine so it's like watching a movie you have already seen 500 times and you just want to be done with it.

a mature man knows that doing genuinely nice things and serving they ones they love will bring them joy, even if it doesn't seem like it will.

also porn has rotted men's brains so good luck finding a good one.

stop thinking about sex so much and you will be less miserable. yes, heterosexual reproduction is fucked up when you really think about it, but you have to ignore that and go on with your day

Don't have sex, the only position where you can kill a man while having sex is straddling him.

It is as well not recommended for men to do it, because of the consequences it can give to their male clitoris.

Female humans are not sub humans. If anything, the vagina evolved as that because it was coherent with pregnancy. Females are in charge of choosing who to mate with, females have never tried to be like males if anything they have desired to not be abused or used and discarded.

The ban of abortion in some countries will just make women more responsible of celibacy, if women cannot be celibate then you can say we are sub humans.

It is hard anyway, socially women are raised to comply and do as told, despite the bible proposing the complete opposite, that men should be the ones that should obey and work.

Females are not submissive by nature, if anything, they are raised to be compliant.

I am ignorant in history, so I cannot tell you since what period of time women started being raised to be compliant.

>>131034
>In the process though, women always ran the risk of creating a weapon too powerful for them to control
Woah… It's just like that one Jewish myth about a golem…

>>131035
>Judaism
Yes, exactly

No thought or act by any human can be inhuman. Subhuman is a nonsense word.

Men will have a mirrored anxiety to what is expressed in OP. The social imaginary does not make the interpretation expressed in OP as available to men as to women. The anxiety about the aggression in male sexuality defining them as people and manhood is still there.

Whatever this is:
>sex is the fundamental part of the reality
it comes from a pathological place.

Our sexuality is a part of our psyche and we can learn to accept the contradictions between it and the rest of our minds. Like a child turning on the lights over and over again to see whether the monster they imagine in the shadows is truly only in their imagination and eventually coming to trust that if they were to turn on the light nothing would be there. So can people look outside the sexual part of their minds to see whether sexuality's relation to the aggression inherent in male sexuality has removed their sexual partner's ability to regard them as whole people beyond the sexual context.

It is likely, and overwhelmingly so in a serious romantic attachment, that you will find that upon exposing their sexuality to their partner a man will be relieved to find that his woman has not replaced the totality of his being with a monster in her mind and a woman will find that her man has not replaced the totality of her being with a slut in his mind. That is unless some pathology hinders the acceptance of these ambiguities. Like the one which produces this:
>sex is the fundamental part of the reality
It may be relevant to point out that psychic health is hard to maintain when spending a lot of time online.