>>4763when i was 15, i got involved with a really bad cybercrime group (the kind who do doxing, swatting, sim swaps and the like.) and i started e-dating a moid from the group. i want to keep this short but he was extremely emotionally manipulative, he'd constantly threaten to dox me, leak dms, leak my nudes (i know i'm retarded) and all kinds of horrible stuff.
one night, we had a huge fight, and it ended with him actually leaking my nudes and a bunch of personal stuff i said everywhere. i couldn't believe it, i was so humiliated and hurt and i just shut down mentally. i couldn't stop the intrusive thoughts about getting revenge against him.
a couple weeks later, i finally acted on my thoughts and used my allowance to pay someone to dox and swat him. he had a complete meltdown in the group, and had a huge fight with everyone accusing them of being the swatter and he ended up getting banned. i know its psychotic but seeing him suffering was the first thing that made me happy in literal weeks. so i paid for another swat. and every time i'd get my allowance, i'd pay for another. over and over again.
eventually he ended up getting kicked out of his house, idk if it was cause of the swattings or if it was because he was a drug-addicted shithead but yeah. not entirely sure what happened afterwards but i know he moved into an apartment and has an actual job now.
i really regret what i did, not to the moid but i probably traumatized his parents and his sister and they didn't deserve that. i never thought about that until after the fact. i wish i could apologize to them, but i'm so scared of getting in legal trouble if they find out who i am and i doubt they'd want to hear from me anyways. oh well…