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I experienced despersonalization for an entire day once but with flu medication. It was so thrilling I wish I could have it again. I was able to feel like a completely different person, seeing mundane things and situations like it was the first time I experienced them

The closes thing I had was that all my life until the last years or so I had this strange feeling of only living in first person and never thinking of myself as a thing that exist or is perceived, the only thing close to that was continuous deep fear in my bones of accidentally making a mistake and upsetting somebody, like what if my voice slipped and accidentally talked louder than I am supposed to, what if I don't help my parents properly with a thing and I accidentally ruin it, what if I brake something, what if I accidentally say something stupid and I earn a slap to the face so hard my whole cheek feels numb and I don't feel my skin and flesh in that region of the face only bone, looking back at it, I was a bit of a overly melodramatic oversensitive kid

>>10106
Don't be a junkie.

>>10106
I've gotten that, but not from weed. Just from severe trauma and flashbacks.
I spent almost my entire childhood in a dissociative state and then I had a really hard time getting to terms with learning that I wouldn't actually disappear into thin air somehow and had to live in the real world as an actual person who'd have to be an adult and everything…
Maybe I'm too used to dissociating, but I don't think it's all bad, it's only scary if I feel like I can't snap out of it, but that's never really happened to me before, if I couldn't snap out of it it was always because a big part of me just really didn't want to… Or when you're terrified and go completely mute and stuff, it's not that I want to talk, I just want to be left alone so that I can hide under my blanket, hug my plushies and feel safe again.
I got that dissociative empty feeling when I took laughing gas at the dentist, but I wasn't really worried about it, I was just glad that I didn't have to worry about the procedure as much and I felt normal again after the laughing gas effect dissipated. I wouldn't use it recreationally though, because I know that if I really need to dissociate, my body will do that on its own. I just kinda trust in it and hopefully I won't really need to do it and can just be myself and happy as a full person, even if it's hard sometimes.
I think hyperarousal is the worst though… I looked up some things to snap out of it because unlike with a dissociative state, I really can't stand this stress for more than a minute, it just drives me nuts and I really really don't want to wait for it to go away on its own, it sucks so damn much, I'd rather scratch my skin open or hopefully have mints or chilli to eat on hand because that kind of stuff really helps with it

feeling like i was not part of this Earth anymore bc of weed was a very calming and pleasant experience. the feeling afterwards that my life from then on was just a combination of dreams and some sort of euphoric hallucination before death is something i will never forget. im not afraid of not being real or dead so it's fun.

i need to stop being schizo i need to stop being schizo i need to stop being schizo i know literally everything about her it fucking scares me i wish she would leave my head i hope i’m just being delusional i HOPE

I’ve read so much about the paranormal and conspiracies about the afterlife that I’ve seen some horrifying theories for what happens when we die (like that it’s possible to be trapped as a ghost for eternity and never reach heaven/reincarnation). I think a lot about the concept of eternity and how huge numbers can get or all the things that could happen throughout infinite time. I don’t know if any of it’s true but after thinking so much about it you begin to wonder how no one else has lost their minds thinking of the possibilities

>>11167
Absolutely same, it's got me genuinely too afriad to kms despite being insanely depressed lol

>>11168
Anon you replied to and yeah it’s horrifying. The book “Embraced By The Light” by Betty Eadie has put me on a meltdown because she says Mormonism is the closest to the true religion and that scares the fuck out of me. A bunch of celebrities like Oprah Winfrey and Kim Kardashian have boosted her as well, I hope it was made up

What if this really is the best of all possible worlds?

>>9433
Holy crap, could they be secret locations for human trafficking or Illuminati hideouts?

>>9591
It's human trafficking shit for sure.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tXIrNTBc4A0
This one's not creepy, just an awkward music video some woman made that I stumbled upon. It has 1.4k views right now. I feel like someone here might appreciate it.

>>538
This website has a lot

>https://icebergdb.com/iceberg-collection/#

The entire Gophersphere is fun to check out.

This is so cool!The ghost honestly startled me for a bit :p.

Happy Halloween, everyone!

>>367
Oh wow
I love nature and season boards but this is one of my favorite threads now.

When I was a teen, I used to have very frightening lucid dreams about dark creatures and spirits, some of just wanted to talk or show me things, some of them wanted to play or take me to their home in a park near my home, but I think the creepiest one was the spirit of a girl who lived below my bed and liked to lick my legs, like a leech.

Sometimes I wanted to escape when the creatures weren’t friendly, but I’m always very slow, so I learned to jump very high and fly.

>>414
when i was little i used to wake up sweating due to night terrors…
id wake up and be coverd in sweat and hide under my covers id be so scared sometimes id pee my bed..
it all started around 4th grade…
im certain there was something evil tormenting me in tht room…

>>414
>nature and season boards
Got any examples?

What are your thoughts on that r/escapingprisonplanet subreddit? Apparently the conspiracy is based heavily on Gnosticism and trying to find a way out. Personally for me it’s kinda ruined because the people there kinda just accuse everyone they disagree with of being brainwashed or an NPC and they keep giving doomsday/great reset/5D ascension prophecies which really kills any ability to take it seriously. Plus many of them take regressive hypnosis seriously which is an extremely questionable practice. Also the David Icke butt kissing from them gets frustrating at a certain point

>>10761
I don't find it very compelling on a surface level just because it reminds me of heaven's gate and the like, and from what I know it's not based on any real evidence other than things like past life regression. It seems like bastardized gnosticism reworked for the current age. They also claim that the earth is purposefully built for suffering (correct me if I'm wrong) rather than interpreting suffering as a side affect of an imperfect world. But it is interesting that near death experiences are all very similar. In general, do you think it's possible to know if any conjectured structure of reality is real or not? I think about Pascal's wager a lot.

>>10763
Yeah, they talk about hypnosis and how “this UFO investigator found out this” but they don’t realize just how unreliable some of these methods are, maybe they just don’t care but the main reason I don’t really believe in a lot of it is how many of them are just not verifiable or how so many claim to have been a famous person in the past life or something. Or making out of left field claims like that the Earth is going into a 5 dimensional state and the “low vibrational” can’t stay according to the words of aliens or guides or whatever. This is more about regressive hypnosis than PPT though. A lot of regressions tend to contradict each other depending on the technique too, like that being too low vibe means you have to reincarnate but also there’s “healing” zones where you’re brought back to your original vibrations? Sounds like imagination more than anything

I think the model for the world you described was more Buddhist, the idea that you’re not suffering all throughout it but it’s the fault of your desires which emerge because of it. The theory has gotten pretty big cuz the subreddit was made September 2021 so it hasn’t even been 3 years but it has 64k members already. It’s also getting pretty big cuz new age ideas are getting popular again but some of them are just so awful that people would rather believe in the conspiracy.

>But it is interesting that near death experiences are all very similar.
Half true tbh, the ones that are similar are interesting but it depends on the ones we’re talking about. Ones from the East greatly vary from those in the West for example. The fact the majority of the western ones are new agey is weird though, Rick and Morty had an episode that opened with referencing death experiences and I wonder if they were right in how they portrayed it. The PPT crowd say their theory explains all the inconsistencies and while it admittedly does I feel like there’s other possible explanations

>do you think it's possible to know if any conjectured structure of reality is real or not?
Yes, difficult but not impossible. We already have many people studying near death experiences and we’re in the process of a lot of advancement with tech at the moment. Assuming the PPT people who are talking about the aliens invading in 2040 and saying the government has a plaPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

I’ve read recently that apparently Hinduism and Buddhism added stuff like reincarnation and Karma to their beliefs later on into their existence so now I’m curious. Are there any religions older than Gnosticism that speak on reincarnation or was Gnosticism the first? Hinduism and Buddhism seem to expand more on what Gnosticism speaks of which is why I’m asking so now I’m wondering was Gnosticisms origins are lowkey

For I am the first and the last. I am the honored one and the scorned one.
I am the whore and the holy one.
I am the wife and the virgin….
I am the barren one, and many are her sons….
I am the silence that is incomprehensible….
I am the utterance of my name.

http://www.gnosis.org/naghamm/Pagels-Gnostic-Gospels.html

>>10891
This took less time to find than I originally anticipated. It's just really vague.

I heard if you call this one nine digit phone number, I answer my phone.

>>11273
I know 630-296-7536 is the number from the Boothworld Industries creepypasta
https://creepypasta.fandom.com/wiki/Boothworld_Industries

>>10891
If you call 911, you'll have to pay a fine. Scary!

>>10891
1-442-667-2337

Dunno if you're still taking requests: Should i step away from this friend group, or am i being hasty based on minor discomfort? Deck 1 please! And thank you.

will i ever move to my desired country? will my career plans work out there? deck 2 plz

2 readings for 2 separate questions (if you are still doing readings):

1 (deck 1): Will I be happy in my career path? Or should I fall back on the other one?

2. (Deck 2) Will my husband cheat/die/have a mental breakdown in the future and ruin our marriage?

>>10995
nona wtf this was all SO accurate. if you're still lurking this thread I've got to beg you for another reading just because every part of this checked out completely (and now I'm obscenely defensive, as you predicted)

If you're still around tarot Nona
Will I finally succeed and be happy this year? Will I find love?
2

>>10121 Shame, honestly, pomni has a unique and cute character design.
>>10119 I just use e621, its got bizarre but not disturbing content But I hope amputation fetishists get the help they need.

not really related to your post but i wish i had a friend to browse weird places like r34 with just for fun

>>10857
Me too anon. I had some of my best chuckles browsing weird shit over there. I would friend you..

>>10117

Very outsider art-ish. Sometimes hard to tell if fetish material is intentionally or unintentionally creepy sometimes

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55159492

It's by an artist named Nizdorak.

Will my life improve or will it keep sliding down a negative trajectory? Does putting in effort even mean I can avoid my worst outcome at all?

26F Taurus

>>11177

hi guys he was in fact not the one.

my new question is when will I find real love?

>18
>cancer sun
>scorpio moon
>cancer rising

What's my true will?
26, Libra

23
Libra

Will I ever fall in love again

>>6248
>Will B ever manifest himself in the real world for me to finally meet him in person?
>30
>Pisces
Picrel since blue birds represent him while lilac is my favorite/signature color

>>10403
>lose your individuality
on my way

Spirits are formless. They don't "look" like anything because they are beyond the field of vision. If you are to imagine a spirit, imagine a thin layer of silk spread evenly over the entirety of space time. Spirits exist everywhere at all times. They're neither here nor there. Spirits are immaterial; they aren't tied to the physical realm. Your mother was right in that spirits appear like bodies of water; meaning, like liquids, they take the shape of the containers that hold them. When there is no containers, they overflow across the material realm. Spirits can appropriate the forms that they have seen in life, but those are like crass impersonations and don't hold weight. In your mind, imagine a great big ocean, but the ocean has no borders nor landmasses, it's just endless water. Now imagine all that has existed and all that will exist is held within the confines of that ocean. That is what the spirit is.

I always imagined them as just light orbs that can take on any shape or form they desire. Unless there is some kind of metaphysical gender for them but I doubt it

>>8999
Karlyn Borysenko in picrel vibes, new age/new thought is so weird. And kinda nihilistic when you really get into it.

>>9018
Mormons and new agers/thoughters believe you do because pre-birth/post-death you’re infinitely smarter and do it for a higher spiritual purpose. It walks a line between “ok that kinda makes sense” and spiritual bypassing, idk if I believe it cuz there’s so many NDEs that say its true and technically any finite suffering doesn’t mean anything for an eternal existence, I hope it’s not true though, it’s so nihilistic.

>>10528
You can just say you think they’re omnipresent, sounds a lot like Nirvana is what you’re describing imo

Not sure if I should dump this here but I'm pretty sure I interacted with one last night.
Just a note: don't take my word for granted, this experience could be sleep paralysis related but it's unlikely since that has never happened to me (until now, i guess)
Naturally, I went to sleep at 5 AM, and everything was going as usual until, after 30 minutes, I notice someone or something is lifting my arm. As I slowly open my eyes, I notice a transparent female figure next to my bed, still holding my arm. When I fully wake up, "she" moves all the way to the left, trying to escape being perceived, I assume? Honestly I don't even know, it might be my brain fucking with me. I've never sleepwalked before but I'm aware I talk in my sleep.

TL;DR Ghosts/spirits probably look completely transparent and antrophomorpic, or at least the one who chose to haunt me did.

the spiritual experiences ive had as an adult always seemed to involve a sense of presence, as if there was more to the place than met the eye. I haven't ever seen a ghost but this is my initial impression of places been to and learned afterwards were haunted. over time i began to associate it with places that i wasn't later on told were haunted.

ive also been to places that felt exceptionally devoid, spiritually. they have a different quality to them, an unpleasant one. as if the place had no memory.

i think my impression of souls and spirits is to see them as characteristics of their environments, like echoes.
>>8999
that's how i always imagined them too..