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>>11534
Just got an antibiotic this morning, those wasps had some sort of infection.

How the hell did it get there now I'm paranoid

OP here, I have lasting inability to move my fingertips but the antibiotics worked. It sure was scary, I was worried I would have to have my forearm amputated.

What country are these things in?

>>11597
idk but i've heard the only way to get there is to do a lot of meth

Honestly most imageboards are insanely fucked up. I'm convinced 4Chan and 8Chan/Kun have no moderation, I haven't seen too much bad there myself but I've heard horror stories from others

Honestly, stay off any porn sites. Women and girls–just like you and me–are being trafficked and being forced to have violent "sex" as we sit in our rooms unaware. There was a news story about a 15 year ols girl who went missing and was found being featured in videos on PornHub.

Furthermore, furry sites are not safe either–furries are literally one step away from zoophilia and bestiality. On this site called Furaffinity, there were advertisements in 2013 on this site for DogLove, a truly disgusting, fucked up place where people had sex with dogs on camera. I never saw it but from what I heard, it is extremely disgusting.

Honestly which is worse, IRL porn sites (mainstream ones like pornhub, XHamster, and XVideos not snuff sites) or hentai/Rule34 sites? IRL porn sites are dominated by industries that don't care about trafficking or abuse while hentai sites allow stuff like gore, child sexualization, rape, and beastiality art to stay up as long as "it's fictional". Both are full of incest shit and deepfakes. I'd say irl sites because in those cases someone irl is being hurt but you could make a very good case for drawn sites being bad because of allowing drawn porn of irl children

>>11588
If it's real life it's obviously worse, also child pornography is very common on pornhub. One time I was put with a 10-year-old boy on a school van and he told me all about this one video of a child being forced to have sex with a dog. He says the child looked 8 or something.

seemerot.com used to be a hoax website about a coffin camera. But, it was set up by an adult business who wanted to drive traffic to gay porn sites.

>>11345
can I kiss you?

i have recurring nightmares of getting married.

always to a man, it's always the day of the wedding, and i'm about to walk down the aisle. it's always "we spent so much money on this, how am i going to get out, oh my god the divorce proceedings, what about our families, this is such a waste, my life is over"
absolutely horrifying every time. it's like my version of being buried alive lol i always wake up in a cold sweat and hyperventilating

I was 15 when I had this nightmare. I was being sent to some sort of "correctional institution" by my parents for something I didn't even do. I was taken there on a van and walked in with handcuffs.

When I was taken in, I saw children, some as young as three, having their bodies disassembled with buzz saws and their organs being placed into buckets. Hundreds of children literally ripped to pieces were hung on clothing lines and their organs were being amputated. I cannot unhear the scream in pain I heard when one boy's testicles were ripped off with pliers and then his eyes were cut out.

My dreams are very macabre, violent and depressing by most standards. They involve either personal aspects that unnerve me because I don’t want to remember them or just generally disturbing things. And the general premises of the dreams make no sense. For example I once dreamed I was in a third world country (Sudan?) watching people being exploited having to mine for minerals, where a woman looked directly at me. She was naked and her skin was coated in dust or dirt from working(?). She was talking frantically in a language I didn’t know but somehow I knew she was talking about bombs, then she screamed and explosives went off throughout the area and limbs of workers flew everywhere.

But anyway I want to share a nightmare I think is sillier than my other ones.
Once I dreamed that I was walking with a little girl at nighttime through a house that looked very bizarre, it was clownish with neon lights. The interior of the house basically looked like that building you walk through at carnivals that has a maze, the one that has mirrors with distorted reflections and slides in it. In the dream there was a gigantic clown stalking us. If you’ve seen the movie killer klowns from outer space that was basically what the clown and the house resembled. But I think I remember I could hear and feel the clowns footsteps through the house, the ambience was very vivid and terrifying. Anyway to the apotheosis of the nightmare- i got separated from the girl, I walked through a hallway and looked through a doorway of a room that curved to the side and I could see the shadow of the giant clown picking up the girl and eating her. The girls screaming and the wet viscera noises were very unnerving.

>>11275
I voted for trump to get rid of the trannies in women's sports.

>>11560
This is the first time I've heard or thought of an ai-generated suicide note. I can't really comprehend thecfeeling behind making one despite disabilitating self-consciousness (which coukd reasobably lead to suicide, I guess)? Honestly I haven't thought anout this topic enough to have an opinion, but I can empathize with you.

>>11560
Does this even happen that much? Sounds like a really specific scenario

>>11563
>>11564
Like anything else AI genned, couldn't it just be fake?
It's a good concept for a black mirror ep or something, though: Say, after handing all social media presence off to an LLM to decompress after a shitstorm/doxxing, the heroine slowly discovers that the algo decided suicide guilting was the optimal next step in damage control and everyone thinks she's dead for real

>>11562
I think it goes deeper than just the lack of emotion or grieving though, towards the disdain or prejudice,(good riddance, etc) which if you had any power over such forum (or be anywhere near suicidals really) would be kinda not good.

Bump for porn

i'd like to do it in a painless way like with a shotgun to the head, but i only have access to ineffective methods (pills) so i gave up.

Honestly I've considered doing it. The main way I can think of is slitting my wrists but I've heard that's pretty painful so I don't know if I would do that way. I think slitting your throat would be largely the same and falling from a high place or getting hit by a car has way too much time of you being aware you're gonna die for me to do it plus it's not guaranteed death. I wouldn't ingest anything because that would also likely be slow. Hanging isn't guaranteed death. Best way to do it would probably be to shoot myself but I don't have any access to firearms. Regardless I wouldn't go through with it unless stuff got really bad, like "the whole word is against me" bad. That and I'm scared of the afterlife and what happens after death and facing the idea of eternity

Two years ago, I tried to throw my life in the trash by locking myself in the restroom and taking (literally) 100 pills of Benadryl. I woke up in the hospital and lied to everyone saying it was an accident. I was sent home from college for a year, and the past couple years of my life have been getting worse since then.

I do not recommend trying to kill yourself. I instead recommend sterilization so no more children can be born in the first place. Getting your tubes tied isn't enough–ask for a full blown hysterectomy and burn your removed uterus.

Gun or high jump. No other way.

I’ve read recently that apparently Hinduism and Buddhism added stuff like reincarnation and Karma to their beliefs later on into their existence so now I’m curious. Are there any religions older than Gnosticism that speak on reincarnation or was Gnosticism the first? Hinduism and Buddhism seem to expand more on what Gnosticism speaks of which is why I’m asking so now I’m wondering was Gnosticisms origins are lowkey

For I am the first and the last. I am the honored one and the scorned one.
I am the whore and the holy one.
I am the wife and the virgin….
I am the barren one, and many are her sons….
I am the silence that is incomprehensible….
I am the utterance of my name.

http://www.gnosis.org/naghamm/Pagels-Gnostic-Gospels.html

>>9899
Ultimately it's a scam to make people feel smart and special and egotistical while checking out from doing anything useful or worthwhile in life. It's based on some true concepts and some distortions.

I don't believe in the Pleroma or the origin story of the demiurge, but I believe that God is a demiurge-like being. The problem of evil is too much for basic Christianity in my eyes. (I don't care that this topic has been debated for centuries, none of the Christian arguments are sufficient for me. I don't hate God though, I don't believe He is evil. But I think He is imperfect just like the rest of us. I agree with a lot of the rules Gnostics follow but a lot of them are too extreme for me. I like that men and women are spiritually equals in Gnosticism. I dislike that Gnosticism became popular on other boards like 4chan, It made it cringe in my eyes because I'd rather not be lumped in with those guys. They call anyone they disagree with a hylic. (I don't even think hylics exist, it's just another excuse to treat others as less than yourself.)

Gnosticism is really a modern invention anyways, groups of people lumped into on e category. It makes sense to sort them together but none of these historical groups would have recognized themselves as "Gnostic".

I also believe in things from other religions, like Holy Guardian Angels. I have no cohesive set of beliefs and it greatly distresses me.

Forgive my ramblings I am schizophrenic.

I don't believe in it but if it is true and there truly is no way out that's horrifying. Reincarnation isn't a bad concept but here it's probably the scariest possibility, at least in Hell you would know you're absolutely hopeless, Gnostic Reincarnation teases you with hope before devastating you endlessly and it genuinely gets me panicking. I agree with >>11571 chances are that God's probably just not perfect and religious people really badly try to convince themselves that it is so they don't have to think too hard

I rubbed my pussy on somebody's foot while they were asleep and I feel horrible about it to this day

>>11460
Explain

>>11463
Someone in my family was asleep, I pulled my pants down and pressed my pussy against their foot. I didn't do anything else and I don't know why I did it and I feel bad for it, they were married too. I did shit like that a lot I used to finger myself while other people were in the same bed as me and I used to get naked when I was sleeping in the same bed as other people while they were fully clothed

When I was about 4 I spilled water on the kitchen floor. For some reason I refused to clean it up, I had a temper tantrum over something I don't quite remember. Next thing I remember my grandmother, who needed crutches to walk at the time, slipped on the water I spilt. She screamed. Next thing you know my uncle had driven to our home and took my grandma to the hospital, apparently her femur had shattered. It was replaced with a steel pipe. From then on she needed a walker or a wheelchair. When I was 6 and realized it was my fault I cried to my grandma one night and admitted it, she laughed and told me it was the maid's fault for not cleaning it up. I don't think she took me seriously.

>>11460
LMAO what's the situation

>>11248
I just think it’s funny this Nonas other message got deleted for spam lol. I don’t see how any of this really debunks it. The CIA was very shady and dodgy with their documents about telepathy and parapsychology and has been trying to cover it up desperately by shoving materialism in everyone’s faces. I also doubt Joe Rogan is shilling for the CIA as he’s platformed those who have called out their shit (such as Thomas Campbell) but maybe he’s controlled opposition. I will say him going hyper new age as of late with all this talk of collective consciousness and the Akashic Records is side eye worthy though. Telepathy is a long standing thing but I don’t think you realized this thread is about this specific podcast by Ky Dickens (spelt her name wrong in the OP)

>>11259, >>11260
I may be biased (as I used to spend a lot of time in near death experience / parapsychology circles) but I don’t think Ky is necessarily a grifter. Sure her paywalling her stuff is suspicious and the constant interviews on these big podcasts (including the Jay Shetty Podcast which literally has had Selena Gomez, Will Smith, and fucking Michelle Obama on it) is suspicious and does make me question her authenticity but she seems to be pretty open to just telling everyone about the experiments if they ask (such as in this video). The blocked and reported episode has some comments completely ratioing the episode and truthfully I can’t blame the skeptics as I am one of (plus we live in a majority atheist/materialist/physicalist/nihilist society). The best argument I could think of against this (assuming it’s real) is maybe a cellular memory / DNA Memory of sorts but I’m unsure of how real that whole idea even is (the only real evidence I’ve heard for it is some urban legends and the NDE of a Trump supporting, pro-patriarchy, Mormon grifter named Betty Eadie who sounds way faker than Ky to me). I think it’s too soon to say anything for sure, none of us are even sure of if consciousness goes on past death and which afterlife is true and I see no harm with investigating or asking questions. She wasn’t locking these kids in chambers or anything and honestly if the atheist crowd is so sure that this is fake then they should feel Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

Mayim Bialik (Yes the one from the Big Bang Theory) did a podcast talking about the Telepathy Tapes. She’s been having a lot of people on her podcast to talk about the paranormal it’s honestly crazy seeing this stuff go so mainstream even if it’s a hoax. I hope this actually goes somewhere but maybe that’s just because I’m scared of death and want it to be proven that Consciousness isn’t just the brain

Some more skeptics who I’ve found (just for posterity because I just know there’s gonna be some kind of retrospective on this stuff one day and they’re gonna be scouring forums for stuff about it)
https://www.knowrogan.com/0012-ky-dickens-telepathy-tapes/
https://www.reddit.com/r/JoeRogan/comments/1iyugtm/joe_rogan_experience_2279_ky_dickens/

telepathy is real, vibes are real, you can literally feel it. lets stop pretending

Do you think this was faked or is it real? I'm somewhat conflicted, have any of you tried it for yourself?

This is more adjacent to the thread topic but any thoughts on this neuroscientist who's talking about communicating with the afterlife?

>>11514
Which thread is that do you mean the MTF thread?

>>9936
<It doesn't hurt me or harm them as well.
Seeing and old post from myself here and whoa was I a big fat liar. I still do this— cyberstalking I mean— to this day (I mean, I always did) and mostly is due to self sabotage from a down low self esteem. I keep track of everyone from my past and their friends. Always on the lookout. If they have a public profile I am almost certainly there. I remember I also invaded my first boyfriends game account and bought something there with game currency that was on the account just so he knows there is someone there.

I would really call myself a big fat loser, though.

what mental disorder can make you prone to stalking people? i feel like i just fall in love so hard i can become obsessed, i wish it was temporary limerence but it literally lasts years

>>11545
this is just a guess, but in my experience i would consider stalking an avoidant trait. this doesn't mean that everyone who has [cyber]stalked someone has AVPD but that's pretty much the only thing that springs to mind. i also fall in love for years since i was really young. i have always been someone prone to pronounced emotional reactions, paired with low self esteem and extreme shyness that, after my teens, became an avoidant streak that i haven't been able to get rid of. to me it's almost like a way to experience love with total control. it's also a way for me to spend my time and daydream and it's definitely served me as a way of escaping my "real" problems and/or procrastinating. so there's also that. would love to hear your insights though

>>11459
i would suggest not stalking him if there's a possibility of actually becoming close to him. since you're most likely to do it anyway you should at the very least not post about him except anonymously. good luck!

I once found out where the guy I liked lives by finding his plotaroute account and checking the beginning of all of his uploaded routes (to make sure they match up) then loading the route onto google maps, going into street view and finding the house that matches up where he starts his routes.

>>10531
Which ones are pornographic? I want to explore the sites but avoid the ones with porn.

>>11462
Brings back memories I used to have the wot extension on my Firefox like a decade ago to avoid malware kek

>>11476
Supposedly they went downhill and started selling personal information.

>>11481
Can't say I'm surprised, they seemed to fall off. Almost every antivirus software has a built in site detector. You don't need the likes of wot anymore

http://www.insecam.org/ it's a site where you can watch live cameras from all across the world that don't have a password on them. most of them are just traffic cameras but it's still pretty scary