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>>10829
It’s so easy, chariot, ace of pentacles and queen of wands reversed he’s going to want sex and you’ll eventually reject it, he’ll try to make you look like a cunt banshee/prude/ungrateful because with the ace of pentacles it almost felt like he wanted to “do you a favor” so to speak, if you know what I mean? Not in a good way. If you proceed, I would be extremely wary, and with the chariot and ace of pentacles upright it would be advised to not go forward with any propositions just because you’re lonely or desperate, don’t forfeit your standards and also if you go, if you manage to evade this situation (not 100% this will happen just how I’m interpreting) you’ll make some helpful connections, possibly something that can help with business/career/finances

WHEN WILL I FIND LOVE FUCK FUCK FUCK WHEN WILL I FIND LOVE IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF THIS SHIT IT'S ALMOST BEEN A YEAR IM SO OVER THIS HOLY FUUUUCCCCK

28F/Libra sun/Leo moon/Cancer rising

>23
>aquarius
will i ever catch a break financially? I just got myself into even more debt and I am in dire straits. I feel like every time it gets better, something happens to make it worse. It is probably my fault but phew

is HE the right one?
>18
> cancer sun / scorpio moon / cancer rising

I'm back after yet another hiatus.

these past 12 months have been very productive. i've moved, i've willingly lived homeless for a time, i stayed a short while in a monastery for spiritual guidance, i've switched careers and now make twice what i was previously, and finally i'm in the process of taking the tarot hobby and turning it into a business. don't worry, it will always be free for you my friends.

I'm happy to see that my previous readings have all struck true to the heart of your questions. it's much harder to read over a distance rather than in person.

When I get back into the swing of things I will read all the questions left hanging since i've been gone. for now i'm just letting you all know i'm back, for the time being anyways

if you have any questions for the cards, now is the time to ask. even if you don't believe in them, you never know, you might learn a new perspective to your problem

>>5965
beautiful

I think I’m biased towards cynicism but I think it’s all over

I'm not sure how nonas find peace in eternal nothingness. I think only having a very shor amount of time to have a chance to experience love, pain, etc any emotion is in itself cruel and unfair. The fact that each person is unique and beautiful (except for 90% of moids) but will inevitably fade away never to be seen again and b e forgotten some day is terrible.

But at the same time i find it hard to believe we just become "nothing". We still don't fully know how sentience works and for all we know this life we have right now is not our sentience's first. Maybe we die and as universe re-births itself so does our sentience. We have a different physical body but the sentience remains. or maybe this is all incorrect…

That's why it's so terrifying, the fact that we don't know. We don't know why the unvierse exists, why the space works like it does. We don't know what it all came from, the planets, the galaxies, and where it will disappear and if it might remake itself. We are just that insignificant

>>10878
Long reply but I have many thoughts. I see both sides because every option scares me. Endless reincarnation fucks me up cuz just imagine all that could/would happen (being born in 3rd world countries in the middle of war, tortured with alien technology on a distant planet, maybe even eventually living the same life again, 1914729938029272 bad lifetimes in a row) or just generally having to live through everything ever imagined. Hell scares me cuz endless torture. Heaven scares me cuz you could be there for an astronomical amount of time and it won’t be any closer to ending and could become psychological torture (look up SCP-7179 if you wanna see more about that). You’re right that never existing again is horrifying as well and I don’t know if I believe something like enlightenment exists like in Eastern religion. I just feel constantly pessimistic, cynical, and nihilistic so maybe that’s why I’m not able to stick to any belief. If our existence is finite then nothing we do matters and will be forgotten if it’s infinite then it doesn’t matter if you were Hitler, an average person, or Junko Furuta because all your actions are finite and don’t even remotely mean anything to an existence that goes on forever though I guess that depends on if you believe in a dualistic or non dualistic religion. I agree it’s all very disorienting and religion doesn’t exactly give the deepest answer for why it is this way. I mean hey if reincarnation is real what will this lifetime matter after the universe dies and rebirths itself trillions of times over? I really don’t know how to get out of this mindset beyond just hoping more people understand it and trying to push it to the back of my head, existential dread is not fun

I’m very scared by the thought of eternity so I feel like it may be eternally torturous no matter what. Imagining going through anything for trillions to googolplexes to Graham’s Numbers of years and beyond and it just never getting a second closer to ending is deeply horrifying. The speech that starts at 1:18 in this video really speaks to me. In terms of what I think may actually happen though, I think death is likely the end because all evidence points us to consciousness being a neurological process but I wish we had evidence that it may not be. Near Death Experiences are interesting but honestly I don’t know if they’re real and they’re pretty inconsistent so even if they are real I don’t think they give any information about what comes after.

I looked through the sites and read the FAQ and stuff but I'm still kinda confused. What exactly are these things? Made up creatures with in depth literature to match?
Someone wanna elaborate?

>>52
It's basically a wiki with creatures and people like to read through them to get creeped out. Some have been the inspirations for creepypasta/ /x/ stories and that's what has made it really popular and prominent. It's basically just a fictional wiki people like to read through.

My favorite is probably 106, which is also the first one I read. The pic still creeps me the hell out, wish I could figure out where it originated from.

http://www.scp-wiki.net/scp-106

I think a lot of the newer ones are kind of silly, like really bad fan fiction. I've read some of the doctor's personnel tales and those are pretty funny though.

>>49
My personal favourite will always be SCP-835. It's a lenghty read and the "uncensored" version always gets me.
I'll leave the link over here: http://www.scp-wiki.net/scp-835 .

>>52
Think creepypasta but the common topic is that there's an organization that hunts down objects/people that have anomalous effects, then they contain them; Stories can either be sad, scary or funny.

SCPS tend to be lenghty but are really worth the read, Anon! They have a generous amount of world-building and you can find stories in a variety of languages too.

SCP-7179 really encapsulates my existential dread very well. After reading it you wonder why more people aren’t horrified of our own existence https://scp-wiki.wikidot.com/scp-7179

>>3476
I'll take my chances on earth. Judging by their track record I'm not gonna believe that Yahweh's heaven is anything less than a narcissistic dictatorship.

Me and my boyfriend would save one another.

But what happens to pets?

I would choose my sister, she's my ride or die.

I've been getting back into my faith recently so I like to think that I would be saved. But I know my sister would choose me, too.

I'd save my dead great grandmother and then apply for a position as a demon torturer at the Eternal Suffering In Hellfire Inc.

I have an extensive curriculum in emotionally torturing men so i'd hope to be accepted for the job hehe

I’d save my sister who’s Wiccan because her boyfriend and everyone else in my family (including my other sister) is Christian in one form or another. I’d hope any of my Christian friends would save me but I’d understand if they chose their family and to let me go where Shayna is

>>11009
This is a fucked up one, but she did kill males

>>11009
The queen

>>11009
Sarah Boone

>>11009
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Katherine_Knight
Pretty brutal

>>11041
School shooting is just a completely different crime than killing an abusive husband or revenge killing in general. There is almost no reason to do any kind of mass killing in revenge, people who were wronged and want revenge usually just target the specific people who wronged them rather than committing grandiose acts of terror on random people. People who do mass killings have a warped sense of self importance and usually crave some kind of recognition or to rectify their sense of powerlessness. They might claim it’s “revenge” but it’s a totally different mindset than typical revenge killing.

I fed a stalker the home address of a celebrity and he turned up at her house.

>>7717
heyy the imgur boards down, no way you see this but what if. also if anyones here rare jermas appreciated

>>11159
i found this girl’s spotify by stalking her easier to find irls. some of them have really unique names so they’re easy to search. after that it was just deduction from the followers/following list (the username referenced a hobby and her playlists had meme pictures i had seen her use before). I guess this only worked because her circles seem to share Spotify accounts.
i still don’t know how to find accounts directly from email and i wish i did… all i have is username searching sites. let me know if you find one haha

i gave into stalking and it feels so good

I haven't stalked anyone but I get super obsessed when I have a crush to the point that I think things like I wish I was a doorstop in his home so I could see him and just watch him every day. This was about a coworker and I was too scared to take pics of him but I did memorize his face and draw portraits of him, not very good ones but I'll always remember his face now. I still feel a pit in my chest when I think about him, it's been almost 4 years since I last saw him. I couldn't find any of his socials and only talked with him once :(

>>10463
Misa Misa right?

i need to stop being schizo i need to stop being schizo i need to stop being schizo i know literally everything about her it fucking scares me i wish she would leave my head i hope i’m just being delusional i HOPE

I’ve read so much about the paranormal and conspiracies about the afterlife that I’ve seen some horrifying theories for what happens when we die (like that it’s possible to be trapped as a ghost for eternity and never reach heaven/reincarnation). I think a lot about the concept of eternity and how huge numbers can get or all the things that could happen throughout infinite time. I don’t know if any of it’s true but after thinking so much about it you begin to wonder how no one else has lost their minds thinking of the possibilities

>>11167
Absolutely same, it's got me genuinely too afriad to kms despite being insanely depressed lol

>>11168
Anon you replied to and yeah it’s horrifying. The book “Embraced By The Light” by Betty Eadie has put me on a meltdown because she says Mormonism is the closest to the true religion and that scares the fuck out of me. A bunch of celebrities like Oprah Winfrey and Kim Kardashian have boosted her as well, I hope it was made up

Have you had any success? I've tried to lucid dream for years now–although I've never kept a steady routine which seems necessary for it. I've had a couple of dreams–at random, although they happen after I've been sleep deprived–where I was aware of being in a dream but couldn't "be in control" or it which felt very frustrating.

>>11147
I mostly have anime and cartoon characters go on dates with each other while lucid dreaming

>>11148
that's so interesting. how long have you doing this for? any tips?

>>11152
>any tips?
Try writing a fanfic and act it out in your dreams

for me what worked was writing down dreams honestly, and just generally thinking abt it

Tulpas aren't real.

Kek, what's your tulpa like and what do you mean by feeling strange, nona?

>>10390
>That being said I have a question. Are tulpas demons?
yes Tulpas are psychic entities which feed off the energy your brain is formed by, turn to God and banish it, ask politely first tho, maybe get a psychiatrist

>>11070
>he tried to shock/exposure therapy by putting it in my bed which was a surpressed memory from 5-20
sorry nona but this sounds funny as fuck

>>10203
Yeah I’m with you, that great unknown of whatever is after we die is enough to scare me away from ever killing myself at least. When I see big numbers it also causes me to spiral into that existential fear and any idea of the afterlife or lack thereof is scary to me and makes me want to meltdown honestly

spiders

had one crawl into my hair as an 11 year old. it crawled off my head and onto my bedroom floor and i just cried and cried and cried. now i dont even play minecraft on anything but peaceful. sometimes i get over it, but then i get “emotionally taxed” and it comes back full swing.

fucking hate that shit.

Walking on sandy beaches barefoot.

Ever since I was little I had this fear that there are knives or needles hidden under the sand's surface… I just can't get over that thought. I hate sand anyway, touching it makes me cry.

Big things. Even just pictures of big things, especially when they are next to something smaller like a picture of a person.