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>>10203
Yeah I’m with you, that great unknown of whatever is after we die is enough to scare me away from ever killing myself at least. When I see big numbers it also causes me to spiral into that existential fear and any idea of the afterlife or lack thereof is scary to me and makes me want to meltdown honestly

spiders

had one crawl into my hair as an 11 year old. it crawled off my head and onto my bedroom floor and i just cried and cried and cried. now i dont even play minecraft on anything but peaceful. sometimes i get over it, but then i get “emotionally taxed” and it comes back full swing.

fucking hate that shit.

Walking on sandy beaches barefoot.

Ever since I was little I had this fear that there are knives or needles hidden under the sand's surface… I just can't get over that thought. I hate sand anyway, touching it makes me cry.

Big things. Even just pictures of big things, especially when they are next to something smaller like a picture of a person.

Big numbers (look up Meganumerophobia for a name). Causes me to be so existential and realize how short life is and how temporary everything around us is. It's mainly during the winter because I struggle with seasonal affective disorder, the spring and summer time my anxiety over it generally fades

>>10224
He doesn't look inbred but that shitty puffy hair is pissing me off

in the eyes of God you are never too pretty for anything lol

>>10228
God isn't real christotard.

people project their fantasies onto others, but it is just that, a fantasy, it is kind of "objectifying" him

keep his pictures if you must, but remember he is a bad person who hurt someone and belongs there

I don't find him attractive, I actually find him rather creepy looking. Hybristophiles genuinely concern me because they're all just making the world a dangerous place by doing this

The truth isn't schizophrenia.

"Satan has been an omnipresent demon since the beginning of existence.
Satan's real name is Adam.
Satan and Adam, both, of the Bible, are the same person.

I've been fighting Satan for almost a decade straight now. It's 24/7 and nonstop.
Satan started the fight, and Satan won't leave.
So I have no choice but to fight Satan.

Anyone want to help me fight Satan?
Satan is very much real.

Do you have any experience with Satan?
If so, I'd love to hear about it."
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>>11699
>>11700
lolcow probably too cowardly, and greatly fears Satan. Among other things. Like accepting what being abusive really means. Abusers are the most worthless things, in every way. Same goes for murderers and rapists.

>>11701
They don't know what legal self-defense is over there, and they also don't know the significance of it.

>>11687
I think that demons are sexy, as a concept. Hell is too, literally hot. Would heaven be boring? Wouldn't it be more fun to go between heaven and hell? If that's where Earth is, I'd love to come back again. Reincarnated as a worm maybe. Worms are cool. Or a cat. Now that'd be a life… Being an ant sounds terrible though. Sure, you'd get guidance and all, but human kids killing you for fun, that's horrible.

Have you seen the afterlife?

I ate two marijuana cookies once and what I saw and heard made me vow to never touch the stuff ever again. And I know some of you are going to laugh at me and say it's all a LARP but I don't care – this is what happened:

I was watching The Andy Griffith Show when the dope started to kick in. I began to hear this faint singing that I can only liken to the songs humpback whales make, though it was much more beutiful.

The sound gets louder until I close my eyes and SEE these beautiful creatures that look as if they are composed of pure light — dazzling, kaleidoscopic, evincing all the colors of the rainbow and then some. I don't know how, but I sensed that these things were gargantuan in size. They were not even vaguely human, not in form and certainly not in mind — but they were majestic in their immensity as well as horrific in their indifference. It took me a few moments after taking all that in before I realized where I was: I was in the sky, high in the sky – like, the thermosphere at least and these great leviathans of light were there with me seemingly unaware of my presence.

They continued to sing their siren songs as I saw something rise up from the surface of the earth. As it got closer I discerned that it was a group of things – perhaps a flock of birds. By the time I realized what they really were it was too late to warn them. They were people, human souls, and the light-whale things were EATING them. They were sucking these human souls into their gullet as if they were nothing but plankton. As they were vacuumed in I could simultaneously feel the terror of the prey and the savage, ravenous satisfaction of the predators as they fed. It was then that I, too, began to feel myself succumbing to the their gravity, and with all my horror I WILLED myself to return to my body.

There was a painful sensation, almost like whiplash, and I found myself back in my trailer watching Andy Griffith. I was totally sober.

Never again.

>>11276
I believe you , some people have incredible reactions to weed that most don't. I'm glad you made it back to reality.

I love Ketamine! I hope I get my ketamine today :D

I've only done weed, shrooms and acid
Weed was really nice at first, made me feel really giggly and everything seemed funnier so I used to do it while doomscrolling but my tolerance seemed build up extremely quick where after a few months it was basically the same as being drunk which I kinda don't like so I gave it up.
Did shrooms once and didn't really enjoy it. The only thing I've been on where I just felt "drugged"
Acid was fucking incredible, best thing I've ever done and it was still a huge disappointment. I took it for the visuals cause I thought it might help my art, didn't really but the feeling of it, I've never felt as at peace and comfortable in my body as I was on acid. It made doing anything feel nice. It was during the fall and it was kinda cool and crisp outside and I could not explain to you nonas how good the wind felt against my skin. I really want to do acid again, probably do a higher dose since my lack of visuals was most likely from underdosing, a common issue for acid I hear.
Also don't listen to people who say you NEED a tripsitter, I did alone cause extremely asocial and I was fine, I know doing it with someone would've fucked me up. If you don't think you need someone you probably don't.

Have any of you ever had a bad Salvia trip?

>>11806
Be careful. You will for certain contact demons.

>>11806
Do not use Ouja boards at all to contact. My mentor is a medium and a lot of demons feed off your attention and have you guessing if you're searching for a family member. I know you want to contact spirits you DON'T know but advise please do not use Ouija!

I've had issues for years dealing with terrible paranormal activity both physically to my body & objects because I was stupid and had a sigil necklace as decoration above my bed. Removed it and although I do not have it often, I've been to a cemetary recently with some friends to kinda troll around and the same spirit that was latched onto me was the same one who was hurting me, I did get a lot of questions answered through those pendents (the ones you dangle from your hand), it was a cool experience though because the spirit attached to me is powerful it managed to fling my vape off my hand which was flat. Made me feel like I had telekinesis lmaooooo. Best advice is to use those pendent things because they are more safe. And probably go to a place that has a lot of spirit activity like abandoned buildings or cemeteries :)

>>11811
To add onto this, if you do go to abandoned buildings make sure you are safe incase of people coming in that have bad intentions. As well also you might find out that you have a passed on family member with you, if you start feeling that theres another energy in the room that isnt just you or others, then it's a family member. If at some point you feel really negative it's a spirit you don't know and potentially a bad one

It could help if you go to a place that was meaningful to them while they were alive

How do you cop with Death?
For the first few days, I don't feel anything because I'm still in denial and that gets me through the removal, wake, funeral etc. Especially if it was someone I didn't see every often. It only hits me when I haven't seen them in a while and I remember they're not coming back. Like when I just want to visit them and I remember I can't. That's really hard. In the case of my pets who I would see every day, it hit me faster than usual. I'd come home and there would be no wagging tail to greet me or I'd see an empty food bowl in the corner of the kitchen and just break the fuck down crying. The thing that ultimately helps me get over the pain is knowing that the person was old and had a good life or if they were sick for a long time, knowing that they'd be in a lot of pain and discomfort right now so passing away peacefully was what they would have preferred.

Have you lost someone close to you?
I've lost grandparents, aunts/uncles and pets but nobody in my immediate family, thankfully.

How do you feel about dying?
I'm not really worried about dying itself because I know everyone has to go through it eventually but I do feel sad that our time on earth is finite. It makes me want to learn as many languages, travel to as many places and watch as many films as I possibly can. I wonder sometimes if I can even do all of that. I always wonder what moments I'll look back on when I'm older and if I have problems walking. Will I be satisfied with what I have achieved? I think I can die peacefully if I am.

Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?
I'm not religious. I was raised Catholic so I'm used to telling people that their loved one who passed is "looking down" on them but I don't really believe in this very specific idea of heaven and eternal life and pearly gates. It's too far-fetched to me. I do like to believe that your energy exists elsewhere and some semblance of you is floating around but I'm not going to let someone else tell me what an afterlife is and just blindly believe it. That doesn't bring me comfort.

>>1432
>How do you cop with Death?
I try to learn from the stoics.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ABRN0E_mI0U
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dBwH2iYC-8c
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d5E2AQKuCyU

>Have you lost someone close to you?
Not really, aunts, uncles and grandparents, but I was never close to any of them.

>How do you feel about dying?
Sometimes indifferent, sometimes I visualize the eternal nothingness and it drives me crazy and force myself to think about something else.

>Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?
No, its ridiculous.

>>1432
I nearly died after contemplating suicide. Long story I won’t get in to. The thing that stopped was a sudden conviction that Hell is a real place, and I was about to spend eternity there. I felt myself recoiling from it like one does standing too close to a cliff.
After I got out of the hospital, I was a physical and emotional wreck, and people abandoned me. In that place of absence, I starting looking for the one who showed Hell to me as a warning and saved my life.
I began researching the resurrection of Christ, and I am convinced He is who he said he is.
I’m only less sad now because I know Him a little. I know I have to do His will, even though I’m a fuck up. That’s okay though, Saint Peter was too, in his own way, and he was the one Christ used to build His church. I pray the rosary daily, and I don’t miss mass now. You may not be happy if you convert, but you’ll put the world’s vanity behind you. Peace be with you.

>How do you cope with Death?

Terribly. It's one of my more troubling anxieties.

>Have you lost someone close to you?

Four years ago I lost a dear friend in a traffic accident.

>How do you feel about dying?

Terrified, but I have a strange relationship with death. On the one hand, I love visiting cemeteries and looking at fossils, yet I'm petrified of my own mortality. The closest I've come to it was a suicide attempt last year. Funny how the mind works.

>Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?

I'm neither.

>How do you cope with Death?
Badly, I've had multiple meltdowns over it through the years. Generally I try not to think too hard about it, I'm a pretty pessimistic person too

>Have you lost someone close to you?
I've lost some pets and my grandmother. It was all very hard. I'm scared of people like my sisters or parents dying

>How do you feel about dying?
It is genuinely my greatest fear. The thought of eternity scares the fuck out of me too

>Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?
Not religious, I'd like to believe something happens but truthfully all possibilities scare me and I don't know how to cope. I think most likely nothing happens and that scares me too

>>8710
u could start with the classics like the old testament, bible, torah, koran, kitab i aqdas etc
visit ur local library/bookstore and check out their spiritual section

What do you mean start “as a normie” this isn’t a collective idea that a niche group online possesses. No one knows

>immortal
Good news. You're not immortal. Eventually, you'll die
>start
Just read the bible

Your atoms will be recycled to make another babby, or maybe a tree. And eventually all our atoms will be recycled to make another big bang. You might die but your energy is forever.

Near death experiences and alternative theories of consciousness

Weird near death experience I read. Apparently this person almost died as a baby, their personality completely changed after and they went from upbeat to completely quiet, and now they have weird “psychic powers” like basically mind reading and going to “the other world” where people will warn them of things going wrong. I don’t know how much I believe this is real or if it’s just made up but it sounds like going to this “other world” is similiar to astral projection
https://www.reddit.com/r/NDE/comments/kwnfpq/nde_as_a_toddler_and_now_i_sense_feel_and_see/

No offense but I’m really yet to have any reason to believe Astral Projection is anything other than the brain being overly imaginative in a lucid dream. Why does nobody ask their dead Grandma “Hey where’d you leave the jewelry?” When they AP and always just come back with vague and esoteric philosophy instead of anything verifiable?

Also have any of you heard of Robert Monroe? He was one of the most famous APers and he even worked with the CIA on some docs that have become the subject of many conspiracies. Have any of you tried his methods and what did you think? Apparently he also said Earth was a farm of emotional energy called loosh which was one of the kickstarters for the prison planet theory

Never done it myself but I've read up about it a little bit. Erin Pavlina's a decent one who talks about stuff like negative entities and the more nitty gritty of it all but there are some rumors she's a scammer so I don't know about her fully. Stories I've seen from Reddit, TikTok, and elsewhere seem to go along with it. TikTok I saw a girl who AP'd and met beings who were worried she gonna be trapped where she projected forever and I've seen lots of stories of people meeting strange figures in suits on the astral. Some are good and help them do stuff with energy, others aren't and try to force them back into their bodies. I read a couple of odd experiences where people mentioned fighting with clones of themselves to a stalemate. The AstralProjection subreddit has some interesting stories about it, I recommend looking on the user Unlmtd_Output 's page for some, I also saw some theories that the government is guarding in the Astral which does seem pretty plausible. Could be a prison planet archon deal too but I think it's more likely that some are just negative beings

If astral projection is merely an unconscious variant of remote viewing… then maybe

>>11869
Most people who do AP also do remote viewing. I do think remote viewing is more reliable though but there are many scammers in that field unfortunately

Yes. what do you nonas think about the "underwater aliens" thing?

>>10910
I think aliens are probably real somewhere out there, whether or not they’ve been to Earth is a completely different story. There may be aliens in the water but I saw the Blaire White video about aliens where it was mentioned it could just be that humans aren’t the only evolved species on Earth and I think there’s a good chance of that being the truth. I think NHI/Non Human Intelligence is a better term than aliens

Great thread, interesting topic. The UFO community is basically a fandom anyway.

>>10910
Are you talking about this thread? Underwater alien base?
https://archive.4plebs.org/x/thread/34629564/
I think it was great and believable.

Yes. Universe is HUGEEEEEEE why would we be alone here?

I've read lots of conspiracies on them, from Starseeds, to Prison Planet stuff, to psychedelic encounters and DMT beings to abduction reports. The Roswell Alien Interview where Matilda o'donnell macelroy claimed to telepathically communicate with an alien named Ailr that was published by Lawrence R Spencer in 1947 is an interesting read. It was popular in Gnostic/Prison Planet circles for mentioning Samsara and Earth being where souls who got extremely bad Karma in past lives are reincarnated, there is some stuff about being infinitely recycled too. Apparently Matilda died shortly after she sent the author this. It may have been faked as the author is rumored to be part of Scientology but it's a chicken or the egg thing where he may have joined Scientology as it seemed to be the closest to truth or he possibly wrote this to help Scientology get its start. It's also suspected to be Scientology propaganda by using terms like "immortal spiritual beings/eternal spiritual beings" to describe humans as beings named IS-BE. This does cause suspicion from some that Scientology does seem to be "the elite" in one way or another. People on Reddit mentioned having similar encounters with gray aliens or mentioning that they were told the name of the book telepathically. There are some other interesting books of a similar nature by people like Karla Turner and there's others like Phil Schneider who was possibly killed for knowing too much. Don't know if I believe it but it does seem possible

Interesting Reddit posts
https://www.reddit.com/r/aliens/comments/14s2zlr/matilda_odonnell_macelroy_1947_roswell_interview/
https://www.reddit.com/r/UFOs/comments/xk4svt/alien_interview_lawrence_r_spencer_anyone_read/
https://www.reddit.com/r/InterdimensionalNHI/comments/1dv7onc/multiple_nonhuman_entities_have_told_humans_that/
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Please bless me with a rhinoplasty soon. I really want one but I can't afford it right now

I would like to get a blessing for my summer work trip, so it would interesting, enjoyable and memorable (and so I would have to eat during it, it is important for as for genetically sick person)

I wish for 4plebs and archive.moe to be permanently taken offline.

Fairy faithful blessings upon all!

i wish to talk to ben again and be happy with him, no matter what it might take. if you bless me, i wish you all the blessings in return :)