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Especially dogs. Anyone else like this?

I feel no connection to them whatsoever. Ever since I was a kid I would see a dog or cute animal and not feel anything. I was more drawn to lizards and things. I wouldn't want to pet them because I actually think their fur feels disgusting and greesy, not soft. I didn't want to play with them. I thought they were annoying and I can say I could never handle a fucking dog because they annoy the shit out of me, I'd end up beating it in a rage.
It came to the point where ever since I was little I'd really try and convince myself I loved animals and I would force myself to play with dogs and pet them just to feel normal.
Another reason I played with them was out of pity, despite not feeling much emotional attachment to them I felt fucking awful they had to live their lives like they did. Most dogs are with shitty owners who treat them like luxury cars instead of living beings, and even though I disliked them I always felt bad for that reason. Recently my grandmother's dog died of cancer. My family has his sister, litter. She is healthy as can be. The difference in their health is that my grandma treated him like crap. They lived in this shitty apartment with no space and she would never walk him (he eas a german shepard) or let him outside for anything but taking a shit. And then when he'd act out from maltreatment she'd scream at him, too stupid to realize why he was acting out. Now she has the fucking gall to pretend she ever loved that dog now that its dead.
Most dogs live like this. And it makes me sad even though I don't love them. I really hate them for being unsuitable for domestic life yet unable to sustain themself in a natural life, it makes me so sad and its cruel to breed the things. They're genetic monstrosities, lool at fucking pugs for fucks sake. They can't even breathe properly and are ugly as sin because of what humans breeding them has done.
This isn't exclusive to dogs. I feel similarly about bunnies, hamsters, cats, etc.