/b/ - Random

50 minutes left at most before I will be forced to go home.

Last time I went home I didn't buy chips. I will for sure this time.

Officially one and a half months left before I head back up into the mountains.
I need to buy somethings still. I should be more nervous I'm sure there's no way I'm coming back this time. But there's never much to return to in this world. I think that's why Chuunibyou always I thought was great.

Chuunbyou is the only anime to make me cry quite a lot when Yuuta confronts Dekomori. It's such a funny great anime and to have the fun bit of it be torn like that, that whole element. The world isn't great. Too evil for fun and goodness. They live in their fantasy realms instead. Something I did actually literally, for many years of my life I'd play inside my own imagination for long periods of time with just a pencil in my hand which usually took the form of a sword or arm or anything really. I stopped doing that eventually.
Your best years are ahead of you, in God they always are. But that doesn't mean there's not mean the world will get any better, and eventually it will end and what kind of life do you want to live. I hope people have fun and smile and everyone makes it to eternal life and doesn't take things so seriously and well I can go on.

>>319849
Good luck in the mountains

>>319850
Thank you, female.
Yes it's quiet nice out there. I posted pictures here before, but it's just west of Banff in the Rocky Mountains. Everyone should go and see those mountains.
For me, it is something I must do, I get quite sick in my mind, which is healed from nature as is proven. Moreover I hope I can stay out there long enough to kill porn addiction once and for all. It's so nice when you're on your own in the wilderness. No evil. Because it's only society that generates wickedness.

Every spring I'm super anxious I just want to go back to living outside, then I go, I feel better, and then I return to society. I cannot have that happen this time because I know it'll just be a cycle.
I must stay out there a very long time.
I did get rid of home internet, I think that's pretty helpful, I haven't had home internet for 2 years. But it doesn't mean much when you can spend your time at the community centre.

I don't see myself making money again. There's no point in making money, I have no wife to take care of, and I could not care less about having my apartment. I feel sorry for my roommate, when I came to Edmonton I met him at the homeless shelter, I got a home shortly after and so invited him and now he works fulltime but we have a good deal where we are. He's the sole reason I'm not already out and done.
At the last minute God always provides and he does provide I'm not worried I just hope I'm doing right with everything. I wish I didn't fail so much. With porn and with friends, because if I had friends and stuff then I'd probably have a reason to make money. But money doesn't mean much of anything. I don't care about anything society offers all that much. Especially when it's not even offering AI Rikka.

https://wenreagan.bandcamp.com/track/holy-spirit-light-divine-feat-timothy-crouch

There's so much peace in the presence of God when the holy Spirit moves, it's been two years since I really felt that loving peace so strong. I can't make too many excuses, though the Lord understands. Everyone in the church has friends and wives and children, it's very helpful.
I don't know why I find it so hard, I really have a lot of hope again. I can have understanding of all things, I think I have more knowledge & understanding than anyone in our small congregation, yet I'm the lowest of everyone. I'm the sound of tinkling brass.

But I'm talking about serious things o… crystal.cafe. I only come here to have fun and bully.

It's probably a better way to relive 'stress' than masturbating.

But better is friendship I think. Humans are the most complex thing we can observe. Entertainments can only go so far. Humans add that element to make things interesting. I'm bringing a chess board with me into the woods, not sure if I'll actually meet anyone. Well my father hopefully is coming out west for a few days to see the mountains at least.
Could meet someone too. I have a fantasy about meeting a cute girl, and then I have to protect her and take her back to civilisation all the way resisting the urge to overtake her. A brave and noble journey to test my resolve and change.

When I rented a house with mentally retarded people, three of them all different. A transexual, a guy who thought he was an alien, and someone slow. And then me, the super intellect Aspie. I really noticed the difference between someone's mental illness and someone's good and evil.
The guy who was slow, he was a decent man, but he also was slow and it caused problems and I could forgive him obviously. The alien guy, he was kind of ok, then the transvestite was really not great. No on is of course. But it's good to distinguish what people like that do and who they really are despite their brain damage.
And there was a point I was getting to. But it's not too important. Sometimes it seems impossible.

A lot of problems have been fixed, so many in fact I'm very happy with the progress I've made. Very happy indeed and the progress continues.

Being too smart is my burden to bear.

I was hoping I'd get to see Veronica come back online and delete my stuff. I love it. If my posts are still here tomorrow I think I'd not even want to continue. I prefer ladies to resit a bit. Otherwise it's boring.
Though I still haven't found anywhere else really to post, I'm not going to zzz every again.
Discord is useless. Oh my aching tentacles.

I'm so tired! I hope there's still girls left to play with on crystal.cafe by tomorrow and they don't all get sucked up off to somewhere else. How sad that would be!

Hope you do well.