>>112648well, it's all fine (except increased heart rate, dilated pupils, extremely dry mouth, and inability to eat food/no desire for water or food) until the comedown. If I have enough protein and drink enough water/eat enough sugary snacks during the high then the comedown is okay. But I usually don't. Once you start coming down, your body feels light and empty but your heart is heavy, and your chest hurts and throbs. You begin to feel extremely sad (this is often when I vow to stop forever LMAO). I also get extremely paranoid and scared, and functioning is extremely difficult (my cognitive ability is zero :'I). Angry, sad, irritable, unable to eat, it's difficult to move/do physical tasks (sometimes I have to scoot up n down the stairs because I'm so weak, but most of the time I'm just physically tired and need to lie down). The best way I've seen it described is you're exhausted physically but buzzing mentally. You also are tired but can't sleep, so you're like a fucked up little sack of bones and meat that can barely move but can't stop thinking ;__;
When I stop dosing for a few days, my cognitive ability is noticeably fucked for about a week. Doing projects that require actual thought is impossible. I become miserable and depressed, and I can barely function off of it because I'm so fucking sad. Going to school is like continuously lifting mental weights for hours on end.
i'm currently almost a week sober but i'm too bored to keep it up, even though i don't want to experience another comedown ever. at this point, i spend my entire highs scared of a comedown, then suffer immensely from the comedown. i wish someone would just come and save me, because i dont care enough to do it myself.
>>112650>I realized that I always come on here when I feel the need for some social interactions that I'm not really getting in real life.me too me too LOLL
>working on uni applicationsme too anonette! I wish you a lot of luck!
>I feel like my drinking has gotten a bit out of hand lately and has been affecting my productivity so I'm trying to do a little detox this week as well.good luck here too, and be safe. alcohol withdrawls kill. dont be afraid to reach out (i had to do this with my adderall usage, and its the only reason im even six days sober).
