/feels/ - Advice & Venting

Self-harming is very addictive because of all the feel good endorphins and chemicals that gets released to numb out the senses and the pain, and also because you're able to visualize the emotional release going on, among other things. But just like any addiction, I think the act is a symptom of something else that triggers the urge to wristcut. You won't be experiencing withdrawals like being addicted to smoking, drugs or alcohol, so there's that too.
What triggers your urges to self harm though?
Loneliness?
Boredom?
Anger?
It could be anything.
So, you coukd try to focus on working on the causes for the addiction on one side, and you can also focus on damage control like keeping your room blade-free and dumping the blade stash somewhere you can never reach.

>>105378
I tried to throw away all my blades but It failed, now I feel like my family has push me away and I felt like they don’t want to talk to me or do anything to help me, even my friends

>>105379
>I feel like my family has push me away and I felt like they don’t want to talk to me or do anything to help me, even my friends
Those are your triggers?

I'll try to make this short just so you can figure out somewhere to start from.
First is the idea of "dialectical abstinence". This is applicable for any addiction though, but self-harm is very serious because one wrong move and you're dead. Probably the same with drugs.
If you quit something cold turkey, there's the relapse, then you'd just give up, then something that follows is just going all in and hitting rock bottom till you just can't go down anymore, then comes the shame and guilt that makes you wanna start clean, you'd dump your blades and you'd confess to someone maybe, and then the binge and purge cycle repeats all over.
In dialectical abstinence though, you're working on the addiction by quitting cold turkey, but you're also allowing yourself room to relapse by preparing yourself for it. Once you relapse, you can choose to adopt a mindset of saying "Okay, I relapsed, but that doesn't mean I have to hit rock bottom. This is just a setback, and the path to recovery has no ends and this is a lifelong struggle." such that you're either clean, or you're working towards being clean. I don't want this reply to get lengthy so if you're curious about this idea, you can look it up.

Another thing is that your addiction comes from childhood. I feel that that shit is going to stay with you till the end, and so will your recovery. I don't like the religious aspects of Alcoholics Anonymous, but if you're religious, it's sure to work. Some important points from AA though is that you surrender. You give up and surrender to a higher power, and accept that you can't help it and you can't give up on your addiction, so you need a higher power, or your sponsor and your friends' help to recover, and you spend every day contributing something and helping those around you, attend the meetings, pray to god and other shit. I find this helpful too, but that's just me.

These are just some ideas. It's sad that you sought help, and meds, they failed and didn't work for you. I'm not sure what they're though, CBT? I think CBT sucks, lol. If something doesn't work though, there's something else you can try, or heck, you can even come up with your own ways to cope. There are no right answers, and therapy isn't the one-stop solution for every problem out there. For some AA meetings work, for some going cold turkey works, so yeah. Good luck! You can do it.