I'm diagnosed SzPD.
I think people take the diagnostic criteria only at face value and don't think about the feelings behind it.
People assume that not enjoying things is the same as being happy without them, but that isn't true.
There may be schizoids who are perfectly content with who they are. But I also say that a lot, and I'm always lying, so…
In my own experience, the difference is a lack of fulfillment.
A monk can live the way he does because he is fulfilled by his spirituality.
Introverts can keep to themselves because they are fulfilled by their solitary activities.
And asexual and aromantic people can still find fulfillment in everything else in life.
For me, I just feel empty and there's nothing that really helps. Life is monotonous grey sludge, with restless and anxious undertones. I have no goals, hopes, dreams, motivation or willpower. My interests are superficial and I get tired of them quickly. I'm deeply lonely but can't connect with others. I'm deeply sad but can't express it. I feel worthless but don't care to improve. I hardly do anything but lay in bed and daydream for hours and hours. When I finally get evicted I may just lay down by the road and rot, I feel like I can't care enough to save myself, or that I don't even want to.>>105703>>105783
just bee yourself :)