Secrets & Confessions Anonymous 1068
Spill 'em girls.
I still like warrior cats.
I have so many. Nothing too serious though. One of the worst things I ever did was seducing my ex bff's bf when I was a teenager. That was years ago but I still regret it and it's a huge secret I keep. She was crazy for him and I only did that because I wanted attention.
whoa, a little harsh anon, don't you think? It's in a confessional thread for a reason.
though tbh they do sound conceited
She sounded regretful to me, not conceited. Tbh I never would have done that kind of thing but kids are dumb and impulsive. Also jesus christ he wasn't hypnotized, men/boys can control if they want to cheat or not.
I'm in my late twenties and still like to play with kids toys.
Whenever holiday ads come out, I get really excited seeing all the new toys (I like to circle the items I like in the print ads and research the toys online). I'm a pretty composed person so nobody has a clue about this side of me.
Now that I have 2 cats, it's an incredible excuse to buy kids toys (they already own most cat toys). I basically buy things that the cats might like, and they actually do tend to like what I choose lol
They make incredible playmates, and I like to make sound effects when I play with the toys with them…
Pic related: my cats and I really like these hexbug toys, and the included "habitats" you can buy for them.
calm down, anon. That was almost ten years ago, and something I regret. I didn't even fuck him, we were all 13.
Ignore that poster. It was just some cuck who'd drifted in over from /r/incels or /r9k/.
I still bite and munch on my toenails and pick my nose.
I turn 26 in August.
Does this counts?
I sometimes wish there were more PULL users here than lolcow users. I don't even touch PULL, but some farmers are so bitchy for no reason or just for the ~sake of the imageboard culture~ or whatever. PULL may be dumb kids but at least they are mostly civil.
Like, I just wanna be comfy in this girly imageboard, goddamn.
I'd recommend you just chill a little bit, Anon. I've been lurking almost every thread (I do admittedly skip a few big threads that don't catch my attention, like the LC travesty of a thread) and from what I've seen the vast majority of users have been totally polite and civil - even welcoming and compassionate! Sure, some of /disc/ has gotten a little catty, but that's true of almost every debate form on the internet. It would be fair to be put off by some of the posts there from a month or two ago, but all of those threads have since calmed down.
It seems to me like you might have a preconceived notion of LC users, and imposing that here. You'll have a much nicer time if you consider it a separate entity and don't go looking for the toxic image board culture you're used to.
As long as people are nice to me, I will be nice to them.
I've had a couple of rude replies to me and I've been sort of taken aback, particularly in the vent and feels threads, which I feel almost should be a no catty zone. I expect that in /g/ or /ot/ on LC but goddamn, just let me vent without you judging my life.
Seriously, at this point i am thinking the same eventhough i was one of the few that at the beginning didn't want to advertise to PULL.
That anon getting insanely angry at annother anon using a smiley face that wasn't even obnoxious because it's "not imageboard culture" or whatever and dragging it on for multiple posts was incredibly cringy. A few :) or :( are not that bad and not even obnoxious emoticons. Or that anon complaining about someone that made a quite "new to imageboards" post on /media/ and getting angry at it eventhoguh it wasn't that big of a deal and the post flopped.
It may be be an unpopular opinion because "new-ness" is annoying to most imageboards users, but i believe that with a website as new as this and targeted to women (which very few imageboards are) that has such a small amount of posters in it, adapting new people to imageboard culture by sending them to the rules pages or not being overly angry for no reason and actually explaining to them what is expected in a page such as this, will benefit it more than driving people away with "reeee normie newfags don't use smiley faces ever and don't post if you haven't been on imageboards for multiple years reee".
Yes, I was talking mostly about /disc, there are some salty anons there. I really have nothing against lolcow (fuck, I've been using it since 2014 or 2015) and some people there on /g or /ot have been really sweet. But some like to be rude just for the sake of it, or say shit like "u autistic bitch" or stuff like that because that's how 4chan or the internet goes. It's kind of frustrating.>>1133
Yes, this. I am only rude when people are rude to me, even more so when it's for no reason at all. I do think giving advice in the vent thread (here or at LC) can be good and I've seen anons being thankful for it (even myself), but some anons are just like "lmao kys ur trashy", no one asked you?
Anyway, sorry for the rant, I guess. I do think most users here are rather friendly and welcoming, but we have such few miners that when I see mean replies, I can't help but be kind of sad.
>>1134> don't post if you haven't been on imageboards for multiple years reee
It literally takes 30 seconds to read the rules and see that it says specifically no emoticons. The rules are posted on the top of every single page.
Have a look at the Taylor R section of PULL. They are just as insufferable.
I am aware of that, but i still stand by my point that redirecting them to the rules page instead of being overly angry at "newfags" is better.
And regarding emojis, what i was saying is that ":)" is not that big of a deal or an obnoxious emoji like "xD" or whatnot, so some people may not consider it in the realm of "emojis", and thus, use it. Even posters that have been using these sites for years may use :) or :( since it's not as big a deal as using mobile emojis. I believe a rant about it was uncalled for in this situation and was a bit over the top for what it was, nothing more.
I agree with this. I interpret the rules as meaning emoji use like xDDDDD 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 LMAOAOOOOOO, not a single :) or <3.
The gatekeeping is obnoxious and will keep c.c from growing futher.
>>1134>that anon getting insanely angry at another anon using a smiley face that wasn't even obnoxious
I was one of the Anons in that thread who originally said "don't do that". There were actually 2 different people arguing (the other Anon was the one saying it wasn't in line with imageboard culture~*, whatever that means). I only said to stop because I perceived smiley Anon's response as being overly aggressive and I guess I'm paranoid about this place turning into lolcow 2.0. Sorry if I came across as mean, though I still think that typing ". :)" whilst trying to talk down to other people is obnoxious as fuck.
Hah, I didn't know that. I wonder if they would be nicer outside of gossiping/talking shit, though? >>1143
I was in that thread too and I noticed that you were a different anon than gatekeeper-chan. I actually agree with you that using something like :) or :^) while arguing is so petty and annoying. However, you said yourself that using emoticons from now and than is harmless.I am glad I am not alone with this complaint though,
thanks fellow anons
I don't think there's anything wrong with this. Just because you're an adult it doesn't mean you have to stop having fun, and toys are pretty fun.
This. I've seen Admin herself use <3 It's not worth sperging out over
I'm the anon that used the :) emoticon in disc and I didn't think it would be a big deal like xD or :3 would be but of course someone trying too hard took issue with it. I'm not even new, been using 4chan and other lesser known imageboards since the dawn of time.>>1139
The rules say "emojis" not emoticons. Someone who seriously takes issues with a simple smiley face shouldn't be posting here anyway and has much bigger issues to work out within themselves.
Back to confessions!
When I was very drunk I made out with my (female) best friend. Never was able to muster up the ability to tell my boyfriend about it.
As an adult woman I think everybody thinks I'm polite, eloquent and well tempered.
But as a teenager the walls of my room were covered in dent marks and scratch/slice marks in the wallpaper from where I'd throw stuff at my walls or actively attack them with knives. I used to get into fights a lot too in school and out of school to the point I was suspended at one stage.
I never really mention my past anger issues to anyone out of fear they'll think I'm still the same but I'm really not. If I mention it I just pass it off as a few scraps to my friends. But I was fully insane. I even attacked a boy with a set of keys for breaking up with me for not having sex with him.
I attacked my siblings a lot too and I feel awful about that. My mother used to beat the hell out of me a lot as a kid and as a teenager I ended up fighting back so I'd end up in full on fights with her too but it died out as she's old as hell now and had major spinal surgery.
If you saw our family you wouldn't assume it at all. We're all well educated and my sisters are all super graceful and beautiful. Feels bad man.
To people on the outside, I seem like I have everything together, but I actually struggle with depression and hoarding. Today I cleaned my toilet and shower for the first time in over a year. I'm actually incredibly proud of myself, but this is such a basic task as an adult that I have no one I can really talk about it with.
I've been taking medication for my depression since last winter. I'm actually feeling better now and like things are going to be okay. Little by little I'm getting my life together and I'm so happy.
when i was in middle school i let my dog drink milk by mouth-to-mouth. aka i would drink milk and let my dog lick my mouth that was slowly dispensing milk. in my defense i only did it like twice because i wanted to see my dog's cute face up close (pic sorta related because i have a shitzu)
Um omg I used to do that to my dog too, around the same age, except I did it multiple times with food instead of milk. How nasty, but at the time I just really thought it was cute how my dog would eat food out of my mouth and seem so happy about it, too.
When I was a little kid, I used to pretend that my pillow was Yami from Yugioh and make-out with it. I didn't know his name was Yami at that time so I just called the pillow Yugioh and say shit like "I love you, Yugioh. You're my boyfriend."
WHAT THE FUCK anon this sounds like me. I almost hate you for making me remember when I did shit like this.
I feel you, anon. My mom is an artist so she drew a life-sized Taichi from Digimon in a huge paper poster. I carried the thing around and told everyone it was my boyfriend.
>I love you, Yugioh. You're my boyfriend.
Fuck my sides
i want to stop smoking but i dont give a fuck about myself at all to stop. i dont have a boyfriend or friends to impress or look good for. my life is meaningless and loveless
No, anon! :( You're gonna find love eventually. I am sorry for your current situation, though. I don't want to be a preachy anti-smoker though, but you deserve happiness too, as sappy as this sounds.
You know Anon your health is the most valuable thing you'll ever own, and it's only when you lose your health that you'll realise just how precious it was, and that it's not the kind of thing you can get back so easily. Please don't treat it so flippantly, because I guarantee that if you don't start making efforts to change now you will regret it further down the line, and you'll never be able to take it back.
I know this is very stupid and very fucking selfish on my part, especially because I do have a boyfriend, but..
I secretly wish/want some of my friends to have a crush on me or, at the very least, a strong sexual attraction to me, even though I don't want anything at all with them, just tease a bit to see if they would say something.
It's just so great for my self-steem to think that. I would never cheat on my boyfriend or anything, but still makes me feel bad and selfish.
I know this feel too well.
that's pretty normal tbh?, a lot of us want to be wanted and desired
I once read that garlic was good for your vagina but I literally took it as "put a clove of garlic in your vagina" so once for a good week I'd be constantly changing my garlic clove like a tampon before I realised putting garlic in your vagina is actually a super weird thing to do
I've never told anyone this until now hahaha
Omg I forgot about Warrior Cats. I used to love it.
Placing a garlic clove in your vagina is actually a natural remedy for a yeast infection, but you need to pierce/stab the clove multiple times in order for it to release allicin (when garlic is chopped or crushed an enzyme called alliinase converts alliin into allicin).
wouldn't that like burn? If you put crushed raw garlic in your mouth it's like "REawawawua".
Do you have taste buds in your vagina, Anon?
I'm a different anon, but I once put a mint inside my vagina and my vagina literally felt and tasted the mint. I have no idea how. It hurt so much.
why did you put a mint in your vagina? lol
I was young and pressured by a boyfriend at the time. I thought it was gross as all of you are reacting.
anon I don't find it gross, I gave a confused chuckle. I just wanted to know why lol
I figured lol. Boys want to spray their cum down your throat but are scared of the taste of vagina.
>flashback to around primary school
>"won" an opportunity to go to a christian summer camp for doing well in some extracurricular reading thing or whatever
>fastforward to summer
>camp is holding a talent show
>a couple of kids are doing warm ups for their routines in the cafeteria, not a lot of us there
>happen to be a raging weeaboo during this time
>loved the hell out of bokusatsu tenshi dokuro chan
>decide to practice singing the opening song on stage (in shitty japanese)
>a song about torturing, mutilating and fucking someone
>heh watch all these stupid baka gaijin be totemo impressed with my routine, it'll meccha sugoi
>"wow hey anon, that was really good"
>my little ego inflates
>night of the show comes
>i actually take a moment to think about what the fuck i'm about to do
>chicken out last minute
A lot of people are surprised when they learn how old I am (in my early 20s) because I look underage to them. They try to make it sounds like a compliment but I hate it, I hate how it's hard to fit in with most people because of this, how people automatically think I'm immature or straight up stupid because of how I look and how it's all because of some relatively rare condition (even though I received a treatment for that and it worked, but not as much as expected). I'm usually not judgmental but this is making me mock and dislike people who complain about being too fat or tall and people who show off how fat and/or tall they are.
w-whats the condition anon?
A childhood growth hormone defficiency. I can't remember how severe it was or if it's called differently in my case since I received my diagnosis when I was 6/7 years old but even back then I looked way shorter and skinnier than kids my age. And all the official documents I have are impossible to read because of my doctors' handwritings. Apparently growth hormone defficiency in adults is different but possible.
Mfw lewd _5abe6d4f…
I'm engaged and I love my fiance so so much. He's perfect for me and we work well together. We've been together a long time
But for years now I've been so attracted to his older brother and want to have sex with him. It would never happen because 1) i dont want to risk my relationship over something so dumb 2) I'm 90% sure he would reject my advances. But I cant get him out of my head.
oh fuck that blows. i remember when andy milonakis was denied nictoine chewing gum so he could stop smoking and he didnt have his id on him (hes about 40 years old iirc) and the lady thought he was underage bc of his voice and looks and she denied him buying the gum. his reply, "you have to be 18 to stop smoking?" really stuck with me. make sure you have your id on you everywhere u go.
I don't know much about this man, I guess he's an American celebrity? I just googled him and the fact that he's chubby/fat doesn't help since it makes his face look even younger as well. In my case it's also my body because it looks kind of underdeveloped because of my really small breasts and the fact that I'm skinny. My hips are pretty large though because my treatment worked, but if it weren't the case I think I wouldn't even have started puberty in the first place. My voice also makes me sound young. Also from his wikipedia page:>In a 2005 interview, Milonakis said he would use comedy as a means to cope with incessant bullying>incessant bullying
I understand what he means. I used to be bullied in primary school a lot but then I started being ignored by most people in middle school. It sucks but in a different way.
>his reply, "you have to be 18 to stop smoking?"
lmfao, wouldn't it be better to help minors even more to have access to nicotine chewing gums and patches? wtf.
>>1956>>my hips are pretty large
Lmao okay, then you are literally whining for no reason.
Spoilered because passive aggressive whining and envy reeking through my post. I haven't been diagnosed with any condition, but I'm in my twenties and don't have hips, my breasts are not "shaped" and appear to constantly be in mid development, and for fuck's sake I can't order coffee without the barista giggling and asking if I'm allowed to drink coffee. Nothing is humiliating like going to a medical office and even after handing them your ID with your birthdate on it, your doctor wedging a speculum in your vagina, etc. all that bullshit, and they ask for parental consent forms and after my explanation because of my age, they fucking gasp and state they thought I was 14. Applying for jobs is a nightmare because they tend to assume I'm volunteering because I look too young to work. Fuck off, children don't tend to have nice, wide hips. That's definitely associated with womanhood.
>>lmfao, wouldn't it be better to help minors even more to have access to nicotine chewing gums and patches? wtf.
The point went over your head, lmfao.
>his reply, "you have to be 18 to stop smoking?" >lmfao, wouldn't it be better to help minors even more to have access to nicotine chewing gums and patches? wtf.
How are you both so stupidly naive? Do you honestly think if under 18s were allowed to buy nicotine products they would use them to stop smoking, and not, you know, as an easy way to get nicotine without the older middle man buying them cigarettes?
Maybe your mind and not you looks are the reason people think you're a child, >>1956
All the things you have spoilered happen to me on a regular basis, which is more or less things I was complaining about in my first post. And I see a lot of teenager and preteens whose bodies look way more developed than mine all the time too, and they're considered on average. What I meant about my hips was relative anyway, I guess I worded it badly or I should have added "compared to the rest of my body".
>I haven't been diagnosed with any condition
You know that having a growth hormone deficiency doesn't just make you shorter than average? It also fucks up your body in other ways, especially if you don't receive any treatment.>>1965
I don't smoke or hang out with people who smoke so the first thing I thought about was that nicotine chewing gums are made only to help smokers stop smoking since that's how they're described in ads. >Maybe your mind and not you looks are the reason people think you're a child
That's not how it works but whatever.
>>1966>>You know that having a growth hormone deficiency doesn't just make you shorter than average? It also fucks up your body in other ways, especially if you don't receive any treatment.
…You were talking about being treated young, I was relating to that, I was prefacing my experience by saying I don't officially suffer from any condition so you wouldn't think I was trying to relate in that I have the same health condition. Like wtf, being treated that way is clearly not exclusive to those who have your health condition. I wasn't saying I thought I had your health condition or anything, and I wasn't talking about relating to any other health effects you may experience because of this mysterious
condition you don't remember the name of.
Seriously considering that you have some intellectual deficiencies like >>1965
suggested since it seems like you suffer from piss poor reading comprehension.
I said in my first post one of the reasons why I don't like being told I look young is because of the condition. I know very well it's possible to look young without any particular reason because I'm not a shut-in but the way you said it sounded weird. I guess I've seen enough people who wished they have something that I interpreted what you said badly. Your ranting seemed like you wanted to complain about how you have it worse than me so I didn't have any right to complain, when if anything we're in the same situation.
Also I literally said what I have is a growth hormone deficiency, which is caused in my specific case because my pituitary gland is fucked up. I've been told that there are other way to name it depending on why a patient's pituitary gland doesn't work properly (if it hereditary or caused by a tumor or chemo or anything else).
>piss poor reading comprehension
tbh I'm half asleep, it's late where I am and English isn't my first language. And I tend to post really early or late here so it doesn't help I guess.
Thanks for your reply anon. I was very short and skinny as a kid, and a doctor accused my parents of child abuse because of my size/stature. I just come from a womanlet lineage though in my case lol and never thought this could be a sign of hormone issues. Is the rest of your family tall/bigger?
Some of my relatives are average, most are a bit shorter than average, especially the woman. But they all reached puberty by themselves, I'm not sure if I'm saying it correctly. From my father's side, my grandma doesn't even reach 1m45 and I've been told that my grandfather was really tall.
I think my doctors noticed something was wrong with me because I almost stopped growing up when I was 6/7 and I was used to passing out because of hypoglycemia and my blood pressure pretty often (now I know that I have to eat a lot to avoid it so I can deal with it better, and it happens less often in the first place.) So my case was typical I guess. I had to take injections of growth hormone everyday for years and it worked well because now I'm under average but not too short and skinny.
>a doctor accused my parents of child abuse because of my size/stature.
Are your parents short and thin? Because that would be a weird thing to assume if that were the case.
i thought about that after i posted it and knew someone was going to bitch about it. of course you did. astigmatism.
Bitter anon from before here, odd you mention that because I've dealt with both hypoglycemia and low blood pressure my whole life. I also have conversion disorder where I hallucinate mildly and get "paralyzed" (I posted that somewhere else on here, too), my doctor sucks really bad because she blames any problem I complain about on my weight.
>>1971>>Are your parents short and thin? Because that would be a weird thing to assume if that were the case.
Yes, but my family situation was pretty unstable when I was younger so I'm guessing the doctor thought I was short/small because I was being starved/neglected due to family situation.
If you know you eat properly and the right quantities for someone your size try to see another doctor about that if possible, just in case you do have a problem and you can do something about it. If your doctor blames your weight on this and doesn't check you properly they're not worth your time.>>1992
That makes sense.
I'm not even sure where to post this, maybe a different thread would be better, but since I feel like I'm hiding a secret, this is probably a good place to vent anyway… So here we go: I think I'm developing an ED.
I've suffered from depression for years and I got off my meds very recently (with my psychiatrist's approval). I don't really feel ~depressed~ as before, just "normal" sad 90% of the time… So my entire family is happy for me and for the progress I've made. But here I am, developing an eating disorder in secret. I'm still moderately fat, but I know the way I've been thinking and behaving isn't normal at all. I've been showing signs of bulimia. Maybe my problem isn't as severe as I think anyway, and i don't want to tell my doctor or family now.
It's like I just got out of the pits of hell and then jumped straight into a nearby abyss. I'm a fucking idiot.
I just hope it goes away on its own, but I sort of doubt it. I feel gross… Physically and mentally. Maybe getting an ED is what I deserve anyway.
I had to get stitches months ago and never went back to have them taken out. It's in a place I (and anyone else) can't see, so I have no idea what it looks like right now, but it doesn't give me any kind of discomfort. I'm scared to go back and confess that I've been walking around like this for so long and I know I have to get them taken out aaa
Are you sure they were the type of stitches that were required to be taken out? Some doctors use stitches that dematerialize. If you know they are still there though, then just call up your doctor. I'm sure it will be fine!
I'm pretty sure that's because of the menthol. You don't necessarily 'taste' it, but yeah. If the mint even had menthol in it, that is
I would make sure you don't let it get out of hand. That kind of stuff tends to spiral out of control. It's because you end up feeding a primal instinct.
I found out holding a girls hand is actually too much for me.
Make sure you're getting enough vitamins, at least. Base your goal weight on scientific standards and stop when you reach that goal weight.
If you don't think that's possible, seek help. Not HAES help, mind you, but an actual nutritionist who can ensure you're not starving yourself.
I don't feel any special sense of camaraderie with other women any more than i feel it with men. Like should I be referring to other women as my "sisters"? I don't care for nor trust a strange woman any more than a strange man. I honestly do not care about women just for being women and I shouldn't feel like I have to.
You should only use the term 'sisters' if you enjoy using it. Don't feel like you're forced to. Also, there's no reason why you ought to favor someone just because of their genitalia. That doesn't mean you should expect a man to understand you in the same way that a woman does, but it also doesn't mean that all women automatically will, either.
I have convinced the people around me that I'm an aromantic asexual but I'm just a lonely heterosexual who's given up before trying. I do this mainly for my parents because they're the only people who love me and I'm afraid of telling them which guys I'm attracted to since I'm a closet atheist in a very religious family.
I think that >>2191
is a really eloquent response. You shouldn't feel forced to use the term if you don't feel comfortable with it.
For me, I feel a small connection with other women in that I know that some experiences are almost universal for women. That makes me feel a sense of friendship and camaraderie. Sorry if you don't care about that, but I thought that maybe I could offer a bit of insight as someone who does refer to anons on here as sisters.
maybe I spend too much time on tumblr, lol. it's all those posts about like "girls are all so pretty and wonderful and nice" and that isn't true at all. that kind of culture really irritates me.
incoming feminist sperg, but I think female tumblr is just overcompensating for the sexism they experience irl. I know I am often fearful for my safety when I am in an unfamiliar place with lots of men, but I feel confident that I can walk up to any woman and tell her I feel unsafe… because I know that, 99% of the time, she'll understand and even pretend to be my friend until I can get out of the situation.
Tons of women are cunts, and that's the truth. But there is some shared experience in just being women.
I don't experience any sexism and I don't find myself being fearful of my safety. If there is a strange man and a strange woman around, I'll move closer to the strange woman because I know she is less physically capable of overpowering me
Probably because they get told the opposite in real life and are trying to compensate as >>2204
said. I often will think like that even though I know that realistically girls are as capable of hurting me as guys are. Why do I like thinking like that? Because when I grew up, it was boys who did things, it was boys who were smart, it was better to be cool like a boy than cute/pretty like a girl, girls are unnecessarily mean to each other, you can't trust girls, guys are better friends because they won't backstab you, etc. >>2205
I'm curious as to what you define sexism as.
sexism is discrimination based on sex
Discrimination in what context? What do you define discrimination as?
I wish I was either lesbian or bi. But unfortunately I feel no sexual attraction to women whatsoever. I'd consider myself what tumblr kids call "biromantic", but I guess I never fell in love with a girl, probably because somethingsomethingromantic that doesn't go alongside with your sexuality usually doesn't work in the real word. Maybe someday, I don't know?
Having only men as an option for me is just so depressing.
I know how you feel. I've tried having relationships with women twice before and while our connection was great and I felt like I could talk to them about anything, I just could not develop feelings for them in the same way that I do for men. I think I ended up unintentionally hurting them and looking back on it, I wish I had handled it better. The worst thing about that is my relationships with males have been utterly shallow in comparison and mostly built on mutual sexual attraction.
I can't help but question the validity of this "romantic love" bullshit, to me it's purely biological. I don't think I'll ever find what I'm looking for.
Sorry for turning this into the depression olympics.
My bf is a very kind soul and we always have lots of fun when we chat.
But yeah, here is my petty confession… Brace yourself. And sorry, but I've gotta vent.
Unfortunately… he's sort of dumb. He can be relatively tech savvy sometimes, but that's pretty much it.
Sometimes I feel like having deeper conversations with him, but it's impossible because he's kinda dense and doesn't know much about history, or science, or anything really, to make valid points. I'm not saying I have a big brain, but it's like I'm talking to a middle schooler sometimes.
He just gives his opinion on things and demands people to take his words as facts. I've gotten into heated arguments with him over stupid things like language, grammar and the like.
For example, this is very similar to something that happened to us a couple months ago:
>Bf writing important note. He writes "alot"
>Bf shows me note
>"Hey, good job, bf! You just need to fix that word"
>"Eh gf, but the correct is ALOT"
>try to Google "a lot and alot" to show him he's wrong.
>"Nooo, GF! I don't wanna read that! It's MY OPINION and that's it. Why do people always try to prove me wrong?"
We always argue about the history of our first language. I know for sure how it started and I have books on the topic, but he doesn't want to read them/Google it because "it's my opinion and that's it". He says stuff like "oh, how can people know if our language is really based on Latin if Latin isn't even spoken anymore?"
God, that drives me madder than it should. I'm a teacher so I get upset when I have books, facts and proper research to prove my point and he says that those things are merely "suppositions" and implies that he's the one who is correct and not me/the evidence.
His insistence to stay in the dark also makes me so mad. Our last argument was over Galileo Galilei, believe it or not. And he didn't even know who that was. It's like he never went to school.>>2216
>>2358>"oh, how can people know if our language is really based on Latin if Latin isn't even spoken anymore?"
pic related, >mfw
anyway, it makes me furious to no end when people disregard facts because muh opinion, or when they refuse to be corrected because "everyone will understand what I mean, so I don't care."
That's my face too, dear anon. That's my face all the fucking time we have any kind of discussion.
God, I love him and we're very happy, but his stubbornness and lack of basic education is fucked up. He speaks two Romance languages (I only speak ours, but I understand the other language he speaks too because, well, romance languages are very similar because they come from Latin
). Well, he keeps saying our language comes from another romance language, the one he speaks fluently. Just because they have similar words. Fuck.
I tried to show him the history of our language and why romance languages have similar words, sounds and the like, but he doesn't want to hear or read anything. AGH.
I can have the most fulfilling friendships with men, love them to death, blah, blah, blah, but when it comes to the intellectual fulfillment (I don't mean anything fancy, just discussions like the ones you mentioned, discussing books I've read, media, etc.), it's like I've never found a guyfriend I can mesh with, often because they are willfully ignorant like your boyfriend. Jesus.
Me and my future husband do non-sexual roleplay as fictional characters. Sometimes with plushes, sometimes online in traditional RP format, sometimes in real life as we're acting out the character. Yes, we actually make stories with them and follow through with it like children.
I dunno what my problem is.
I feel like a lot of women romanticize quiet guys. I hate them. I find them creepy and weird.
People find non-talkative people quiet, awkward, and uncomfortable irl no matter what gender they are. Trust me, I live with that shit.
What people mean is they only like that trope in the movies because they have a chance to see into the character's life and their perspective. In real life, people don't really think about what others are dealing with and get put off by the "mysteriousness" of not knowing them and end up ignoring them or thinking they're ~so weird xD~. Pretty shitty, but that's how society works.
exactly. context also depends heavily on how people receive it irl. if you're quiet and mysterious somewhere where you're not accountable for much and it's not an obstacle then people are more likely to find it interesting. if it's somewhere where people expect or require you to talk a lot then that shit falls apart. take that as you will.
Even as a quiet person myself, I find that shit creepy
and everything >>2413
I guess my confession would be that I still like to browse Felice Fawns old blogs that are saved on the web archive. (and I secretly wish there was more of it saved)
>be me at 14 years old
>found out about porn recentley
>spend night jerking off to weird internet erotica non-stop
>suddenly its like 6:00 am
>hear screams from downstairs
>my dad is super abusive so i ignore him. he's always yelling and being mean. i assume he must be yelling at my mom for no reason as usual.
>hear more arguing
>too lazy to go downstairs to see whats going on
>finish jerking off and fall asleep
>tfw wake up at like 3 pm
>i'm told that dad a heart attack
>he fucking died
>i didn't get to say goodbye. i didn't even get to see him one last time. apperantley while i was "sleeping" my sister and my mother were spending his final moments with him.
>"oh anon, theres nothing you could have done! it was six am! you were asleep! don't feel bad. its fine" - everyone
>except i wasn't. i was jerking off to lesbian cheerleaders or whatever
>be me like 10 years later
>still think about it and feel super bad.
>tfw picked cheerleader erotica over my father's cries for help
i'm taking this feel to the grave. theres no way i'm ever going to tell a therapist about this. true horny teenager feels. i actually hate watching/reading porn ever since. i only do it when i'm real anxious about someting. feel free to judge
I don't think you're evil because
1. How would you have known?
There's no way of knowing someone is going to pass away and you've made it clear that if you KNEW he was going to die, you would have been there too.
2. I think that saying he deserved it is kind of simplistic and you didn't really describe how abusive he was. Not that little abuse is fine, but you got my point. However I think the fact he used to scream a lot reassured you that he was pretty much fine, so that makes us back to the first point. You just couldn't know.
3. You seem to show true regret – even though you shouldn't
I know you will probably always feel guilty but I hope it lessens over time. Be well, anon. And lesbian cheerleaders are hot.
It's a bit funny how you just assumed all of that because of a confession I made.
I'm with him for all the other great qualities he has, which are many. He's always kind, sweet, really fucking funny, loving, passionate, we always have fun together and yeah, he is attractive to me which is a bonus imo. We've been together for 6 years and I'm not with him just because I'm comfortable. Just like everyone else, he has good and bad qualities. Sadly not being able to discuss some stuff that interest me with him sucks ass. I already knew he was like that when we started to get to know each other, but his good qualities overpower the two bad ones.
So your dad had a heart attack in your house, and not only did your family not come get you as it was happening, they didn't come get you in the 10 hour time span between the heart attack and you waking up, nor did they call the paramedics or police who came to retrive the body?
Very cool story bro
There is this… weird kid that is my junior at uni and he's generally very off - I remember that one of our few interactions he would self-pity and humblebrag nonstop, but probably because he was just so socially awkward he didn't know any other way to talk to people aside from small talk.
Today he showed up with nice clothes, a haircut and his voice, for whatever reason, was pretty hoarse, I guess due to a cold, since he was also wearing a scarf.
I am very ashamed to say that, for that split second of small talk, I legit found him attractive.
His personality is probably still very weird, though.
Rude. Being patronizing is worse than being a bitch to someone's face.
I swear to god, if this is fucking Spoony…
I'll make >>2477
's words my own. This is a confession thread. You were rude for no reason and assumed a bunch of stuff out of your own ass.
I don't know why you are being so snarky, honestly. >>2478
Feel free to report my post to ask admin if I'm spoony, but I'm not. This "I bet you're spoony" meme has to die though.
I hate my partner for making me live in an are I completely hate.
I hate my life here
i guess that what hurts me the most is just that i didn't get to say goodbye. I spent years mad at myself for letting my chance to see him that morning go to waste. And when I was over that, I was just mad because of the “what ifs”. like … “what if he had only lived a little more… what If he had changed… what if things had gotten better etc”. It made me mad that I never developed a good relationship with him. And I kept telling myself that if he had lived a little longer maybe he would have changed.
But yeah… looking back, that wouldn’t have happened… people don’t change. Certainly not him. It would have been the same abusive shit. But still, it hurts I guess. Even after all this years. And even if he was mostly an asshole. Even after all the pain he caused. Man, daddy issues suck.
that’s true. i guess I’m so mad because i just didn't know. i had no idea that it was going to be my last chance to see him. i shouldn't blame myself, but my brain always does.
i think it doesn't help the fact that i've never talked about this IRL. that i was awake that morning and didn't go downstairs to see what was happening because i was… well, jerking off… its too shameful/gross and weird for me. so i just let that memory rot in my brain. maybe that's why even after all this time i still feel kind of guilty.
Its really nice to finally hear that maybe I’m not. Maybe I should
talk to some professional about this… thank you guys >>2461 >>2464
Or….. I just left out most of the story that didn’t involve me because I was confessing my side of things… since it’s a personal confessions thread… its not that deep
>third world country. Dad has a heart attack. > Neither mom or sister can drive. Hospital is faaar away, see point1. What I heard at 6am was basically them and dad freaking out and not knowing what to do. Mom, keep in mind that it was his husband of 20+ years that she was losing. She just needed to get him to the hospital fast.>some aunt takes them to hospital. they spend his final hours with him there. My brother stays home looking after the house/me because point1. They obviously didn’t know he was going to die that day. they just didn’t take me to the hospital because I was very young and didn’t want to leave the house alone.>Dad has more complications there and dies early afternoon. They call my brother about this and he was the one who gave me the news. brother didn’t say goodbye either. >all of this was happening while I was asleep because I spent the entire day before jerking off.>woke up and hear all of this shit and regret not coming downstairs for the rest of my life.
okay i'll admit it feels better to vent this shit out….
I know that not driving/abusive dads/fearing that people will rob your house/not letting woman alone etc may sound weird to outsiders but… those are super normal feels in poor countries
Eh, I have hard time feeling any sympathy for you. I'm a child of an abusive parent and I hated the most the people who knew about it/heard things but decided to do nothing. You're even worse, you assumed your mother is getting hurt but you decided jerking off is more important.
It's understandable, Anon. I can relate to the whole>Can't help wanting to get along with your parents
Even if they're abusive and you know you shouldn't even give them the time of day.
You're being a brat considering this is a confessions thread, but everyone is free to assume whatever. Also it looks like the other anon assumed correctly that you're a bitch.
> fresh of the boat mom and stepdad moved to first world country
> mom cheats on stepdad who is incredibly abusive towards me
> mom ends relationship with said guy
> mom is suddenly happy to announce a "very wanted pregnancy"
> the kid has the bluest eyes you have ever seen
> mom is white but has brown eyes
> stepdad has muddy green eyes
My mom " suddenly" discovers one of her ancestors has blue eyes
> second pregnancy ( after my mom broke up with said guy )
> has brown eyes and is dark af
My stepdad used to think that he was better than everyone ( said it often) and it's now a fitness geek and my mom is stuck as a midrange housewife that hates her life most of the time
I don't feel bad at all because she let him abuse me often
Mom had to go back to a job she hated because she had 2 kids in this expensive as hell country
I wish I could try weed because a friend from another country told me it'd help me relax a lot
But I don't know anyone who does weed, I don't have many friends and they're all against it… I have no idea where to get it either since it's illegal in my country.
I had the same situation with my dumb abusive mom. The guys will all take off within 5 years or so. Don't let the kids grow on you, my siblings are the loves of my life and its killing me not to live near them anymore.
it's not all that. depending on the strain, your mindset, and a fuckload of other things, it won't necessarily relax you. things can turn dark very easily. i know a lot of people who do it a lot start to get paranoia and other people who become addicted to it have withdrawals. its not going to solve your issues.
No, you were really just a kid. He was an abuser, you were scared, and filled with insatiably raging hormones. You didn't get your goodbye, which sucks, but there's no way to have known that a guy who usually screams with anger was screaming in pain. Its your own shadow of guilt and you have to deal with it, but its there for no reason.
I know it'll come across like I'm just another giant weeb (there's a white kid at my university that wears robes and claims he's a "Japanese monk"), but I stumbled across reading about Samurai and their beliefs and culture and martial arts practice and something just really clicked.
I'm not planning on dressing in shitty ebay kimonos and carrying knives and calling myself a Ronin, but I've always felt like modern life lacked deeper meaning and purpose and I feel like maybe getting into practicing martial arts might help that?
A lot of people into martial arts here are /r9k/ level weeb guys and I'm not sure what they'll think of my WGTOW Samurai quest.
Not that I care that guys won't find me attractive, I'm 90% sure I'm a dyke anyway, but that's for another confession…
There are squirrels in the attic above my bathroom.
The house is big enough that no one else hears them, but they're getting more active. I don't dare tell my father because I don't want him to do anything bad or hurt them in order to get rid of them, but I'm just realizing that if it's a nest that means like six squirrel babies. Six squirrel babies are not going to be as quiet, well-behaved, or wise as the adult squirrels are. I'm not looking to have squirrels racing around my ankles while I pee but I feel like I have no choice and I'm locked into the path I've chosen.
If my posts suddenly become more frequent, erratic, and nut-oriented, please call for help, it means they've stolen my phone and are trying to take over my identity. At least maybe they'll get better marks than I do.
they aren't going to leave, let him know so they don't cause damage to the house
There are humane catch and release traps you could use to catch the mama and then pick the babies up and put them outside next to the cage before releasing her.
Of course this could backfire terribly, with the mom running away and leaving orphan squirrel babies for you to raise. The good news is that you'd have a few adorable squirrels who would trust and love you. I knew someone (an adult) with a pet squirrel as a child. She'd saved it as a baby and it was incredibly trusting. I'm not sure how 5 or 6 would work out but…YOLO?
*When I was a child I knew a fellow adult with a pet squirrel
I really want to be married to my boyfriend. I've always believed that unless you are religious or want children in the future, there is really no point in getting tangled up in a marriage. Neither one of those factors apply to us, but I still want to have him as my husband. It's so stupid that I feel this way. Rationally I know that being married to him would not change our relationship in anyway other than the fact that now the state would be involved in it, which is not something that I want. I haven't told anyone about it, I don't want it getting back to him somehow. He doesn't want to be married, and we are both happy right now. I feel so dumb thinking about it so much.
I half admitted about the squirrels to my parents, and it turns out I'm not the only one who noticed it. My mother said she doesn't care as long as they're not mice, and my father said that they're actually chipmunks, not squirrels (I've only heard them, not seen them). He's interacted with the parent chipmunk in the barn and the chipmunk is apparently fairly intelligent: my father was working in the barn and had a blood sugar drop and got dizzy, and the chipmunk, who had been watching him, squeaked at him and dropped a peanut out of his hole in the ceiling, almost like he knew it would help him. So everyone is willing to wait and see if they vacate on their own and unconcerned if they hibernate in the attic.
We've had a chipmunk get into our house before and he didn't do much damage aside from stealing from the cat's bowl of meow mix and hiding them places like under the couch cushions and inside the linen closet. The most destructive thing was that he made off with one of my mother's vintage antimacassars from the front sitting room in the night. Hopefully this chipmunk will be as polite.
Can I come live in this magical fairytale with you, Anon?
You want security in your relationship, what's embarrassing about that?
I have a boyfriend of 3+ years and we have a very healthy sexual life and yet I still flush and have to make pauses to recollect myself when reading (well written) smut fanfics. I feel like such a baby lol
Ok, confession time.
> had a big lessie crush in school, it wasn't just curiosity, something deeper was going on
> rejected badly, in a pull me along but never give in teasy way.
> figure I better go normie, date a pimpleheaded guy just to fit in and at least say "look,I got laid and I'm not a lessie!"
>years pass, increasingly awkward around women, never have women friends… start despising women and female qualities.
>adore violence, act tough proud of my male dominated success path.
>go on /pol, realise all the bitter fuckheads out there are just like me.
>get very curious about their behavior, talk about personal issues with them
>butthurts.jpg every single one of them have the same issue; rejetion
>realise what tot I've been, how crude my misandry was.
>look up feminine msg board, see that it's superior to other chans in every way, more polite, more constructive and way more intellectually stimulating.
>realise how fucking helpless and uncivilized most guys are
>really, not sure what to do…
I want to have a threesome with my bf and his best friend
The idea of a threesome is hot on itself but Id be afraid one of the guys want to put it in my pooper and thats a definite NO>¥.
i'd be down to that tbh but it'd have to be my bf because i trust him
If I ever broke up with my bf (very unlikely because we're very much in love and have been together for a long time) I would probably go fully gay. I've identified as bisexual for years but sometimes I wonder if I'm just fooling myself saying I have a preference for men. I don't know. It's weird. Part of me wants to have a relationship with men, the old-school, fairy tale type between man and woman, but… I don't think I'd be 100% happy.
Part of me feels like I won't be fully happy in a relationship that isn't between me and a girl – I'm happy in mine because he's an exception but most guys wouldn't be. I am very happy with my guy because it's him, but after him, I don't think I'd go back to men again, unless if I gave in to the pressure my religious family has on me.
Unfortunately at the same time I can't deny I feel attracted to men too, but falling in love with women and their beauty, including sexual, seems so much easier and natural.
Am I just your average bisexual, or am I a lipstick lesbian trying to discover herself?
I genuinely feel like I need to love people to feel attracted to them, and gender is unimportant in the equation (there are only 2 genders to me though). Is that a thing?
I'm in my mid 20s with very little experience, but shouldn't I know what I am at this point?
Is sexuality really fluid or is that just Tumblr nonsense?
Someone send help…
In short, sexuality is fluid for some, but never all. It's commonplace with bisexuals that they may lean more towards one end of the spectrum. You aren't a lesbian. You'd be very sure of your sole attraction to women if you were gay. But you seem to idealize the heterosexual fairy-tale while simultaneously idealizing the lesbian fairy-tale. The grass is never greener. It's the luck of the draw both ways. But I'm going to be wearing a dress with my wife.
Anon, thank you for responding. I was high when I posted that and I don't even know if I made much sense lol. Sometimes I miss being in love with a woman, and a woman's body. I think that's why I felt that way and asked myself that last night. Thank you for your kind reply, I think everything you said is correct, and i hope you're very happy with your future wife <3
Anon, I can't provide you with any sort of advice because I am as well experiencing similar emotions and thoughts. The other day a friend of mine asked me if I would ever marry a girl and my answer was no. This made me starting thinking about my sexuality again because I love girls but would only ever want a relationship with a man. Sometimes I don't know if it's due to society or how I actually feel. Being bisexual is confusing sometimes, but when I divide the way I like people based of sexual feelings and emotional, it's easier to place things.
You sound like you're straight and just like the idea of women. Please don't fuck it up for real bisexuals. Would you actually get into a relationship or have sex with a girl?
I'm not sure about a relationship (and I think what's stopping me is my family's homophobic views and my fear of those close to me judging me) but I would have sex
Most religious parents are ok with a daughter who has sex with several guys or boyfriends a year, but will get fucking pissed if she brings home a steady girlfriend. Amazing.
I get it that being a lifestyle goth and into Victorian mourning culture doesn't mean that you're depressed all the time, but there seems to be a fine line between appreciating death and wanting to be dead yourself. It's that moment when the cemetery stops being just pretty and the people buried there seem to be calling you to join them. You get a feeling like you're sinking into dark, murky water and the whole world seems grey. I think I want to be dead. Dead with my grandparents, and their grandparents, and their grandparents, dead with my friends, and dead with my cats. Everybody I liked best has died, and everyone who loved me has died, and it's starting to feel like putting flowers on their graves isn't enough, I don't want to leave the cemetery, and I don't want to leave them.
Not meaning to be an edgelord, I guess it's just time to stregnthen my antidepressants. Again.
It's complicated being gothic and being depressed, when you try to talk to someone everyone immediately says: "If you're depressed, maybe you shouldn't wear so much black!" like as if that's going to solve anything.
My partner makes fun of my feet sometimes (Greek feet. Small, but Greek feet anyway) and I pretend it doesn't bother me or he will never stop because he can be very childish sometimes, but it fucking does.. I don't even like wearing sandals of anything that shows my toes anymore.
Underneath how weird and interesting and capable I seem, and that goofy smile permanently on my face, is a twisted and depressed mind that's unsure of whether or not it can really take care of itself alone.
I really need more persistent friends or just someone to cling to, because the more time I spend alone thinking the more time my thoughts get to cloud with tear-worthy memories and thoughts, and my will gets tested again and again. Amazed I haven't snapped or become a worthless mush yet, but I imagine this really can't go on.
I guess I could be considered a player or teaser for the lack of a better word. I start romantic relationships with men and women and drop them without thinking much. Not because I'm not interested in them, I am, but I lose interest very fast. I don't like doing it because I feel like it's not fair, but at the same time I can't force myself to stay interested in someone. Ironically all my past official relationships lasted years.
I won't say I'm promiscuous because I don't get to fuck them, I just get flirty then quickly romantically involved before anything like that happens.
I guess that when I fall in love with someone, love hits me hard, and my feelings for the person are very steady. If I'm not in love then poof, bye.
-i have no friends in real life nor on social media and it fills me with shame.
-in college people treat me like a special needs kid or they just straight up mock me to my face.
-i stalk my gf social media everyday and see her having fun with her friends and i'm just like :( ok
-i was raped and i post it on anon all the time but i have never dealt with the trauma irl. so i have no social skills and i constantly look like a scared child.
-i want to killmyself but i don't want to make my mom feel bad because i'm the youngest son and it will look bad(YOU CANT SIT WITH US)
firstly, inb4 (YOU CAN'T SIT WITH US)
secondly, join groups on facebook and shitpost/meme farm, it's a good way to meet randoms or find stuff that happening in your local area.
404 pity not found - I almost stopped reading here.
> i was raped and i post it on anon all the time but i have never dealt with the trauma irl
the internet isn't really equipped to help you properly with that, you need to see a counselor/therapist - it's probably not going to get easier until you let it out.
> i want to killmyself but i don't want to make my mom feel bad
yea don't be a cunt, but also don't do it for your own sake; being anhero isn't all it's cracked up to be. I'm not going to spoon-feed you some feel good pop-psychology, you need professional help.
Ot but you're the same guy who's been here the last few days ban evading, no? Why do you keep outing yourself? Legitimately curious. If you wanna ban evade so you can post why not just be quiet about it?
Because men have to let everyone know that they're a man at all times innit
How else will we know they have a dick?
Sorry I thought you were referring to >>3773>>3776
may or may not be the ban evader, but I see no reason to assume that.(YOU CANT SIT WITH US)
Just to be clear, you can't 'inb4' in reference to your own posts (so I was basically inb4'ing the previous poster's inevitable ban). What is it that makes you assume my gender from that post?>>3790
What for this time? Is this the first time you've been given any authority, because based on how over-eager to exercise it you are, it really seems like it. All that ban does it show once again that mods = faguettes.
Anonymous Admin 3793
The user was banned because it's still the same male who's been unable to take a ban for the past couple of days, whiteknighting himself.
"Faguettes". Yeah, right. I would rather see them get banned and not "sit" with us than letting them free to sperg all over the boards. Seriously, I don't give two shits if a guy posts here as long as he doesn't mention his gender all the time. What's so hard about it? If they can't post without saying they're men they need to get banned.
A hot guy I know hugged me this week when we heard some really good news, and I felt my whole body melt. He's engaged though, so there's no way I will try anything, plus he's never done anything flirty. It was just a 3 sec long innocent hug tbqh, but fuuuuuck. I've also noticed I keep lusting after him when he's distracted, so I will watch myself better. I'm probably just horny because I'm so fucking alone.
I act as autistically as I can in terms of social norms. I recognize them, but I just don't care to follow them.
Suzy Berhow is a talentless POS but I'm jealous of her life. Not so much the fame aspect, but being able to just have fun traveling to Japan and Disney all the time and doing nothing but playing games as a job. Having that amount of money and free time seems like a dream.
My cousin was in a car accident and is now in the hospital with serious injuries, internal bleeding, broken vertebrae and so on.
My entire family is crying, but I can't feel bad because
- this is the 2nd time in a year or two for this to happen and he doesn't learn from it because he wants to emulate the men in our family, who have all made a career out of racing sports (mainly bicycles and cars)
- he is a countryside hick and can't find a better use for his time than driving recklessly and endangering other lives
- I grew up very close to him, he was a very angry kid who killed his pets a canary that disappeared mysteriously and a cat he stuffed into a linen sack and beat it against a tree and was verbally and physically aggressive towards everyone including his parents
- he tried to molest me when we were younger (we're the same age), he'd try to convince me to perform sexual acts on him all the time and when we were 12 he masturbated in a room with me and my brother (who did molest me) and insisted on showing his sperm around
TL;DR he's a careless driver, has anger issues and deserves the pain he's in
Why would I fight you? He sounds like a sick fuck and he deserved that shit. He caused it, since he's a reckless driver. I just won't wish death on him because I don't wish death even on the people who hate me for no reason irl, but some long time in a wheelchair would do this molester good.
You don't have to feel bad, anon. He sounds like a prick. Let your family cry, but be sure you don't owe him anything.
Yeah he sounds like a piece of shit and your feelings (or lack there of) are completely valid.
fuck me, I went to apologize to my mother (who relayed the news to me) for not being very emotional and said I'm just concerned because it's not the first time, he does it recklessly (as my mother said herself) and he could have killed an entire family. She simply said she doesn't want to think about that. I get it, of course she's concerned, but still he did something that could've killed a bunch of people and is giving him and his family a lot of pain, and for nothing. His mother (my aunt) didn't think he'd survive the first crash, and now she's going through this once more. Just because he's a selfish idiot who can't control himself. We have a lot of highways with no speed limits. You can probably imagine how fast he was going.
I was legit an underage stripper and prostitute.
oh jeez anon. That must be a very odd thing to look back on. I hope you're safe <3
I am so sorry that this happened to you. I hope that you are no longer hurting, and if you are, that you will find peace and happiness.
I'm gay but I have weird drems about getting raped by men and enjoying it.
I wish I could just stop living. Death seams like eternal rest. I don't want to wake up, go to work and do things. I just want to sleep forever.
c.c is incredibly morbid and depressing tonight
And i like that!
Here everyone, have some special drawn delish cyanide cake with cinnamon and brown sugar! Enjoy!
I wish more than anything I had something to cut with right now, but my boyfriend would be upset and might tell his parents out of concern. I think they'd threaten to kick me out of the house if they knew I had a history of self-harm.
I also have PTSD and don't manage my symptoms very well on my own. Trauma counseling isn't covered under my insurance and the one woman I found who goes low enough on her sliding scale that I can just barely afford to pay for sessions keeps leaving town, rescheduling my appointments, or even outright fucking forgetting my appointments, so I'll just show up to her office and she won't be there.
It seems to get harder and harder for me to bounce back each time I have a set back. For at least 3 years now, I've felt like I no longer enjoy a lot of the hobbies I used to enjoy and most days I don't really feel like getting out of bed. People know that I'm struggling, but I guess I'm not bad enough to warrant any sort of serious attention, and I'm not about to do something drastic and manipulative to prove otherwise. I'm trying to help myself but I can't do this on my own and it seems like the people in my life either don't care, or don't know how to help me.
Kind of feels like I'm just waiting to die at this point tbh.
>>1712you threw away the used garlic, right?
I have been burning paper with curses to my ex written on it
Even if that doesn't have a real effect on him (I mean because it probably doesn't) it's a good idea because it can be therapeutic for you. I suggest a voodoo doll lol
Good idea! I've been meaning to make a puppet for him back when we were together, but he left before I could even finish it. With all the materials on hand, I could actually start making one and keep all my sewing pins stabbed in it haha
Does your family know what he's done? You shouldn't feel bad for not feeling anything, the things he has done are vomit inducing. Animal abusers and molesters have their own special place in hell. You shouldn't feel the need to apologise to your mother for all the suffering he has brought upon others that he most likely doesn't feel sorry about. Please don't feel guilty.
I'm very close to jump the bones of my friend's two year long crush. He's my friend as well, he's pretty cute and nice to talk to, but dating him… first, it would break her heart. Secondly, I feel like these feelings of mine aren't really serious, and I don't even know if he likes me back.
Unfortunately, I'm 18 and a perma, kissless virgin. I would like to pretend I could, ya know, get a boyfriend like everyone does? But in reality I don't know many guys and unless I know them for a while I'm really awkward around them.
My friend is a virgin as well and she straight up obsessed to this guy, which I can't even relate to because my "crushes" have almost always been on guys I saw around school without knowing them kek. Idek if it would be less assholish to do it if she moved on, but still. I don't want to turn every single girl in our group their back on me because I decided I had to fuck her eternal love. That is, if he even would.
Sorry for the big ass astigmatism. In the end I won't do anything cause I'm a pussy, but it makes me feel bad, to think about it. And to be so desperate I'd date a guy who I might not even really like.
You still have a shot tbh. I know you're very behind but you're still a teenager, it's not over.
Agreed. 18 is still way young
I'm 20 going 21 and a kisseless virgin as well, so 18 is super young and not that weird tbh, you have a lot of time to find someone, no age is too old.
The only thing that bothers me about it is that i would be considered weird by most people if i told them, but otherwise i don't have any desire to go and do everything just to do it because at "my age" it's not normal or whatever, i'd rather wait until i feel like it's the time and person and i am sure of my feelings before rushing into something and regretting it later.
I personally think it's best for you to consider your feelings and wether you are doing something to "catch up" or because you actually like it/want to do it.
What i am trying to say is, consider your feelings first and leave the "what i should have done before x age" as your last thought, and then you will have your answers as to wether you actually want to be with this guy. Don't rush into anything just out of pressure, that will only make you borderline miserable in the long run.
Would you rather look back on your first time as something positive or as a "what if" situation?
I feel less aggressive ever since I stopped frequenting lolcow and some 4chan boards.
Did this happen for anyone else who stopped going there?
I wouldn't say aggressive in my case, but I'm not as insanely judgemental as before.
You used to go on 4chan or lolcow?
Several people here did/do. There's a thread on it in /b/
Yeah, ever since i come to cc instead of going to lolcow i feel a lot more "positive" in general.>>5223
A lot of people from here come from LC, actually. This site started from a post on /g/ (or /ot/ not sure). I'm sure we are getting more userbase from different sites now, but LC users were mostly the first to come here and stay.
I creepily snapped a picture of this really cute guy at my work who works in a different department than me when he sat at a table directly across from where my phone was facing in the break room. I dont even do anything with the picture, it just sits in my camera roll but I feel really gross and weird that I even had that thought and took his pic without him knowing. I almost feel like those creeper fetishists that take upskirt shots and ass shots of random women in casual places.
You should delete it, it's only right.
My secret is I have a huge crush on my male bestfriend of 10 years. There is zero chance of us getting together.
My confession is that a couple of weekends I "accidentally" sent him a picture of me in my bra and panties.
you're ok lol. unless it's embarrassing it's not a big deal
Well why is there a "zero chance"??
>>5261>My confession is that a couple of weekends I "accidentally" sent him a picture of me in my bra and panties.
How did he respond?
He's happily married and so was I till recently.>>5297
He didn't really say anything other than,"uhh?" I quickly said, "opps wrong chat." Later told him I was drunk and on tinder.
She doesn't HAVE to delete it unless it makes her uncomfortable because it wasn't taken in a private place like a house or apartment, it was a semi public place – her work. The guy wasn't naked, half naked, or in his underwear, and she's not gonna post it anywhere, so she can keep it.
People forget everyone now has a phone and a built in camera. I know it sucks balls but there are way more pics of you out there but your selfies, family and friends photos. It's one of the downsides to living in the 21th century imo.
Sage because I'll samefag now. When I was a teenager one of my close cousins had this mad crush on a guy we didn't know and asked me to ask him for a pic. Like I went up to this total stranger at this event for no reason and asked to take a pic with him…which he did. How strange. I remember she cherished that fucking pic for years lol. Looking back I can't believe I did something like that. Maybe that's why I don't think Anon having an innocent pic of this dude taken at work is such a big deal even though I understand why it's a bit creepy…
Earlier I wanted to say that was really desperate and pathetic of you, but turns out it's even worse…
You sent a selfie in a lingerie to a married men? WTF is wrong with you? What did you count on? For him to cheat on his wife and have an affair with you?
I bet the wife trusts you are just his friend and yet you pull the shit. I'm glad that your married friend proved he's not a cheating piece of shit. Still awful of you to do that. While it's the person in the relationship responsibility to not cheat, pulling moves on people in monogamous, committed relationship is hoe behavior.
Nta and I do agree it's pathetic. The guy could also get in a huge problem for no reason since he has nothing with her. What could have happened if his wife saw his phone? Lots of couples don't have secrets when it comes to their phones. How would have anon fixed that shit? Maybe "I was drunk" wouldn't fool his wife.
Anon, I know this is the secrets and confessions thread so I don't want to be overly judgemental, but please never do this type of shit again.
The sad truth is I have no idea why I did it. Nor do I have any idea what I expected from him. It was right after my divorce. I went threw this period where it was like somebody else was controlling my body.
Like I already know he isn't going to cheat on his wife. It's why I stated nothing will happen between us. We've already tried in our teen years. It didn't really work out then.
Just for a point if fact his girlfriend did see the picture. Bought the lie and even got me to take her lingerie shopping.
>Just for a point if fact his girlfriend did see the picture. Bought the lie and even got me to take her lingerie shopping.
God what a blind trusting fool. Not because of you exactly, but she should open her eyes a little. That's just dumb. That's the type of woman who sees her naked husband with a flaming gay guy in their bed and thinks they were watching Netflix and chilling.
Anyway good luck anon, I'm glad you won't do that ever again. Internet hug!
When I was 14 my neighbor got arrested for molesting his daughter a classmate of mine. The only evidence was a few Polaroids of him fucking young girl with our school school uniform on. They couldnt make out her face and just let assumed it was his daughter. I told my parents it was me and it was consensual. Which I thought it was at the time. They forbid me from telling anybody and even took me to a "therapist" to convince me it didn't happen.
I wrote a fake confession to a uni social media page pretending to be a person interested in getting to know me, just to see what people thought of me/if they noticed me around or if I'm truly as invisible as I feel I am.
I actually haven't, but I'm strongly considering doing so. I am so fucking pathetic.
i'd do it if it's anonymous.
anyway, i had a very low quality sext session with some stranger. won't go into details but it was very. very lq. still got off though ahaha
Anon, do it and then post back here with results.
this whole story confuses me.
he did fuck you, or you told people he did when he didn't, but then you eventually believed he didn't, too?
and two, even if he did do that to you, how do you know he didn't do that to his daughter, also?
I don't think I've ever truly loved my mom. She's abusive and weak and I cringe every time she sends me bombardments of texts acting like we're besties. As if my entire childhood of her screaming at me, calling me a bitch, selfish, useless, slapping me or hurling dinnerware at me out of nowhere, didn't happen. As if all the times I had such horrible panic attacks I felt like I was going to die, she didn't act like it was nothing but an inconvenience for her to deal with me, or didn't outright tell me to piss off out of her room. As if when I tried to confide in her that I was raped by my ex boyfriend, she didn't throw up her hands, tell me "I can't listen to this," and leave the room. As if she provided me with the bare fucking minimum of necessary emotional support and encouragement to bolster my self-esteem and allow me to grow up feeling like I was worth more to the world than just my looks, rather than just nagging me shave my armpits, maintain my nails, regularly get highlights in my hair, and repeatedly remind me how lucky I was to be, "so much prettier and skinnier than I was at your age."
My dad divorced her when I was in high school and remarried one of his coworkers, with whom he'd been having an affair for at least a year. It's been over a decade since then and my mom still finds some way to talk smack about both of them in every phone conversation we have. Calling him a bastard who abandoned his children (despite him making more of an effort to be part of my life than she does), calling my step-mom a whore, etc. Ten fucking years and she's still acting like a victim. Like her inability to be an adult had absolutely nothing to do with why my dad left her.
Honestly, my step-mom and I don't have a whole lot in common, yet she's still leagues above my own mom in terms of stability and the ability to be a good wife and mother. I feel much safer and happier spending time with her, even if I think what she and my dad did all those years ago is awful.
My mom suffers from depression and drinks a lot. She didn't have a very good childhood, but she refuses to see therapists because they won't coddle her. She essentially refuses any form of constructive criticism, so she never improves. It's really hard for me to have sympathy for her when she won't seek help.
As I've said, I don't think I love my mom. I don't know if our bond can ever be repaired, but I do hope she manages to find peace through her own means. I also hope that one day I can forgive her.
this just reads like a SVU episode and is probably fake tbh. not trying to fight you, its just that the way you told this story sounds a little too movie-drama like. if its true then i'm sorry>>5449
make a fake facebook account with fake pics and shit and private stuff. then send it to the fb/insta/whatever page. sure, it might be "anonymous" to post there. but you never know if one of the admins there is someone from your class or something like that.
real talk, there was a guy who did this in my uni. a loner who was super creepy and always treated girls like shit. no one liked him. not because he was shy (like i suppose you are) but because he harrassed girls and bragged about being a "youtuber" and his #youtubefame #youtubemoney. anyways, he self posted in the fb page. he made a post pretending to be a girl who had a crush on himself. everyone could tell right through it because no girl ever talked to him like that/no one fucked with him like that. also it had his #im a fucking idiot style of writing. so all the comments were about how he was self posting. and the next days of uni people made jokes to his face about "hey wheres your girl, dude?". everyone knew it was self posted. admins didn't like him either and didnt delete all the posts mocking him. people made fun of him IRL about it for weeks because it was so sad & pathetic. i would have felt bad but it was kinda funny and i insist that he had a history of being a creep so people didn't like him…
so anon if you're hated in your uni, you will find out. if they don't care about you, you'll get two likes and people will move on. either way, being ignored >>>>>>>> getting made fun of
i want to kill myself right now
I never learned how to ride a bike since my family never owned one. I also don't know how to swim, we never went to the sea side, the rivers here aren't safe and my parents don't like going to pools and stuff.
I don't know where else to put this, so here goes.
I think there may have been an incident in my early childhood that I've been repressing, but I know that it's just as likely that I'm just armchair diagnosing myself with bullshit.
Why I think something happened:
>my father was abusive and violent towards my mother and brother, she left him, he killed himself when i was 4 years old
>she refuses to talk about what happened and cries
>very unpopular, but somehow still manage to have sexual relationships with 3 of my female friends where we experimented with each other, these girls were all on a higher social rank and dominant towards me when in public but nicer when alone. Started in late elementary school and continued for years
>molested by two male relatives but it was written off as being boys in puberty and i still seeked their attention
[spoiler]v>couldn't reach an orgasm until my mid-20s, always felt like something is 'disconnected', it's like watching a movie and at the most intense moment, the soundtrack goes on mute.
>when I started being sexually active, I was in intense pain every time so much as a finger entered me. The first time my boyfriend fingered me, I felt completely stiff and had a weird sensation of doom.
>Later turns out I have vaginismus
>consistent history of unhealthy/abusive relationships with older guys
I don't know
I get these random, intense obsessions with certain men. I fantasize all these weird (usually sexual tbh) scenarios involving them. Then I just drop it and forget. I have a boyfriend and I'd never pursue them, but I enjoy the fantasy while it lasts.
Last year it was this cute security guard at work who lives in his van (not even kidding). Right now it's this guy who works at a jewelry store in the mall I work at and a sort of creepy Japanese artist that I follow on Instagram.
while it's unfortunately always possible, i wouldn't get too paranoid about those things alone because nothing sticks out as super abnormal. I also never orgasmed until a late age and penetration was always really painful until recently. It just took me a long time to have enough confidence and mental stability to enjoy my sexuality and understand what I like. I'm also bi, not sure if you are, but that also made it harder for me to relax enough to enjoy sex with men, because part of me was always worried that maybe I was gay and my attraction to men was just muh compulsory heterosexuality, so I didn't have the comfort of knowing that even if it hurts initially it'll feel good if I relax enough. As for falling into relationships with abusive older men, I think having a bad and ultimately nonexistent relationship with your father and being sexually abused by your other relatives would be enough to explain that. "Daddy issues" is a rough term but a fuck ton of people who have a bad relationship with their father end up subconsciously looking for someone who's kind of similar to them to try and replace it.
It's some hard stuff to deal with and I'm sorry that you're going through it but to me personally, nothing jumps out as needing some other horrible hidden explanation.
It just seems like you've had a bumpy road with your sexuality and while that's not "normal" per se, i think it's well within the average experience for a woman without a horrible repressed childhood event.
I deleted it but even if I did still have it, I wouldn't post it for obvious reasons. Your creepy post isn't very inviting either.
I've seen people post pictures from their phone onto imageboards and other anons somehow found their location just from looking at the details of the picture using whatever program. No thanks.
i'm 18 and i can't drive lol
Wow you're really young. I remember a lot of people in another thread saying they're in their late 20s and can't drive. It's not a big deal either way but especially not at your age.
I’m 20 and can’t drive lol
I’m feeling really guilty because on the weekend I drinkenly wore someone else’s shoes home from a party. I feel like I should fess up somehow but I wonder if it’s too late now.
Adding on, I don’t know who’s shoes they are and only knew a few people at the party.
same! i admit my life would be easier if i knew how to drive but it isnt that big of a deal since there is public transport everywhere here.
I need some advice.
tl;dr my hair has been falling out, suffer from acne all over my body (milder on face), body hair getting hairier but regular periods
Tested androgen levels are higher than average but don't exceed the norm. OBGYN now scheduled me for an endovaginal echography (stick in vagina) to test for ovarian cysts.
I really don't wanna do it but I really also don't want to have cysts/PCOS and not know about it.
I'm super insecure and have never had a gyn look at my vajay. Let alone stick something up there.
On top of that I told her I already had sexual contact bc I was too ashamed to admit I'm a virgin.
But I'm scared she'll notice I'm still one once she puts it up there.
Anyone else have any experience related to PCOS/this kind of echography? :((
You should have told her, obviously. She's a doctor and they're used to that kind of thing, trust me you're not the only adult virgin they've had as a patient. Stick in vagina thing will only hurt badly if she doesn't do it right. You can tell her you've never had any medical tests like that done and ask her to be very careful, and she will probably be. I hope that helps.
I don't have PCOS, etc so i can't help with that but I hope everything goes well!
I've had it done. It seems to be part of a standard yearly check up here. It's a bit uncomfortable but done real quick, in like 3 minutes max. Just listen to what your gyno is saying to distract yourself, or look at the screen and it'll be over faster than you'd expect it to.
I have PCOS and I do that frequently.
First of all, tell your doctor you've never had sex. FOR REAL. It changes the procedure. I am not sure either they use a smaller object to insert, but that's probably the case.
Also, you probably have PCOS. It's not a big
deal, like, you're gonna live your life normally, but it sucks. Like, you're gonna gain a feel kgs and your acne is gonna be a pain in the ass as well as the hair, also depending on your PCOS type, your gonna feel a lot of cramps and probably won't be able to eat certain foods without hurting afterwards, but again, it's not like it's something crppling or anything.
For further questions, there's a PCOS thread on /hb/.
i have the hugest crush on this celeb one year younger than me.
he's, 17, and…..still in high-school due to the way education works over there (but it's his last year!)
and we'll be the same age when his b-day rolls around in march….idk. i just wanted to get it out there ;; i just think he's too damn cute
Anon, it sounds to me like you have a pretty consistent history of abuse and trauma. I don't think you need to worry about having repressed anything; what you wrote was enough. Even the fact that you mention being molested was "written off" I would think could factor into why you continued to experience relationships with abusive people later in life. If the people you were supposed to trust at that age made you believe this was normal and even blamed you for it, you may have internalized this notion of abuse being a.) okay, and b.) your fault in some way, at an impressionable age. Had you been taught this isn't okay, that those people who molested you were in the wrong, and that you are not to blame for their behavior, I imagine things would have turned out differently for you in terms of the people you went on to date and experiment sexually with.
I'm not saying that this is the sole reason for any of your later problems, but these patterns of behavior tend to be pretty consistent in people, meaning whoever told you that it was your fault you were molested likely repeated similar scenarios in which maltreatment/abuse/self-neglect was normalized for you.
Also, and I'm simplifying this a lot…the thing about trauma is that it sort of gets trapped in the nervous system. Anyone who is subjected to chronically unsafe environments, regardless of the cause, begins to become somewhat stuck in a state of fight-or-flight. This typically shows up in the form of anxiety, paranoia and depression. Severity typically depends on how bad the past trauma is, and how unsafe the person's current environment is. Basically, the point I'm getting at here is that the body's regular functions become abnormal when constantly on edge like this. Sexual dysfunction such as vaginismus is a very common side effect of chronic stress, simply because your body CANNOT RELAX!
I think it's also important to note that sex for anyone, regardless of their history, is always going to be better when there is a genuine emotional connection and trust involved. I wasn't molested as a child, but I had very low self-esteem as a result of being verbally abused for most of my life. Because of this, I went on to date addicts who neglected me because I didn't think I deserved better. I don't think I ever truly trusted any of my early partners and I was regularly upset with them. Sex always felt off somehow, and I would also dissociate during penetration. Was never able to reach orgasm with my first partner, and with my second I came maybe twice. I have a pretty good sex life with my current boyfriend, who was a good friend of mine before we started dating, giving me plenty of time to develop the trust I needed to know he would treat me with the respect I deserved. I still sometimes struggle to enjoy sex if I'm stressed out, but it's nowhere near as difficult as it was with previous partners.
About the promiscuity…I can't really speculate on that since there are a lot of reasons why people are promiscuous that aren't necessarily rooted in early childhood sexual abuse, but when I can recommend is that you begin asking yourself, the next time you feel compelled to sleep with someone you don't know well…what is the worst thing that could happen if I don't have sex with this person right now? See what kind of thoughts come up for you.
I unironically prefer bigger benis and I miss my exes size (8") my current bf is average (5"). he's great and good at sex but something minor is missing.
I would never say or do anything about it tho because that kinda shit hurts men too much.
Idk if i prefer bigger. I've never had small. Every guy I slept with had a huge benish. Of course I am a tiny asian girl so take that with a grain of salt.
My current bf is massive (like I honestly didn't know they could get that big) and I have mixed feelings about it.
I'm quite skinny and very short, so that doesn't help at all, and he's just huge in length and especially in girth. He's way thicker than my wrist, he's even thicker than his own wrist and I must admit that sometimes it looks scary instead of arousing, especially when he's very excited and he gets rock hard. During the beginning of our relationship I thought that the initial pain of the penetration during the first two or three minutes would eventually disappear, but after almost 4 years it's still there, just barely slightly better than the first time we had sex. That honestly felt like I was a virgin again, I didn't enjoy it at all, but luckily for me he loves eating me out, he's a total sweetheart and he has always made sure that I cum at least a few times even during those days when he's just too much for me to take. But it still sucks that I have to endure a few minutes of painful penetration before I can feel good and even then, it's not guaranteed that I will.
However, like half of the times we have sex, and after the initial pain fades away, it's very easily the best sex I've ever had in my life. Cumming is extremely easy, I just need to rock my hips a bit while he's inside so that there's some extra pressure against my clit and that's all it takes, I cum in less than 30 seconds and I can do it over and over again until I'm absolutely exhausted or he cums. I was never able to cum so easily with other guys. Extremely deep penetration can also feel AMAZING at the right angle, but it can feel like getting punched in the belly as well if he's not careful.
So yeah, as I said, I have mixed feelings about it. When it hurts, it can hurt A LOT, lube doesn't improve it that much, and sometimes it's just too much for me to take and we have to stop because I will start bleeding a bit. I also hate fact that I can't give him blowjobs, my mouth is literally too small to take the head in. But when it goes well it's the best thing ever! Even with all the disadvantages, my sex life has never been this good and I'm so glad for that, but it still could be better.
How large is he exactly?
My ex bottomed me out and it never hurt if he didn't go in dry, it was perfect. It did hit some sort of point in the end, maybe cervix idk, which felt very good. I used to think diccs were ugly until I saw his, it was actually good in aesthetics too.
He says he's 10" long, and I believe him because I could use three hands to masturbate him (if I had them of course) with some spare space between them. And it's also really fat, almost beer can thick. I'm jealous that you always enjoyed being bottomed out, it's horrible for me sometimes, no matter how wet or lubricated I am. He tries to be as careful as possible, but sometimes he just gets too rough and it hurts like a bitch, the rest of the time it feels awesome though. His dick is good looking too, nice and strong upwards curvature and shape, especially the head has a nice form. But as I said, when he's really horny and he gets 100% hard it can look scary, because it just gets so thick, veiny and pinkish-purple that it seems angry, I don't know how to describe it, but it does make me feel intimidated.
Is there really such a big difference between your ex and your current bf? I think size is NOT that important, the second best sex I ever had was with a small guy, so maybe he just needs to improve his technique.
Can concur. My bf isn't nearly that big, but still too big for me, and sex is a mixed bag. Sometimes it hurts too much or takes too long to get used to it that I get bored/over it (I have a finnicky libido) and/or he gets so worried about hurting me it kills his boner so we stop and cuddle or just do something else lel.
But on the odd time it worked out, I've had a crazy orgasm where it's like you're possessed. The when it happened I got so fucking scared lol I thought I was having a seizure. Actually it was so frightening, idk if I want to have one like that ever again.
Side note: big benis means the loudest fucking queef I felt it rumble and crack in my body like a fucking thunderclap
Yes, it's a mixed bag, but for me it's a net positive I think. I've experienced everything you described, sometimes it just takes too much time to get used to the size, and combined with the pain I will lose my excitement after a while. But when the orgams are particularly good, they are out of this world, I've also had a few of those seizure experiences and they are a bit scary, yet amazing at the same time.
The thing about the loud queefs is so true. Since the gaping is so big when he takes it out, a lot of air gets in, and then you will get a huge queef. I've realised that it gets particularly bad during doggy style, but luckily my bf doesn't seem to have a problem with it.
>>5802>I could use three hands to masturbate him (if I had them of course) with some spare space between them
So youre like a dwarf person or something?
Well, I'm like 5'0 and skinny, while he's very tall and hung, the contrast is massive.
Does your local high school have a pool? Oftentimes the city's chamber of commerce will offer swimming classes there in the summertime as a way to make a quick buck. In my city it was like, 20 USD a lesson, every other week.
Are you one of the tall girls in the hb thread who kept sperging out at short girls? You sound really insecure. Don't be a dick to her.
I hate and love my mother so much.
If she died it would kill me but at the same time I could use her money, I'd never have to deal with her trying to micromanage my life again. My sister would be free of her too. It's such a terrible feeling.
Spoiler cause fucking gross
I watched a piss orgy (all male) video and didn't get disgusted. I wouldn't go as far as to say I got aroused either,
but I feel like I shouldn't even be able to stomach it. Why
I feel so gross and disgusted at myself
I have a huge humiliation fetish and you be surprised how often it turned into being peed on.
Heh, like in that Beastie Boys video.
Did they sex or was it just all peeing?
You're just developing a thick skin. It's a good thing.
I don't think I have one, though. I do some veeeery light bondage, choking, slaping and name calling with my boyfriend (normie shit really), and even sometimes I think that's too much kek I am a vanilla bitch, I guess. I mean, if it was a non gross liquid, like squirt that is piss like but not -pisspiss-, I guess I wouldn't find it as revolting. >>5833
Mostly pissing, like a piss bukkake
, but not all at once and they fucked in between.>>5834
I did fucking wince when one pissed on a dildo and other licked it though.
so I guess not all is lost. The thing that gets me more is like… Why did I even click and went trough it you know? Eehh… They were professionals, obviously, so their pee was pristine and transparent, I almost dissasociated it with the "real" thing. But thinking about the yellowness and smell of the thing irl…
Eh, piss isn't disgusting if you drink lots of water. I tend not to find it disgusting even if it's yellow and concentrated, I mean, it's sterile and it's not like shit where it's actual
waste. It's just water.
I've not told anyone in my life this before, I don't really know how to go about it.
I have a feeling that I was abused as a child but I can't properly remember it. I think if it did happen, I blacked it out.
A couple of years ago I was at a family gathering and my aunts/mom/cousin were talking about my crazy aunt who's been estranged from the family for years, and I never knew why. They said that it was because she had accused a family member of abusing her daughters, and social services got involved etc., but obviously, it turned out to be totally false.
I was completely shocked. I adore that family member, he's my whole world, so to find that out really shook me, and I went to my friend's house and cried but couldn't say why. I couldn't understand why the bitch would make something so horrible up.
And then recently, a few months ago, I started thinking about it again. I watched a film where a female character is in an abusive relationship and I took so much pity on her and knew that it was wrong, but I couldn't help thinking I wanted a relationship like that. So I did some googling and read that people who experienced trauma in their childhood often seek out unhealthy or abusive relationships because it's what they learned, or because they have a deep-rooted feeling that it's all that they deserve. And I thought huh I've never been abused, maybe it's just a kink, but then I thought about the conversation with my aunts.
And I've become really confused. The way he treated me wasn't abuse. I'm not sure if I'm just overthinking and overanalysing what was just friendly contact and conversation. I think he was just looking out for me and being loving. But what I read online said that it could constitute as abuse. But that seems so farfetched. But then, if my dad treated any child of mine that way, I wouldn't like it. I'm not sure what to do really.
I've been distancing myself from my boyfriend and yeah I already fucked things up with my friends
What have you done and why?
You'll only see things go further south if you isolate yourself from friends and loved ones.
I love my current boyfriend so much but I'm his first (for everything) and sometimes I find myself fantasizing about my ex because he was tall, had a big dick and knew how to use it. My current bf is my height with an average dick and knows next to nothing about pleasing a woman with it.
I'm a pathetic loser who can never even think of initiating sex because I'm still having trouble getting over trauma from my past and my current bf is obviously not as confident since I'm his first partner. I feel bad because I should be able to teach him stuff but I just get so fucking scared or embarrassed with him. I want to find joy in being at least somewhat dominating but i just can't. I want to be dominated by him because I trust him… yet I know he won't do it. We're both almost 26 and I just feel like a damn child at this point. i long for an amazing sex life with this man but I don't think it will ever happen and it's upsetting so I fantasize about other men or even characters from stories I read.
At least with my last bf I could just put myself into a state of catharsis while he fucked me since he at least knew what he was doing without me having to worry about it.
I don't know what's wrong with me and I feel like my feelings contradict themselves. I feel terrible.
have you considered using the communication hole on your face with him
Consider that your bf is not going to magically read your mind about these things. If you are not content with the way things are, say something.
Being embarrassed/scared is part of the vulnerability of being in a relationship. If you can't assert yourself, try asking him about what kind of fantasies he has to initiate a conversation about where you would like your sex life to go.
Also from what you said about your ex, you sound like a boring lay. Maybe your ex was into that, but not actively participating in sex is weird.
I'm sorry, I should have been more specific.
I've talked to him about this stuff before but he's still reluctant I think? I've tried to have the "what turns you on" talk with him many times and it's always a "I don't know" sort of response. He's really neutral towards almost everything even though I'm quite straight up and honest with things myself.
Maybe I'm just not someone who should be intimate. I am indeed a boring lay because I'm embarrassed and the only people I've been with have been fine with being fully dominating while I do whatever they wanted me to whether top or bottom. I take direction well but I don't give it well is my problem I guess.
I don't think you should be so hard on yourself, sorry for being harsh about the boring lay bit.
It sounds like he either isn't that invested in the sexual aspect of your relationship or really shy about it as well. You might need to literally tell him specific instructions on what to do or try, with encouraging feedback ("Yes that feels good, do xyz, etc"). If you can't do that, try other ways to get it across like watching erotica together?
Anon, you deserve to have a fulfilling romantic/sexual/reciprocal relationship, but that takes work.
It's ok, I appreciate the advice regardless of how harsh it came off.
I think you're right about him being shy. I just haven't really thought about that since we've been together for 2+ years now and my mind decides to say "well if you've been together for that long there should be no problem". I think I just needed a reality check though. The type of relationship i want does take work. Thank you so much anon.
I ate lots of salami today and I can't stop farting.
I was doing some arts n crafts stuff today and accidentally cut my finger. Instead of cleaning the cut right away I continued on with my art project despite the pain, it lowkey felt… good? I've never thought of pain feeling good before (but I know that some ppl have it as a kink) so I felt kinda strange feeling this way.
it takes time to adjust to crushed dreams of grandkids anon. The bigger the blindside the longer the adjustment.
Do you guys hide when seeing people from HS? i do. im not even totally sure why i do that.
I used to hide but now I just ignore them. I don't give a shit about any one of them. They ignored me during HS so they can lick my ass now
I do that all the time. I literally run and have ducked behind my boyfriend in several occasions. I don't want to remember them.
I don't look anything like I did in high school so I'm usually pretty safe passing by and pretending to be a stranger. There was one guy who recognized me, but he didn't seem sure so I just looked at him funny and walked away quickly.
I think my boyfriend might have a pee fetish, but I am not sure.
I remember when I thought he had a tickling fetish, and I was so shocked by that that I stop making out with him and I felt pretty dirty afterwards (although he doesn't have dA levels of tickling fetish, he just likes that I tease him a bit while we do stuff), but then I thought a bit about it and came to the conclusion that it was pretty harmless. He then admited it a few months later.
But a pee fetish… I am not sure if I can engage in that at all. As I said, I have no confirmation, but he often jokes about angrily pissing on someone or when I talk about weird pee fetishes he doesn't seem that distraught. I mean, I could be wrong, and he never asked me anything related to this, but I was right about the other one…
That sea lion had every right to be offended
I act like that sea lion every time I catch someone saying something messed up about the Irish.
It's a cop car, not a fucking paddy wagon. And I will happily speak at length to anyone about the origins of that particular racial slur among others. I'm unemployed, nothing is a waste of my time anymore.
I liked my high school classmates, but I still avoid them (online or when back home).
I don't live near any of them anymore, but sometimes they will contact me on FB (very rarely) and I get so flustered I ignore them or reply late with simple, boring sentences.
It's because I'm scared of being judged as a failure, or at least that's what I think is the reason. They are a reminder of my past and the passage of time, and it freaks me out.
>btw, here's a creepy photo I found of some peoples' 20 year high school reunion
until this post i thought paddy wagon was just a weird way to say cop car
It's okay anon, my partner has a pee fetish and b/c I hate it so much I just make sure I piss on him more out of spite.
I honestly would never pee on him. If I ever was to engage on this, I'd let myself get pissed on, and in the shower, because fucking gross. But no. I would probably just tell him "Sorry babe, can't do"
I think sex is disgusting and all the normals who have it and the virgins who obsess over it are disgusting too.
Yeah, I'd say no. But now I feel kinda bad because I don't even know if he really has it lol He probably wouldn't ask me to do it even if that was the case, he knows I think it's gross and he respects me. They only way to truly know and ever do it is if I was the one to ask him, and yeah, pic related.
edgy. why do people always say this
thirding this but because I'm a bit weird and it disgusts me and embarrasses me even though I like it.
Yeah, I do it in the shower.
I also happens if I'm irrationally mad while drunk that I'll want to piss on him because I know I'm mad for a dumb reason but at least he gets something out of it and I like feeling like a bitch even though I'm not really being one (I don't get mad emotionally at people for some reason, like I don't get angry if that makes sense so it's like release).
Now I'm embarrassed at admitting this but at least it's in the secrets thread, kek.
Then I do not struggle against Gaelophobia in vain. Thank you. :)
, your image is my face rn.
I've been pretty disgusted by sex for a long time but only recently started opening up to it more. I'm still a virgin at 24, but the thought of having sex with someone isn't totally out of the question, which makes me wonder if I'm finally (ahgodwhy.jpg) having a sexual awakening.Subsequently on a semi-related note, I think I had a half-assed masturbation round the other night while reading fetish/erotic stories. Not only did it feel bizarre, but most of the stories were alien/plant transformation/impregnation stories. Stories that I return to every few months because what else can I do at night when I'm bored and don't want to sleep, am I right?I'm so confused by it and want to die. Why can't it be normal fetishes…
You definitely need to see a therapist if you're disgusted by sex and can't bear the thought of having a "sexual awakening". Please talk to somebody because you have some underlying mental issues. I'm concerned for you.
Nta but that isn't a big deal if anon wasn't molested, raped, etc. Some people just don't like it, and there's nothing
wrong with that. I'm tired of people acting as if everyone should be super interested in sex or have a high libido like dogs in heat.
Lol bitch bye. Not wanting to have sex isn't a sign of a mental disorder. There's nothing wrong with an antipathy towards something a lot of people are repulsed by.
Everyone look at this male
I'm 22 and a virgin, never even dated at all. I can never imagine myself having sex, but i first started masturbating when i was just a preteen and the things i watch are rather fucked up…
Also, having to go to the gynecologist is my worst nightmare, it hurts so badly, that i always nearly fall of the chair and want to sream, i even bled once afterwards.
So how could i ever enjoy somebody sticking something up there…
Wow you all really are edgelords, just like everyone on lolcow said. Calm down. There's nothing sound about not being interested in a natural desire unless your biological makeup is fucked up to the max but keep telling yourselves you guys are alright. I'm not sure why you guys are so hostile and angry because I really am concerned for anon including you guys. Thanks for confirming my point that you guys really do have mental issues though. Straight up repulsion to something imprinted in your dna and evolution is so fucked up, please see a psychiatrist about your repulsions and anger issues.>>6192
Everyone, look at this edgelord. Keep fighting the robots in your head.
Oooh, yeah, we're raging. Better get out before something bad goes down. ur dumb
Stop assuming stuff about me (>>6187). I never said that I am personally repulsed by it, I just said that I hate people like you who act like there's something wrong with anon. If anyone here needs help it is you with your assumptions, from the one you made about me and the first anon. I'm concerned for you.
Same, Ive been thinking about re-reading them lately tbqh.
Hii, 6117 here. I know I'm late to your reply and I get why you said this, but a few things:
1) It's perfectly fine to be disgusted by it upon first exploring of sexual activity, be it a natural process of life or not. Not every woman is freely able to see and understand sex as this fun-and-fancy romp into bodily desires at the first proper age. I wasn't taught or allowed to be freely experimentive sexually when I was old enough, so it's fine that I'm behind on the sex curve. I may have reservations on it, but they're not something a therapist needs to be involved in.
2) Even after I'd been exposed to far more adult stuff than my mother or grandmother would even dare let me lay eyes on, I just never found sex interesting or even had a reaction to any of it! I've actually wondered if I may be asexual, but before I go full-Tumblr, I chalked it up to a lack of experience. I've since dated, so I can't say that I haven't have the opportunity, but I just wasn't interested in any of the guys enough to go that far, so I likely won't have that experience for a while until I meet the right guy. Call me old-fashioned, but I'm perfectly fine with waiting.
3) My disgust is less towards sex and more towards the idea of me having sex
, like another anon has said. Sex can be a beautiful thing, I agree, but I don't like picturing my awkward potato self having sex, and recently it's even moreso since I've been reading about those certain fetishes. So it's more like what's bring about the awakening more than it happening in general.
Tl;dr: I'm not trying to bitch at you, and I'm sorry to everyone if this post is long, but please simmer down a few notches.>>6193
See, I went once for my first check-up even though my sister and mom said I didn't need it if I were a virgin, and it was pretty awkward, but I felt comfortable knowing I left in pretty good health. But getting a cold medical tool shoved into my hootus wasn't all that great, and that was the first time anything had been shoved up there as far as my memory goes.
and i have to go again in a few weeks and am already scared to death…
What should i do? Take painkillers or something like that beforehand?
A painkiller might help if it hurts that much, but in all honesty the best I can recommend is trying to come to terms with the fact that you're gonna have a cold medical object shoved into your hootus and to just relax when the time comes. A lot of the time, it'll hurt mostly because of the vaginal muscles tensing up due to it being something you're not normally used to having inserted in; as invasive as it is, it is a routine part of the checkup and I think the quicker you come to terms with it, the easier it might be getting through it. However, if you do try to relax and still find that it hurts or the pain is just phenomenally enought aht painkillers don't mask it, you might take a gander at this and see if it might be similar to what you're dealing with: https://jezebel.com/when-tight-becomes-too-tight-a-helpful-primer-on-vagin-1679485378And if it makes you feel any better, I still haven't gone back for a second exam. Ain't got enough time in the world for a second round of getting cold things put in my hootus.
I thought about Vaginismus, but i never had any problems with inserting tampons; i guess i'll never know until i've tried out sex.
Also, i'm sure that my gynecologist notices that i'm in pain, because i flinch and scoot away or suck in my breath, yet she never says anything about it, so i guess it's normal in her opinion
I have vaginismus but it's psychological. Penetrative sex is often near impossible unless I'm drunk. I can use dildos and tampons just fine, though.
Idk why but I always have to find a school/class ""crush"" to lowkey obsess about even if I don't actually have a crush on them. I've been doing it since I was a lonely teen, and I suppose I'm a bit of a hopeless romantic.
I have a bf now though, and I still do it.
There's something about staring at the back of some dude's head and hoping he'll notice you, I guess…..
I've become a female furry just to have group sex with people anonymously and recently a close friend found out about the furry stuff and is sort blackmailing me.
That person is not your "friend" anymore boo.
How is he/she blackmailing you? Do they have proof?
Oh god EVERYTIME I go to the gyno shes like " RELAX . RELAX" cause my hoohah clamps DOWN. Its my fault tho cause I know it will hurt so even though I try to relax I cant. Thats why even though I want to get an IUD I know i cant. Ive heard it hurts regardless so imagine doing it with a shut down vagoo? Impossible.
Just reading this made my vagina close, fuck.
He is probably afraid of getting old.
How old are you guys and how long are you together?
I like to shave my skin dry.
If I'm in the mood to self-harm, it makes a nice segeway into it. Though it embarasses me how edgey that is. Cringe.
Depending whether I graduate with my bachelor's or not, I want to get a vet tech certificate asap afterwards so I can work in my city's animal shelter. I'm sure a bulk of the procedures I'd be doing is putting animals to sleep. For me, it feels like the best of both worlds; I love animals and I've always wanted to work with them, but being able to put them to sleep feels wonderful, too. I want to be able to put them out of their misery and watch them slip away, out of the miserable, shitty life they've lived. I like how it makes me feel powerful, even that it is a pathetic kind of powerful. I also have always been obsessed with death and am preoccupied with it. This makes me feel stupid, but it is a secret dream of mine. At least it's easily attainable. I noticed for my city how the job opening is always opening, hopefully this means a lot of people leave so by the time I'm ready for it I'll easily get in.
>tfw I just noticed today how big my nipples are
How am I supposed to feel?
It's okay,there's a lot of different nipple size/shapes.Not everyone needs the "porn star perfect" nipples to look good.It's nothing to feel bad about!(actually i've heard that many people find big nippies quite the turn on)
I've fallen in love with my girlfriend but I don't want to be the one to say it first again. We've been dating for four months.
I feel like I always take the lead in relationships and I get I'm more expressive about my affection than my partners have been but it'd be nice to have someone fall in love with me first.
I want to be Ebichu's girlfriend.
Super cute, congrats anon.
I feel the same way as you, and my gf was the first to say it. gl
When I was a kid I would put tights on my head and pretend to be Sailor Moon. The tights were my "hair" since they looked like twintails lol
That's really creative and cute anonee.
Hah, similarly I would try to make my own brooches and wands out of cardboard and construction paper and pretend to transform.
Have a shoplifting habit that I have gotten several thousand dollars worth of junk from.
I am afraid I won't be able to stop before there are serious consequences.
>>8191Please stop yourself, anon. The next time could very well be your last.
I've developed feelings for my FWB and I've no idea what to do about it. He really is so lovely and kind and I think he's just amazing…but I don't think he sees me as anything more than a good friend who he fucks. But I just wish he would take me out on dates and call me pet names and that I could introduce him to my family…urgh, this sucks.
It's best you let him know now, than have him find out later. You brought yourself right into this scenario with that kind of relationship. The heartbreak will be more than immense, if you let this go on without speaking up. He could feel the same, and this could blossom into something beautiful, but it's likely he's not committed.
If you are going to tell him, which you should, do it in person. Faraway, he can simply cut you off with a message. Don't let that happen.
I had a huge crush on my ex-boss and on my last day of working there I asked for his number so I can put him down as a 'reference' on my resume and he almost gave it to me. Until he said it was unprofessional and to just put down the store's phone and have them ask for him. It was a completely unprofessional question and I feel disgusting for even asking it. Because I'm in a relationship and he's married with a new baby. I didn't think I had it in me to even ask such a thing (I asked my last boss - I worked two jobs and quit both at the same time- and she gave it to me but I think she actually seen me as her friend for some reason idk), but I obviously didn't ask my other boss for her number for the same reason. Honestly even if he did give it to me I doubt I would've done anything with it. I hate cheaters and I'd never actually cheat on my boyfriend. But damn do I feel like a disgusting bitch for asking that. I'm glad he didn't give it to me. I'm keeping this secret until I die.
That's a very bad thing to do, anon. No matter how innocent it is, the slightest contact can be misconstrued. He did you good not giving it to you. Better than some bosses, I'll say.
I know it was bad.. and I’m not sure if you didn’t pick up on it but I wasn’t being innocent when I asked for his number. Hah. Glad he’s a good man.
Realistically, I know you are right. And you've confirmed what I already knew inside. But I can't let myself lose him. I feel like if I'm at least in a FWB relationship, I'm at least having contact with him. I feel pathetic because I'll text him about normal everyday stuff and get short replies, but when it's about sex, he's on it straight away.
You're hurting yourself, anon, and it's going to hurt a lot more if you don't let it out now.
Sometimes I fall in love with my own drawings
lol here's the one I drew today. Before him I fell in love with a drawing of a cute stronk boy, an orc, a bishounen mermaid and a satyr. Isn't drawing great? You can just make any kind of husbando you wish for. Yet I feel like I am using my powers for evil deeds lol
>>8733>You can just make any kind of husbando you wish for
Damn, anon I really like your art. You're very good! Would it be alright if I asked to see your other works?
I don't want to derail this thread but actually I've been wondering how and where to set up a place to get commissions. Sometimes I see artists online selling sketches for 10-15 dollars and I think that's ridicolous I could do it cheaper. But I don't have a page on social media and I don't know which platform would be best, tumblr seems ok, but there are more people on facebook than on tumblr… Err should I make a new thread in /media/ for a discussion of social media?
You should, it won't hurt. The worst thing that can happen is that the thread won't get replies kek. Make a thread for when you're bored and feel like doodling, it could be fun.
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Sounds like a great thread for /media/, please feel free.
I have to put my fist/thumb in front of my closed mouth when I'm ready to sleep, otherwise it doesn't happen. I was almost six when I finally stopped using a pacifier, so I guess that's why. It's not a big deal, but I'd worry about being made fun of IRL.
You're just asking to be adored by your SO, like that.
You're welcome! Keep being precious!
what's wrong with colon three?
I'm too lazy to separate my trash and my country is really strict about it, the other residents of my building will look in the trash cans to see if there's any mixed trash in the bin (for example paper in the plastics bin), but when I clean up I throw everything into one bag, so now I use opaque trash bags and sneak them into a neighbor's bin at night instead of the one for my building.
Laziness is no excuse for contributing to humanity's ever growing trash problem.
You're a bad person, and you should feel bad.
There are a lot of environmental problems that you as a consumer is directly contributing to. I hope you are vegan, save water and power, don't buy anything that isn't a necessity etc. etc.
I'm only 22 but I'm so sick of casual dating. I want to find the person I'm meant to be with the rest of my life. I've done the whole 'sleep around no strings attached' type of stuff and I know it's not for me. It's fun at first but eventually it just makes me feel even more empty and hollow inside. I've only had one relationship where I felt a true, deep connection and he left me. I feel so alone. I want someone I can start building and sharing a life with. I don't want to keep wasting my best years on fuckboys and guys I have no feelings for. I'm not expecting a perfect fairytale relationships Despite what my pic suggests but I want a relationship that is real and that can get through tough times.
Whataboutism doesn't change the fact that not sorting when there are facilities for it is actively detrimental the environment. Of course individual actions contribute a small portion of the actual pollution and waste production compared to the supply side so shaming one person for not recycling, especially in a confession thread, doesn't do much.
I mean, if I want to say you're a bad person for eating meat and should feel bad. Would you agree then?
and I already know it's bad, that's why I'm posting in the confessions thread. Sneaking around like I am doing right now is ridiculous and will be extremely embarrassing if I get caught, so I'm gonna have to suck it up and buy some trashcans to keep my trash separated (I just moved).
Your point out of context: "eating meat is bad for the environment" is true, but in context it's distraction from the response to the original confession. Even people who are not perfect ecofriendly consumers can still criticize specific behaviors. Though I would say that calling someone a bad person over it was a bit much.
My response is your discussion skills are bad and you should feel bad.>>11376
Good for you anon.
Why can't you just answer the question?
Can you read?
I literally concede that you are "technically right," but that comment is really pointless.
I wonder how the guy is going to feel when he hears about you going through the casual sleeping around thing. If he's anything like you in that romantic part, he's not going to take that casual part very lightly.
I wonder how so many woman go through that phase. Even though I was lonely as fuck most of my life I never thought casual sex was the answer to that. It would just make me feel used, discarded, and even worse about myself to be that intimate with someone who didn't even care about me. It's like the physical equivalent of spilling your feelings and emotions to someone who is just going to leave in 3 hours.
They don't care. Your bf is not going to quiz you on how many other people you've been with. Nobody I've been in a relationship with has ever even asked. And if they did, I would consider it a red flag like, 'why is this important…?'>>11372
Don't worry, anon. The right guy is out there. Just be patient. I, also, really don't like one-night-stands and have noticed that they make me feel worse than being alone. If I don't have some time to get to know someone, being physically intimate with them just isn't as fun. Reminder to set boundaries if you do meet someone you're interested in, and establish that you're not looking for something casual at the moment. I've found that policy tends to weed out a bunch of fuckboys pretty reliably.
I'd say it depends on where you live. If you're from a small town or happen to meet people who hang out in the similar circles, the past can haunt you later on. I once met a great guy who happened to be close friends with a former fling of mine. You can imagine how that ended.
I have a huge thing for younger guys/shota
i know how gossipy small towns can get, but i don't think >my ex talked shit about me to a guy that i was interested in
is the same thing as 'if you have casual sex, it will ruin your chance at having a romantic relationship'. You know what's romantic, in my book? Loving someone despite their past or their flaws.
just my two cents on your situation, i think if someone judges you on your sexual history instead of who you are as a person, they're not really that great of a guy.
everybody makes mistakes, but those mistakes are sometimes what helps you to mature. if someone's not willing to even give you a chance because their friend told them that you two hooked up at one point and they decided that means you'll forever be tainted or a rampaging slut, wellp, you probably didn't lose much by missing out on that relationship.
how young are we talking>shota
please don't turn into the next Brittany Zamora or something. or just think of the jail time you'll get if you do.
I like younger guys as well
I'm not into shota irl, but my boyfriend is 7 years younger than me.
Everyone is telling me not to treat it like it's long term, but he's honestly perfect. I know I'll still love him when he gets old
Our relationship originally started because he has a thing for older girls and I have a thing for younger men, but we've grown to love each other a lot.
Live your dreams, cougaranon. You can find happiness with a younger guy.
Oh no no I would never go for irl shota>>11431
I’m seeing a guy younger than me but the immaturity worries me a bit
Be careful, you don't want to get the reputation as the local manmaker.
the amount of emphasis i see anons on this board place on reputation makes me wonder how many people we have here that are from really small communities. i lived in the city for the past decade or so and while there were definitely 'scenes' you never really heard of more than one or two particularly social individuals getting a 'rep', and it was usually a good one (i.e. 'scotty is really fun to hang out with') that came with a disclaimer, ('although he parties really hard so if you're not into that then you probably won't enjoy his company') instead of being like 'so-and-so is a terrible
person and you shouldn't touch them with a ten-foot-pole'.
the only time i saw the latter type of thing happen was on social media, but to be fair it mostly happened to men when they were accused of raping or abusing women. i never saw women get the same flack for their sexual activity.
I really want to kill myself. Idk how much of a confession secret that really is but it's all I have on my mind so it's all I can think of.
Fuck you anon. Sincerely, fuck you. You don't deserve him.
You're a fucking idiot anon.
Update: saw my younger fling again, I had to say hi to his dad and his entire family and it felt fucking weird. I’ve heard his sister telling him now he has a gf he needs to be respectful of women or whatever.. this is too weird for me to go on I think..
just an intentional mishap
one night i was really drunk and lying in bed and didn't wanna get out to go pee because
so i resorted to peeing in my reusable water bottle. i didn't drink out of it after that and THOROUGHLY washed it in the morning and still use it. i think what i did is disgusting and i will never tell anyone ik irl cause ~ashamed~ but what has been done can no longer be reversed.
I did this with a nalgene bottle. Twice.
The first time was shameful and I threw it away, the second time should have been more shameful but I said fuck it and washed it good.
I'm obsessed with my ex-friend who blocked me three years ago. I check up on the only social media he uses(that I haven't been blocked on) and it tears me up inside we aren't friends.
A little bit of backstory would help I guess. He's not a great person. He has a laundry list of online girls he befriended, made them feel special, and treated them like shit once he figured out they weren't romantically interested in them. Every single girl in his life has experience this. And there were a lot of girls in his life, at least online. I've personally known about four other girls who went through the same shit I did with him, very close friends with one of them now. Out of all of them I was probably the least innocent, being young and stupid I tried to please him as much as I could because I so desperately wanted to be his friend above anything else, but I wasn't romantically interested in him. He was the first person I've really clicked with and I'm one of those sad fucks who don't click with, like, anyone. What makes everything weirder is I'm close with all his ex-friends now(most of them are guys!!!) because he went crazy and thought everyone was against him and started being a bitch and pushing everyone away. Anyway I just feel pathetic and guilty and stupid for even hoping this honestly toxic person will just message me out of the blue but he probably hopes I'm dead and I should get over this!
I'll help you:
He's a pile of shit! You're lucky he's not around anymore!
Have any of you ever posted your face on the chans? Be honest
No. The fact that most image boards are anonymous is what makes them appealing.
No. Because it's as >>11728
I feel like posting yourself on the chans would be super awkward. Doesn't fit with the board culture.
A few times. It was scary to do but ended up feeling good.
i haven’t, but honestly? i always wanted to just to hear what absolute strangers think of me (like if you could ask people on the street how they think you look just out of pure curiosity). i also realize that board frequenter aren’t exactly like the normal people on streets though either.
anyways i always backed out whenever i was about to do it bc im super scared to hear mean things and/or get stalked and hunted down. not regretting never posting tho
I feel 100% the same way about the getting stalked thing lol.
I did, lol, it was nice to see the reactions and how they differed, and it also felt good that people recognized the same flaws that I find in my own face. It also puts them into perspective.
If you post a goofy face then people are less srs bsns about rating it.
ye, there was a contest a couple years back where they were giving out prizes like skin care products and stuff
i was dirt poor at the time but i really wanted to win something because there's no way i could have justified buying any of that stuff on my own budget.
i was kind of just like 'fuck it. nobody knows who i am anyways, i don't have a rep, it's whatever.'
i did end up winning one of the 3 contests, but the admins cracked down hard on that aspect of board culture after that & the person who ran the contests went AWOL. Prize packet never arrived.
I enjoyed participating in those threads because the people there were very nice, and it felt good to get praised for the outfits I put together. But I did feel kind of disappointed after I realized that I got my hopes up for nothing.
I didn't tip a delta baggage checker and i had mixed feelings about it at first . He had gotten 30 in tips already since i started standing in line and was being passive aggressive with a girl in front of me (young people never tip, im shocked you did at all) and he got shitty with my bf when he thought we wouldnt tip. I only had a 50 on me and he saw it in my wallet(haha no), and i was going to go get change inside but thought nah fuck it. I know its a hard job and i normally wouldnt but being a shithead doesnt pay.
I posted my face in the middle of an argument on /r9k/ few years back. Felt good that I instantly shut all of their "bitter ugly fat white roastie" arguments down but I got pretty paranoid that they would spam the pic elsewhere. I kept looking up the image MD5 on all the archives I knew and lo and behold, they were reposted on /cgl/, a camwhore thread on /soc/ and then a few more times on /r9k/. Thankfully it died out fast and was never circulated into a meme like some other girls. And thank god I don't have any social media accounts so chances of anyone doxxing me are slim to none if I ever do fuck up majorly.
>>11748>I posted my face in the middle of an argument on /r9k/ few years back.
You're not the first person here I've seen talk about frequenting there. Why do you all go there? It seems mostly misogynistic (and not in the fun banter kind of way) and monotonous. What is/was the appeal?
That was years ago and I was young and dumb, but I was there mostly for the guaranteed (You)s and triggering them with my mere presence.
I go there every now and then to sob about my sadness and talk about suicidal feels. I do it here too but I don't want to spam a smaller chan with 20 depressive posts a day.
>>11753>I was there mostly for the guaranteed (You)s and triggering them with my mere presence.
I really have to keep my posting in check here. This board can move so slow, I feel like I'm spamming sometimes. It's also embarrassing seeing all my posts on the frontpage.
I can afford buying movies and music but I never do because 1. I'm so used to pirating and 2. frankly I don't really care for the people who make the content. If I can get something easily for free I will.
I've been thinking of selling my panties online for years and I think this year I'm finally going to muster up and do it.
This is gross and sad so I'm spoilering it.
I've been silently orbiting this group of friends for the past two years. They're writers who often share their fics with one-another, exchange fun jokes, roleplay, etc. etc. I've followed one of them across 4 different blogs, the latter was private ( I only got the password bc I lurked in their public discord server for the longest – checked back again and the message was deleted, I guess they weren't trying to let it slip ). I've checked their archives & stumbled across old accounts they had in their teens, I've searched the names of their characters on web archives and read through things that were deleted. And archived them. There's an entire folder on google docs just dedicated to their writing, I check it sometimes and see how they've grown.
I'm not fun or cool enough to reach out but reading through their blogs and seeing the things they're interested in makes me happy. Sometimes I'll imagine they're my friends. This is the most pathetic thing I do. And I just wanted to admit it. Sorry for being so strange.
I'm interested in wanting to know who they are
what’s the best way to do that? i wanna get in on it too
The market for this is pretty over saturated but you might still get some pocket change
Why do people want to do this? It seems like unless you're very good at it, getting a part time job is less hassle.
fwiw anon, i do/have done really, really similar things. we can be weird together
I'm still doing research, but I found a website but I'm not really sure if I want to use that one yet.>>11853
I mean honestly I'll take the pocket change at this point>>11866
I mean if it's something to do when I'm off then I don't see why not. I'm not expecting to get rich off of this, but a little pocket change here there sounds pretty good. Doing a FT job 40+ hours a week + overtime doesn't give much time to do a PT job. Especially since I work every other weekend when the PT jobs here 9 times out of 10 require you to at least work every weekend. I don't see what harm it would do. The worse can happen is I don't sell anything lol.
I transferred to a new uni and just started classes a couple days ago. Until now I was really isolated and depressed, but recently overcame it all and wanted to make a fresh new start. I’m making a decent amount of new friends so far, but I don’t want them to think I have no friends (I only had a few when I was depressed). So, when talking about certain topics with new people, sometimes I say “I was just talking about this with my friends!” to make it seem like I had a normal outgoing life before now
when i was really just participating in a thread about the given topic on cc
Do you actually have a full time job? I can't see why this would be worth your time.
i can't just post their url here lol >>11868
nice to know i'm not alone in being strange
that would make a good short story
never thought i'd be a terf but here i am
before i just sort of blindly accepted trans folk because that was "the right thing to do" but i'm just over it now lol
Lel, I'm glad this is a thing, otherwise feminism would have lead itself ad absurdum since all the males could just claim to actually be female and you sheep couldn't question it without getting flung with shit.
Male to Female transsexuality is a trainwreck. It's a cult at this point. Sure there's some legitimate MtF with real gender dysphoria but for the most part it seems like romantically unsuccessful r9k tier betas who feel emasculated to the point where they decide "oh i guess i should become transsexual maybe then ill have more luck"
Exactly. Most of them just saw the real ones and thought "oh I guess I can just choose to be a girl then my life will be easier" plus most of them have an anime girl fetish and think they can become one.
Where do you draw the line though? Would you deny a "legitimate" MtF his/her status though because s/he doesn't match a certain level of hormones?
(My unpopular opinion: If the extreme of a thing is just absolute nonsense, and it's difficult to draw a certain line of where the nonsense starts, then probably the whole thing is nonsense to begin with)
I'm a terf. I'm not an activist and I usually keep my mouth shut unless when asked, but I can't deny what I am. I hate how idiots use call girls terfs as if it would offend us. If anything I'm happy to be one.
There's a distinct lack of empathy here and another thing I notice on CC from time to time is posters who see everything through the lens of /r9k/ and it's related retardations, without thinking about even /r9k/'s wider context.
In my opinion there's a lot of retarded trans women because they've been raised as men their whole lives and socialised as such, they're also frequently very lonely and insecure and all of these things put together don't tend to create very well rounded individuals. The ones you encounter most often are probably a bit more messed up than average because, no offense, but just like them you're hanging around shitty imageboards full of awful people, just like they were their whole adolesonce.>>13001
Except that idea of "all men might just call themselves women" is exactly what you implied it to be; an absurdity. It's the same kind of troll logic that was trotted out about gay marriage, that men would start marrying each other for tax breaks and such like. But that never happened and neither will mass transitioning of males to females just so they can OWN the libs or show up femenists or whatever your fear is.>>13022
That's a very bold stance you've taken in refusing to openly bash a heavily marginalised group, well done.
and I don't lack empathy at all (imo lol). I don't even hang around imageboards, the only consistent socializing I do in my life is with 3 very close friends and at work. It's just wherever I go online, there's this subgroup of anime profile pic MtF trap/transsexuals, whether it's tumblr, deviantart, steam.. But maybe you're right and I happen to be looking in all the wrong places
They lack empathy because they don’t agree with your views?
deciding you're a woman because you like anime tits doesn't make you a woman, I'm sorry
“changing gender” for convenience-a Canadian became a “Woman” for a car insurance discount!
I understand that transsexuals are in agony; I get that they have dysphoria; I can grasp that pretending eases their distress.
But they still aren’t women.
No man gets to define womanhood for me, even if he wishes he was
MtFs barging into women’s spaces and dictating how we define ourselves is very literally just another case of men telling us what to think, feel, and do even if it is in a dress.
I won’t put up with it.
>>13030>MtFs barging into women’s spaces and dictating how we define ourselves is very literally just another case of men telling us what to think, feel, and do even if it is in a dress.
I wasn't one of the people you replied to but I think lying to people is unkind and seeking and telling the truth is a higher value than being placating to people's confused feelings when the consequence of doing that is people destroying their body through unnecessary surgery. Men can't become women and women can't become men, it's in our DNA. When you see someone walking towards the edge of a high cliff because they think they can fly if they jump, is it more kind to say "don't jump, you'll only hurt yourself" or to say nothing and watch that person fall and get hurt?
It's not that simple. In the serious cases of dysphoria, the person can be a total mental wreck just cause they feel like the opposite gender, and surgery/hormonal therapy is the only way for them to feel a shred of happiness
I won't deny that it's not a mental illness cause it obviously is
I won't deny that being that fixated on your gender and allowing it to rule your happiness is retarded, cause it also is
But you can't tell people to "just be urself" cause those issues are caused by things that happened during their upbringing, and you can't exactly redo your life with the knowledge of "okay maybe i shouldnt spend all my teenage years on some internet tranny cult community just cause im in my rebel years and am trying to find myself"
Or maybe its a genetic illness, I don't really have a clue
All I know is that the faggy anime fuckboy type of "transsexual" are definitely not suffering from any dysphoria and just so bad at life they go "fuck it lets do retarded shit i dont know any better". Fuck those people
I think I'm rambling
If transitioning is the solution then why is their suicide rate so high? You can say it’s because of the bullying but not even gay/lesbians/bis have a suicide rate that high. And why do some of them end up regreting their decision to transition?
I'm not calling it a solution because yeah they'll never be a real man/woman, but it often sounds like the only temporary solution for them to be happy
The suicide rates prove me wrong tho, maybe they aren't happy at all
I think as you said, it’s a temporary solution but there should be more done for them. They should def treat it as any other mental illness like they do schizophrenia. There must be some form of therapy (e.g. meds) that could help them with their body dysphoria.
Do meds ever help with mental illness? All they did was make me miserable
Right, but that one case is clearly just some guy taking the piss, and not in any way indicitive of a serious or widespread trend. And who or how or what does define womanhood to you? There's no Grand Politburo of the Female Sex who sets this stuff out, and MtFs are generally trying to acquiesce as best they can to what's considered by the mainstream to be "womanhood".>>13033>>13036>>13037
Brilliant, I'm glad some bums on an imageboard managed succede where the medical professionals of the world have failed, and finally cure gender dysphoria. >>13034
I don't think you even know what "fuckboy" means to be honest.
>>13039>what's considered by the mainstream to be "womanhood".
I don’t understand this idea that gender is fluid and it can anything we want it to be and we should put limits on the definition of womanhood blah blah blah. In that case why do we even need labels or genders? We can’t expand the definition of womanhood to include everything we want, there has to be a limit. Or else what’s the point of transitioning since it’s the feeling that counts right? Why do they so badly want to be feminine and wear girly clothing and makeup if that’s not what makes you a woman? It’s like if we expand the definition of a dog to include all animals that work on fours and have paws.
Meds are trial and error so for the most part most of them won’t help you. It takes a while before you can find the right med or combo of meds.
>>13034>But you can't tell people to "just be urself" cause those issues are caused by things that happened during their upbringing, and you can't exactly redo your life with the knowledge of "okay maybe i shouldnt spend all my teenage years on some internet tranny cult community just cause im in my rebel years and am trying to find myself"
I agree with you that when someone you love has gender dysphoria that the kindest approach isn't to bluntly tell them how they perceive their own identity is wrong when their self esteem is already rock bottom. But I think it's important to speak the truth and to do so in a caring way if you're in a position where your words could influence whether or not someone chooses to hurt themself.
>"If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have become a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal."
>>13040>I don’t understand this idea that gender is fluid and it can anything we want it to be and we should put limits on the definition of womanhood blah blah blah. In that case why do we even need labels or genders?
Cis women can
be anything they want, but trans women don't have that option. Cis women define womanhood how they want, but as has been demonstrated in this thread already, if a trans woman were to do that she'd be met with open hostility.
And arguably we don't need labels and genders, at least not to the degree we once did. I'm in no way proposing the abolishment of gender, but already the rigidity of these concepts has lessened since the times where we lived in an agrarian society, where men did hard agricultural work and women did less demanding tasks and then one really demanding task, IE, babies. No one could claim these roles are now what they were in say, the Roman Republic.
>what’s the point of transitioning since it’s the feeling that counts right?
I don't know, you'd have to ask a trans person, but if you haven't thought to do that already, aren't you being close minded in dismissing their feelings so outrightly?
> Why do they so badly want to be feminine and wear girly clothing and makeup if that’s not what makes you a woman?
What I started my post with. If a trans woman wants to dress in flame shirts and baggy jeans with pocket chains, not wear make up and have short hair, she has basically zero chance as being taken seriously as a woman. If a cis woman does that, she'll look awful and there'll be some blow back, but she'll still ultimately be seen as a woman.
> It’s like if we expand the definition of a dog to include all animals that work on fours and have paws.
Now you're just being lazy and silly.
>>13043>Cis women define womanhood how they want
Cultural things like pink being a color for girls are just social constructs, your chromosomes define whether or not you are a woman.
Are there even any rigorous proofs (meaning clinical trials) demonstrating that medical transition is more effective at treating gender dysphoria than psychotherapy/psychopharmacotherapy
>Cis women can be anything they want, but trans women don't have that option.
Yes because we’re actual woman and, as you said, even when we try to change the norm by trying to dress more masculine you can still easily tell that we’re a girl because of our feminine characteristics that transwomen won’t ever have unless they transition.
>aren't you being close minded in dismissing their feelings so outrightly?
Maybe I am being close minded but I still won’t acknowledge transwomen as actual women. I don’t know if they’re born that way or if their life experiences made them that way but they are defective and need help. I don’t know if you yourself are trans or you have fam/friends that are. I feel for them and any person that suffers from gender dysphoria. I’m glad that I never have to experience the feelings and thoughts that they do. Also, I’m not suggesting we execute them or anything extreme like that. I still consider them human beings with thoughts and feelings of their own, I just think that transitioning is just a temporary solution to a much bigger problem. At the end of the day, no matter how identical they become to regular women, deep down they will still know that they really aren’t. Even if you take away all the bullying/harassment they receive, they will still have this emptiness in them.
>Now you're just being lazy and silly.
You’re right, I’ll give you that much.
Bakewell tart 2_0.…
And when the heck was the last time society gave a monkeys about anyones chromosomes? If you or anyone else itt woke up tomorrow six foot two inches tall, five o'clock shadow and tits like a couple of Bakewell Tarts*, would you expect to stop getting heckled and laughed at as a tranny after you told them you had XX chromosomes? Of course not.
*I decided to add a photo of the afor mentioed tarts because it not fair to expect an international audience to have a working knowledge of British pastries.>>13046>Yes because we’re actual woman and, as you said, even when we try to change the norm by trying to dress more masculine you can still easily tell that we’re a girl because of our feminine characteristics that transwomen won’t ever have unless they transition
But what seperates you as an "actual woman" from trans women is just that appearence, if what I said at the beginning of this post happened to you, how are you distinguishable from an unpassing trans woman? Everyone on CC knows, and there have been many posts and a few threads, about less attractive women being treated completely differently from more attractive women, so who's defining the womanhood in that situation? It's not women, cis or trans, it's straight men. "You never had control, that was the illusion!" to quote Laura Dern in Jurassic Park.
I'm not trans, so I myself am speaking from a position of some ignorance here, and I appriciate that you don't hate them or want harm to come to them. However, if they're denied genuine acceptence for who they are, then they won't be able to live normal lives, and that veneer of acceptence could be snatched away at any time.
>At the end of the day, no matter how identical they become to regular women… they will still have this emptiness in them.
But is that so? Being trans is very difficult, it's full of self-loathing, social retardation and anxieties over surgeries and hairlines the likes of which few people can imagine. I think it's already been mentioned ITT that the idea of some kind of inner "womanhood" people can just inately tap into is fluffy and slightly dumb idea, but there's clearly a strong desire to be "a woman" from these people, it seems to me that the mental ill health and stress that stems from that comes from the difficulty of realising it. For example I know a girl who, due to illness in her teens, lost the use of her womb. This causes her a great deal of depression and the ignorant comment from a male classmate that "at least you can't get periods anymore, right?!" went down like a lead balloon. How different are her feeling with regards to losing that innately female part of herself different from those of a trans woman?
>You’re right, I’ll give you that much.
You're very conscientious and I like you, thank you.
Its worse. Johns Hopkins, and others, refuse to do it.
There is a very short term improvement then a rapid decline that results in hideously high suicide rates.
Horrific and sad
you know, it's probably selfish but i resent passing transwomen for robbing the world of a bishonen. pretty guys like teddy quinlivan are so rare, and i always have to wonder if one of the reasons why so many of them transition is because they already get treated like/identify as women because of their effeminate looks. or maybe it's something hormonal, who knows.
if there had been a trans culture like there is now when i was growing up, you can bet your ass i would have bought into it as a teenager. i rejected femininity completely when i was an adolescent; didn't own skirts, refused to wear makeup, cut off all my hair, tried to bind my breasts and diet so that i wouldn't have a feminine body, etc. i didn't feel like i was any 'good' at being a woman, so why bother making an effort? men seemed to have it far easier.
luckily i grew out of that and actually it turns out that i make a pretty decent woman (although my hormones are still all out of whack.)
all these disclaimers about 'oh, the Real trans women are fine but I hate trannies' sets up an insidious trap.
someone must declare themself a 'good' trans woman who is demure and polite and modest and who has their sexuality under control, unlike all those gross ugly whores who flaunt their bodies. they have to be a submissive Auntie Tam if they want any kind of acceptance, and they have to deny the suffering of others in their situation, which crushes a person's self esteem. thats ok though because the only type of woman they're allowed to be is a stuttering shy girl who has her self esteem crushed!
I knew a christian gay guy who craved acceptance from his church. he was constantly talking about how he wasn't into premarital sex and thought lust was bad and never masturbated and read the bible every day. it was pathetic and heartbreaking. everyone despises weakness in men.
its /pol/s thing with the jews all over again. the small minority, who engage in hedonistic excess, is perceived to have influence over the majority, and to corrupt the vision of the majority towards the chosen people.
No, I don't give any blame to the people who transition. I only give blame to the society that allows so many guys to fall for the transsexuality meme. I'm just too dumb to figure out what aspect of society causes it cause its a hot confusing mess and I have the attentionspan of a crayon
>>13050>And when the heck was the last time society gave a monkeys about anyones chromosomes?
Your biology is what defines whether or not you are a woman, not participating in the fashions and behavior our society associates with womanhood. Women are also very often not even the gatekeepers of the fashions, behaviors, and other socially constructed trappings societies associate with femininity.
>>13058>because the only type of woman they're allowed to be is a stuttering shy girl who has her self esteem crushed
most of the transwomen i've met have always been full of themselves tbh, they're very vocal about their political views and perceived inequalities of society.
i think i've met maybe one
who was the shy-stuttering type, and it was weird because before they transitioned they had been a walking stereotype of the strong-silent type and had a reputation for starting drunken fights at parties. this person also eventually ended up de-transitioning after about two years of hormone therapy and says they regret living as a woman/taking those drugs now.
>>13057>if there had been a trans culture like there is now when i was growing up, you can bet your ass i would have bought into it as a teenager. i rejected femininity completely when i was an adolescent; didn't own skirts, refused to wear makeup, cut off all my hair, tried to bind my breasts and diet so that i wouldn't have a feminine body, etc. i didn't feel like i was any 'good' at being a woman, so why bother making an effort?
I was the same. Instead of creating more acceptance for people who deviate from normative societal expectations of masculinity and femininity, the transgender movement has made people who already feel different and alienated even more self-conscious about how well they are performing rigidly defined gender roles.
>And when the heck was the last time society gave a monkeys about anyones chromosomes?
Although I know transpeople existed for a while, there weren’t as many as there are today so what chromosomes someone had wasn’t really a big concern back then anyways since it’s common knowledge that a female has two xx chromosomes and a male has xy as chromosomes.
>If you or anyone else itt woke up tomorrow six foot two inches tall, five o'clock shadow and tits like a couple of Bakewell Tarts, would you expect to stop getting heckled and laughed at as a tranny after you told them you had two xx chromosomes?
That’s a kinda silly scenario though although it would probably make a good sci-fi flick. I mean in your scenario, I have already lived my life as an actual woman and all of a sudden my conciousness has been transferred to a male body. It’s not like I was born in a male body to begin with. Obvs people won’t stop heckling me, even worse if I tell them that I had a previous life as a female. Also I would probably drive myself to insanity or suicide since I would never be able to replicate what I looked like in my previous life. Just looking like any woman wouldn’t be enough for me. I’m 5’1, so the only way I’d be able to be that height again would be to amputate my own legs. I guess I would be able to sorta understand how transwomen feel except since I was a female in my previous, I know what it’s like to be a real woman and what it feels like. The experience a woman feels as she grows up will never be the same for a transwomen. Even ones that started young. They basically have to grow up with the knowledge that they would never have that body naturally and that they needed treatment and hormones to be what they are.
>But what seperates you as an "actual woman" from trans women is just that appearence
But it’s not just appearance, it’s also my experiences as a women and my inner feelings. Apart from that transwomen donmt have the same inner body parts that are 100% female. If you cut them open, they’ll be the same as any other man. And if they find a skeleton of a transwomen, people will describe it as the skeleton of a man but they have the same structure and chromosomes as a male does. As I said before there are experiences that as woman will hage that a transwomen never will, whether they be bad or good (e.g. having their first period). I know that not everyone feels the same about being a woman, we all feel it and experience differently but in general we have similar experiences that are uniquely female. I know women who have had more negative experiences thoroughout their lives may have a negative view on womanhood or may even hate being a woman but those are people with seperate issues
>It's not women, cis or trans, it's straight men.
Huh? So you’re saying that women have been brainwashed since the beginning of time to think that so and so is the definition of womanhood? Do you really think that women have been complete passive for the entirety of history and have never had thoughts of their own? I know I’m a woman, my dad never had to brainwash anything into my brain to make me believe that. I knew I was a chick since I was born. I liked girly things and tomboyish things, I played with both cars and barbies but I still knew I was a girl and it wasn’t because the media or the male figures in my life told me so.
>if they’re denied genuine acceptence for who they are, then they won't be able to live normal lives, and that veneer of acceptence could be snatched away at any time.
I have to admit I have difficulty with the accepting part. I don’t hate them and would never wish any harm on them but I can’t accept their wish to be recognized as female. I will always call them by their preferred pronouns, but inside of me I know they’re not what they say they are. I know transwomen know that too. That when they leave their inner circle of friends and fellow transwomen, most people outside of that won’t actually recognize them as women. No matter how much someone smiles at you, uses your preferred pronouns and makes you feel welcomed, you can tell. It’s like in your scenario, I would know that even if they comfort me and tell me they understand, I know I still look crazy to them. It’s like someone with schizophrenia, do you validate their hallucinations and tell them they’re true or do you try to bring them back to reality and comfort them through the process? Being a transperson really must be hell because there really is no switch that will make everything all right.
>But is that so? Being trans is very difficult, it's full of self-loathing, social retardation and anxieties over surgeries and hairlines the likes of which few people can imagine…but there's clearly a strong desire to be "a woman" from these people
it seems to me that the mental ill health and stress that stems from that comes from the difficulty of realising it.
I think it is so. You can say what you want about the meaning of normal but as I said before they aren’t normal, they are defective. It’s like they have a switch inside them that makes them believe that they are the opposite gender of the body they’re in and try to fix that by becoming as close to the opposite gender they’re supposed to be as possible but never fully reach that. They already had the mental illness to begin with. On top of that they usually gain others due to, as you said, the stress and experiences they go through. For sure, they need love, comfort, understanding and compassion. I wonder if they could investigate further and see if there’s a way to reverse their way of thinking. I know they’ve done multiple studies already but you never know. It could be a possibility in the future.
>How different are her feeling with regards to losing that innately female part of herself different from those of a trans woman?
I wouldn’t say it’s even comparable. The girl in your example always had the ability and possibility of having children, it was just taken away from her. Also she has a uterus which is something a transwoman doesn’t. A transwoman never had the possibility or ability to have children. So it’s like you have the ability to walk but an accident took that from you versus someone who was born that way already so they never had the experience of walking and don’t understand what it’s like or what they lost.
>You're very conscientious and I like you, thank you.
And thank you for being open to discussing this with me in a reasonable manner. I know it’s tempting to get nasty and angry when discussing controversial topics or something you’re passionate about.
Kek I keep forgetting to tag you like a dumbass
Besides, wouldn't it be nice for a transperson to accept life that way (especially since s/He has been raised and prepared to do exactly that and it apparently has biological framework and just acknowledge the whole trans concept as what it is - a mental feat) instead if chopping up the body beyond ALL functioning?
Why not go back to the initial definition of females every other concept builds upon - females are those who can apparently conceive and bear children?
I have a problem with the "experiences" point. Not every woman can have a period/not every woman has the same experience growing up, but does that make them less of a woman? Imo the only thing that differentiates men and women is their sex.
Yeah, they will also be perceived of lacking a vital point of feminity. Have you ever been the last girl in a group of peers to get their period?
They're less woman because of people's perception? Then why don't passing trans women count as real women?
My confession is that I'm not a NEET by choice, and there's layers behind it.
And my other confession is that I get called a attention seeker even though I just have a habit of oversharing and I wish everyone as a whole ignored me
I'll never understand why current society is so cynical that seeking attention is seen in a bad light. Even if you were an attention seeker, so what? Means you need attention and you have a right to have someone who gives it to you as much as you need
Because most forms of attention-seeking are annoying. ex. A person lying about illnesses, people who cause drama, trannies, etc.
Oh yeah I understand what you mean, since talking to people every day isn't… something people can avoid. I have no filter and say whatever comes into my mind, which I assume why everyone assumes I'm a attention-seeker, since I have no filter. I say stuff that comes off as random.
Another confession; I blocked everyone who knew me. yes. everyone. and I'm infamous for this. Ironically enough someone I wanted a life with mocked me for this. and then cut me off from their life forever. So.. that actually contributed to the problem? Because that confirms that everyone does hate me and its not me making it up or inside my head
are you me? I'm super energetic and permanently rambling so people call me an attentionwhore for it even though it's quite the opposite and my rambling is an attempt at hiding my unease in social situations
Oh yes. Super unfair. talking to someone is every day mundane. Oh well, its other people's choice, and everyone loves their freedom to consider That Things can Be Bad
I found out about yaoi around 4th grade and I use to be obsessed with it,ne’er told anyone about how I found it because it was embarrassing tbh
What's embarrassing about it anon? I still watch/read it lol
I was still a child and my parents never knew what I was looking at also I found out about a game call Hadaka shitji,some crap like that and it was a a little scary because there was rape in the game and I was just expose to Yaoi and nsfw stuff
Hadaka Shitsuji, you were pretty close. Lol I guess it's not for everyone I guess. I actually still play that game from time to time.
>>I already know I'm going to get judged for this which is why I'm on an anon board lol I'd never actually say this with my name attached.
I'm kinda sad that I never had like an affair with any of my teachers in highschool, it was always like a weird fantasy of mine? I don't mean like the ones that are married or with families, I didn't fantasize about breaking up a family or anything but I guess its just the power dynamic that I really wanted. I know it's like a real confession but eh now I'll never get to unless I do it in college or something but im a relationship now so. I guess this dream will die.
Besides it being a mental illness its also a sin which hurts society. If someone is feeling suicidal to you tell them to do it (change genders) or try to get them psychological help? MtF trans also dominate women in sports, yet you cannot criticize them without being labeled a bigot.
>>14528>its also a sin
christcuck larper retard
My bf's penis is a little bit bent (something like 20~30°) to one side and i'm scared of having sex with him, i feel terrible because i think he knows it's because of that and he feels bad about it
I think my biggest secret is that I want to marry my bf as soon as possible because my health is not improving at all and the only thing I want to do is to give him a baby in case if I die.
Also I want to fuck him so hard that he can't cum for months.
That's really sad, i really hope your health will improve and that you can raise beautiful children with your bf.
i cyberstalk my boyfriend's family and any girls i notice him liking pictures of
that's not too bad as long as you don't obssess over them
that's definitely pretty unhealthy and already obsessive behaviour…
My dad has two dogs. One of them has recently started sniffing between my butt cheeks or sniffing at my genitalia intensely if I ever wear leggings. I feel so ashamed but it turned me on more than slightly the first time he did it. I feel so vile and disgusting, he started to try to do it again today and I had to stop him.
I feel nearly asexual the majority of the time and that makes this bother me even more.
That actually made me sad to read.
Maybe you're just a zoophile and never knew it.
I don't want to be is the issue. I don't want to be a deviant, I feel fucked up.
Fight to normalize zoophillia in society then you won't feel like a freak.
People will even celebrate you in the future for some odd reason.
it should never be normalized, it's wrong, I'm done discussing this
Hey Anon, it's okay. You most likely only felt that way because you don't feel sexual most of the time, so having something done to your privates excited you. It doesn't mean you're turned on by animals. Idk if what I'm saying is making sense, but I think your lack of sex drive may explain why something like that could have turned you on (because nothing usually does)
it should never be normalized. but I think it should be accepted. you can tell if an animal is in pain.
On one hand I think most animals are capable of emotionally connecting enough with a human to legitimize zoophilia
On the other hand it's zoophilia it doesn't need a counter argument lol, it's fucked up and the last thing I want to do is to throw a bone (haha get it) at furfags
It's mostly a communication issue I think. The most knowledgeable people I know are guys, but they're too autistic to talk to a girl with ease.
Just do it. Go slow. Maybe try a funny angle. It doesn't have to be super serious. It can be fun. Explore.
if there is anyone from the tfw no bf thread then never mention dogs ever
my life is so fucking empty and devoid of affection to the point i scout out guys online just to lead them on and make them fall in love with me. i could get guys to fly over to my city and ghost them last minute, the longest fling i had was probably 5 months when it got to the point he was like obsessed w me and i just lost all motivation to carry on, like i needed a new project or something. anyways, i've started moving towards more irl interaction but it's harder this way bc in real life it's harder to portray their perfect fantasy girl as opposed to just text. but like making out with all these strangers isn't fulfilling and leading on men isn't fun anymore like i want to fall in love but knowing how manipulative i can be and how fun this is only makes me paranoid that guys are doing the exact same thing (ie. seducing me for sex) and i just can't afford to let my guard down and be vulnerable. ughhhhhh what is wrong with me, i feel like i always just want to be in power and my desire for control will never allow me to fall in love even with the right person.
You sound like a legitimate succubus.
I used to be like this when I was younger. It was thankfully a very short and weird phase in my life. For me what helped is realizing I didn't need men/flirt with men/etc to have a fulfilling life (or to be 'valued
'). I spent time on my own, and realized how stress-free life was without having to keep up with relationships that I didn't want to actually keep.
I also cut men off from my life completely for a while (about a year?) and only befriended females, that helped a lot. I developed a healthier mindset with the support of other women.
You can't keep up the 'perfect fantasy girl' act forever, it is exhausting (I know!) It's hard
being vulnerable, it's hard actually owning up to all of your flaws for someone else to see. I think while moving on from this mindset, that was the most difficult thing for me to wrap my head around. I never thought I could actually find someone that will love me despite all my flaws without the fake-perfect-persona.
Another thing, in the long run, this mindset will not work unless you continue only going after younger/inexperienced males, or it will work against men who are only using you for sex because most
older/experienced men will be able to see through all this.
This doesn't deserve more than greentext format.
>somehow formed crush on another without intending to
>feel like it's easier to talk with crush, feel more in common and synergizing better
>we're more alike and conversation flows smoother
>getting butterflies like my bf never gave me, I like him more every time we speak
>haven't felt this way about a guy ever in my life
>have been internally sighing and cringing at my bf since before I met this new boy, but tucking it away as an invasive thought
>current bf has treated me very well and doesn't deserve this
>feel like a terrible person
>feel like shit because this wasn't supposed to happen
>flirted a bit and it felt amazing and now is eating at me since because it was evil
>feel guilty as fuck spending time with my bf now
>it would tear his heart out if I dumped him
>plugging ears going lalalalalala and pretending this doesn't exist
I wish I just died in my sleep this is not who I am and against everything I believe in.
This is very good advice. Men nowadays are complete degenerates who will have disgusting thoughts if you even mention that you like dogs or have a dog.
I don't know why they think this - porn? Men's right lies? It's upsetting though.
I'm in this same situation, except I'm the 'other girl'. My advice? Cut off the crush right now if you care about your boyfriend, before it gets too serious. If you let it get too far, it's soul destroying. Trust me on that.
Just break up with your bf and stop being so narcissistic about how essential you are to him. Unless he's totally mentally ill he'll get over it.
I wish I got to fuck all the hott jocks when I was in high school. Sometimes I wish I had more sex in general before settling down. I probably sound like I'm larping but I really am this much of a horny loser.
I secretly like Die Antwoord. Their music videos have a really unique structure.
I'm 19 and I have a crush on a 17 y/o celeb.
Yes, I'm ashamed. But he's too cute…
how is that embarrassing, it's such a tiny age gap. unless the true embarrassment is the fact he is a celeb kek then i agree
I started listening to them as a joke and I can't remember at what point I actually started really enjoying their music.
I just tell people about it and they call me a pedo or say he's basically a child
Are you sure that they weren't just joking? If anyone genuinely believes a 2 year age gap is pedo, they are being ignorant beyond levels that should be allowed in society.
lol I had a crush on a 17 year old celeb as a 25 year old. IDGAF what anyone thinks of it. He just turned 18 a few months ago anyway.
Just do you, 19 to 17 isn't even questionable.
My ex became a youtuber and right now he has around 500k subscribers.
My confession is: Even though I am dating another guy (that I left him for like 7 years ago) I still watch his videos sometimes, and I don't know why - I do not miss him, actually I cringe about the fact once I was this guy's girlfriend.
Now, I don't know why I do this, but I feel like a weirdo. I think it has to do with guilt. The way I broke up with him probably has something to do with it and left him really heartbroken. I regret that but I was like 15.
I guess it's just curiosity, but it feels weird.
Who is it >>inb4 no!!11 I cannot name!!
This was 7 years ago he'd never know it was you and you will never be tracked unless he hasnt had literally anyone else in 7 years which I doubt.
this is going to sound very, very, very fucking dumb but i feel like i'm normiephobic. hold your laughter. or don't, i'm sort of chuckling at myself right now.
it's just, i see "them" taking interest in my niche hobbies & get unreasonably irritated. i wish they'd go back to watching prime time tv or talking about sex, whatever normies usually do.
& i honestly feel that the more they pour into these . . . "nerdier" interests the more diluted said interests become. just look at capeshit; it's turned into a virtue signaling, high budget wankfest.
sorry. it's pathetic but i can't help feeling this way
Doesn't sound dumb to me, I think you're right about them killing fanbases or having content dumbed down to pander to them. It's sensible to become irritated when they're potentially transforming something you like into a plastic, hollow version.
Don't confuse normals for extremists. The pandering isn't so much for them as the classic rock and pop culture references are in modern capeshit. It's marketing mostly.