/feels/ - Advice & Venting

I feel like I'm in general a much happier person now that I don't put so much on my value on male attention and support. I've come to realize just how disgusting all of it is, moids throwing younger girls around and trading them like Pokemon cards and then throwing them away once they become "haggish" (which to them means turning 21+). The rush of having men care for me was alluring at first, but I quickly came to despise them once they all turned on me. Now that I'm away from them and not living to please them, I've noticed pretty much every aspect of my life has improved. My appearance, my hygiene, my creativity, my will to live and thrive, everything. It's like living for the approval of men has brought me down in every way possible, and now that I broke free and matured past needing their approval, I'm flourishing as a young woman should. Of course, looking back on everything I did and said for them to try and prove to them that I wasn't a super evil whore is kinda embarrassing, but I'd much rather live with embarrassing 3AM memories, than currently be destroying myself like a dancing monkey for them to gawk at until the next younger girl pulls up, leaving me a pile a chopped liver. Now all I need is some real female friends, because pretty much the only reason why I cared for male attention so much was because I had basically nobody to talk to IRL because of my lack of social skills, kinda awkward demeanors and weird interests (weird at the time for a girl in a Philly public school).