is anyone else dreadfully, painfully lonely? Anonymous 115853
i am almost 23 years old and i have never had a friend, ever. i have never been to anyone's house, hung out with anyone, or been invited anywhere at all. i live in a small town in a rural area - there's nowhere for me to meet people.
i haven't even had a female friend online.
i am not in college (maybe someday), but i do work full time. my coworkers are all 30+ and although we get along, we'll never be friends. i never talk to them outside of work, and they have no interest in doing so.
it is very likely that i was diagnosed with autism as a child
my cynicism is of no help, either. even the smallest things can make me dislike someone. i dislike excessive use of social media, drinking, drug use, smoking, porn, tattoos, revealing clothing, transgenderism, etc… i just want someone that isn't corrupted or evil or something like that. i just want to be friends with a girl that's nice. i fantasize about having the perfect friend and i get so sad i cry about it.
i often think about how beautiful it would be to have a friend. we could talk every day, wear pretty dresses together, hug each other, talk on the phone, eat cake together. we would share music, movies, and art and cute pictures. we'd love each other like sisters. our children would grow up together. we'd be friends til death!
i am so lonely and so tired of it.
Anonymous 115861
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I understand anon. I wish it would improve. The friends I have barely contact me anymore and I barely hang out with anyone, all I have is my bf I talk to every few days and he's sadly long distance. I've tried to be friendly to people at work but it's clear most of them want to avoid interaction outside of it. I can't find a hobby or interest that'd actually make me new friends and I'm in my mid late 20s so it's embarrassing I'm in this state right now. I live in a midsize city and yet I still feel like a friendless loser junkie freak who cries her eyes out on her days off pretending I'm okay front facing to the world when I secretly am so lonely I wish I'd just die.
I'm sorry you're in this predicament. I hope you can at least find one person to confide in
