>>117147That indeed sounds retarded.
Are you fishing for some kind of
>a-ha! you were never truly my friends, were you?moment? It sounds like you do.
Suppose you get what you want, where does that leave you? You're now standing, all pent up and emotional, in front of a bunch of people who you now know not to give a shit about you. It'd only be awkward for you.
But suppose those people really do care about you. Now you're the asshole, because you played stupid mind games with people that love you.
I just don't see how you could benefit from this.