>>117646Well Nona, I'm sorry it ended like this, but I really do think you made the mistake here. You entered a relationship you didn't want to begin with, entertained the notion, went on a trip and then immediately broke up when you didn't find a good reason to call it off.
There's no use crying over spilt milk, and you can't really fix it now, but you should really focus on what you want out of a relationship. It seems to me like you kind of used him just to see what it's like to have a boyfriend, then got bored, now you're missing the feeling. That's not fair to both you and him, and you can't expect a good relationship unless you both put in the work.
I wish you the best, Nona.