looking for betterment advice Anonymous 118711
I have pretty much no family that cares for me, I'm sure I've lost my partner at this point, I have basically no friends. And of course, it is my fault. I am extremely mean to the people around me and push people away with how insane and insulting I am.
I pushed my partner away because I am insanely jealous (over nothing) and I start arguments (over nothing) and I am extremely selfish. I do not want to be this way forever. This has gone on so long my partner does not believe I can change. I know I can change, I want to change.
I have nothing left, I'm afraid it is already too late to prove I can change. I have been seriously considering the obvious. What do I have to lose anyways? Who cares?
I just want to be better for my partner, I want to be able to have a healthy relationship. I want to stop being so mean. I want to change my behavior. Therapy and medication do not seem to help. I just do not know what to do at this point. I can't eat and despite only getting two hours of sleep, I am not tired. I am wide awake, I am starving, I am nauseous, and I am full of hate for myself.
How can I make myself better? I am a reflection of my mother and I do not want to continue living this way.
Anonymous 118712
Have you looked into DBT? It focuses on a few things but the most important are building tolerance to stress and not acting on emotions. You absolutely can better yourself, but it will be hard work & there’s no magic pill or quick therapy fix. It’s a lifelong project and there will be setbacks. But the rewards are a better life for yourself and people around you
Anonymous 118714
>>118712I looked into it a little bit. Is this effective for someone who has bipolar disorder?
Anonymous 118721
>>118714It was originally created for borderline personality disorder but people with ptsd or generally struggling with overwhelming emotions have found it effective. I’m not a great believer in talk therapy but DBT is more about building practical skills you can use everyday
Anonymous 118734
>>118711>> I'm afraid it is already too late to prove I can changeHow old are you? It's rarely too late for change
