What now? Anonymous 119395
A few months ago I was diagnosed with BPD. And more recently PTSD.
It's nice to have answers. For over a decade I thought the brain fog I felt was due to malnutrition or something, but apparently it's because of depersonalization. That's just one example of many things.
I don't know very much about BPD. Every time it comes up in conversation it's either in reference to someone's abusive ex or as an insult.
Of course I crave love and intimacy. I've never been in a relationship before. I've never even had anyone ask me out. I have a lot of very complicated, very mood-swing-ey feelings about that. I feel like I'm almost trying to find shitty things about the human race to make me hate being around people, so that it hurts less to be alone. I think it's working. Right now I'm in a state of mind where I feel fine being alone. I'd rather be alone than risk hurting the people I love.
Anonymous 119733
You can't make everyone happy
Anonymous 119782
I would say the next step would to probably go to a therapist to work on managing overwhelming emotions and thoughts. As well as addressing any issues stemming from your trauma. Just try to be open and honest with yourself and be receptive to change.
Good luck, try not to forget about the good people <3 (but still be mindful of the bad ones)
