/feels/ - Advice & Venting

I hate making friends because keeping up friendships means meeting them for outings and all that requires money. Choosing between food and if I should go and watch the silly cute movie hahaha poor peoole should not have children

Skipping out on fests because you don't even have cute clothes to wear thank god there was a uniform otherwise the entire thing would have been a humiliation ritual I don't even want to talk about shoes

I cannot even look at my favorite podcast people somedays because they visibly look well off and when they are talking about their cute little getaway I want to bang my head on the wall

I remember being 5 and asking my mother when we will live in a cute house and I have my own room I want a big whale on the ceiling. I'm 19 now and I…I don't even date because everything revolving around it needs money Like I would rather save but I seethe with jealousy when I see couples in parks

I remember this cute guy I kinda liked asking for my number and I couldn't give it to him becauae I knew it would go nowhere he's in a relationship and I hate itttt I will have the most isolated college experience ever grateful though that I will have it I don't want to get married and have children I want to travel and live a very hedonistic life

>>120422
How do I do that

thank god for everything I have but a bitch neede more I'm barely living I need to make big money and buy a good cute twinky fuckbot forget redpill scrotes I will be the first one in line to get my hands on it I am everything I want to see light and live in the clouds I don't want to make a deal with the devil

The worst thing is the most I can reward myself is food which is making me think about food emotionally and I'm afraid I will start over eating to fill the emptiness in me and become fat

I stopped using social media, it made me want too much stuff. Living paycheck to paycheck sucks.

I made the mistake of getting demoralized right when I was having to choose a college. I was really smart, maybe I coulda been someone special, but I just learned how bad things really are out there, that what schools said about how you just go to college, get married, get a great job, and live a great life, was a total lie, so I just gave up.
I'm 25 now, barely educated, and I'm so far gone I don't think I could even bring myself to work anymore. Why bother when your best efforts still amount to nothing but poverty.

My sister has some friends. They were two people who were roommates and they constantly worked as hard as they could, but could never get anywhere. They recently got evicted because they couldn't keep up with rent.

Screw that noise. If you're damned if you do and damned if you don't, I guess I just won't.

>>120465
If you are not dead then you are not damned. It will be hard but I think you should give things another shot.I'm starting at 20 and not 18 because of family issues. When I was 18 things were very bleak but I had to work my way out of it. Life is never going to be uphill.