/feels/ - Advice & Venting

no because that’s not a normal thing to feel. i do know one woman who wants to kill a girl for coming out as being abused by her ex boyfriend though. so those are the kind of evil people i imagine struggle with those thoughts at all. it’s always like an incel wanting to kill a girl who won’t date him or a girl wanting to kill a girl that gets in the way and/or she is jealous of. it’s never righteous and the good person is always the intended victim.

I wanted someone to die, not necessarily kill. I wasn't particularly angry or anything even and it was mostly intrusive and thinking about it scratched my brain. I don't know how to exactly express what I feel and killing seemed so logical in a manner that everything will be over if the issue is gone. I tried thinking of ways on how to kill someone, but in the end I let go of it because my feelings never last and I just die as a person. Maybe because it's easier and more realistic for me to think "the issue must be eradicated at all costs" rather than try to seek help because I never get help on how to sort out the issue or solutions.

My mum. She has mental problems and refuses to get help for it.

everyday tbh

I used to have a lot of hate for some people but looking back, maybe thanks to the hate I felt it made me change myself for the better

I thought about letting my mom die when she tried to commit suicide but i didn’t wanna end up homeless. So I called the ambulance. I want my ex bf new girlfriend to get in an accident. No these thought don’t make me feel bad or like I’m a bad person

I got court mandated therapy because I nearly tried to kill my step-dad when I was 10.

ALL MEN

I wish my family was dead because they wanted me to be a boy when that's just not who I am.

Also, I want to kill Prozzub because he ruined my life.

I don't think I've ever wanted to kill someone myself but I have wanted people to die before. I just don't want to do it or be the reason they died.

When I was 20 I started dating a girl and moved in with her. She wouldn't let me leave the house and she raped me almost every night. After 6 months I escaped. The police were useless and told me I'm not really a victim and it's what I should have expected for being gay. When I called my mother she told me not to act like a victim. My grandmother told me it wouldn't have happened if I called more. And my father laughed at me before asking how that could happen and hanging up.

A few hours later my father called me back and said he was in the state and wanted to know if I wanted him to kill her. I thought about it and said no. He asked me if I was sure and I said yes. But sometimes I regret saying that. She was in the hospital for shooting herself in the head. She found where I was hiding and told me if she couldn't have me, no one could. She went outside and was on her way back in with a gun when the police showed up. She decided to shoot herself instead. She lived. So when he offered it felt like I could get what I was supposed to have. A final end. Never seeing her again, never worrying about her hurting someone else.

I know someone hurt her and she hurt me in turn, but I cant stand the idea that she could go on to hurt other girls like me.

I'm upset she is alive. But I'm happy that I don't have it on my hands.

>>120708
Hopefully not too much of a necro to get the full story? Was he a terrible person or were you an unusually bloodthirsty 10 year old? He beat your mom, he beat you, what did he do?

>>125062
The way your family reacted is absolutely disgusting, nona, I'm so sorry you went through that. I had a similar experience at a younger age and I think it scarred me for life to have it brushed aside so readily, maybe even more so than the SA itself. I hope you find people who treat the topic with the heaviness and respect it deserves, and that you can heal someday.

I hate my family dog because it killed my cat. I want to blow that dog up by strapping it to a firework.