>>121770thank you for answering nona <3
yeah im glad i stood up for myself, and i suppose i do have self-respect and love for myself. but im also diagnosed autistic (like many on here) and lack neurotypical body language and "rizz" lol which makes me come off as awkward and thus not confident.
i do care abt how im perceived unfortunately as i want to make long-term friends and make good impressions. but ive noticed that external confidence is something neurotypicals care a lot about, almost to an obsessive degree? and if i want to befriend non-autistics it appears like i need to put in effort to appear confident by their standards or else i lose like -2000 social points