Anonymous 121779
i'm just now finishing my 2nd year in university and for the two years that i've been here i genuinely haven't had a conversation with a person besides someone asking me like "is this seat taken" or something in a class. i haven't had any friends for 5+ years since all my friends from middle school just stopped talking to me when high school started. i think i'm so socially retarded and lacking in social skills that at this point i don't even know how to make friends even if i desperately wish to do it. i never learned these skills as a child either because for as long as i can remember i've felt like my presence is a burden to other people and i've thought that i'm doing a service to them by speaking or being seen as little as possible so even as a child i didn't engage or begin conversations with people. there's no point to this i just can't see how a life like this is worth living in the long run and i wish that eventually i'll have the courage and decisiveness to kill myself.
Anonymous 121780
Nona you are not a burden. Try with making online friends.
Anonymous 121801
In the same spot as you, also just finished my second year. Realized I had no real friends and everyone I thought was my friend was only talking to me for assignment answers.
Anonymous 121816
I've felt the same way, I think many people do. The issue, I think, is sifting through to find like-minded people who are also alone, but for me, that's hard.
Anonymous 122518
>>121779When you grow up you know the only thing that matters is your career and studies. Let it go, I know being social is fun and all but your future is way more important, you'll eventually find someone after uni anyways.
Anonymous 123638
hi nona, i'm in the same spot as you, right up to "middle school friends left in highschool". would like to be friends with you, and if you don't, then hope you know that killing yourself isn't the right answer.
