Anonymous 121779
i'm just now finishing my 2nd year in university and for the two years that i've been here i genuinely haven't had a conversation with a person besides someone asking me like "is this seat taken" or something in a class. i haven't had any friends for 5+ years since all my friends from middle school just stopped talking to me when high school started. i think i'm so socially retarded and lacking in social skills that at this point i don't even know how to make friends even if i desperately wish to do it. i never learned these skills as a child either because for as long as i can remember i've felt like my presence is a burden to other people and i've thought that i'm doing a service to them by speaking or being seen as little as possible so even as a child i didn't engage or begin conversations with people. there's no point to this i just can't see how a life like this is worth living in the long run and i wish that eventually i'll have the courage and decisiveness to kill myself.
Anonymous 121780
Nona you are not a burden. Try with making online friends.
Anonymous 121801
In the same spot as you, also just finished my second year. Realized I had no real friends and everyone I thought was my friend was only talking to me for assignment answers.
Anonymous 121816
I've felt the same way, I think many people do. The issue, I think, is sifting through to find like-minded people who are also alone, but for me, that's hard.
