/feels/ - Advice & Venting

I can’t handle how lonely men make me feel. No matter how kind, patient, or understanding they seem, they always end up disappointing me. They’re all lustful. They all watch porn. All of them struggle to see women as actual human beings, some just get better at hiding it. They all want you to perform for them in some way shape or form.

I ache for this so called true love. I want romance, tenderness, respect. I want someone who sees me, who values me, who cherishes me. But instead, day by day, I grow more bitter and resentful. It feels like I was sold a lie about what men and relationships are supposed to be. It makes me angry and doubt romantic love is even real at all. It all just feels like a cruel lie. I even feel like the women who claim their men are so great are experiencing some sort of cognitive dissonance.

I keep telling myself I just won’t ever get this from a man, but accepting that is so hard. The loneliness eats at me. Sometimes, it feels like being a straight woman is nothing but a curse. Being alone sucks but being with them makes the loneliness even worse.