>>128399Ok I needed to think about it a little. TLDR: weird attention disorder thing?
Example 1: Workplace assessment a few years ago. Every new employee had to prepare to answer to 10 questions in a week or two. No matter how much time it felt I devoted I couldn't really understand what they wanted to hear from me and my answers always seemed incomplete. I kinda just forgot about certain details and didn't think they matter?
I had the same problem during uni verbal exams. I don't know when it started exactly but I remember kinda mentally giving up on this back in school.
Now that doesn't apply if the question has specific boundaries (I love multiple choice tests). This also makes me look weird asf when I talk to other people like I'm not paying attention to the purpose of the conversation.
This actually made answering the question itself quite difficult because I keep defaulting to the very subjective side of experiences/perceptions and not what would be most appropriate for people to hear.
Example 2: Very inappropriate affect and it's the actual embarrassing part… I get too excited by (or involved in) stuff that's too miniscule. Like I once heard some dumbass detail about foreign security agents (doesn't matter) and I just spoke to my friend about it and she said "are you okay you sound like you have an episode" (normally she's really nice so it's genuine) I also get frustrated if people don't pay attention to specific small details like I do. Also I'll ruminate over some random detail in the past to the point I neglect my own needs like home getting cleaned or whatever other responsibilities there are.
I understand I'm acting weird but I just NEED to get this affect out or my thinking gets even worse.
Now this all improves the less stress I have and it sometimes feels like I'm almost thinking like a normal person only to get flunged back later.
Yeah I know it's not really a /feels/ thing at this point and more like "go to the doctor" one. I'll update them on that.
