/feels/ - Advice & Venting

I'm unmedicated bipolar and when I'm manic I get really hypersexual, I don't do hookups atm I just make out with people here and there

Men want me for my body and don't emotionally connect with me the way women do

I can't find a partner to have sex with at the moment and I don't want to get into a bad relationship by being desperate

I get clammy around people that I find attractive, I alternate between staring at them and looking away, I get beyond flustered with cute people

I've been downright creepy towards people I've crushed on, both men and women

Do you ever see someone attractive and get carried away?

I feel so guilty about this all

Whenever my mania goes away so does my sex drive, I'm worried that it makes dating me difficult

I have a reputation for being promiscuous and weird, I didn't realize I had this reputation until recently

I'm worried the only reason I've gotten away with it so far is because I look conventionally attractive and that seems wrong

I feel like a man in my position wouldn't be judged as much

I think I've already committed social suicide at this point by talking about my fetishes and porn preferences publicly irl