/feels/ - Advice & Venting

I survived COCSA when I was in middleschool. Everyone in my family knows, yet none of them talk about it (I don't really expect them to), and I'm too scared to tell anyone. Since it happened, I have had to deal with this by myself. This of course didn't go well, since time after time, since I was eight, I've somehow ended repeating the same situation where I'm degraded sexually.

I have only learned one thing from all of this, and it's the reason why I feel I should step out of dating for a while (although predators always find a way to slip into your social circle ). But I have also learned that anything that you "seek" in a man, you can already give it to yourself.

Dating feels amazing, but if you're doing this for a specific and selfish reason, you should really question if whatever you're looking for can already be found within yourself (or other relationships like you girlfriends). Be kind, take care of yourself.

I hope things go better for me. I'm tired, terribly tired of going through the same situation agan and again. After all of this, I unfortunately forgot how a normal relationship should feel like. One where I don't feel disposed after they…well.