College is an isolating experience Anonymous 132499
college has been such an isolating experience for me, at the beginning i had a lot of friends because im naturally extroverted, i would talk to pretty much everyone, then i realized the same people i interacted with every day were talking shit behind my back, after that i just lost interest in being part of big groups, later i mostly hung out with two of my best friends, then i found out they were talking shit about me too, during all of this i kept trying to self reflect and figure out if i had done something that made people treat me like this, i genuinely couldnt find anything, i was always kind to them, i would help them however i could, even with my closest friends, i know i have flaws like everyone else but i honestly tried to be the best version of myself
then i had a guy friend catch feelings for me, i rejected him, after that things got even worse, now i basically have no real friends in college and every day just feels weird and isolating, im lonely most of the time, i feel like most of my class doesnt like me and it sucks because i havent done anything except be kind to people or stand up for myself when someone treated me badly, a big reason people dont like me is because the guy i rejected spread rumors about me and everyone just believed him because hes popular and basically a microcelebrity, then i found out some girl in my class was telling a guy that i wear makeup every day because i want attention and that im nothing without it, its just exhausting, it feels like no matter what i do people will come up with some reason to hate me, after a while you just stop wanting to bother with anyone, sorry if this sounds like im victimizing myself
