/feels/ - Advice & Venting

I'm 25 and I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I got a CS degree pre-AI but now with a horrible job market, just getting junior roles is really difficult and it feels like I have to grind my ass off just to get a livable wage in my field. I've been doing leetcode and applying soulless tech stacks to my resume that I genuinely don't even care about. My boyfriend of almost two years left me because his avoidant attitude turned every conflict or disagreement into a breakup scenario; which I just put up with, even though it hurt me deeply to feel so disposable in the relationship cus I had nothing else and didn't want to lose the only source of love and warmth I had. Now that he's gone, my life feels like a void again with not much reason to wake up. All I want in my life is to be happy with my family and have someone waiting for me at the end of the day, but with each passing year, that dream just seems more distant. Been feeling really nihilist, thinking if any of it even matters.