Happy Feels/Vent Anonymous 345
Share the good things that have happened to you recently!
I randomly got a call for a job that I didn't apply for, but the job offer is my passion (cake decorating)! I went to the interview yesterday, and was hired immediately. The chef is a cool druggy gamer guy as are the other dudes in the kitchen, so now I'm gonna make a bunch of awesome cool nerdy friends! He really liked the cake I brought him and the work I did. The pay is more than I was expecting.
The only thing that makes me nervous is that he also wants me to work the line, which I've never done, but the place is classy so we're putting out beautiful food that I'm really proud of and even messing with molecular gastronomy, which I've wanted to get into for a very long time! I'm so excited to do my best.
are you the anon from the baking thread??? THAT'S SO CUTE AND GOOD. I am happy for you <3
I won a five pound note in a packet of crisps the other day! i never win anything so that made me happy! I brought some facemasks with it~
Yes I am! First day was amazing. I'm so happy to be living my dream. I'm going to end up responsible for all of the pastry stuff soon. Everyone was really nice to me. We got on well c:
Congrats on your win! I hope the face masks work extra well for you!
Giving my pets a treat always improves my mood. They hold it with their little hands and enjoy it, then close their eyes while I pet them and talk to them. It's impossible to be unhappy when you're feeding a friendly animal.
What kind of pets do you have? That sounds so adorable!
I'm graduating. Finally. I'm so happy… Yes, things have been extremely stressful because I have lots of things to finish until the end of June, but I know this phase of my life is about to end, and that makes me so relieved.
I'm really happy for you Anon, well done ♥
CONGRATS anon! Hope your next phase of life goes wonderfully!
Thank you, anons!! :') I mean it.
I have rats, they behave like little puppies and get really attached to you if you treat them right. They love to cuddle and play all day long.
oh man I REALLY want to get rats, but two things are stopping me from doing that:
1) they have a very short life (2 or 3 years right?) I cant deal with the heartbbreak
2) They dont sell them where Im living atm
Yes, their life span is very unfortunate. But their companionship is worth it to me.
In case you meant pet stores, you shouldn't buy rats there anyway, so maybe you will find a reputable breeder or rescue in your country?
Today's happy feel: just spending a relaxed Sunday with music and comfort food.
I live in South East Asia….you will never find domesticated rats here :(
Your bb looks so cute!
This website has had such a positive influence on my mental wellbeing. Which in turn is helping me physically as I'm exercising and looking after myself better.
Everyone's been so nice and kind to each other for the most part that I'm kinda finding myself thinking like if little chibi miners cheering me on when I'm anxious.
Sorry to be gay but I'm really content ahh~
Sooner or later everyone I care about will die.
My boyfriend makes me so happy. He's thoughtful, gentle, sweet, always appreciative. I'm over the moon.
I reconnected with an old friend today and we're having a grand catching up while drinking together online lmao.
I got to see my friend and eat ice cream together and gossip about our lives.
Also got a new journal in the mail. Super excited to start writing in it.
I'm seeing my best friend next week for the first time in two months and I'm so excited! We're both very poor at the moment but we're going to watch lots of films and shes the only person I can truly be myself around so ahhhhh~
One of the feral cats I have is doing really well. She got a really bad infection and almost died but she's doing so much better. She had 5 kittens and had gotten the infection not long after so I was worried they'd lose their mom but they're doing wonderful as well and are starting to walk and can hear now. The mom is getting fixed soon and I'm so happy she's doing great again! I'm almost jumping off the walls I'm so excited!
Thank you for helping those little souls out! That's really great.
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i've wanted to be beautiful my entire life. i never have been and i probably never will be, but i'm starting to realize that i can be happy without it, and people will love me anyway. idk maybe that sounds negative but this is huge for me
i got married on my birthday last week and i'm full of love. i love being a wife
I've been living with my boyfriend for almost a decade now and I never thought I would be able to live with someone because I've got so many emotional problems but he makes me feel better every day. Last night I was really anxious and he hugged me and talked to me for hours until I fell asleep. I know it's kind of weird to be saying this after 8 years but I'm just so in love.
I just bought a car!! This is the first step to ending my NEET streak and getting my life back in order. It feels so good to be able to even do little things like running errands!
After a month of pretty much being 100% antisocial, I visited some friends today and it was nice.
OP here~ so my coworkers/bosses are awesome and we're all friends. I brought my boyfriend to hang out with them before and it went well.
My BF has been needing a job, and we've been needing a dishwasher. He dropped off his application yesterday, and since we were slammed he got hired right away! Now I get to see him at work 4 days a week (a day extra than the previous dishwashers were there) c: Everyone at work already really likes him, and my boss told me so a few times last night. It made me heart so happy to hear people approve of my boyfriend, especially older people that I respect, because my parents haven't really said anything good about him even though he's great (my mom in particular is judgy).
I'll be moving in to a house with my best friends and my boyfriend and my girlfriend soon too! So happy!
awesome to hear that anon!!
Just be careful when you move in together re; working and living together. Make time to do things separate from each other~
Today I'm SUPER stoked because I've nursed back to health four dying plants and I feel like Queen of the Fae rn. Expecting birds to fly in my window and start dressing me
My mental health took a massive tumble and I had to finally accept that I'd be dead soon if I didn't make a change. I moved to a new place and got new medication for my mental health and I feel like new. I get up before noon, I socialise with strangers, picked my friendships back up, play with dogs in the park, spend less time online and don't procrastinate as much anymore. I even stopped smoking weed every day and don't even miss it. I don't want to be too optimistic about this sudden change, but I hope I can keep this up and learn how to be a functional human being for real. I feel like for the first time in years I actually have a person inside me instead of just anxious thoughts battling it out and drowning out any semblance of a personality I could have.
Any advice for quitting weed anon?
It's not the first time I've 'quit' and I still want to keep doing it recreationally so I'm not the best person to ask and it's mostly the change of environment for me. I used to spend my entire life in bed with nothing but internet and anxious thoughts, so weed was a crutch to make things bearable and now that I'm happier and more energetic, I feel like I'd miss out on my current good streak if I spent it getting high and falling asleep (which I usually do after smoking). I'm sure in the drug thread >>>/b/469
you can get better advice, I'll also stick around there if you want to talk! One more thing, I don't know how you smoke your weed, but if you mix it with tobacco, you could consider working on that first. Nicotine habit is harder to kick and you'll find weed not as big a problem after.
>>935>I don't want to be too optimistic about this sudden change, but I hope I can keep this up and learn how to be a functional human being for real.
I feel the same way lately. Congratulations on your progress!
It feels really precarious to me. Being a functional human has always felt like balancing on a moving boulder. It's really hard to get on top of it and then once I'm there I have to keep running tirelessly, because no matter how hard it is on top it's harder when you're under it. I always feel one misstep away from falling off again.
That's exactly what I'm so afraid of right now. I'm trying to use my current drive to get as much of my things in order as I can so that when it tapers off I'll have fewer of my former issues to deal with. It's the best opportunity at a real fresh start I've ever had and I intend to use it.
>>934>>934>Expecting birds to fly in my window and start dressing me
As you would deserve, anon! Congrats on healing your plant babies, and thank you for the advice
I didn't realize how endlessly dissociated I've been until today I suddenly snapped back into it HEAVILY as my boyfriend was telling me about how much he likes me. I was able to stay in reality for like two minutes and it was such an amazing feeling… I'm so happy I was able to feel that way
i gave my boyfriend a cover of a song we both like for our anniversary and i was kind of expecting a fake thankful response but he loved it so much, he freaked out and told me that i need to be in a band and that he had no idea i could sing so well
i am still over the moon that he loved it so much
I'm moving into my partner and I's first place together on the 31st, and he just told me that rather than fussing together over furniture, that he'll just give me an allowance and I can go out and furnish the entire apartment by myself, because "I trust your taste". Apparently he doesn't mind shelling out for proper furniture either, none of the flat-pack stuff. His only stipulation is that he wants a giant, fluffy beanbag in the living room that he can sink into and play his Switch on, so I'm probably going to make that the first purchase, even before a bed.
I've been on Pintrest for the last hour pinning décor inspiration. I can't believe I've gone from council houses and food banks to this. I'm one lucky idiot.
I actually almost feel jealous of myself too? That sounds weird, but I just never in a million years thought I'd be able to get into this position of financial security. I keep expecting to go to sleep only to wake up still trapped in my old life. I'm not sure I really even deserve this.
I would love to see your pins, I love home decor so much. Would you mind sharing?
just be sure you have a reliable job in case the relationship goes south
I thought the same thing tbh. ~Financial security~ but the boyfriend is ~shelling out~ and giving an ~allowance~? Good on you girl and I hope he's the one who moves out if you split up so you can keep the place, but stay independent.
Dear Lord anon, that bedding in your pic looks SO comf! I trust your boyfriend that you have good tastes too. Congrats btw~
No where did she say that she gets an allowance normally, or that he pays rent or for her things. Can we not assume the worst?
I just made a home décor thread in /b/ so I'll post them there!
Please post your own décor tastes as well, I need all the inspiration I can get.>>1023
I intend to, but I'm not worried about that being a possibility. We're highschool sweethearts, been together 10 years.>>1024
pls no jinx relationship precious miner.
Ok, I'm happy for you anon just want you to be safe ;-;
A small joy, my class got cancelled for today!
This guy has been following me around, pressuring me into dating him and trying to separate me from my friends for a little over a year now, and I finally gained enough courage to tell him how what I really thought about him and cut him out of my life permanently last night. My heart was beating so fast because I'm super non confrontational but rn I feel so free and happy
congrats on losing that weight, anon! you're freeeeeee
I went to feed my cat really late in the night cause she woke me up and stuff. When I came back to my bed, I said "It's so cold" two times, normally, not too low nor too high. But my boyfriend that was literally snoring by my side immediately wakes up, covers me (with air I think lmao), hugs me and say something like "Not on my watch". Then sleeps 5 seconds later. It really made my night, it was so cute and I felt so loved.
That's so cute. I live cozy bf feels!
Old post but it made me really happy. I hope the next 8 years are even better!
It's my birthday today. I turned 26.
My partner woke me up this morning by throwing balloons at my sleeping head and letting off party poppers in front of me so that the sparkly foil ejected itself into my face aha (wouldn't have minded another ejection though right girls ayyyyyyyyyyy)
Today's reflections. I woke up in a new bed, in a new home, in a new place, and of a new age. Even though everything has changed so completely, somehow it all still feels the same. I don't really feel any older, but I'm one of those "only as old as you feel" types, which I guess means that as far as I'm concerned I might as well be 8.
I am happy though. I'm really, really happy.
Since I got the day to myself, I'm going to finish pulling on my tights, dry my hair, slam my face into some makeup and go out and buy me a birthday Starbucks.
W-was he quoting Soldier: 76? ヽ( ´¬`)ノ
Happy Birthday anon! Hope you have a good one
Hey happy birthday!!! You don't have to buy birthday starbucks if you're a member with them, you get a free drink!
Thanks Anon, I hope you're having a great day so far too <3>>1299
(thanks for that little tidbit anyway. Guess I'll have to use it next year lol)
I don't know where to put this because it isn't negative but it's like bittersweet but still good. I don't know but yeah.
Almost all the kittens I've raised,except two(I'm adopting them myself), are going into homes in a couple weeks. It feels really great because I know they'll have really loving homes and warm places to sleep and grow but I handraised some of them when their mom got extremely sick so I feel like they're my babies. I've helped find cats and kittens homes before so this isn't new to me but it's just a mixed bag of emotions.
Regardless, I hope they all grow up to be healthy and happy in their new homes. I'm so glad I got to save them all from sickness or freezing in the rain! I know they'll miss me when it's time to go to their new owners but these are people who will love them so I can rest easy.>>1294
Happy birthday anon! I hope it went well for you!
I've woken up before 9am two days in a row!!
This is amazing for me! I'm so tired but I'm happy I've been able to force myself up
Congrats Anon! Keep it up. Also don't think you're in the clear. I've been up by around 7 or 8 for months now and it's still got to be an active decision for me to practice perfect sleep hygiene or I still end up staying up until 3 or 4 in the morning. It gets easier the more you do it, but I probably won't ever be able to do it automatically.
oh yeah I'm totally prepared I'll be hating waking up but it's definitely good to try and wake up early! I've even been having breakfast! I'll never be a morning person EVER, I accept that. But at least I can get up and angrily start to do fun stuff hahaha
this is so lame but i styled my hair today and it actually turned out pretty which is super rare because my natural hair is curly so its really stubborn even if i straighten it and then go through it with a curler for some soft, cute waves (which is what i did today and i am feeling cute!)
I'm happy for you! curly anon here, I get the struggle.
I hope I don't write a super lengthy and cheesy post, but I'll let my heart speak here. Sob. Bear with me… Okay. Sob. I bet this is going to get VERY LONG.
I hope it can help one or two anons there, or at least inspire or help you a tiny bit.
The thing is I'm so happy to see how far I've come.
Last year was really sad and tough for me. Life was so shitty.
I've dealt with depression since I was 13 (it's been 11 years) and back in 2016 I was on some really heavy psych meds. I do understand they helped me a lot during that period of my life, and maybe I wouldn't be here without their help. But they made me feel horrible in the long run… Physically, I felt like crap. Super fat, tired, insomniac… And I felt incredibly sad and alone. So lonely. I was hurting really fucking bad. If I had to sum up 2016 for me I would say it was the same old stage of the repetitive depressed cycle I already knee so well. You know, "woe-is-me, I'm so tired of trying to kill myself and failing/giving up that I'm gonna accept my fate and be unhappy for the rest of my fucking existence". I was getting numb again, and didn't have motivation to fix my life. In the end I guess I needed some sort of savior. And that didn't happen. So I decided I'd work on myself again, for the very last time. I felt unworthy of that, but I decided to do that just for the sake of not dying knowing I hadn't tried everything I possibly could.
I started with eating healthier (because I was huge and felt very tired).
My first motivation wasn't really losing weight, but taking better care of myself because of how horrible I felt, and I know it had a lot to do with the way I was eating. I'd eat anything I'd see in front of me without a second thought. I decided to change everything in December, before the holidays. It's not like I was going anywhere or like anyone would invite me to eat at their home anyway, so while everyone was feasting, I was planning on becoming healthier.
Changing my diet really gave me an energy boost, and – not very surprisingly, but sort of unexpected anyway – I lost a bit of weight. So I started to try to actively lose weight to improve myself and feel better with my own body. It's been eight months and I've lost 18kg. I am still overweight according to my BMI, so I want to keep losing weight from now on so I can get to a healthy number by the end of this year or early to mid 2018.
Anyway, losing weight and feeling better health wise gave me confidence enough to dare to think I was worthy of trying to live.
But I couldn't continue to live the way I was living… So awfully negative. I have the tendency of overthinking everything and anything, so I started to talk to myself whenever I thought I was thinking way too much about unimportant things that would only make me suffer:
"Yo anon, why are you overthinking this topic? Chill! It will be okay"
"Anon, that doesn't even matter anymore, does it? Let's think logically for a moment. Hm. Hmmm. You see, it really doesn't! So let's let it go, shall we?"
Etc etc etc etc etc
I understand it can sound very silly, but that helped me so much. Also, I started setting reminders of my phone saying things like "you do matter, Anon", "things will be okay" and "good vibes".
In the past I'd say that was a really stupid and overly simple action. That trying to trick my brain wouldn't work on me and that I knew I'd be miserable forever. But I can guarantee that once you allow yourself to give positive thinking a chance, it does work. It doesn't mean things will magically work out. No. But you will enjoy your life better, and deal with situations better too, especially when things don't magically work out and you're left frustrated or down.
This one sounds super silly, but I've realized it does help me is stop saying that I am sad and that is it. Or that I am fat, period.
Instead of just saying I am or was this or that, I say "I am fat, BUT I'm doing something about it and in a few months I won't be fat anymore". Or maybe "I feel sad right now", focusing on the fact this feeling is temporary.
I guess that just keeping a positive attitude has helped me a lot.
Yup, I still need to work on many things. My self esteem, obsessive thinking, the way I saw myself as the victim every single time, and more. Ugh. But I want to better myself. If the problem has nothing or little to do with me, I say fuck it and move on, focusing on myself. I don't need to be everyone's savior.
There are things I'm not sure I can change, but I'm going to fucking try. And if in the end I can't really change them, I'll adapt to make things easier for myself, or more comfortable. That's it.
Oh, and one important thing was definitely hitting the gym. I only started that last month, but I've noticed I sleep a lot better and that I feel like my body was craving some type of exercise. So exercise, even if you can't leave your home. Do it consistently, it doesn't need to take too long in the beginning.
Sorry if this is all over the place or confusing, but god… I feel good now.
This is a petty kind of happy, but karma bit someone who treated me like shit in past right in their face and it was amazing, it made me feel so good and really set me up for a good rest of the year.
hey anon, if you didn't do anything wrong and if the person really acted in a shitty way, then it's okay to feel the way you do. you're not provoking their sadness/stress/whatever, so it's ok to sit and watch.
i don't know if i believe in karma per se, and i probably don't, but i believe that when people act shitty or do stupid shit, they will have to deal with the eventual consequences of their actions. enjoy the show.
Thank you so much anon, I felt a bit awkward about posting it hence the "petty" but you've just made me feel 10 times better about it, and I most certainly will enjoy it:)
Got dressed for work today, got an email saying it's canceled because of the weather and that I'm getting 2/3rds of the time paid for!!! (:
Congrats! I hope you'll have a cozy day
Whoo! Good fortune! Hope you enjoy your day off Anon.
I Skyped with my LDR bf today and he was so cute. I love him so much and I'm so lucky to have him in my life, I can't wait to be with him.
I used to be really ashamed of my culture as a child. And now I'm finally getting in touch with it more and I'm realizing that I should be proud and that we're not that bad. It makes me feel so much more at peace.
Saw a movie in the park and went out, toured the city :) It was the most fun I've had in a while!
Found out my tumor isn't cancerous, I was low-key high-key doing a massive concern about it all so now I'm super relieved.
bb that's so sad but it's so good that you feel better about it.
Ooooooh Anon I'm so happy for you.
Do you know if it's something that's able to be removed any time soon?
Today I finished my personal study plan! I was feeling kind of desperate about graduation, but now it feels like maybe I can do it after all!
Yay! That's great Anon :3 Hopefully the removal goes well!
I was ranting on twitter about things and people I don't like in fandoms and internet communities and two mutuals that I muted because they were obnoxious SJWs unfollowed me soon after. Good riddance. I should have done that earlier when I was still using tumblr though.
Same here. I muted an old friend because our friendship is over and we're both too nonconfrontational to unfollow each other. The other day I noticed that she finally did and I felt pure relief. Have a happy life gurl (both her and you)
I think what made them unfollow me was a tweet I posted about how it's weird that the people who complain the most about fujoshi and shit all over female fans are fakebois who fetishize the shit out of gay and bi men and trans people.
One of my ex-mutuals has been posting passive aggressive tweets on me for liking harmless things she deemed problematic for a while now, and I see that she's doing it even more now that she unfollowed me lmfao.
I found a part time job! I'm happy about it, especially since it was super quick. I spent a few hours looking for interviews yesterday, landed four, and ended up getting accepted on the first one.
Can't wait to get started!
I'm visiting the Midwest right now. I'm glad to be going home soon because I've been traveling all month long but I'm going to miss the sound of cicadas. It's really one of the most soothing sounds. I'm also wandering around the neighborhood realizing how different it must look, feel, sound, even smell, in the winter. I know everyone complained about snow but I feel like just once I'd really like to live somewhere with actual weather and 4 whole seasons.
i think i might have met my new best friend. i'm crazy happy about it but i hope i don't jinx it. i literally have the social skills of a slug, but things are good so far.
My life is in order in every aspect for once. Got a good gig career to pay the bills, doing amazing at university, in pretty good shape and a great ambitious boyfriend who is so supportive of me. Feels so good in every single way!
I'm getting a new cat soon. I can't wait to bring her home to shower her with love and play time. She has lots of energy so she'll go great with the other cats!
My bf is living overseas and today I got his engagement ring over the mail. I'M SO HAPPY, it's finally official :')
Went to a country fair with my parents, even though I should be studying, had a nice time and feel relaxed and a bit more grounded.
I don't get a chance to be around farm animals at all so petting cows, horses, and ducks was fun and one of the sheep was very accomodating and let me pet it's fuzzy black nose.
My only regrets were that there weren't any bunnies to pet this year, the brave llama that defended her sheep flock from a bear wasn't there, and I didn't see the horse that snuffled me out of a PTSD flashback the other year, he was just absolutely magical.
I went kayaking yesterday in a calf-length bodycon dress, tights and £49.99 sweater. I never planned on getting in the kayak in the first place and had said from the beginning that I wasn't going to do it. I wasn't dressed at all for the activity (intentional to avoid doing it), I looked completey retarded and became soaked in lake water, but I had just decided "fuck it", and clambered in.
There was a moment where I stopped paddling and just allowed the current to take the kayak, and I was floating serenely down the channel of the lake, surrounded by swans and grebes and people waving from passing boats and the nearby grass. Overhanging branches filtered the sun which beat down on my head and shoulders, and the wind blowed gently through my hair and across my ears making a light "phwooooo" sound. I turned around and saw my boyfriend smiling from the seat behind me and my brain must have leaked a gallon of serotonin in that moment.
I think I just made my happiest memory. I'm going to start saying "fuck it" more from now on.
Saved up a little of my student money to buy a new bed spread, pillows and duvet. I'm excite.>>2054
That was so lovely to read! It's so nice to hear that you had fun after all
Ahhhhh I'm gonna experience your comfiness vicariously through this post. I was always told that when it comes to both shoes and beds you should spare no expense because those are things you're going to end up spending most of your time in. Looks like you're doing it right.
I know this might sound silly, but I'm shocked at how affordable a goose down comforter is where you are. Can you share the site you ordered from? Man, will you enjoy the bedding though! I made a similar purchase a few years back and it makes a huuuuge difference in sleep quality. 11/10 recommend.
Thank youuuuu!! It's arriving tomorrow, I will share a pic of the finished result :thumbs up:>>2062
It's from here! http://www.linenslimited.com/linens-limited-goose-feather-and-down-duvet-10-5-tog-single
I was thinking the same thing! I think that because it's the sites own brand it's cheaper, but since the reviews about the website have been very positive so far I'm looking forward to it :)
I'm going to buy curtains next as the streelamp outside my flat got a way-whiter-than-necessary bulb installed and it glares around the sides of the blinds I have at the moment. My whole room colour scheme is white and light wood so I'm wondering whether to go with plain or patterned fabric!
Thanks for the link anon!
Your room sounds wonderful <3 I would LOVE a white room with light wood floors. Personally, I'd choose whichever looks best…perhaps white with a subtle texture to it. Obviously I can't see your room to suggest based on what it looks like, but based on your description that's what I might do. Or like, a very light creamy colour in between the color of the floors and walls.
I dont know if this counts as happy feels but
>at mma lesson
>everyone there tired as fuck
>sparring with friend
>friend keeps trying new move on me I don't like
>keep getting punched in the face because my arms are so tired I keep letting my guard down
>"haha anon you need to stop letting your guard down!"
>punches me again
>is tired of this so I go to do a warning kick
>round house kicks to the neck
>teacher is really impressed and wants me to take part in a competition next week
I went to an appointment I procrastinated on for three weeks, rode my bike around the lake and got a delicious snack on the way home to reward myself.
I just got payed. I want to treat myself to something, I might buy some video games because I saw that FE Echoes is on cheaper now. Or I could go to a restaurant with friends someday.
Holy shit i feel like crying.
In the last two months i had multiple consecutive 10's (perfect score in my country) in exams and projects without a single score dropping below it.
I had a rough patch where i was going crazy with studies and i didn't know how to express myself correctly since i couldn't muster up the energy to care (i was very stressed and depressed, still am but hey), i was even considering dropping my studies. But after taking some months out and relaxing and having some time to myself, i turned the tables around and i finally feel like i am slowly but surely going back to my roots before depression and stress took my memory and good school life away.
My professor (which is very strict), that before this kept telling me i should express myself better and more concisely, to not be so "messy" and that it looked like i didn't care (to be fair, most of my grades were a 6-5 or below at best, which are some of the lowest i had in my whole life), told me in my last project review that i sound very eloquent and that i explain myself in a perfect manner. She also told me she is very proud of how good all my work has been recently and that she sees a very bright future in me if i keep this up.
I honestly haven't felt happiness in a while, but this encouragement from a teacher after all the shit i'm going through and seeing how little by little i am improving on my own seriously made me feel that maybe i am not a lost cause after all.
Holy fuck, congrats, anon! :D
I was kinda unmotivated/sad because of college stuff and couldn't study properlly for the JLPT, and was also demotivated since I decided to go a level down cause without proper studying I woulnd't be able to pass N3, so yeah, it kinda became a big snowball of unmotivation and sadness. But going in today to do it, I think I actually went pretty well, N4 was way easier than I thought it was gonna be (since I had struggle a bit with N3 before),
Now I am pretty hopeful that I may actually pass and maybe get a short term internship that I was eyeing before that asks for N4 or higher.
This year is finally about to end, that makes me so damn happy!! Just a few weeks left! My head is a mess and my life is full of doubts and what ifs, but oh boy, the new year makes me hopeful…
I…just love it when everything falls into place.
>Finally got the acceptance letter that I've been waiting a month for
>Paid my tuition deposit (but I have to wait for it to process until I can register for orientation and housing so ugh, but also yay.)
>Just finished my lab final today, feeling great about it. Confident that I'll do okay on my lecture final.
>Found a super nice orthodontist that's cool with letting me shadow and writing me a letter or recommendation for my program.
I had a job interview on Monday and got accepted today! I was really worried I wouldn't get accepted as I made a mistake during the interview. Really glad I got the position, as it's at my university, pays well, the work seems interesting and a good match for me, and looks good on my resume to boot. I've had a crappy few months so this really made my day (and likely the next week)!
I know this is almost one week old but yay! Congrats!
Just had my nails done today after a long time without pampering myself and I feel so happy, they're so pretty!
I love my boyfriend so much. He's wonderful to me, and an amazing person. I wish I could give him the world <3
Coming home from last day of work, feels great man.
I kind of want to go back and buy some stuff to make crime brulees within the city..
Just got accepted into my dream university! I transferred from a community college, I remember telling my counselor that I wanted to transfer there, I could tell he didn't think I could do it, even said "but it's top 10".
Well, fuck you dude! I did it :D I had a killer year, tons of sleepless nights! Happiest day of my life!!!
thank you :) I'm so excited!
I can’t help but like everyone that I meet. I don’t know why, but I can never hold a grudge against anyone and I wouldn’t say i’ve been genuinely angry at anyone for anything in the past year. Love is all you need <3
Sent an email to this really cool person and they actually are interested in talking to me about my career AWEEEWAAAWAAAWAAAA. I was really scared I was being too demanding/assertive but it seems to be okay. Nervous for muh business call now but omg I'm so happy and excited.
A bit of backstory: Graduated highschool last year and became a NEET after parents refused to cosign a student loan. Spent a lot of time thinking about the past. I'll be attending a CC in spring in hopes of transfering , and. I'm happy I've moved past the whole "doing/liking things to impress other people" attitude. If only I'd left it behind sooner, things would be so much better.
If I want to go barefaced and wear my hair a bit messily, I'm going to do that. I'll focus on the betterment of myself, and not be concerned with other people's judgement.
Congrats and good luck to everyone itt
I'm starting a new job soon changing diapers and giving baths to people with Alzheimer's. It's corny but I'm trying to psych myself up by thinking about shounen protagonists I love and thinking "I believe in myself!!" I know it will be extremely stressful but I think I can handle it!
That's actually pretty nice, anon. One of my family members has Alzheimer's. I'm sure it will be tiring but thank you for doing this.
Thank you for doing this.
My grandma died of alzeheimers and so did a couple of her sisters. Im always afraid Ill get it too, or my dad . Its always in the back of my mind.
If you do a 23andMe genetic test it can tell you if you're predisposed to get Alzheimer's. It would also be stressful to see a confirmation of it but then at least you can know for sure that you need to take preventative measures like exercising daily. And if it only runs on one side of the family, there's hope you didn't inherit the genes for it.
Thanks for your advice but if I did that and found out I had the gene, I would probably go fucking crazy and god knows what else. I rather just wait and hope they'll find a cure or die before it starts affecting me.
My dad is almost 70 and so far no sign so i HOPE he didnt get it, and if so, I guess the chance that Ill get it is almost zero right?
Genetic predisposition doesn't mean you will certainly develop Alzheimer's.
Get a DNA test to see if you have the 3 responsible genes linked with it. Minimize amyloid beta deposition and tau phosphorylation. Do puzzles/sudoku/math problems daily. Learn new things. Check your B12 and make sure you don't have a deficiency.
Depending on your age you can take mmse-camcog, Tea, Bdi, MoCA, BDAE tests. Your father should get tested.
Depression and anxiety up the chances you develop Alzheimer's , MCI or SCI considerably. Beck-anxiety test and the ICD-10 geriatric depression/anxiety scale tests are pretty fast to take.
Over 6000000 people suffer from this disease, it's not a death sentence, anon. Don't worry too much about!
Got back with my ex, we talked it out an we'll be taking it slow.
I'm getting the window in my room replaced so it should be warmer once it's installed.
I got a new tattoo.
I'm feeling really calm and conten <3
>>5247>Depression and anxiety up the chances you develop Alzheimer's
Well then Im definitely fucked lol
>Depending on your age you can take mmse-camcog, Tea, Bdi, MoCA, BDAE tests. Your father should get tested.
Unfortunately I'm living in a poor country atm so theres no chance I can get those tests. I'm also not talking with my father so yeah.
> it's not a death sentence, anon
But it is. And it is your family that get the worst of it, while you won't even know what's happening .
Thanks for your tips tho! greatly appreciated!!! <3
Today was my first day of training at the Alzheimer's place, I learned that if an old person bites you you don't want to push away but pull in and press up on the base of their nose to try to get them to release their grip. I haven't had to do it yet but there is a resident who is a serial biter. I hope I can do this job.
Good luck!! Hopefully you wont have to use that technique!
Thanks anon. I'm hopeful I'll be able to stick with this.
I pulled my traps while lifting and they were seriously hurting for a good week and a half. I thought for sure I'd have to visit my GP, but today they're feeling much better!
I'm excited to get back into the exercise groove since it's the only thing keeping my anger issues under control.
Now I'll just make sure to warm up properly and get enough sleep in the future.
My boyfriend makes me so happy. Every single day.
The bf and I are going to start exercising together.
Also my application for food benefits got approved, so I don't have to worry as much about my budget for the summer (summer financial aid does not cover housing).
positive feels post:
yesterday I got my teeth cleaned for the first time in about two years. there was some discoloration on one of my lower front teeth for a long time that (although my lip covered it whenever i smiled) I was incredibly self-conscious about, but I figured it was just a permanent stain and there was nothing to be done about it short of bleaching…but the dentist I went to managed to get rid of it! I can finally look in the mirror without wanting to cringe or worrying about whether other people noticed it. I was so happy when I noticed this morning. On the downside, I have to get my first filling, and I hate that idea (dentists scare the shit out of me, please do not poke my sensitive face tissue with your sharp metal implements/whirring mechanical gadgets) but it's better than letting a cavity develop. I'm going to be super conscientious about flossing and brushing regularly from now on so I don't have to worry about doing this again.
>mfw i had to dig this far down into the catalogue before i found this thread
we need to encourage sharing more positive experiences on this site, guys.
>>9269>>mfw i had to dig this far down into the catalogue before i found this thread>we need to encourage sharing more positive experiences on this site, guys
You're right, but the only thing I can remember now is that I don't feel like punching people in the face anymore.
Also I hope everything goes well!
I hope that you encounter some good feels to contribute, soon, anon.
For what it's worth, not punching people in the face is a great way to conserve energy, so that you can spend that energy in productive ways. You're on the right track!
Thank you! I hope that I can post better things in the future.
>>9269>we need to encourage sharing more positive experiences on this site, guys.
I was very close to bumping this last night with a story, I really was. I didn't because I hate getting lost in a fantasy and jinxing myself but I will post it today. I've posted bits and pieces of this information here before but I really am proud of myself.
I have been taking better care of myself this year. Even with all of my lows I know I am happier in 2018 than I was for quite a few years. It has been almost 2 months now since I last smoked a cigarette, I got myself hooked at 17/18 and am 25 now. I haven't smoked weed in about that amount of time too, and I'm not here to judge anyone who does those things but it wasn't easy for me to just give those up.
I dealt with some stressful shit in December 2017, I was dumped in a very awful manner after a 3 year relationship.
I've moved on. I would get hit and on some occasions to the point of receiving a concussion or black eye, I had my wrist twisted and torn once and had to wear a homemade brace made from wooden spoons and medical tape. I had my ability to just go for a walk alone taken away from me pretty early in the relationship, I ended up in a really bad place because of some unhealthy instinctual belief that I was helpless being alone and that he was the only one who loved me. In hindsight it was crazy to have remained there but I was very mentally unhealthy, right before being dumped I spent a lot of days in the mental hospital. I had no one else.
I hurt so much those first few months being alone but am actually in a much better place now.
I weigh like 25 pounds less than I did at that time, I haven't been this thin since I was 19. Even though I'm 25 I feel prettier than I ever have as an adult these days.
This part I do not want to jinx, but I ended up going on a date recently after whining about nothing working here. He took me out for coffee, walked around with me and we talked watching the sunset and the ocean and I never wanted it to end. He made me laugh many times and even said the cutest things like "we can go wherever your little heart desires". I didn't even think it was possible someone like this would be interested in me, his face is so cute and he is a "chad" in that he is confident, 6'4 and has an athletic body(his job forces it on him) except he plays computer games like counterstrike and runescape and is more of a dork like myself. I'm so overly happy with this, he is coming over one of these days to watch anime with me all night. I almost feel like I'm dreaming. It feels too good to be true but each day I text him I know it's real.
I only have 2 friends, one irl and one on the internet, but they're both smart and humorous girls who think I'm just as special.
I didn't think my life would be like it is right now, ever. I am a newfag to this CC in that I only started using it in February and it has been a positive influence on my life so far.
Despite everything that has happened in my life and how hellish and lonely my early adulthood was, I know happiness and a good life are possible for me if I love myself and mind my thoughts. I know that it's within my power and that I'm a strong enough person for it.
I'm feeling particularly sappy tonight and just want to say good vibes and good luck to all of you, especially those in the darkest places.
Anon, the changes you've made are amazing, I'm proud of you and I mean it. Good luck and I'm sending good vibes your way too.
I'm a lot more social lately. I go to church, a buddhist centre, occasionally concerts, hang out with my housemates and feel better about myself. I still have problems with loneliness but it's better than before.
I've started exercising again and I'm feeling much better
Welp I had pizza last night
My bestfriend is coming over for a sleep over and tomorrow we will go to a theme park.
was at the health food store and a real old lady came up to me and said i'm beautiful and my skin glows :'))
I hope you have lots of fun!
Third time I'm getting flown out for a job interview (all separate occasions). Hopefully third times the charm.
Good luck and keep us updated!!
Look out world, it's taken me 23 years but I've finally realised the benefits of proper skin care and teeth brushing!
I wanted to fire up the onion to look for psychedelics, and instead found out that 1p-LSD is legal around here and I can just order it from a normal webshop.
My bf makes me really happy. He makes me feel comforted and protected. I wish I could give him the world because he deserves it. He is wonderful and I wish him eternal happiness.
How long you two been together?
My boyfriend is the most beautiful man I've ever seen he legit looks like a model and he dresses so well, has incredible music taste and writes amazing poetry and i love him sosososososososo much
Thanks! They set my date for the 17th and have recently informed I need to do a 20-25 minute presentation on my technical skills. rip.
I'm so excited to go to college in a big city. I am scared, but still I can't wait to learn something new and to explore the city and all its shops… hehe I can't resist new stuff. I hope I don't spend too much money after all.
Also I have a story from prom, the one highlight from that dreary night: we were taking photos in a park before the dance, and then we had to leave to the venue where the party was being held. Everybody had already left and I was standing there alone in the park looking like Cinderella waiting for my family to pick me up. It felt super awkward but then I saw a little girl with her mom on the other side of the street looking at me and she looked so happy and amazed by me. That was the coolest moment of my life
I found a fiver as I was leaving the train station today.
How did you spend such fortune?
Im going camping again with my friends and bf
Please don't mock me I have nothing to live for.
Sorry! I didn't. I just wanted to know how you spent it.
Oh, ok. My mistake.
I failed to avoid the conductor on the way home so I had to pay the fare.
Today I saw a hummingbird hovering outside my office window, I think it was trying to get to the pink begonias I have on my windowsill. So cute.
This summer has been fucking awful but I'm deciding to take it into my own hands and hopefully next spring I'll be able to study abroad at a nice art academy in Prague. One of my professors that I've had twice agreed to write me a recommendation letter, and once the whole application is in I have a good chance at going!
Sounds exciting! Good luck on your application!
I got into a graduate program which was an ego-booster, but I think I have to decline because of finances. When school starts again I'll speak more with the director and see what my options are.
Thank you anon! Studying abroad could be really beneficial for my career, as I go to a regular University and not an art school. I'm excited because I could actually learn how to get into the entertainment industry!
I really hope you can work out something with your graduate program. It makes me so sad that education has a paywall. Good luck!
my mom's been really supportive these past few months, i've had a bit of a health scare & she's taken me to appointments, held my hand, made me dinner a few times, just generally acted as a helpful parent. i'm grateful
also the fall semester starts up tomorrow! hoping i take well to my classes ^_^
happy feel for today:
when i was in middle-school, I had a really close online friend that I used to play Furcadia with (before I knew what a furry was). Pretty much whenever I got online, we were either talking or goofing off together. She was a pretty well-known portrait artist until she went to art school and basically fell off the map, and for years I had no idea what happened to her because she deleted all her art/personal accounts associated with Furcadia. For a while I thought that she was maybe dead because she'd disappeared so completely and I couldn't find her even when I was looking for her irl name. But today when I was going through my art folder looking for a picture to contribute to the avatar thread, I found one of her old deviantart drawings that I had saved from years ago, and guess what? it had the watermark of an account that was still active. I looked up the same username and it turns out that not only is she not dead, she's a senior concept artist for a popular video game rn and she's living her dream out on the west coast. I'm so happy for her and proud that she's following her dream. I don't think she would remember me nowadays but I sent her a message on Artstation anyways, and I hope we'll be able to reconnect.
have you talked about this before you found her again? I remember reading something like this a while back and being really bummed that something might’ve happened, but I’m super happy she’s not only safe but is living her dream!! I really hope you get to talk to her anon, I’m sure she’d not only remember you but be super excited to talk to you again <3
also I’m a little curious, what game did she end up working as a senior concept artist on?
I started going hiking with one friend three times a week and working out with another two times a week and it's pretty much cured a lot of my negative feelings. I heard from somewhere that working out is just as efficient as taking pills and I believe it. Also I'm less lethargic and tired all the time so that's a plus.
Oh I remember this story, cool to hear that.
Yesterday I got really stoned and had the best orgasms of my life :)
yes, i mentioned it on another thread! i was going to respond to the original post but i couldn't find it again so i figured happy feels thread was as good a place as any. and the game that she's working on now is Overwatch, which is pretty cool. I don't play it myself but I know a lot of people who are super into it.
i went to the doctor today for the first time in years this morning.
also for the first time in years was honest about the fact that i'm a crippling alcoholic and i need help because self-medicating like this is going to eventually kill me.
i was so scared that she would judge me. nobody else knows about this, not even my family, and i can fake 'normal' well enough (even while totally flipping wasted) that nobody can tell the difference. i was so scared that i'd just get this talk like 'well you need to go to AA don't you'
but she just tried to help me and let me know there are options that she can make available when i'm ready to start weaning myself off the bottle. i left the clinic feeling happier and more optimistic about the future than i have in years. i actually have hope that things can get better now.
anyone who's involved in health care, i hope you know how much the services you provide mean to the people that need them. thank you.
In the TFW no BF thread I told about my social awkwardness and how a boy I crush on flirted and I was a total moron about it.
The thread and my kid sister convinced me to try myself - and it worked.
And today his totally amazing mother invited me to coffee and agreed to teach me crochet.
Even my kid sister thinks that's great.
My boyfriend gave me one of my birthday presents early (my bd isn't until sept 18) and he got me a freaking gamecube! It's my favorite console and I can't believe he actually got it. And he also got my favorite game to go along with it (supersmash bros melee). I can't wait to see what else he has gotten me (supposedly he spent about 600 bucks for my birthday omg)
just wanted to say we have the same birthday kek.
The manager got back to me saying that they'll extend an offer to me. I'm so happy, but nervous that somehow that they'll rescind the offer because I'm not used to things working out lol
tfw finally get to move to another state
Ayee that's kinda cool lol. Happy early bday anon
That's also my favorite game <3
My bf is bringing me donuts.
I found a really cute and comfy raincoat at the thrift store.
It's gonna be fall and not so damn hot.
Tomorrow i will start my intership, I'm nervous but they're all really nice people so I'm sure it will go good. I'm glad i have found such a chill and good intership.
Congrats!! I hope you enjoy it!
i've never been fitter/healtheir than i am rn and im so glad. also found a great job i can actually manage timewise during school so that's extra great. i just feel great being me! hasn't happened in long time lul
Congrats anon <3 this was inspiring to hear~!
I ordered a refurbished laptop a few days ago; it's set to arrive next Monday. I'm excited, and I hope it lasts for a while. Also hoping there won't be any issues!
Howd you do it anon please help the needy
Normies are so fucking catty and judgemental. Even places like Lolcow are nothing compared to how my coworkers talk about other people. Yet they act like they are the sweetest and nicest person on earth.
honestly, i just realized that sleeping until 12 am and eating shitty junk food made me feel unhappy and sad all the time
i had to change my mindset completely and i took a long ass time but now i work out regularly and try to eat good stuff that acutally fuels my body instead of shitty processed food
basically i don't drink soda anymore, cut out read meat almost completely, get up early to get some workout in (even just 10 minutes does wonders) and i just try to be all around happier, yknow?
took some effort but i never want to go back to my neet days where i'd sit on my computer for 12+ hours a say, drinking like a litre of energy drink and eating chips shivers
After going out to dinner, my boyfriend and I walked back to our car. He always opens the passenger door for me which I appreciate very much. Obviously I can do it myself but I find it very sweet. A guy parked right next to us gets out of his car and jokingly tells us how his wife now hates him because she saw us and kept interrogating why he's never bothered to open the door for her. We both chuckled for a good few minutes on the way home. I love how much of a gentleman my boyfriend is!
Have to share-
I have been eyeing the Cheating thread for two plus weeks with dread.
My husband was acting oddly; staying after work, solo ‘errands’ on a Saturday, a few calls at night where he went outside so I couldn’t hear. On Facebook chat, which he never does. I swore once I heard him on the phone saying ‘my wife can’t find out’.
Then Wednesday I was checking the account - he’d spent $2,000 at a jewelry store. My birthday is in July; our wedding anniversary in March.
I was gonna’ confront him Saturday.
But last night he came home, ordered me to dress up, and took me to an amazing dinner and gave me a lovely ring - the 10th anniversary of us meeting! I hadn’t even thought about that.
I admitted I thought he was cheating and he just laughed, said he was married to the best woman on earth, why would he settle for less?
I just am so relieved and happy
That's so sweet, anon! I'm happy for you two.
This year, my husband realized at 1 pm that it was my birthday.
I’m sure he loves you, men are just dorks.
Loveable, but dorks
this is very sweet and also makes me want to kms
but i'm glad for you anon
Jesus I thought this was going to go another way. I'm so happy for you anon!
I can cry prettily if I show some restraint (so my face with tears streaming down it with little redness or change in expression).
It is awkward, though, because I was sobbing at work that way and then a co-worker starts talking to me and I realize she doesn't realize I was sobbing. I tried to sort of wipe away my tears that fell to my jawline.
I started uni expecting to start gaining the freshman 15, but I actually lost 2 inches off my waist without effort. I haven't even started going to the gym there yet, just keeping up with my regular home workout (that has plateaued me in the past).
It could just be because I'm already kind of chubby so lose weight eating the same amount of food that makes smaller girls gain weight. It could be that I'm coming off of working nights. Regardless, I'm relieved.
Girls! Girls! Girls! I feel like an adult for the first time today. Me and my bf went to our first apartment viewing today and it was so exciting! The bathroom is like a damn closet though (it's literally small as a closet its depressing) but everything else is perfect! It sounds lame… but I wanted to tell you guys first. Hah..
Conratulations! I hope you and your bf get a nice cozy home for yourselves.
Met a guy completely by chance who just also happens to be
just like me, ha. I feel like I’ve never related to someone this much, it’s almost bizarre. We’ve known eachother for a very little amount of time so I doubt he feels anything for me, but I’m just happy. I don’t know. He’s a good friend.
Aw, I hope you two stay close and can develop a relationship! You sound like a good match.
how? tell my the details so i can build some hope for myself pls
I'm going to see a Fun Home (the musical adaptation) !
What's fun home about?
From wiki since I don't feel like I could explain it better than this:>Adapted from Alison Bechdel's 2006 graphic memoir of the same name. The story concerns Bechdel's discovery of her own sexuality, her relationship with her gay father, and her attempts to unlock the mysteries surrounding his life.
I realized there is an extraneous "a" in my initial post, oops.
I don't have any happy feels, not bait or a troll, but everything goes wrong for me.
I guess i'M happy other people have their happily ever after, even though my own one and only excluded me and isolated me.
Hahaha good one anon
Are you diagnosed with autism? I'm diagnosed with autism, thank you for the special shout out to me, glad you love me too
Btw, I hope you're professionally diagnosed with autism yourself or otherwise I have the right to tell you to kill yourself for thinking you can be so carefree that something people maliciously target real autistic people for can be a cute thing for you
>>12718>otherwise I have the right to tell you to kill yourself
wow much edge
ntayrt but don't get so defensive about your super-special autist status. nobody's bullying you itt so why bring it into the conversation at all
Anon you replied to. Yes, I was clinically diagnosed with HFA as a child, and it has fucked my life. It’s not cute. I’m just happy about finding someone I relate to.
No need to get pissy.
i hope that the relationship you mentioned beforehand works out. it's always nice to find someone you can connect to; even if it doesn't evolve into a romantic relationship, i'd like to imagine that you guys have plenty of good times to look forward to together.
I actually hate being edgy, I only mentioned it since I hate it when people mention autism casually since I'm diagnosed with it and I know people actual dxed autists, I'm justified deeply thank you very much.>>12721
Oh my bad then, sorry for overreacting then, you're all good
>>12727>i'm justified deeply
no you aren't.
you made that post assuming that the person who claimed autism was doing it just to appear 'cute'. and then you told them that you were justified in telling them to kill themselves if they weren't 'legitimately' diagnosed with autism, regardless of whether they had the opportunity to see a mental health professional in their life or not. you have no idea what other people go through. i believe you when you claim autism because your total lack of empathy testifies to that.
um, I was doxxed for being diagnosed with autism and targeted for it, I was even removed from a minecraft server for telling everyone I'm autistic.
Now be quiet, I'm autistic and I was only reclaiming my own autism, and the person I accused cleared things up already? my problem was with them, and they're actually diagnosed. no issue here.
i passed my fucking goddamn dissertation defense. i never thought this would actually happen. finally done with school forever!!
stop sperging about how oppressed you are and stop telling everyone about your autism
Please, hang yourself, we don't need your retarded genes being passed on.
That's not what it was, I only wanted to call out someone using "autist" since I assumed they were't diagnosed, it turned out they actually were, the issue has been resolved.>>12760
No, not really, I used simple logic, check my post accusing the other person of using autism as something cute and quirky. They cleared things up, everything's okay.
>>12761>That's not what it was, I only wanted to call out someone using "autist" since I assumed they were't diagnosed, it turned out they actually were, the issue has been resolved.
NTA, but you were wrong, you had wrongly accused someone and now you're still riding around in your high horse. Being wrongfully f accused of lying is an issue and just because you say it isn't doesn't make you right. I thought your kind realized when others tell them they're acting inappropriately.
>>12733>I was doxxed for being diagnosed with autism and targeted for it, I was even removed from a minecraft server for telling everyone I'm autistic
dang, good job, anon! enjoy your freedom! i hope you get a chance to take a vacation or something before you go job-hunting.
>>12733> I was only reclaiming my own autism
Even if they weren't autistic you still don't have the "right" to tell people you wish harm on them because of a perceived slight against you. That's narcissistic and cruel.
This is just a cheezy stupid happy vent about an overly idolized relationship. Very long rambling. A lot of rambling.
I'm with my boyfriend for 5 years now. I always had a strong dislike of men and thought that i'll either be alone, find some girl to be with or end my life. The last part was the closest. I tried dating before, but all the guys just wanted sex, would never listen, would close up and never talk, would be angry at everything, would be complete human filth. start okay and go down hill fast. But he was someone that saved me. I love how we talk, I love how we discuss things. I love that I can tell him anything and never be afraid that he will get angry. No matter the topic, if it's emotions, problems, mistakes, even sexual or any other thing..The way he takes criticism or just me being filled with a bag of diagnosed mental problems and all that is comforting. Never got yelled at or had to be afraid. He would always just calmly be with me, hug me and then try to understand the problem and discuss. Or sometimes say nothing, kiss my head, leave me be for an hour and then just hug me for a very long time.
The things I told him multiple times would gut most men. I know that really well. I even challenged his manliness, his ideas and beliefs at the start. All men I talked with used to flip when you don't stroke their ego. But the way he'd take it…Just openly say, no fluff or anything that he feels hurt, annoyed, angry, but that it's also fair that I feel one thing or another and then we'd just talk. Try to understand, find a solution. Other times he'd openly just tell me something that i'm lacking or he's unhappy with. It was shocking at first, but then I realized that it was never a thing he tried to hurt me with. It was always something that bothered him and he wanted me to know and he would always want to change or find a compromise. Sometimes we can't and we grew to accept that nothing is perfect. I'm not perfect. He's not perfect. What's important is that we know the flaws.
The point is, i'm thankful that I feel that I can fully trust someone. I feel that I can crumble and he will catch every single piece of me. When my mind went to shit a few times he did just that. I want to be with him. I want to raise our children together. I used to hate children and the idea of pregnancy. But now…It's driving me nuts. With him I became a complete idiot so fast when we met. I'm an idiot, idiot, idiot for feeling like this now and I couldn't be happier. The way he speaks, the way he reasons, the way he reaches for goals, the way he also crumbles sometimes and shows it, the way he does silly thoughtful things like read me fairy tales when i'm sick…I can't help but feel the way I do. Intoxicating. It's not healthy. The more I write and try to actually put forth these emotions the more silly it sounds and looks childish, but can't help it.
It's funny, all these years passed and I only feel the flame for the entire relationship growing. Sometimes it takes a step back, but then it takes 2-3 steps forward.
it might sound like my life revolves around him…But over the years I was able to make major changes in my life that i'm happy about. It just always feels that it's his support that drives me forward. There are still so many things that I want to improve in my life, but it feels nice to reflect. I Overcame major things like self harm, major anxiety, bulimia. Was able to find something i'm passionate about to focus on it, learn and pursue as a career. So many things I still need to work on and so many problems, but i'm happy.
So yeah, thanks for reading my rambles, it just feels nice to leave this somewhere as a vent.
>>12850>I'm not perfect, he's not perfect >proceeds to explain how the relationship revolves around you having a bunch of problems and him fixing all of your problems for you
nta but nobody's perfect. there are probably flaws in his personality as well, but that's not the point of this anon's post so there's no reason to bring it up.
just be happy for her ffs. why come to a happy feels thread if you're going to act like a bitter bitch?
and… it turns out the lady was actually feel sketchy and we both started to get a bad feeling about this place (she asked us to put down 1000$ just to hold it, but we never even met her face to face when we saw the apartment another guy was there but he didn't even speak english ;-;). I guess it was kinda sketchy to begin with.. but eh we decided not to go with this apartment. But the landlord we have now she also has a another place in that same area so we're thinking of just waiting until she kicks out the tenant there (she's on her way out, just an old lady with dementia and she's trying to find a facility to go to). Ah it was nice while it lasted.
and my birthday was yesterday and he got me a shit load of gamecube games that I adore (apparently he's been writing them down for months, literally had no idea he was doing this I just thought we were talking about games lol) and he bought me a Nintendo switch, and the full complete set of Samurai Champloo(which is a damn good anime!). We never really do much for my birthdays so this was really sweet.
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>>12917>Game Cube Games>Nintendo Switch>Complete set of Samurai Champloo
Where can I find someone like him?
Today is the first day in a long time that I've had no deadlines, no worry, nothing for me to do.
I can relax, catch up on housework, put on a facemask, and play animal crossing.
holy shit, they finally gave me my offer letter. That took forever. Hopefully the actual start date won't take so long.
Happy, tho. I can't wait to start my independent life, and do cool work.