100% sadly we may be able to relate to normalfags about discussion of various topics such as philosophy etc but when you try to relate on a deeper level we are basically aliens to them.
Even a lot of hikki come off as normalfags and they can be so immature plus there is some overlap with the incel community and NEETs in general.
o you reveal your gender?
I know that a lot of guys from hikki community will not even talk to you if they know you are a girl from you saying so straight away.
Not because they hate woman but so many e girls just try validate themselves and stuff.
It is very very hard to find cool people to get along with but dont give up as it is possible.
Also anon I think you should know that it can be risking leaving the tag of your legit discord as they often get posted over on r9k so can be best to have people add your alt.
You only stop existing when a guy gets a gf if that guy never truly valued you for who you are ayway.
Keep trying anon