/hb/ - How to tell if I'm getting fat or just a paranoid eating disorder haver

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How to tell if I'm getting fat or just a paranoid eating disorder haver Anonymous 04/05/23 (Wed) 03:02:08 AM18353

So I am recovered from a restrictive eating disorder for over a year. However me and my bf broke up two months ago and now I'm starting to feel the desire to lose weight again. I know for a fact I've gained weight since I've recovered, and I'm not sure if it's a good amount of weight, or if it's getting to the level of chubbiness.

How do I tell if I'm just having body dysmorphia and not actually fat? I plan to weigh myself tomorrow morning (my weight would be inaccurate now since I obviously ate today, it's 11 pm where I live)

Anonymous 04/05/23 (Wed) 05:34:44 AM18355

>>18353
It’s probably just the ed talking since it works like that. Ending a relationship can leave you feeling insecure. I don’t think weighing yourself would be the best idea if you’ve had an ed in the past.

May I ask what triggered these feelings to come back?

Anonymous 04/05/23 (Wed) 04:45:39 PM18356

>my weight would be inaccurate now since I obviously ate today, it's 11 pm where I live

Only someone with an ED would think like this. This strikes me as an odd thing to say. It's probably the ED talking. Stay healthy.

Anonymous 04/06/23 (Thu) 12:26:06 AM18357

>>18355
Yeah, you're right, I've avoided weighing myself like the plague for the whole time I've been recovered, so starting again probably will easily bring me down a bad path.
Honestly, I think what triggered it is that I want to find someone else to have feelings for and move on as fast as I can, and I guess my ED having brain thought that losing weight will help the process. I also was kind of feeling insecure about how much junk food I've been eating lately, because for some reason in the past couple months I often don't feel hungry, and then when I do, I only want specific foods which are typically "junk".
>>18356
Thank you for pointing out that it's not a normal thought. I wouldn't have even considered it to be outside of the norm, which is probably bad. So that opens my eyes.

Anonymous 04/06/23 (Thu) 08:12:06 PM18362

i feel similar nona. im "recovered" now but when i look at myself in the mirror i feel like my thighs are huge and i must be considered at least chubby. but everyone says i am at a healthy weight. so idk