Yeah, you're right, I've avoided weighing myself like the plague for the whole time I've been recovered, so starting again probably will easily bring me down a bad path.
Honestly, I think what triggered it is that I want to find someone else to have feelings for and move on as fast as I can, and I guess my ED having brain thought that losing weight will help the process. I also was kind of feeling insecure about how much junk food I've been eating lately, because for some reason in the past couple months I often don't feel hungry, and then when I do, I only want specific foods which are typically "junk".>>18356
Thank you for pointing out that it's not a normal thought. I wouldn't have even considered it to be outside of the norm, which is probably bad. So that opens my eyes.