>>21264 Why do you care when moids are usually ugly as all hell? I do not understand your logic. Moids usually look like ballsacks. I would rather be kind of overweight and keep my pride than do anything for their gaze, since they don't return the effort. Maybe like 2% are attractive, but I'm tired of people trying to suppress the fact and becoming hostile to it. No amount of money will make me attracted to someone who looks like a toads ass either. This is not shallow though, this is setting yourself up for a reciprocal relationship. Stop lying to yourself/ putting in extra work they don't actually deserve. That's really all you have to do. Is your bf as attractive as you? This is all that matters, a reciprocal attraction. Otherwise they are just manipulating you and low key bullying you into accepting scraps, while they get to walk away with all the pride and confidence etc. (You know they will trash women who don't look how they want, while they look nasty)
The result is how you're living now. How you're living in your head now is a form of male oppression. You're entire mind is becoming a trash heap on the floor. You lose so much when you're mind is reverted to a garbage heap. You have to acknoweledge what you actually want, and ask yourself do you want to be that way? Is that how you want to live? as a mentally diminished shell of yourself? For their benefit? Its shameful imo.